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Since I am a rather sappy person I think Valentine's Day is a cute tradition, although I am well aware of the commercialism surrounding the day. But to me it is a day to express that I care for my friends. I love doing things like this for people and I do not only remember them on Valentine's Day, year round for me but I still always do something for someone on Valentine's Day. So I need to get my Valentine's Day cards ready today, I usually adorn the cards I send out with cute stickers, like hearts and Hello Kitty. I love Hello Kitty.



Then it is my Mom's birthday soon. So I have some gifts for her, like her fave perfume. And I am sending some stuff to my auntie too.



It's really cold here right now. I cut today's walk with Chhaya short because a strap on one of her little booties broke and I was too cold to feel enthusiastic about the walk. Brrrrrrrrr!
Also, last night work was VERY bad. What's very bad you might wonder? That is when nobody comes in and all of us leave with 0. That is exactly what happened. It could be worse though.
A bad night in some clubs is when you pay your house fee and can't make it back and actually leave work negative. Oh yes, that does happen.
What did I do today this cold Sunday? I drove to the dump with my trash and recyclables. Got a latte. Did some errands. And now I am going to start on my cards. No work for me tonight.

I left work feeling kind of upset last night. It was a slow Friday but that's ok. I am not expecting much right now because we are in the midst of slow season here, it's cold and icy and people are staying at home. There were two guys in there that two of my co workers occupied themselves with, I didn't think anything of it. One of the guys were STARING at me a lot but I ignored him because the girl sitting with him really demonstrated that he was "hers". And he was digging in between her ass cheeks while she was sitting next to him. I think that kind of behavior is silly and would never do that personally but some girls are desperate and dumb like that, whatever.......
So I am sitting at the bar, sipping on a coffee when he comes up and asks if he can sit next to me. I told him that he can sit down if he wants to, so he does. And then he asks the normal questions, my name and where I am from. Not even a few minutes go by and the girl that has been sitting with him comes up and starts whispering in his ear,
I could still hear some of it although she thought she was being discreet. She basically told him NOT to talk to me. I would NEVER ever do that. Guys that come into the club can talk and interact with whomever they want. That was not her husband. He clearly didn't want to talk to her anymore but she glued herself next to his side all night long.
I should add here that he had not gotten a lap dance from her either. But she was working him and getting her alcohol.
Well, then a little later I got up and went to the dressing room, a short while after that that same guy comes into the dressing room. A big no no. The dj stopped him and asked him what he was doing and the guy said that he was looking for the restroom. Clearly not since he had been in the club for a few hours at this point and already made at least one trip to the restroom. What he wanted was to follow me it seemed like.
Then I went on stage and after the stage I sat down on the couch and looked through a magazine. So he decided to come over and sit next to me. At this point I wasn't really interested in any interaction with him, he had been with the other girl all night and she was all over him. So I told him that he should go back and talk to her and that I didn't want to be involved in any drama. Then he proceeded to tell me that he didn't want anything to do with her, that she had told him earlier to get away from me when he approached me at the bar and that he did indeed follow me into the dressing room on purpose. Sigh......ok.
I was like, not at all interested in this dude and was wishing he could just go away and back to "his" girl at the bar. I continue reading the magazine while answering his questions. So then he wanted to know, "Why are you stripping, you are too pretty to do this". Well, that is kind of an insult in a way. I shouldn't be stripping because HE obviously thinks that there is something wrong with stripping (who are you, my Dad?) and also I am too pretty to strip (lame pick up line). So then what, only "ugly" women should strip? Then he told me that he works in the oil field and that he is really good at what he does and because of that I should be nice to him. Really? LOL.
I didn't even ask him for a dance because like I said I didn't want any of his drama plus he was being annoying, following me around the club and staring at me like he wanted to attack me or something. Yes, I know I look good, keep your composure at least a little, calm down boy!
And if you act like an annoying prick you can keep your money too cause I don't want it and I do not need it.
Then, OF COURSE he said, "You should give me your number." Note the SHOULD. Well, I do not give out my number and I do not pretend that I eventually will either......you know lead some guy on only to milk him for money with some lofty promises of a number, maybe. When people ask me for my number I tell them the truth, that I don't give it out. I am not in the club to find a one night stand or somebody to date, I am in there to make money. You are not getting my number! So when I politely declined, this asshole raised his voice and said, "Bitch, stop acting like your shit don't stink bitch!" Yeah. The thing is this, I do not tolerate when disrespectful idiots talk shit to me. All I did was tell him that I was not going to give him my number, that is my right.
So guess what, you are going to get kicked out. Go home and call your significant other ugly names if you have somebody at home waiting for you......and make sure you also inform her of that you wanted my number but didn't get it. And that you followed me around and acted like a desperate freak. I do not need some lousy disrespectful loser in my life. Why would I give a guy like that my number? Please.........leave me alone, I am not interested in anything you have to "offer", some limp penis or some money.
No thanks!
I am used to Crazy Horse Too in Vegas back in the day and/or Flashdancers in New York when I danced there. If some guy said anything nasty or disrespectful to us girls he would get kicked out right away, no matter who he thought he was and how much money he had spent or was willing to spend. If we got propositioned for sex we could notify a bouncer and the guy would be asked to leave. And at Crazy Horse Too any rude guy would be lucky if he didn't get roughed up a bit on his way out of the club.
Don't treat the girls badly!
So of course the girl that had been hanging on to this dumbass all night long got really upset when he had to leave the club. Then everything was MY fault all of a sudden. "Tatiana you are always such a bitch to the guys". "It's all about YOU Tatiana!" Really? This girl has stolen wallets from AT LEAST two guys in the club. Yes, STOLEN people's wallets. I would never ever do that.
If I find money on the floor or in the ATM I try to figure out who's it is first before I keep it. Really, if you don't believe me, ask somebody in there. This girl also poured some kind of a home made psychedelic mushroom/honey mix in at least one guys drink. Not that funny if you think about it, since he didn't know and didn't ask to get drugged which is illegal and dangerous btw. He could had harmed himself or others had he driven home that night high on mushrooms.
Or maybe gotten a drug induced psychosis, not everybody handles psychedelics well. She is also a very jealous person and thinks that just because she latches on to some guy that comes into the club that he is obligated to spend his money and attention on only her and will basically bully the guys into not talking to other girls, just like she did with me last night. THAT is not ok.
Talk about desperate and insecure. Oh and when she introduces herself to guys she often says, "I am XX the HO HO". (I am not putting her real name here.) That would be like me walking around saying, "Hi I am Tatiana the slut, are you ready for some fun in the naughty room now?" She refers to the area where we do the dances as "the naughty room" too. I mean really? Is it me or her that is BAD for business? Not to mention all the rules she happily breaks all the time when she does lap dances, I have written about her before. Yes, I WILL stand up for myself when some self important jerk thinks that he can call me names. You are mouthing off to the wrong girl buddy. But on the other hand, I don't steal from and drug guys that come in and I do not bully guys into talking to only me. I don't have to, most of them want to talk to me anyways.
Even when I want them to just leave me alone!
Oh and then she got on the phone and made plans to met up with him and his friend later.
Ok then........making money outside of the club too I see? Good for you! LOL.
Personally, I would feel pathetic if I had to get wasted every night at work, refer myself to as a ho in order to make any money and then meet up with different guys every night I work. Yeah, miserable life I have to say. I hope she is happy.
At this point I was annoyed with all the yelling and drama so I decided to leave.
Hey......do not go to a club thinking that any girl in there is required to give you ANYTHING and when she declines do not start calling her names. That is bullshit and should not be tolerated, ever.
I don't think that you can do that in other establishments where women work, so what makes some idiots think it should be ok to act like that in a strip club?

So yeah, that was my little story about the idiots from last night. I am over it now. I am laying in bed with Chhaya, feeling tired, full and lazy. Mustering up energy to take a shower, get ready and drive to work. Curious to see what neanderthals I will have the pleasure of encountering tonight. And with neanderthals I mean, men with the mentality of......"I see woman, I like woman, I take woman and drag by hair to cave (grunt grunt)". Or perhaps there will actually be some nice guys at work?

While sitting on the couch at work I often read. And think. Sometimes I sleep. Other times I take a ton of pictures of myself, so I can put them on my blog and make you happy! If you are wondering why I am wearing almost nothing in the pics, bra and panties and some heels......it's because that IS what I wear at work. I am not going to hide under a blanket so I can look "decent". I am already decent thank you very much.
So I read that the brand Lactacyd has a vagina whitening product out that is selling very well in Thailand and India. I remember Lactacyd from when I lived in Sweden, they made intimate soap that supposedly restored the natural ph balance down there. I don't know about that, maybe it works great for women that have very sensitive private parts. Then of course I heard about anal bleaching cream, you know.......who doesn't want a nice "clean looking" butthole? I think it got popular with porn actresses and even actors, gay guys in general are kind of vain (the ones I know at least) and the ones that do porn most certainly are, being viewed and scrutinized by many.
So now women are using some wash that promises to "safely" whiten the vagina. Hmmmmmm, maybe I should try it and make a before and after report here on the blog? LOL. I wonder if that product is for sale here at the super market? I have to check at Fred Meyer next time I go.......
But really, I think the stress over keeping your vagina white and your butthole bleached is just too much. I am certainly not stressed out over it. And to market this product so hard core in Asian countries and India where the majority of women have a different skin tone than the white Europeans is just wrong, I think. What is so bad with your own color? Nothing! What if your vagina actually does get a few shades lighter and stands out against the rest of your darker skin color? That if anything must be strange looking.
Just think of all the crazy things women do for "beauty". Like breast implants. Those are so common that nobody really cares anymore but if you think about it, putting two large objects in your chest is a chock for the body. And butt implants, I have seen a few of those and it looks weird. I would definitely tell somebody thinking about getting butt implants to reconsider.
But I am getting tired now, I am home, in bed after some hours at work, I had a cup of tea and now I am going to wash my face and go to sleep. And yes, I am a slave to beautifying products too, I glue on fake lashes (as seen in pics) and I like my MAC eye shadows and I also love my nighttime face cream by L'Occitane!

Today has been a great day so far. Me and Chhaya just got back from a one hour walk outside in the sunshine. I make hearts in the snow around here, it's my message to others kind of and also I think the heart symbol is cute.
I think I am going into work tonight, I am missing my girls at work.





So......I just came across an article that I absolutely agree with. Some guy named David Attenborough calls human kind the plague on the Earth and says that population growth will outsource resources and there will be a lack of space. I have always believed in population control myself. Many think that limiting the amount of children you have is like being told what to do by the government, like in China and everybody is free and can do whatever they want, right? Well, at least generally speaking in countries like the US and Sweden, two places I can say that I have lived long enough so I can make statements like these and feel like I am making a valid point. You know, we think we are FREE but are we REALLY? That's another subject in itself, lets' get back on track and talk some more about the 7 billion plus people that exist on the planet today.
I think one child, MAX two per woman. Not per couple since people get together and have children with a bunch of different people, PER WOMAN. And since gay males also want children (some of them) I would say they can adopt as many as they want, if they can provide a good home for the kids or get a surrogate that can give them one, MAX two kids. Of course certain circumstances like the death of a child would allow you to have another........But if you want more "because you just loooooove being a Mom" or "just looooooove children soooooo much" or "want to give the little monsters you already have a sibling" then STOP and THINK a little.
Don't be selfish, think about your children's future, yes even YOUR future, have you though of what this place that we call Earth might look like 10 -20 years from now if all that we do is reproduce and consume? If you really looooooove children so much then maybe you should look into taking in a foster child or adopting a child. Plenty of unwanted children out there that long for somebody of quality to love them and give them a home. And with somebody of quality I mean, a family or a single parent that is willing to put in the time and effort it takes to be a good parent. People that reproduce and have no means to care for their children and rely on the state (welfare) for assistance or abuse their children I do not respect at all. Just because you squeeze out a child doesn't mean that you are a parent, you gave life - now take responsibility for it!
And to mention the article, some other guy name Paul Ehrlich says, "government propaganda, taxes, giving every sexually active human being access to modern contraception and backup abortion, and, especially, giving women absolutely equal rights and opportunities with men might very well get the global population shrinkage required if a collapse is to be avoided". Again......I absolutely agree.
And to quote another person from the same article, Jerry Karnas, "what's needed is not population control but a real emphasis on reproductive rights, women's empowerment, universal access to birth control and education, so more freedom for folks to make better, more informed family planning choices." Yes, ok he is mentioning reproductive rights. I do not think every idiot out there should have the right to reproduce, no I don't.......sorry. That goes back to that I do not think that every person is fit to be a parent. If you have no control over your own life, if it's spiraling out of control, if you are heavily addicted to drugs and/or alcohol, if you don't have an income then HOW are you going to be a quality parent? How? Shape up, get on track, make some positive changes and then think about having a baby.
I have a very good friend in Sweden, she is married and has two boys. A while back she mentioned that she would like to have another child, a girl because she wants a girl and also she misses the time when her boys were babies. So......I gave her some of my thoughts.......what I think about having what I think are too many kids and the present problem with what I believe is an over populated planet. If she wants a girl she can adopt one, I think. Then at least she will get a girl for sure.
And you know, having a difference of opinions and beliefs doesn't mean that you can't be friends. I welcome people into my life that are open to discussion, then I can learn something of value hopefully and keep and open and always evolving mind.
But you know.......the issue with over population......it is definitely a very important subject.
You might not think about it too much but you should. And I think that every adult has a responsibility to do something positive for the Earth, something. THINK a little, don't just barge through life like you don't care about anything or anyone but yourself. Don't take life on Earth for granted!

Read the article I am referring to here

So last week when I was at the gym on the elliptical about ten minutes into a 30 minute session, a guy comes over and gets on the elliptical right next to me. There are four elliptical machines downstairs, two of one kind and two of another and then there are some upstairs too. He said that the ones upstairs were taken, I was all alone in that room before he came in. Well, after about a minute into his workout he starts making these loud sounds, like a cross between porn movie sounds and being in pain. I was like.......WTF?! It was really annoying and kind of disgusting too.
I am not sure what level he set his elliptical on but if I can handle doing the hill option on level 16 (out of 20) without moaning then I think a skinny guy in his 30's (I'm guessing) should be fully capable of the same thing. Unless he is sick or something......or thinks that making sounds like that is somehow sexy. NOT! It even says in the gym that you should refrain from making loud and inappropriate sounds because it actually IS disturbing. Ok if you lift a heavy weight and make a grunt - whatever. This thing was on the elliptical next to me for 17 minutes moaning non stop. I finally had enough and cut my session three minutes short plus Angelica called me and I had to be able to hear her instead of his porno moans.
Ewwwwww........ would be the best way to describe that experience. If he ever comes around again I am leaving that area, I'd rather not listen to that and get PTSD or something.

So last night I painted my toenails.......I wanted to get the look of a french pedicure but with pink as the base color and gold as the stripe. Maybe not the best looking french pedi but hey I did it myself so it was FREE instead of $ 40. And not the best pic of my pedicure but that's all I got for now.......



Earlier today I went and got my vanilla latte and a blackberry muffin.......



Then when I got home I got my tickets for EDC.......in Chicago and I am going with Angelica! I am so looking forward to it, to sum it up, it's going to be wild, crazy and fun. I have never been to Chicago before and I miss my friend that I haven't seen for too long now.



After that me and Chhaya ventured out for a walk, then I went to the gym. Now I am going to relax with some yummy ice cream and later I am going to organize my closet......I'll probably stay up until 3 or 4 am. Just took a pic of my new pedi with Chhaya's cute feet, she is laying in bed with me.