Welcome to Chaos !!

Years before people were obsessed with taking selfies of themselves and posting them on social media, me and Julia were doing it. We did the original selfie! I have pics of us snapped with my old Nokia flip phone that are like 10 years old. Here are just a few samples of mine and Julia's selfies from the good old days when we would go to raves in Los Angeles, I miss those days!



I have more albums in my storage unit here in Vegas but they are put away in some box somewhere and I haven't been too motivated to rummage around in the dust to located them. So these albums are the only ones that I have at hand right now. Looking in photo albums is a very bitter sweet experience I think. I get nostalgic and emotional easy when I see pics from all the fun things I've done and beautiful places I've been to....moments gone only captured in pictures and in my memory. If I'm lucky enough to remember......



Selfies are supposedly (???) sooooo 2014 by the way (not for me though). I still take them but what I really need to do is fix my selfie machine (phone) cause the screen is cracked. The new thing for 2015 is the belfie. Pics of your butt in all it's glory. Although we have been barraged by butt pics for a while now I feel. There is even a belfie stick you can get so you can capture the perfect belfie of your behind. OMG what is this world coming to? LOL. The belfie stick is from what I gather "only" $80 and sold out. And it's not always easy to get that perfect belfie shot.....no it's not but a belfie stick is not on my things that I need to get list. Anyhow.....me and Chhaya are laying butt to butt RIGHT NOW. So here is a picture of that.....BELFIE!

I don't have Instagram or Twitter but I do look at two people's Instagram, first my girl crush Rihanna and I also look at Christy Mack's Instagram. The other day I noticed that she had a recent photo shoot with the same photographer I did a shoot with a five years ago, Marcos Rivera. I think that's pretty cool! I loved the pics Marcos took of me, he was nice and easy to work with plus he made me look very pretty. What else could I ask for from a photo shoot? Here is one of the pics. And.....I can't believe that five years went by in a flash! This feels like yesterday, well kind of.....






And here is one of Christy's that Marcos took. Pretty! I like looking at her Instagram because she seems like a nice person that likes animals and she has two pitbulls.
Christy's Instagram is instagram.com/christymack
Marcos Instagram instagram.com/mriveraphoto

The last three days I have been feeling slightly handicapped. I've had limited mobility in my neck and it also kind of hurt. Not sure why but I think it's linked to a small cold that I also had at the same time.....nose and throat. I mean I could not lean my head back or turn it to the side yesterday, super stiff. But today I feel much better and I think that I should be fully recovered in a few days. I started my day with a 20 min run in the park today and now I am sitting at Sambalatte. Then I have to do some errands and just go on with my day.
So last night I had to get something new to read. I've been itching for a new book and was curios about The Girl On The Train by Paula Hawkins. So I plowed through it last night and this morning, it was good but now I want to read some Swedish crime novels......something by Lars Kepler I think. Somebody gifted me an Amazon gift card recently (THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!! HUGS!!!!) and I will put that to use. I love to read, best quality time spent there is.



I saw the 50 Shades Of Grey trilogy laying out at Barnes & Noble last night. Somebody asked me if I had read those books. No and I have no interest in doing so either. Well, actually I skimmed through the first book one rainy afternoon in NYC when I ran into a bookstore to take cover from the rain. The first book had just came out and I wanted to see what all the talk was about. I think I spent 30 -45 minutes looking through it. I was not impressed whatsoever with the story and the language. And I'm not going to see the movie either.
On the other hand, I am going to go and watch Chappie on the big screen. Yolandi Visser (aka Yo-Landi Vi$$er) and Ninja from Die Antwoord are in it and I love Yolandi and I like Die Antwoord, so therefore I have to see Chappie.

Yesterday me and Julia had a girls night out. What does that mean you might wonder?
For some it means going to Thunder From Down Under or The Chippendales to watch some oiled up beefcakes gyrate awkwardly while hoards of women scream, or perhaps go to some bar or club and have annoying guys approach you because they want something that I am not interested in delivering. OK.....I went to Thunder From Down Under with a male friend once, it was interesting but kind of like meh......When I worked at Sapphire and Olympic Garden they would have male strippers entertaining the ladies so I have seen that and sure it's fun but not really my thing. Now there is a gay strip club around here supposedly (unless it closed down)......meaning men entertaining men. THAT might be fun.
No, me and Julia are way more sophisticated than to bother with guys. Especially drunk, clingy and annoying guys, the kind often found at bars or clubs.....YUCK. We wanted to have late night latte and macaroons (or macarons whichever way you prefer to spell it) so we went to The Beat downtown Vegas.
I wanted to go to a different coffee shop first but they were closed. The Beat is OK, there is an art gallery in the same building and I find that very interesting. We met a photographer that was preparing a room for his work and he did have some amazing photography there.
So yeah, late night lattes and macaroons = girls night out. Then we went for a walk to Container Park and went up in the tree house and admired the view. Although I am very scared of heights but Julia forced me to go all the way up to the top.

The other night I encountered a person that told me he knows a girl that looks just like me. He thought I was her at first. A copy he said. This is not the first time I've had somebody say this to me. There has been some confusing moments in the past of mistaken identity involving myself. One time a friend brought me a magazine to show me a picture of a girl that she thought was me, it looked a lot like me but no.....it was some other girl.
The thing that is very different about the most recent copy confusion is that this girl that supposedly looks like me, or I look like her, lives in Chicago. Is from Poland but also Sweden just like me AND has the same name as my half sister that is out there somewhere. Maybe it's her? It's a small world sometimes. Yes, I have a half sister. Well, a sister that I do not know, never met her. I have a brother too, he lives in Stockholm and I know him.
I MUST be a descendant of Genghis Khan like I jokingly claim, he fathered many children. That's why there are some girls out there that look just me.



Photographer Barry Gallegos.

There is so much beauty in the desert. It's been raining here and I have been enjoying the weather and the fresh air that comes with the rain. Found a "new" park close to the house (new for me and Chhaya that is) so we have been there twice now, walking laps. Look at this tall plant. I love it! So cute. You can't really determine the height of this plant from the pic but it was like double my height. Very tall.



I am one of those people that believe that plants/flowers/trees etc have feelings and thoughts. So I try to be nice to them and yes, I sometimes talk to them. And there are times I feel bad when I eat stuff that was once alive, like vegetables. Are you like that too?
Something grew just so I could eat it, that makes me very grateful. I'm glad that I don't eat animals.
And the color on this plant, I guess some sort of cactus, the shade of purple is just gorgeous.





I love the desert. I am in on one my pensive moods tonight.....thinking about life and death. I'm going to die one day and just be gone and not be here anymore? I can't accept that.
That's cruel. That is one of the reasons I think life is suffering. Cause in the end you die.
What a reward......



I think it is so beautiful when there is an opening in the clouds and a beam of sun shines through. Natural art. Is God out there somewhere? Perhaps above the clouds or inside the plants and the animals that we share this beautiful planet with. Please be more mindful of animals and plants and remember how much they give us. Respect nature and all living beings around you. Us humans tend to think it's all about us. But it's not. I believe that every single plant, animal and insect is here for a reason. Probably a much more important reason than that I exist and stomp my way through life, consume, trash, pollute, create noise.
What do I really contribute that is so positive and important? Not much to be realistic. A tree gives so much more than I do. I know this. Therefore I love the trees and the plants and all the animals and other living beings and I have to become even better at being a human worthy to exist on this planet.