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Entries from March 2023

Thursday, March 30. 2023


Well....I started getting itchy on my back a few days ago and yesterday I woke up with hives, a red rash and itchy bumps spread arcross my chest, torso, some on the back, behind my ears and on my hands. My face, like the whole face is red. Like bad.
So I went to Urgent Care today and I am having a reaction to the antibiotics I was given. I got pills to take right after my first Emergency Room visist and I also got several bags of antibiotics in IV fluid form when I was at the hopsital for my stay. Then I got a precription for more antiboitics the day I left the hospital. And my body reacted.
There is nothing I can do besides take Benadryl and wait this out, it should improve in a few days. I am not happy because this is uncomfortable. I feel warm, very itchy, the skin on my face has a different texture, more like a thick rubbery texture and I am a bit weak and dizzy. I just want this adventure to be over so I can go back to normal. And no more amoxicillin (I guess that would be penicillin) for me. I need to get some good sauerkraut tomorrow - good for the stomach.

Yesterday I said Goodbye to Julia, she was here in Portland for a couple of short days. We went to one of my fave places for latte and pie - Bipartisan Cafe.
Of course I had pie and ice cream (that is a very delicious strawberry rhubarb pie). This is why I need to join Buy Me A Coffee. For all my lattes. We reminisced about when we first met, at The Stratosphere in Las Vegas (I guess it is called The STRAT Hotel nowadays?) where we both worked as hostesses. Julia said I was reading a book when we first met. We had fun working there.
Many awkward situations that we can laugh at. Fun memories, should had taken more pictures from our hostessing days.

These last three weeks have been full of stressful things, one after another. I really just want peace and quiet for a while. I need to rest and heal. My injured hand is doing well, I just need this allergic reaction to go away. I don't want it to get worse.

Saturday, March 25. 2023


So I had a small accident. I injured my hand. And for the first time since I have been in the US I had to go to the Emergency Room. NOT a good experience. The accident happened around 11 am on a Monday almost two weeks ago, hence no blogging. It also coincided with a person coming from Europe here to Portand kind of last minute so I have been busy with that. Basically driving them around and helping out with the DMV, banking stuff and looking for a vehicle and housing for them. Yes I am also many people's private assistant and a go to person when they are in need. I should open up my own private assistant business. Good idea actually.

OK back to my hand injury. The doctor at the Emergency Room decided to put four stitches in my hand. I have a REAL fobia of needles so when she numbed my hand SIX times I almost fainted and yes I cried LOUDLY. Then I was given a tetanus shot, one antibiotic pill, a prescription for antibiotics and told to go home and take some Tylenol or something for pain. I was not offered any kind of Tylenol or anything at the Emergency Room. Oh no. They are avoiding giving out any form of pain management in case you happen to be an addict looking to get high. I came in looking very disheveled so they probably thought I was homeless or something (they probably thought I was an addict, it would not suprise me).
Two days later by Wednesday my hand was getting very swollen, warm and red. The day after, so Thursday I go back to the Emergency Room in the evening and ask if this is what my hand is supposed to look like? No of course not. I was seen by a doctor a bit after midnigt and was told that I had to spend 24-48 hours in the hospital on an IV antibiotic drip.

I was like.....say what?! 😱

Again, I have a REAL fobia of needles (this stems from an extended VERY traumatic hospital experience as a child).
I NEVER had an IV. I almost passed out sitting down when the doctor told me this.
Also, I brought NOTHING with me going there cause I did not expect a longer stay. No toothbrush, no contact lense case, no glasses, no face cream, no comb - NOTHING.
Then the moment when the nurse came in to put the IV in my arm. OMG...sheer TERROR for me. Somebody came in to see if everything was alright cause I screamed so loud and they had to close the doors to the room I was in to not alarm the other people waiting to be seen. From then on I received a bag of antibiotic IV drip every six hours, it felt cold in my arm going in. Uncomfortable.

I could barely move my right arm that the IV was lodged into and I did not like the feeling in that arm plus I had no function of my left hand that was injured. To make things even MORE fun.....there was an abscess in my hand.
The stitches prevented the pus from coming out so my hand got infected. A hand surgeon came to look at it while I was sobbing and told me he had to take the stitches out and clean the wound really good. And in order to do that he had to numb my hand with Licodaine that came in a long needle that he had to basically stick into and around the wound. Like six times to numb my hand. I could not believe that this was happening to me. Again, LOTS of loud screaming (like horror movie style screaming) and crying on my end but I did not yank my hand away, I kept it still. 
He told me afterwards that some people get combative and try to punch him. I just felt terror and sadness.
And on top of it, the last night a nurse came in to my room at around 4 am to get more blood from me....I was like ABSOLUTELY NOT! So she came back with "my" nurse and my nurse told me it was necessary for them to get a blood sample, so I gave in.
I spent like 36 hours in there, or more? I lost count, it was all a blur. Got out last Saturday afternoon. The food was good though! I had vanilla latte twice. Yummy breakfast burritos. Mac and cheese and mashed potatoes. The nurses were nice but somewhat neglectful and not on top of things which was surprising. And of course those four stitches should had never been put in my hand in the first place, I would had been better off with no stitches. Got sent home with a prescription for more antibiotics, lots of gauze and a great thing called xeroform gauze dressing. Everybody needs that at home. I am feeling much better today.....almost back to normal now. I never ever want another IV again, I hope I never need one. I do never ever want stitches. Or another hospital stay. 

So in case you wondered where I have been... I was in the hospital and also been occupied with a lot (drama with others and trying to help others while injured). I hope next week will be less hectic so I can spend more time on the blog.

Sunday, March 5. 2023

What's New

Hiiiiiiiii everybody! What's new with you? I had a busy week. Too busy. I do not want to be an adult this next week, I would like a break. I am finally catching up on several days of emails and paying some bills. Relaxing in bed and actually listening to music while I am writing this (a 90s R&B mix on Spotify) with one of my best friends......my purple and white very soft electric blanket. I love that thing. One of my best purchases. I usually do not listen to music on my time off because I hear music non stop at work so I really appreciate silence but it is actually nice to have some music on to sing along to.
Anyhow.....what is new with me? I tried a new (for me) Häagen-Dasz, it was OK. Dulce de Leche Churro. I think my fave Häagen flavor might be cherry vanilla. This was after work Friday and all I wanted to do was eat this ice cream, read and relax in silence.

I saw this at Stumptown today when I was getting my latte. I like it. 

I had Pet Pack today (which reminds me, I need to fill out my schedule for the rest of the month before I turn off my lap top tonight), I met with one of my fave little boys - Tucker. He got two bowls (I get them at Dollar General for $1.25 each) and a new jacket. His jacket had a tear in it. Tucker is super friendly and very cute as you can see. ALL pets deserve love and a safe place. They give us so much and should be treated right.
Here is my prayer to God - Please God if you make it so I win a large sum of money I promise to help animals and people in need with the money.

This evening's moon. Not a full moon yet.....but soon. I might go outside and look at the moon when it is full like Monday/Tuesday if I remember. 🌕

What else is new? I don't know if you have noticed but the blog went through some changes. It looks slightly different and it is now powered by Styx, a weblog engine. So my blog migrated. I have NO CLUE how to do these things. Somehow I was lucky enough to come across a very kind and patient individual in Germany 🇩🇪 that has helped me with all my blog needs for over a decade now. My most frequent three words to him are, "I don't understand". I am sure he gets very frustrated with me but I simply do not understand these things. So THANK YOU KISA for ALL your help. Danke, Tack, Dziękuję, Merci 😘 I am pretty sure that after I post this he will write me an email and tell me that I did something that was not correct. It is not as simple as writing a text, putting up a picture and pushing enter. There is a LOT more to this.
Another of my friends encouraged me to look into coding years ago. Ehhhhhh OK maybe I thought. So I talked to a place in Vegas, I can't remember now some school of some sort where they taught some coding of some sort. I quickly realized that me and coding was not a good match.
Jeeeeeez......I guess I will just have to show my boobs to strangers until I am like 75. Not too far off now. And then MAYBE I can retire.
Another prayer to God - Please God let me have nice boobs until I am at least 75 so I don't have to starve.