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I am very very homesick today.....not feeling that great at all. I know that going somewhere on vacation is way different than actually living there because I was complaining and being bored with everyday life when I lived in Stockholm too. That's normal I think, especially when you are in the midst of winter. But NOTHING.....NOTHING is as boring as Kenai. At least for me. I'm sure Kenai is a perfectly fine place for a lot of people but not for me. I'm not going to expand on the Kenai is a boring place topic any more this time around. I am homesick and that's that. I miss my friends and actually DOING stuff because there are plenty of things to do in Stockholm and I also miss walking around in City. I put some new stuff from Sweden in the kitchen window......



What else can I write about? O yeah, I had to get a new passport while I was in Sweden. Therefore I had to get measured.....I was curious to see if I had shrunk since the last time but I I'm the same.



And I was also curios to see what I weighed in actual kilos. There is an old scale at the gym here in Kenai, the kind where you have to move the little weight around to balance it out.....
I don't know how to use that stuff and I don't know what I weigh in pounds either......so I stepped on my brothers scale and it said 61.9 kilos. Now I know.



Well.....I'm going to start my day now. I have a few things on my to do list.

Today's very important question at Kaladi was whether you prefer blondes or brunettes.....hmmmmm.....I do not have a preference so I put a dollar in each jar. My number one girl is still Rihanna. I met up with Daisee at Kaladi, we sat there and talked for a while, then I did some errands and came home. I worked last night but I forgot my selfie machine (phone) in the car so no pics from last night. By 1 am I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open, I am still on Stockholm time. By 3 30 am I finally left after asking several times if I could leave already due to me being tired, there were plenty of girls and nobody spending any money when I left, so it's not like I left at a bad time. My other question (to no one in particular, so do not feel obligated to preach a sermon to me like somebody already did a few times.....spare me that, thanks) or should I say thought is.....if dancers are so called independent contractors or self employed like most clubs like to refer us as, meaning we do not get an hourly salary from the club we work at, no form of insurance, no 401k etc etc, then we should be able to arrive to work and leave whenever we want, right? Or are dancers employees? There should be no fines implemented on dancers for "being late" or a NO when we want to leave the club for whatever reason. This is why girls are now suing clubs all over the country and actually winning the lawsuits, not because some judge is feeling sorry for the dancers, simply because the clubs (club owners) are breaking the law. Just a small observation. Girls are talking. I guess they are fed up with being treated as disposable doormats with no rights. And rightfully so.
YAWN.....again, I'm tired. Taking Chhaya out now.

Oh.....and if you want to read a bit more about dancers and whether they are considered employees of a club or independent contractors, I found a recent article. That might shed some light on the constant dilemma.
http://www.ajc.com/news/news/judge-pin-ups-strippers-are-employees-not-independ/ncbyS

Ooooooh today we have a beautiful summer time day here. I just got back home from a walk with Chhaya, she is panting because it's hot outside.
I am trying to decide if I should work or not. When it's nice out like it is right now, going into work feels like torture almost......I might go for a run right now and see how I feel about work after that.

As a child I grew up with ABBA, Pippi Långstrump, Bamse, Fem myror är fler än fyra elefanter, Trazan och Banarne, Vi på Saltkråkan, Pojken med guldbyxorna and also Mumintrollen.
I love Pippi, she is my heroine. So on my trip to Sweden I got some Pippi stuff that I will show later but also for the first time some Mumintrollen stuff.....or Mumin like you can also say. Mumintrollen is about a troll family created by Tove Jansson. I remember thinking that Mumintrollen were kind of sad and a bit scary to watch when I was little, there was a character called Mårran and I was scared of her. Besides that Swedish children's TV when I was growing up was great and very pedagogic and educational, I learned a lot from watching Fem myror är fler än fyra elefanter and Pippi Långstrump is a wonderful role model for girls I think. When I arrived to Sweden from Poland as a child I spoke no Swedish and I got teased a lot and from that I became shy and very insecure. I was the only foreign born child in first grade and that was not fun I quickly learned. In second grade we moved from Tumba to Handen and I got to know new friends like Carmen that I am still friends with today. I quickly learned Swedish from reading a lot and in the end I got mostly high grades on everything that had to do with writing and reading Swedish. And later I studies other languages like most kids in Sweden do. School went on and I grew out of being insecure, thank goodness. Now I feel super confident and strong.
Well, here is my Mumin stuff. A tray that I will keep on the kitchen counter so I can put car keys and sun glasses on it. Some postcards, coasters and Mumin on key chains. I think I will attach those to one of my purses.

I must be bored since this will be my third blog entry of the day. It's impossible to walk through the forest I found out this afternoon due to the large amounts of starving mosquitoes that are waiting to attack. Poor Chhaya had at least 20 attached to her when she came out of the forest, I had a towel with me on our walk and swatted her with it. She loves it when I swat her with the towel and jumps around and acts all crazy. I noticed that they are especially fond of her butt. When I look under her tail there are several of mosquitoes there sucking blood. Again, very GROSS.
This is today's pretty food plate. Salad. It was yummy. I am now full and tired. Don't know if I will make it to work tonight, I am still jetlagged. What should I do instead? Another load of laundry perhaps? The fun life in Kenai is back in full swing. Yeay....! Not.



That is my new table cloth from Sweden with Midsommar motif and a hot plate holder made from juniper wood, also from Sweden that I will use to put candles on because it is too pretty to hide under a pot. And a super cute rock shaped like a heart that Mandy sent me. The fun coincidence here is that I have a rock shaped like a heart that I was going to send her.
She beat me to it.

I'm back at the office, Coffee Roasters that is. The two baristas that work here must be two of the prettiest girls in town, I like both of them.
Anyhow, I am still not back to normal. It will take a couple of days to get back into the rhythm of things. But life has slowed down significantly, from going non stop, doing stuff and being around my family and my friends every day, I am now back to solitude and Chhaya. I'm not complaining, I love Chhaya of course. And my house (gorgeous). If it wasn't so complicated to bring dogs into Sweden (the long quarantine and the long time it takes to travel there) I would probably be in Sweden at least three or four months out of the year. It would be good for me and my family, plus I would be able to spend time with people the way I am accustomed to. I could have a lot of "friends" here too, if I liked to socialize by getting drunk, acting stupid, talking shit and being fake. And since that is not who I am, things are the way they are. But at least I have REAL friends, you know the kind that are hard to find. It's easy to rack up acquaintances, having the gift of real friendship is something totally different.
I checked the mail yesterday......besides bills I got something from Mandy. Too bad she lives in Michigan because I think I would enjoy her company. Not only did she send me something really cute, she also spent time drawing on the envelope, full of details. She even drew a dog on it, I'm guessing it's Chhaya. I keep certain things forever and I am going to keep this envelope. Thank You Mandy! ❤
Well, I want to go to the gym and I have to take Chhaya on a long walk today......the mosquitoes are plenty this year. Again. Last year it was so bad the stores were sold out of mosquito repellant and they were talking about the annoying little blood suckers on TV and in the local newspapers, it seems like it's just as bad this year. And I am not exagerrating they swarm you as soon as you step outside. I already got bit a few times since I have been back. And every time Chhaya comes back inside from going out to pee I have to swat her with a towel to get all the blood suckers off her. Gross!



OK......I am getting serious Sweden withdrawals right now, have to fight back the tears.
Jag saknar alla så mycket!!!!