Welcome to Chaos !!

I am soooooo tired, it's 6 am and it took forever to get home from work tonight, had to wait a long time for both trains. I met a Swedish girl at work tonight! That was fun! We were talking in Swedish, her name is Bella and she is from Göteborg but lives in NY now. This is actually the first time I have met another girl from Sweden dancing and it was her first time too. I am sure there are some out there, I just haven't met them........
I am going to meet another Bella on Monday. A girl that reads my blog, she is here working too.
I have to sleep now, getting up early tomorrow, going to a museum. How was work? Don't even ask........lol.

Yeeeeeay, change of scenery! I worked at New York Dolls tonight and I like it much better than the awful Private Eyes. I did ok, nothing fantastic but ok. Private Eyes was not even ok any of the four nights I was tortured there. New York Dolls is located down in the financial district.
It's a small club, kind of. It got crowded with too many girls (of course) and guys. You have to pay $ 100 to work and tip out $ 20 to the dj and about $ 10 to the house mom, same as Private Eyes. I had to buy a "Christmas themed" dress to wear for the evening. My long dress is purple and does not look Christmasy, neither does my short black one so I got a short silver sparkly one, cute. But it cost $ 80 and it's not like I need to waste any money on dresses for work now after making basically nothing at Private Eyes and missing out on work because I was sick. Anyways!
I think I am going to stick with this club until I leave next week. Another good thing is that this club is closer to where I live and right next to the subway station, so I don't have to be walking anywhere far at 4 30 am. That is the last thing I want to do when I get off work, take a long walk through the city, no thanks. I am going to sleep now, I am tired.

What do you mean I can't work in this club? But I am NUMBER ONE in my village!!! Bilo breaks out of the cage to get me every time he sees me!

Spent the day out and about around town today, just me and my latte, strolling around shopping and being a tourist......taking pictures.
I kind of want a pair of boots from Aldo, funny thing is that they sell for $ 160 in the store and you can get them online for $ 98! So, getting them in the store is a total ripoff unless you need to wear them right away.......cute or no? Do I need? I think yes......! Maybe Santa can bring me them?



What I really want Santa to bring me are the leather pants (L-RIMMON) I am in love with at Diesel, my fave store btw. Has been forever. The pants are so sexy! I NEED! I doubt they are cheaper online though. I have been sooooooo nice this year, I think Santa should pay attention to me!



There are lots of people out and about. Especially around this place, Times Square.



I don't think I would like to be here at New Years to watch the famous ball drop. That doesn't seem like fun. Wait for a ball to drop together with a thick crowd of people in the cold......ummmmmm no. But then, I love being in large crowds of people at raves on New Years, so to each their own.
I was hoping Keoki would be in town, he lives in New York, Brooklyn actually and I am staying in Brooklyn. It would be fun to see him dj plus I haven't seen him in a while. But he told me he is spending the winter in LA.......so another time, another place.

Saw two guys with their pants sagging so low you could see their whole butt cheeks (in underwear) sticking out. That is DEFINITELY a look that is so WAY past due retirement. People say UGGS should retire.......whatever, at least UGGS are functional and comfortable and can look cute if paired with the right outfit.
This just looks so ridiculous and totally lame. Is it even comfortable, I don't think so. Pull your pants up already!



Took the F train home........



There are lots of homeless sleeping on the subway at night I noticed. Maybe because it is warmer and they can be left alone pretty much?
Like this person. He or she had a bad toe. I felt bad. I've given a little bit of money to people that said they were hungry so far.





Speaking of hungry.......I can't wait for breakfast! I think I am going to have lentil soup tomorrow, yum!

I saw a girl the other night at work with butt implants. She was a petite girl and her butt looked really nice underneath her dress, like a little bubble but when the dress came off.......NOT SO MUCH! When she was on stage I couldn't help but looking at her butt, not because it looked good but because it looked soooooo weird.
Like the shape and it appeared uneven and lumpy. I have seen a few butt implants over the years and to me it doesn't look great once the jeans or the dress or whatever comes off. I don't know about butt implants, it seems like a very invasive surgery and you sit on your ass a lot so I am thinking it must feel strange or uncomfortable? And why would anybody get a butt implant? Do you do it for yourself because you really wish to have a bigger butt or a rounder butt or do you do it to look more appealing to men? I thought of that girl at work because when I logged in today this article popped up about some other woman and her butt implant. I don't think it's worth it personally. You have to think down the line when you are 60 and schlep around two old implants in your behind......

http://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/health/woman-bares-botched-butt-implants-horrifying-video-article-1.1210114

Anyhow, me and my butt are leaving to go and eat now. I just blew out a bunch of green snot through my nose and coughed up some green hard mucous so I am good to go!

It really sucks to be sick while away from home, in New York City of all places. I left work an hour earlier tonight because I was cold and felt bad. Not that I was leaving any excitement.
Private Eyes sucks! What a trap. At least I am not making any money there. Right now I am so over it, it's money and I will make it back. But right now I am sick and tired of asking people for dances and be at their "mercy" to whether I am going to make my house fee that night and what kind of profit on top of that. Fuck it, really, it's so lame. Sure it can be fun (lots of fun even) sometimes and I do meet nice people, have met a few nice ones here in New York too. But I am not going to sit in people's laps, endure some groping with a fake smile plastered on my face hoping to get a $ 20 dance. No thanks.
I talked to one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen dancing and in real life. I saw her last Thursday and I was like "OMG"! I thought she was from Estonia because somebody said so but she is from Russia. 24, my height but probably at least 15 lbs lighter, absolutely beautiful, flawless body and a very pretty face. We talked while I was getting dressed. She asked me why I wasn't at Flashdancers because she thought I was so pretty and should be there. She said I would fit right in. Well, so I told her that they had told me that they have too many girls now and she said that this is correct and that about two months ago there were way less girls there.
She works at Private Eyes once a week (the other nights at Flashdancers) and she hates it, she thinks the money is bad. If I was a guest in the club I would had dropped all my money on this beautiful girl. She models too. She has been in the US for three years. I want to bring her back to Alaska with me! She said that when she saw me last Thursday she thought I looked beautiful. That is a nice compliment coming from her, like I said, one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen. I do not feel at all beautiful now......
I feel like I have aged five years because I am sick AND working. When I look in the mirror I don't see me, I see something else.
I am not going to complain about working here anymore, it is what it is. Unless something changes for the better or I go to another club, then I will mention it. I have fun during the day in New York and now I am going to to and sleep, looking forward to my breakfast already!