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Monday, November 24. 2014

Boots

Sunday today......that's when I do errands. Like get food, fill up the truck with gas, a visit to PetCo and stuff like that. Got two new pairs of boots today as well. Kamik and Sorel.
Cold weather kind of gear, the Kamik's supposedly keep your feet warm even in -20 F or so cold.



A lot of times I think the selection in the children's section is way cuter than what they have for adults. So I ask to try on the shoes/boots intended for kids and many times they fit. So the Sorel's (the black boots) are a kid size 6. Otherwise I wear size 8 or 9 depending on the make/model shoe or boot. Like all my shoes for work are size 8.
Speaking of work shoes......here are the FANTASIA 2010-R from Pleaser. Pretty nice I think. Yes? Do I need them?



It's not even 6 pm here and completely dark outside, I'm tired and could probably fall sleep now. Four moths ago it was light until midnight-ish and I would walk Chhaya or go jogging late. Now I'm thinking I need to open up that bottle of vitamins from Floradix that I got a while back. And see if I get lots of energy all of a sudden......because I need it.



Saturday, November 22. 2014

Crabby

I have been feeling crabby since yesterday. On edge. My excuse is, I am on my period OK? I did go to work last night and not even Sharon could cheer me up, well I did laugh a few times but overall I was just not in the best mood. I did not do a single lap dance (I did not even try) but I did OK on stage so it was definitely worth my time. Today I went to the gym for the third time this week, that is very ambitious for me.....I haven't done that in a while. I decided that I need to work on my arms a bit, they look a bit "flabby".....well, to me at least. Actually they look more like long sticks but I want some more definition in them. Or something like that.
At the gym there were a few grunting guys in cutoff shirts (barf), I got annoyed with their loud grunts since I am having a crabby kind of day. Like, make those sounds at home.
They sounded like they were about to give birth or like they were trying to squeeze out a stubborn turd and then they loudly threw the weights around too, I glared at them. My plan was to take a few fun gym pics for today's blog entry but everywhere I went to get some privacy to take some pics some annoying guy had to appear at. Really now? Go grunt in your own corner. Argggghhhhhhh........I was so annoyed, so no gym pics.
After the gym I got some spicy Mexican food and now I am at home, belly full of good food and I'm sipping on some tea, feeling better actually.
I also looked at shoes today.....WOW, Pleaser has some very nice boots on their site, FANTASIA-2010R. I am very tempted to get them.......



Friday, November 21. 2014

Bins

I am living out of bins - until further notice. My clothes are back in the closet, well kind of, most of it is packed up in bins. In one of the rooms downstairs I have everything else in bins. Paperwork, books, magazines, toiletries, dishes, camping stuff, all my decorations, everything I do not need or use now is stowed away. STUFF, so much of it! I drove up to Alaska combined with 3 1/2 days on a boat through the inside passage in my 4Runner, all my stuff that I thought I needed on the trip was in that car. The rest stayed in Vegas. Plus I had Chhaya and another person with me on that journey. There is NO way I could cram everything I have accumulated since then in a car. Unless it's a very large vehicle.
Anyhow.....I went through a lot of STUFF the last few days. Took some of it to work last weekend and gave it away, some I am going to put in those clothing containers that are around town, some of it ended up in the garbage.....etc. I have been busy with bins all week. Made mental notes of what I do not need more of, which is pretty much everything. For now that is......And my closet looked really nice before I packed everything away too. But it's OK.....whether I stay here or go somewhere else I am going to have a nice closet again, soon.



It's tea time now. I'm tired and I need to wash my hair.



Wednesday, November 19. 2014

Spearmint Rhino Carter Lake

So when I was in Omaha Nebraska last month with Mandy, we actually worked in Iowa, in a town called Carter Lake at the Spearmint Rhino. Carter Lake is right by Omaha. She had worked there before so that's where we went after we decided that we did not want to stay in Winner South Dakota.
The Rhino looks just like any other of the Rhino clubs, same decor and carpet basically. Although when most girls (dancers) talk about the Spearmint Rhino most of them think about the Vegas location, employs tons of girls on any given night and open 24/7.
Since every state and town is different, there will be different rules regarding outfits, hours you work, house fees, tip outs etc. At the Carter Lake location you pay a set house fee depending on what day and time you come in plus $5 out of each dance that you do.
Dances are $25 and then there are some "VIP room" options as well with different prices.
I just did the $25 dances. Then you are expected to tip the manager, dj and the bouncer that walks you to the car. Everybody wants money.



There were nightly drink and beer specials and a separate BYOB room with a stage but I was not paying attention to much regarding the specials. The "2 girl shows" that you can see by the Saturday night specials is nothing too pronounced. Random girls would basically do pretend shows with each other on a nightly basis, nothing too crazy. More like close hugging, caressing and doing the 69 with their hair hanging over their faces covering up whatever wasn't going on anyways. I personally think those "shows" are tired and totally played out. Maybe back in the day it was interesting but now its more like embarrassing to watch.
Plus nobody cares anyways, so it's like a waste of energy. Do I do these "shows"? No.



You also have to cover up your nipples with something. There was tape provided in the dressing room or you could use latex or puffy paint. I went to Michaels and got pink puffy paint and silver glitter. I'm not a fan of putting anything on my nipples. It's messy and toxic. Plus it's a boob. Men have nipples too and they can parade around the streets and at beaches/pools without a shirt on and that is NOT considered to be a problem or indecent at all but a woman's breast is all of a sudden this thing that has to stay hidden and covered up.
I don't get it. Plus some guys have bigger boobs than me anyways. Cover those babies up dude!



I thought the club was nice and clean. They would clean the stage several times/night and I like that. The lap dances were done in a lap dance area, in little semi private rooms. This is a topless only club. I didn't see anything too crazy going on but then again you can't really see what the other girls are doing during the dances since you are busy dancing yourself.
The touching is a bit too much for my taste but you just tell the guys your boundaries and they listen. If they whine and complain then I won't dance for them, simple.....problem solved and NEXT!
You have to participate in lap dance specials that they would do several times/night.
Basically all the girls have to squeeze together on stage and walk around in a circle and then you have to give a 2 for 1 dance. They keep the songs rather short for that. Kind of lame and makes you feel like you are a slave being auctioned off at some market but most of the time you would get a dance or a few out of it. Some guys would sit there and wait for the 2 for 1, of course.
The lights on the stages are AWFUL. Just awful. Somebody needs to sit down and work on that issue. I think I'd rather dance in daylight than to the lights they have in that club. What is up with clubs not understanding how important the lighting is in a strip club? It's crucial. Seriously.
It is also very cold in the club. I renamed the lap dance area "the icebox" - freezing.
The dj's played outdated and just cringeworthy music. I told them what music I liked and one of them looked at me and told me that they cater to "50 year old white men". OK. And then they would play me some bad R&B and shit like that. I think 50 year old white men much rather hear some ZZ Top or old rock (me too) than some bad R&B. Plus I do not want to hear R&B when I'm on stage, or Pony by Ginuwine (really now, what do I look like, Channing Tatum?), or any Michael Jackson. They also played Vanilla Ice and outdated new jack swing. BARF!!!! I mean.....come on now!. The dj's need some serious assistance in that club.
The dressing room is large and there is a tanning bed for the girls to use free of charge if they wish. Hmmmmm.......what else. Everybody was nice and the girls were OK. Some not so cute but there were a few really pretty ones that stood out. There is a kitchen so you can order food, I can recommend the fries, Mandy really likes those fries. Overall I though it was an OK club.
They also have this information hanging in the dressing room. I remember a few months ago (like April or May) some person/s started commenting in my blog and wanting to discuss random stuff regarding prostitution. I am not worried about prostitution since that is something I would never consider but what I was saying is that I recall girls getting in trouble sometimes in Vegas for even sitting on peoples laps when VICE would be in the club. So girls would just avoid doing lap dances until VICE left (if it was clear that they were in the club) to avoid getting in trouble. Maybe this will clarify some stuff to that besserwisser that was arguing with me regarding the ins and outs of prostitution and the law. Like I said, since I have no plans of prostituting myself those laws are not concerning me too much. But as you can see, you can get in some serious trouble even for even saying the "wrong" thing. Good that I don't say those things. I like to talk about other fun stuff like politics and pinworms, I hope those topics are considered "safe".



Tuesday, November 18. 2014

Being Boring

I'm just being boring and feeling boring right now. It's kind of dreary out, no sun just gray but at least there is no snow. Some places in the country have severe weather and waist deep snow right now and here it's rather mild actually. Most people think that all of Alaska is just a frozen ice block, that we live in igloos and co exist with polar bears. No. That's more up north, keep in mind that Alaska is the largest state in the US. Where I live on the Kenai Peninsula there are no polar bears and I live in a house mainly made out of wood. I have never seen an igloo in real life. The closet to an igloo would be when I make snรถlyktor from snow. Kind of like a snow lantern.
What am I doing today? I'm thinking about paying the gym a visit to get sweaty and move my flab around. Then I need to tackle my box situation at home. Right now 80% of my stuff is in boxes since I almost moved a few days ago. A decision I'm still second guessing. I think I have a difficult time tackling things that give my anxiety, like a move. It's easier just not to deal with it. And that's exactly what I did. For now. I need a personal coach to crack the whip over my head when I get emotional and irrational.
Then I'm thinking about what I am going to do for my annual Christmas cards this year.
Me and Chhaya, it's my Christmas tradition. I have an idea, if the weather permits.....
So, last night I came across some news from Sweden about four women that arrived there as refugees from Syria together with their sick Father. The four women are complaining that they do not like the apartment that the Swedish government set them up in and that the tax payers are funding. The tax payers also paid for the furniture in that place and the food these people eat. Since those people have no income to speak of. They are not happy with the beds, it's cold and then there is the fact that there is no elevator. Their Father is sick and bedridden and currently getting care in a hospital. The reason they did not get an apartment with elevator access is because the information about the sick Father was last minute and there is also a shortage of places to live in Sweden. People have to wait for a long time to be able to secure an apartment sometimes. I have a friend that broke up with her ex about two years ago but she is still sleeping on the couch in the living room in the apartment they share because she can't find a place of her own. My brother lives in a one bedroom apartment in a suburb outside of Stockholm, he sleeps in the living room and rents out the other bedroom to somebody. If I would to move back to Sweden I would have to live with my Mom or a friend unless I would have the money to buy my own place or be willing to live in Norrland. Well, I'm a Stockholm kind of girl. These four women are now threatening to leave Sweden if nothing changes. Really? My suggestion is.....GET THE FUCK OUT! Maybe go back to where you came from. Or try to go somewhere else (another country) with a list of demands for your comfort and see how well it goes. Nobody will miss you in Sweden, I promise. This is so typical Sweden, I just feel like WTF.....how DARE you? If you don't like it, LEAVE! Actually, don't even bother arriving in the first place. I do feel bad for their elderly Father that is sick and bedridden but hey, I'm sure he is getting way better care in Sweden than he did in Syria. Do I feel bad for the four able bodied women? Not at all, shut the fuck up bitches and GO TO WORK. I'm sure McDonald's is hiring, learn the Swedish language and contribute to society before you start demanding free shit form the government. I'm glad I don't live in Sweden because I would had been PISSED OFF at the situation there and LOUDLY stated my opinions. This is not an isolated incident, this shit happens all the time. The Swedes are too nice.
I found a pic of me on Facebook from Burning Man, some photographer took it when I having a great time at the Steampunk Saloon. That will do as the Tatiana pic of the day! ;-)



Sunday, November 16. 2014

Hello Kitty & Red Goat

Look at my new Hello Kitty blanket that I got as a gift! Thank You, I appreciate it a lot! Me and Chhaya are going to cuddle underneath it.



This year Hello Kitty celebrated her 40th anniversary, she was created in 1974 to inspire happiness, friendship and sharing across the world. How cute isn't that? Or KAWAII like they say in Japan where there is a huge KAWAII culture. I love Hello Kitty and I need to go to Japan, actually my brother is there right now. I am sooooo jealous!



Today at Kaladi they gave me a red goat sticker, kind of like when I was a kid going to the dentist in Sweden, after the visit you got to dig through a box of stickers and pick out one as a reward for being so brave. The red goat is the Kaladi symbol.





I don't know if it's the weather or me running on empty emotionally (I had an emotional week) but I feel drained. I am going to walk Chhaya and clean up in the kitchen, then I am crawling into bed early with my new blankie over me.