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Entries from December 2013

Tuesday, December 17. 2013

Wrapping Up

Every Christmas I take on a way too big load upon myself and each year I think to myself that I need to scale back the next year but I don't. I would feel guilty if I did, I probably need to see a therapist to get to the bottom of this guilt issue......lol. I like to remember people and make them feel special, it's nice. I spent a few hours yesterday and today with writing Christmas cards and decorating each card with stickers, putting stuff in boxes, writing addresses.....basically wrapping everything up.
Today I was hoping to get my annual Christmas card with Chhaya taken. I had everything ready and then I stepped outside and decided that I couldn't do it, it was way too cold to stand outside and pose for pictures while trying to keep my teeth from shattering, ignoring that my fingers are frozen numb while attempting to look cute. Maybe tomorrow. All the Christmas gifts and cards will be sent out a little later than I had planned.....but better late than never. Here are some of the gifts and Chhaya wondering if there's something fun for her in there to open.



So instead me and Chhaya bundled up and drove into town for some latte and grocery shopping. She looking stylish in her new red coat.



The pretty view from the road by my house.



And when I was returning home the moon and the sky looked absolutely gorgeous. The moon is full tomorrow.



Monday, December 16. 2013

Christmas Party

Tonight....well technically last night, we had a Christmas party at work. A very merry Christmas party, the drinks and shots were flowing abundantly and free, there was lots of food and gifts. I brought a bunch of gifts but half of them are in my locker since some people didn't show up. Oh well, they will get their gifts another time.



We even have a tree. Since I have been a very good girl all year I got exactly what I wished for......a large bucket of popcorn and a huge dildo.....oh and a check (inside the card). Now I can stay at home for another week without being bored, since I will be busy eating popcorn and getting acquainted with my new friend. I can't wait!





Actually.....that dildo belongs to the club (yea we are weird and kinky like that). I found it on top of our non working and dust collecting vending machine and put it under the clock at the bar a few weeks ago and named it "the cock under the clock" and I would threaten people with a good time while pointing that thing on them (used on them NOT on me, thank you very much) if they didn't tip me enough. Well, tonight a girl (that shall remain anonymous) took that dildo hostage, she "stole" it from me and I guess she will be having a very merry evening tonight. :-D








Saturday, December 14. 2013

Santa And Fly Agaric

I love stories about Santa and the connection to the fly agaric. Back in the day mushrooms were depicted on many Christmas cards. I think it's pretty and I also like mushroom ornaments for the Christmas tree. I am also fascinated with all things of the underworld......faeries, mermaids, trolls, gnomes.....the stuff faerie tales are made off.
In Sweden there are tons of folklore about trolls, princesses and faeries. And Santa comes from Lappland, where Sweden, Norway and Finland meet, where the reindeer roam. At least that makes the most sense to me, that Santa is from there.









It snowed a lot here today. It is so pretty outside and I miss Sweden when Christmas is around the corner. All the traditions.....julbord, glögg, a walk through Gamla Stan, Kalle Ankas julafton, Lucia, adventsljustake, julstjärna......I don't want to think too much about it and get sad. It's quiet and dark outside. Chhaya is in love with the electric blanket, she doesn't want to move from it. The house is decorated and looks beautiful. I'm content and pensive. Right now I wish I was under a thick but soft blanket in front of a hot wood fire stove somewhere, listening to somebody delivering hours of faerie tales while sipping on hot chocolate.


Friday, December 13. 2013

Purse

Got a new purse for work.....a Hello Kitty purse (of course). My old one that also was a Hello Kitty was starting to look worn on the top part and was too small for my cell phone that I would cram in it. I didn't want to retire my old purse, in my mind it was going to be my last work purse and I also get sentimentally attached to things and just didn't want to let it go. Now it's in one of my lockers at work, holding on to some keys and gum.
The new one has more room, a large Hello Kitty on it that glows in the black light. Very cute.
I also have some small trinkets attached to it, a mermaid, a flower, a butterfly and a Hello Kitty face. Is this going to be my last work purse?









Visor

I found a Hello Kitty visor that I had to have. Perfect for Burning Man when I venture out to get a latte and the sun is beating down with no mercy from the sky over the hot Black Rock Nevada desert. Yes, I love Hello Kitty. Actually I'm a sucker for anything KAWAII, if it's pink, fluffy, soft, cute - then I love it.





Wednesday, December 11. 2013

Sex Trafficking At Strip Club

Grrrrrrr.......this makes me mad! The article talks about a strip club in Oregon that was under investigation for sex trafficking involving two underage girls, only 13 years old. Two men are arrested, one of them the manager of a strip club. Read the article for more details (click on the highlighted "this" above).
The club issued a statement, "We are aware of the recent assertions connecting Stars Cabaret with alleged prostitution. We categorically deny any suggestions that any entertainer is engaged in such activity or that management somehow endorsed or condones the same. Stars ownership takes the threat of such illegal activity seriously and has, over the years, taken measures to prevent such conduct."
Yeah....is that why a 13 year old girl was allowed to work there? Yes, I know that young girls nowadays can look older than they really are but COME ON! I know that this is a fresh case and has not went to court as of yet but according to a few online articles I have read about this, the club was under investigation for a while, so I guess the FBI and the police must have had some kind of proof there were illegal activities going on. Actually, I told a friend about this case and she told me that a friend of hers that lives in Portland heard that Stars Cabaret had 16 year old girls working there. Now this is just hearsay but still.....where there is smoke there is fire.
Trafficking is awful. Forcing young girls to prostitution is awful. That statement issued by the club is just BULLSHIT. That is something club owners ALWAYS say to protect their own ass when they get in trouble for illegal activities going on in their club. The club owner/managers are very much aware of the illegal sex stuff that goes on, in too many clubs. But they don't do anything about it because they are GREEDY. I have seen a lot of bad stuff. It makes me sad, frustrated, tired, angry. After I brought this issue up to management at Sapphire in Las Vegas they switched my schedule on me, just like that. As a form of punishment. Fucking assholes.
I quit. Unfortunately there is a lot of nasty stuff that goes on is strip clubs, or "extras" as it is called. The clubs in Houston Texas are notorious for this. I hear you can basically get a BJ for
$ 20. It does not surprise me, I remember a girl at Sapphire, she would walk around offering hand jobs for $ 20. The thing is this, a strip club is not supposed to be a brothel. Upon getting hired you usually sign some sort of contract where you agree to follow the rules of the club. And the rules adhere to the law. No prostitution. But ironically enough, once you start working you might notice all kinds of nasty stuff that goes on. At least I notice it, because I'm a clean dancer so obviously the nasty stuff that goes on really bothers me. Does that affect my money? Of course it does! A lot of guys come in looking for extras only. The girls that do that stuff will let the guys know one way or another......and then they disappear into the VIP room. That explains why some girls make money basically every night, no matter what. It's not because they are more beautiful or better, more enthusiastic dancers that the rest of the girls (in general), it is because of what they do. And that is a fact. I see it go on all the time. I have good and bad nights. I'm not a hustler in the aggressive sense but I do make rounds asking for dances. But I definitely do not offer any extras, ever. Sex to me, is something private that I share with one person. Yes, I am a dancer and I show my body but I am OK with that, I don't have any issues or hangups with that. If I was OK with having sex with people for money I would had maybe worked in a brothel, but I'm not. So it really makes me upset when I see the rules get broken on a regular basis. And from experience I know that complaining doesn't do any good. If anything I get looked at as a "trouble maker." But I still complain.
I wish more clubs would get investigated so shit like this stops and that only clean dancers can work. It would make things so much better I think. I personally have not been aware of sex trafficking at any club I have worked at. But you never know. And while I'm sharing some of my thoughts on this subject.....I don't agree with 18 year old girls being allowed to work in strip clubs either, even though no alcohol is allowed. According to recent findings, the human brain does not reach full maturity until at least the mid-20s. If you really want to do this (strip) then you should wait until you are 21. I don't think an 18 year old is mature enough to make smart and educated decisions, even though there are plenty of smart and mature 18 year old girls out there. But not all of the smart and mature ones end up dancing. And another thing, girls with obvious drug problems should not be allowed to dance either. A strip club should not function like some sort of a halfway house or church where the broken and wounded can go and hang out and make money. It looks really bad when a girl with an obvious drug issue is working. It looks scary and gives a bad impression of the club, feeds the stereotypes that surround this profession. There are plenty of normal and healthy girls that dance and I personally do not want to be associated with the negative stereotypes. Being a drug addict doesn't mean that you are a bad person but at the same time, I don't know what you are capable of doing when you need a fix, when you need to make that money no matter what so you can get more drugs. Sorry but that is reality.
Basically, as a dancer I'm sick tired of the extras that go on. I think that clubs (the owners and managers) are very much aware of most of that stuff and if you sign some paper upon getting hired that says that no prostitution is allowed but then it still goes on......then who do you blame? I think that there needs to be a serious clean up in every strip club in this country.
To make sure that no trafficking goes on, no underage girls are employed and that all the nasty stuff stops.