Welcome to Chaos !!

My new beauties arrived! SO PRETTY, lots and lots of rhinestones.....supposedly 10 500 on each pair. I kind of don't want to waste them on work. Maybe I just put them somewhere in the living room as artwork to be admired. I used to have one of my heels as decoration in my bookshelf when I lived in Vegas, that one had large pink rhinestones on it. I also love the box the new beauties came in, the color and the butterflies. The shoes are by Pleaser.

A few days ago while at work I got asked if I have ever done meth. You know, just one of those random questions I get like all the time. Because all dancers are high or drunk all the time, right? Well, I am not shy to talk about my experiences with drugs. Have I tried meth?
Yes, once. In Vegas before I went out to a club (a regular club). I was my usual high energy self at the club but when I got home around 9 am and wanted to sleep......I couldn't and I also felt weird, antsy and angry. That was it, no more meth for me. So sorry, I can't say that I am a member of the local Girls On Meth Club. Because let me tell you, who is not doing that shit at the club here right now? Really? It is so obvious that they do it from their behavior, although they pretend that they don't do it (of course). It also explains why they stay so freakin' skinny although they seem to eat normally and don't exercise. That works when you are a teenager but not when you get to be in your 30's. I don't think that you are a bad person if you do drugs but I think that you need to rethink your lifestyle if the drugs take up more room in your life than certain priorities. Like if you have kids that depend on you or animals. Rent and bills that have to get paid, you know common sense stuff. Duh!
I don't regret any of my experiences with drugs but I prefer stuff that bring me something positive, meaningful and hopefully something I can learn from. MDMA and mushrooms.
I really want to try ayahuasca and iboga, maybe peyote. I don't smoke weed, it makes me sick. But I wouldn't frown at the occasional brownie or cannabis lollipop. I have never done drugs at work, I save those rare and special times for when I am around people I know and trust.
What I do want to warn you about though are these yogurts! I am totally addicted, they are dangerous!



It started with me having one a day and now I am eating two a day, soon it will be three, I can't help myself they are so delicious. Because of my daily yogurt habit I now have an extra layer of chunk on my thighs, hips and butt. Stomach is still flat. This all happened in the last month, after I discovered this yogurt and scarfed down everything in sight around Christmas time. I know some guys like phat (fat really) asses but I don't care what guys like. I only care about what I like for myself and I like myself on the trimmer side. I have been toying with the idea of going on a cleansing/detox diet. That would mean cutting out all dairy for about ten days or so, eat good protein (although no meat for me) lots of veggies and fruit, add some milk thistle to clean the liver, drink green tea and make a spirulina smoothie in the morning. This is a thought only at this point, I still have two bags of pierogis in the freezer to enjoy.
I have never been on a diet, ever. Well, I did the Atkins diet a long time ago for one day and it ended with me vomiting - gross. I am curious if I would be able to stick with a diet? If I would feel healthier? More energized? Would I get angry? I am a total foodie and I love my lattes and sweets.
I would never do meth or diet pills to lose weight or stay skinny, only the natural and healthy way for me. Besides anybody can get skinny on meth, so that's cheating.
My plans for tonight and tomorrow night, Breaking Bad. I absolutely love that shit. I have been telling everybody I know that they have to watch it if they don't already. I am addicted!
I love Walter White. If anything I am more of a Walter when it comes to meth. I have been trying to find somebody to start cooking with but no luck so far.

I had a facial yesterday with Anastassia. She is changing the name of her spa from Anastassia's to Adagio Day Spa. She has taken on more employees, even an apprentice that was present during my facial, and therefore wants to change the name of the place. And she is expanding the business, opening up a spa inside Captain Cook, I told you she was good!
I am a facial afficionado, I know what I want and like and I want quality. I've had facials at Opulence and Allure in Anchorage before, the facials were terrible. I also had a pedicure once at Allure and it was so bad that I honestly thought for a minute that it was a prank of some sort and I didn't think that I should pay for a sorry pedicure like that. Especially since Allure claims to be voted the top 5 salon in the country. Not what I consider the best, not even good - overpriced, overrated and bad quality. Anastassia gives an amazing facial, I walk away feeling great and that I did something good for my skin. And after every time I can't wait to come back for more. The facials are long, meticulous and thorough, only quality products are used and there are plenty of small important touches incorporated, like essential oils, the heated bed you lay on and warm Himalayan balls that get placed under your neck. Also the face massage is THE BEST, Anastassia has that magic touch. I've been to some high end and great spas in Los Angeles, Las Vegas and New York, so I think I can say that I know what I'm talking about.
Anastassia has been complimenting me on my skin the last couple of times I have been there. I am not doing anything unusual, still using L'Occitane day and night cremes. I have been using Josie Maran argan oil on and off for about a year now. Only at night, sometimes alone and sometimes under the L'Occitane night creme. Since a year now I have been using the Clarisonic Mia face brush between one - three times a week, I love it and many people swear by it. If you are into skincare and don't have a Mia face brush I think you should invest in one. To the men reading this, give one to the woman in your life (makes for a great gift).
Besides that, I rarely use sunscreen (I'm lazy in that department) and I do a clay or honey mask once in a while. I have oily skin and slightly large pores and I have noticed a few sunspots around my eyes, so maybe I should start using sunscreen after all. Either that or undergo Fraxel. I don't like that I work in a smokey environment because that is so very bad for your skin and overall health but according to Anastassia.....my skin looks great.
Here I am with a face mask underneath and a hydrating and great smelling cloth mask on top.

I am so excited to finally have some real pierogis in the freezer. I went to Anchorage for a couple of days, maybe you noticed my absence from here and missed me?
Don't worry.....Tatiana withdrawals are totally normal. Just take some Xanax and chill out, I will be back at some point.
So I went to the Eastern European Deli (601 W 36) and got some potato and cheese pierogis. They did not have sour kraut pierogis, my favorite, in stock. The pierogis are made locally in Wasilla. I hope they taste good because the ones I got at Fred Meyer are awful. That is NOT pierogis. I am not going to make my own because I am too lazy and I was not paying enough attention to the recipe when my Mom would make them. I was more interested in scarfing them down.



What else did I do? Some shopping. I had a facial (pure BLISS). And I tried out a restaurant for the first time, exciting for a foodie like me. But more about that later. Chhaya is so happy to be back home, she does not like the three hour long drive to Anchorage, especially after dark. It's like playing Russian roulette in the winter, the road is really bad in some places, huge potholes. No lights lining the road, you basically drive with only your headlights to guide you, praying that no large animal will venture out on the road in front of your car. Well, small animals too for me. I don't want to hurt any animal, so I am on the lookout for rabbits and squirrels also. But we are home now. I'm going to take a shower and sleep. More from
me later.

I need to nourish my soul..... I could really feel that today. So I got a new book and a magazine with some very interesting articles. Now I only need some quality time with good friends and some spa time would be nice too.

I woke up to 40 degrees and pouring rain. The road leading up to my house is just mush and there are large puddles of water everywhere. The sun is actually out now and shining on my face, it feels good and elevated my mood. It's amazing how a bit of sun can make you feel after a few days of gray. And that was today's weather report from Kenai AK from your favorite meteorologist Tatiana.
My plans for today are......gym, vacuum, walk Chhaya and work. I have to say that work has been PATHETICALLY BAD since last Friday. I mean, it can't get any worse than this.
I'm basically making latte money. What a total waste of time, effort, gas money, mascara, lip gloss and my good looks on absolutely nothing. I KNOW that I could travel and make decent to really good money in other places but I am thinking about Chhaya. She is the only reason I am not traveling for work. And bringing her with me.....well that is not something I want to do either unless I leave for a longer period of time. Anyways.
I heard about the latest NSA spying on people news. What bullshit all of that is. And it is ONLY because Edward Snowden had some balls that we are now aware of some of the stuff that was going on. Because I highly doubt that we, the regular population, the meek masses of sheep that we are, know exactly what was and most likely still is going on. People call Edward Snowden a traitor and a whistle blower. I think he did a GOOD thing. He deserves a medal.
I like him. I feel the same way about Julian Assange. And I said this a long time ago. I'm not going to venture too far into politics now. Instead I am going to hop in my truck, drive to the gym, break a sweat, admire myself in the mirrors and work on my gluteus maximus.
Happy Friday everyone!