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Skinnyfine somebody called me the other night. Never heard that one before. Once in a while I weigh myself at that fancy scale/BMI and heart rate machine they have at Whole Foods.
It said 133 lbs the other day. I like to find out my heart rate too.



But a scale at work indicated a bit less, 132.4 since I'm wearing less while weighing myself.



I can't strip down to a bra and panty at Whole Foods. Trust me, I know how to behave in public. I'm not the girl that whips out her boobs at a significant others company party, gets nekkid around the campfire (unless it's a nekkid kind of hippie gathering of some sort but even then I would probably leave parts covered up) or strips on top of pool tables at bars or parties. I even managed attending Mari Gras without flashing any boob. For what? I do not need that kind of attention. If you do these things, fine. I don't and that's fine too. But do not talk bad about strippers please if you get naked or whip your tits out every chance you get at parties just so you can get some attention from drunk guys.
I like to be on the skinnyfine side personally, it's a better look for me but I do not diet.
My weight fluctuates a few pounds up and down. It's always a good time for a vanilla latte and a pastry. Perfect way to start out the day! Like today, here is breakfast.



And now to the VAPID part. I wasn't even going to say something about this drama but then last minute today I changed my mind and went out and got this In Touch gossip magazine only so I could use it for this entry. See recently a person I traveled with at the end of last year sent me some very nice emails telling me that all that I am is a stripper who's only skill in life is "reading magazines, drinking overpriced coffee, and talking about themselves." That is only a scratch on the surface of all the nasty stuff she managed to come up with. BUT YES OF COURSE! All I am is just that. I love my overpriced daily lattes but so do millions of other people, hence all the Starbucks and other coffee shops that you can find all over.
Somehow they are all in business making profits. Why? Because people love those overpriced caffeinated drinks. She forgot to mention the pastries, I love my daily pastry too! Get it right next time! Indeed, all I ever read are gossip magazines, I have NEVER opened up a book in my life.......ever. Wait, I finished Tolstoy's Anna Karenina when I was around 11 and have been reading books non stop since I learned to read at the age of 6. Millions of other people read books and gossip magazines, nothing to brag about or be ashamed of, although the magazine in the pic I got just for the pic. I will leave it at Madhouse Coffee when I leave.
Now let's address the talking about myself part, I knew that the blog annoyed her because I could sense that in between the lines in a few comments that she left but I chose to ignore it. Yes, people that write blogs tend to talk about themselves. This is MY blog about MY life and things that I do and experience and think about. DUH. Plus some of the stuff I say in the blog should be taken with a grain of salt as I have a sense of humor and like to express that. As far as only talking about myself outside of the blog, actions always speak louder than words and I have done plenty of stuff for others in my life and people I do not even know that I can confidently make the statement that I care about SO MUCH MORE than only myself.
I probably care too much for others and that in turn has brought me a lot of sadness in my life. This person should had been out of my life a long time ago after her ugly side came out a few times but she wanted back in and I forgive anything because that's just how I am.
After this post there is no way back. I might enjoy overpriced lattes and talk about myself in the blog but here is what I don't do. I don't have a nasty gas problem that I constantly let out loudly through my mouth and ass right next to others and think it is HILARIOUS when in fact it's DISGUSTING. Sadly this is a fact about her. What else.....I don't air out my stinky feet at airplanes thinking it's OK. Well, I would never even board an airplane with bare stinky (her own description) feet - YUCK. Why? Because I have consideration for my fellow humans. And I also would never go and work somewhere with another girl, share hotel room, ride back and forth to work and other places in her car, make money and then FLAT OUT REFUSE to pay my part. NO. Why? Because anybody with an ounce of common sense and morals knows that it's wrong. She can keep the money, she obviously needs it way more than I do. She is, or at least was a stripper too (I have no clue what she does today) and had more problems interacting with other dancers and club management than I have ever witnessed. Clubs get in touch with me asking me to come back because they like the way I carry myself. I make friends, exchange numbers and actually hang out with some of my coworkers. That speaks volumes.
To be fair and I always want to be fair, I shared fun moments with this girl. Well, at least I was under the impression that we did, she seems to have been thinking that I was a "fake cunt" (her own words) the whole time but she still chose to be around me and keep in touch.
She has good qualities. But when a person doesn't want to pay me back money for things they rightfully owe for and on top of it comes at me with very nasty insults, not only about myself but other people around me, well then it's enough. I tried to reason with her because I believe in reaching agreements, compromising and salvaging friendships but to no avail.
What I am learning more and more as I walk though life and it's a very PAINFUL lesson, is that there are a very few people that you can trust. There is a thin line between love and hate.
I am a very fragile person and this realization has torn my heart into pieces. I am extremely grateful for my friends and I cherish them. You know who you are.

ADDENDUM. It's been a few hours since I wrote what's above. Afterwards I went to Whole Foods cause I was craving Death Salsa (spicy baby) and the yummiest carrot cake ever. I also went to Barnes & Noble and got Psychology Today and Bark.....NO gossip magazines (!!!) although according to somebody all I do is read those. And while flipping through the pages in random magazines in the store I saw this. And tonight it really resonated with me so I snapped a pic of it with the intention to add it here later.



People that don't even know me talk shit because of what I do. But on the other hand people treat others in ways that I would never even dream of, ever. But I am the one they talk bad about. Or a person that I was nice and generous to happens to owe me money but feels like she shouldn't pay me back writes me long ugly e mails accusing me of all kinds of made up bullshit from her twisted mind and calls me names. Yea yea......you feel bad about yourself, I know this and now you are projecting. This is your loss, not mine. I need to rid myself of people that bring me negativity and sadness. They do not deserve what I offer.

So I got a refund for my facial that I was displeased with that I had at Aminah's Organic Skin Spa here in Vegas recently. I got the refund from Aminah herself and she is one of the most beautiful women I have seen. She is gorgeous, we actually got along great, no hard feelings and we talked about skin care and products. When I'm ready to have another facial I will book one with Aminah herself.



I need to find a good moisturizing and rich eye cream. My skin around my eyes have been feeling really dry lately and I have even discovered a vertical wrinkle amongst the horizontal ones under my left eye. WTF! I should had been more diligent about dabbing on eye cream (I almost never do) and wearing sunglasses. So if you don't have any wrinkles under your eyes yet......lucky you, start preventing them with a good eye cream and sunglasses during the day.
Hmmmmm, what else. Well, the event I went to last week was about Primerica. My friend is a Vice President for them and she suggested I get into it. I don't know if I am cut out for a job like that but never say never. I am so not a sales person, not even at work in the club. Yeah.....yeah bla bla bla you might think but actually I'm not. I am so not pushy and aggressive and half of the time I am sitting around reading online news or blogs. Other girls tell me to go and work all the time. And I'm like......nooooooooo!

Yesterday I had an all day desert sightseeing road trip accompanied by Cindy with Enchanted Eye Photography. She is wonderful, I am glad that we met. We started out around 10 am and headed South towards California. We stopped at Primm (formerly known as State Line) to see if it was even possible to purchase a powerball ticket, the drawing is tomorrow. I'm not really understanding what the exact amount at stake is but from what I read it is a staggering 1.5 billion dollars. Well, then you decide on a lump sum or an annuity and have the pay taxes on the winnings. The line was so long, had we waited I'm sure it would had taken us several hours to get tickets. I know exactly what I would do if I would suddenly ever win or obtain a large amount of money. First of all family and friends. Everybody would get something, cash and/or whatever they might need. Children of friends would get a college fund set up for them with a great annual interest rate. Then I would visit several strip clubs and hand out $1000 or more to every girl. I know the struggle.....I know. Then I would secure my own life and future. And then I would help animals and others in need. My heart would be so happy. One can dream.....right?
So we did not stop and wait in line, instead we continued to Nipton CA where the line for the powerball was long and full of hopefuls. We took some pictures.





Then we continued.......





A tortoise research facility? Sounds interesting.



Cindy spotted an abandoned house in Searchlight.



After a few other detours we finally ended up in Nelson. Believe it or not but I had never been there until yesterday, WOW what a place! Interesting stuff EVERYWHERE and super cool owner/staff. I recommend for everybody to take a road trip to Nelson if you happen to have some spare time when in Vegas, well perhaps not during the scorching Summer months but right now it's perfect to embark on road trips. I could had take hundreds of pictures there but here are a few.







I love old stoves like these.....





Local rattlesnakes in the freezer, in case anyone fancies a snack. If I recall it right there are 12 of them in that bundle.



Me and Cindy.



I had a really nice day yesterday. I am so grateful for the nice and kind people in my life. ♡

Cindy is a GREAT photographer that takes pictures of people in all settings. Whether you want some great shots of yourself, your family or perhaps your wedding......Cindy can capture that memory for you!
www.enchantedeyephotography.com

Once in a while I am too tired to wash off my make up before I go to bed. But it doesn't happen too often. I almost gave in to that temptation last night, well technically this morning, to just continue laying in bed and not peel off those lashes and wash off that eye shadow but I found determination somehow deep inside and washed my face.
I tried a club I had not worked at yet last night in Vegas. More on that another time. I'm not going back there tonight. CES is in town, draws lots of people. When I lived here full time back in the day I used to work the conventions as a "model".....I worked CES, MAGIC, the bridal show, some jewelery show.....I can't even remember all of the conventions anymore.
Ugh.....I'm feeling tired tonight. Working in Vegas drains my soul. I don't want to anymore, I have said that for a while.

So I drove by Vegas IKEA today. The giant blue and yellow, like the Swedish flag, building is up. Location Durango and 215, scheduled to open this Summer. EXCITING!
I know I wrote about this the last time I mentioned something about IKEA in Vegas but a long time ago when I first moved to Vegas I wrote an email to IKEA and asked them if they had any plans to open a store in Vegas. I mean, hello.....Vegas was and is a great location for an IKEA I thought. I even had and still have ideas on what they should do on opening day. Anyhow, I did get an email back from somebody at IKEA. Unfortunately I got rid of that email address a long time ago because I had to pay a monthly fee for it and switched to Yahoo email since it's free. The IKEA rep told me back then that they did not have any immediate plans to open a store in Vegas, that the next one would open in Sacramento if I can recall it right. And now IKEA is in Vegas. I should be the manager of the store, this is an OBVIOUS fact. DUH. Perhaps I should write them and make sure that they are aware this fact as well.



What else did I do today? Madhouse Coffee. Got some errands done. Whole Foods (twice). Shopping. Running in the park. Now I'm eating carrot cake and drinking Earl Grey tea.

I am so predictable, started my morning off here in Vegas with a vanilla latte. Today from Madhouse Coffee, I alternate between Madhouse and Sambalatte. This is what I look like during the day, never any make up.....only if I have a daytime photo shoot (which is rarely).
I am way too lazy (and pretty HA HA ) to bother with make up during the day plus I like my skin clean and make up free. Work, photo shoot or if I go out like clubbing or some event but that is far and few in between nowadays. I'm BORING, OK!?
Next time I go to Sambalatte I will make sure that somebody working there explains to me what happened to the $100 bill that I found there and that I was nice enough to give to one of the baristas working. Not give as a gift but as in for her to give back to whoever lost it and if nobody came forward to claim the money the right thing would had been to give it back to me. At least that's how I look at it. I guess she thought it was a better idea to keep it for herself, as a tip perhaps? ICH DON'T THINK SO BITCH. See you next time I go to Sambalatte.
AND I am getting my money back that I spent on that no good facial I had at Aminah's Organic Spa a while ago. The facial was $149 and so bad that I contacted the spa. If you spend that much it should be excellent, period. Aminah which I assume is the owner, offered me a complimentary facial with her which I graciously accepted but since she doesn't have time right now while I'm in Vegas I am getting a refund instead. Works for me. Look, if you do not know how to do things right do not charge $149 for them. I specifically asked when I booked the facial to give me an EXPERIENCED aesthetician, not a beginner. I can wash my face and squeeze out some blackheads at home for free. If I pay $100 plus for a spa service it needs to be good. I know, I have been to some very good spas. And some crappy ones.
And it's raining pretty hard here in Vegas, basically all day today. I went to Whole Foods for nutrition, planned on going for a run in the park because I need to exercise but that has to wait until tomorrow unless it's still raining then. This evening I went to a financial meeting of some sort, a friend of mine is trying to steer me on a different career path.
Can I just become a professional latte test person and make good money doing that instead?