Welcome to Chaos !!

So I had a situation the other night when I couldn't find my car key after work. I looked through my bag, searched my lockers, rummaged through my make up bag but the key was nowhere to be found. It was 4 30 am and I was tired and just wanted to go home. Since I have locked my car key in my car a few times in the past, last time it happened I was at work actually, there was a possibility that it was in the car although I had a strong feeling that it wasn't. So we called a cab so the driver could open my car for me. I searched my car thoroughly and did not find the key. Next thing was to take a cab home, grab my spare key and go all the way back to work......which I did. It turned out to be a quite costly venture in the end.
The next day I was occupied with thinking about how my car key could had disappeared. Did I leave it on the counter by my lockers while getting ready and somebody picked it up by mistake or on purpose? That night I had thrown my bag in an empty locker with no lock on it since my lockers are full and I had a bulky jacket and a scarf in my bag that would not fit in one of my lockers. Did somebody go through my bag and take my car key? Not that I want to think that anyone I work with would take anything but stuff like that does happen. A long time ago I had some items go missing at work, a shirt and two outfits. Well, last night when I got to work I started the night by searching the dumpster outside the club, I realized that dumpster diving (although I did not actually go inside the dumpster) is not for me. Then I looked through my lockers again and found the car key. Wedged inside a box that I happened to have in my bag the other night. Wedged so tightly that it didn't rattle or was immediately visible when looking at the box straight on. And the other night at 4 30 am I was tired and stressed when looking for my key, so I just didn't see it.
Even Boss Lady had concerned about me and the whole key thing. She did not think it was like me to lose anything and was worried somebody maybe had followed me home or tried any foul play. But no, I was just having a blonde moment, that is my explanation to the whole ordeal.
I went and had a spare key made the following day, so now I have two spare keys, just in case. Lesson learned. I'm going to try to be more attentive to details in case anything goes missing again and not jump into any hasty conclusions. I'm just glad to have my car key back.

So Saturday night while I was on stage, Madison (a girl I work with) stared at me longer than usual and said that if I had some wings I could be one of the Victoria's Secret Angels. Awwwww......how sweet! Me and Madison used to not get along a few years ago, well I wouldn't go as far as saying not get along but we were just not talking, our status was frosty. Now we talk, she is cool and funny and we usually joke around a lot with each other. About all kinds of raunchy things. Another time she told me that even if she has a bad day she knows that if she comes into work and I'm there it will make her feel happy. That makes me happy to hear! This past Saturday's line up......



So I've got many angel references lately. Last week a group of people decided that I was an angel and a few months ago while I was at Whole Foods in Omaha minding my own business a lady came up to me and called me a "Scandinavian angel". And then she said a few other things about my aura (that she claimed she could read) and some other really nice compliments. I don't know why I'm looking so angelic lately? I thought people had forgot about the Barbie until last night when somebody said I am like Barbie. Cricket decided that this years Christmas present is Angry Barbie (aka me). What else happened at work? It's been rather fun lately, nice people mostly and lots of laughing. But two different guys were somewhat confused about the whole strip club thing. One was disappointed because he thought maybe I would consider seeing him after work or go on some sort of a date with him even after I clearly explained to him that NO, I don't do that and I never lie (like some dancers do) and say that I will. I'm always honest about that, I don't want to lead people on plus I don't even want to talk about dating or meeting somebody after I get off work. It's a STRIP CLUB, not a freaking dating site! So after spending $300-400 he asked if it was a complete waste of money and I said, well in a way it is. It all depends on how you look at it.
Some people spend thousands of dollars and understand it is all for fun, entertainment and nothing serious, others spend $100, feel entitled and think that it should come with a date or at least my phone number. NO. It doesn't. Not with me at least. Maybe try to go to a regular bar, buy a girl some drinks and see where it leads. Or sign up at PlentyOfFish or Tinder or however people meet each other nowadays, I don't know. He came in once after that and acted almost offended. Took out a $100 bill and waved it around in front of me, probably thinking that I was going to jump at him. I don't have time for that. Keep your money cause I don't need it and at this point don't want it actually. There is plenty of money to get from people that understand that they are in a strip club. Then some other drunk dumbass was in and wanted to DANCE like Usher style dancing out on the floor. He thought maybe he was in a regular club. Nobody wanted to dance with him. Lap dance for $ sure but not some disco dancing like he had in mind. So he started loudly complaining about that he had money to spend and that he was a customer and should get the service he wanted. Service that you want? Excuse me? That is not how it works. I have every right to refuse to talk to you if I don't want to. We are not some sex slaves, I am a rather spoiled dancer and I pretty much run my own show. I don't kiss ass, make any lame promises or give out my number to random people so they spend money, I don't need to do that.
Boss Lady finally got tired of him running his mouth and set him straight.
Anyhow.....tomorrow night is the real Victoria's Secret Fashion Show. I try to watch it every year, I like the Victoria's Secret models. And most of my bras that I wear at work are from Victoria's Secret, like this one.

I really felt cramped for time today, woke up, went to Kaladi, took care of a bunch of errands in town, the gym, home to eat. Now it's completely dark outside, not even the moon is out, it's hiding somewhere behind the clouds. I'm going to get dressed and take Chhaya out for a walk despite the darkness, I'm going to put a blinking light on her collar and grab a flashlight. After the walk I need to start getting ready for work. Phew......and be there until at least 4 am or so, unless we close early, before I can go home and go to sleep.
It's is so cozy at Kaladi right now, they have a fire going. I just want to sit there all afternoon.



I forced myself to go to the gym, it's not easy to feel enthusiastic about that.....I rarely do.
But afterwards I always feel good about going plus healthy and strong.



Next week I have a facial booked in Anchorage and while I'm there I hope to get most of my Christmas gift shopping done. I also have a gift certificate for a massage to redeem here in town, I might take that massage next week. OK, time to get dressed and venture out in the dark.



This evenings walk was a hit. Chhaya gets super excited over anything that blinks and she loves flashlights. I think we have to do the after dark walks more often.

Yesterday I brought some cupcakes to work, red velvet and vanilla. A good cupcake is one of the yummiest things. Cricket (yes, that's her name) never had red velvet before so me and Boss Lady made her try one.



On the cupcake boxes I saw that you can take a cupcake personality test, so I did. I've taken a few online tests lately. Mandy made me do the 16 personalities test (16personalities.com).
My personality? ESFJ. Then the other day I did a Jung Typology test on humanmetrics.com and a Chakra test.....so now I know everything I need about my inner self, my chakras and my strengths and weaknesses......Oh yeah my cupcake test results, I am a vanilla bean gourmet cupcake. "Golden and sweet with a smile. The kindest soul in town. You’re always looking out for others and helping others when you can. You also put your friends and family interests before your own which helps drive you forward and gives a feeling of accomplishment."
I think my cupcake test is spot on! You can do one too, kimberleysbakeshoppe.com

Last night I went to Odie's for an evening of trivia.....I LOVE trivia! It was just me and my friend Traci, another girl was supposed to join us but she cancelled. This was the first time for trivia at Odie's for both me and Traci. There were 14 teams total. Only our team, that we named Chhaya, and one other team had two participants, majority of the teams had four of five people, five was the maximum. The questions were rather tough. They covered many different topics like world flags, Christmas songs, Disney movie sidekick characters, comedy, 70's music, knowledge about Alaska, countries in Europe, general knowledge, technology.....and that's all I can think of right now, it's going on 4 am here and I'm a bit tired. I had lots of fun and hope to participate in another round of trivia next week, with better results of course.



After the trivia I went to work which was a mistake because only three people, all lame druggies actually, came in. Not sure why, maybe they were looking to score some more drugs or maybe they needed something to do while tweaking. Complete waste of my time. One of them, that I thought was going to fall asleep cause he was nodding out (I suspect) wanted to "talk to me" like off to the side somewhere. He was really creepy, ummmmmm....no thank you. I told him I did not want to talk. If you don't want a lap dance and don't even have any money to tip on stage = I do not want to talk to you. Sorry, go to a regular bar and talk to some girl there instead, better luck there because I'm just not interested. I don't go to work to find a boyfriend, I go to work to make money. You never know in advance what a night at work has in store, makes it interesting. I have been doing OK lately and it's been fun overall. Last night some people decided I was an angel, funny cause I heard it from somebody else not too long ago......Yeah, tonight was awful but at least I looked cute.....or angelic perhaps?



I also found out that there is going to be a re election in Sweden in March of next year. What? This is embarrassing. A re election? I'm not understanding this, the parties can't get along in the sandbox or something? I know it's not popular to say it out loud but I hope Sverigedemokraterna (Sweden Democrats) stick around ('m sure they will). I am all for stricter, way stricter immigration policies in Sweden. Sweden has been a very generous country for over four decades and very tolerant country too. I should also throw in words like kind and naive too. It's time to wake up, smell the coffee and grow a backbone. This is not the 60's and 70', the immigration to Sweden was different back then and the country was not what it is today. People came to work then, now they arrive, sit around and live off welfare. And some of them even have the nerve to complain. That is no longer sustainable. Wake up Sweden. I've said that for years.
It's not waking up time for me.....it's sleep time now.

I'm at the office, Coffee Roasters.....trying to muster up inspiration. It's kind of cold and grey out today. I need to dig out my thick winter jackets now, I don't want to but on today's walk with Chhaya I felt like it's about time I do that.
And now I'm sitting here trying to find inspiration to write about something interesting but nothing is popping up. I'm just staring out the window watching the cars drive by and some people moving around in the parking lot. There is only one other person in here besides me and the barista and he is kind of crazy I decided. I already listened to a few of his very loud conversations he had with people on the phone. Maybe I should leave before he goes completely postal. Actually I am leaving, I am going to try to find inspiration to get on the treadmill and do some squats at the gym.