Welcome to Chaos !!

Just got home. Chilly out, only 42˚ F according to some thermometer I passed on my way home.
Work was kind of sloooow, a very slow start at least. Had some minor drama with a girl that did not want to go on stage after me because she "didn't want Tatiana to take all the money". Really? Like guys only tip one girl and that's it. It's not like they sit and wait just for me and then throw all their money on me, well majority of them don't at least, it would be nice if that was the case though. Usually I let girls go ahead of me when they ask, I've done that before but this girl annoys me, she talks shit, has a bad attitude and does dirty lap dances, so why should I help her out? DA NANG!
Yesterday I went to the movies with Lexi, we saw Rock Of Ages . Lots of singing, because it's a musical with 80's Rock music. I liked it, it was entertaining and they sang "I Want to Know What Love Is" by Foreigner - I LOVE that song! I also liked the strip club scenes in the movie, nice showcase of talent. I think we are going to the movies next week again.
But I am going to bed now.......feeling sleepy.

Here are three brand new pics that Barry Gallegos took of me at a super nice house when I was in Vegas a few weeks ago.
You like? I do. Me and Barry have fun shooting, we have a few future shoots planned that I am looking forward to.
There are more pics from this shoot that I will put up soon, I don't want to put up all at once.......

After a week or so of absolutely gorgeous weather it is pouring down. And according to the weather forecast it will do so for the reminder of the week.
Fun! Not. It is coming down pretty hard right now, I was hoping to go running again today but not if it's raining like this.......but it might slow down in a few hours, I can only hope. Because it is dreary outside right now.
Work last night was slow but kind of fun, lots of laughing and joking around. It is funny how you go from taking home $ 800 one night (that is AFTER all the tip outs) to making a "meager" $ 100 the following night. Dancers usually tip out a lot and it also depends on the the club. Some clubs have a fixed price, like Heartbreakers for example, last time I worked there it was $ 120 to work. And out of that $ 20 went to the dj. Though he was hustling (aggressively) for extra tips from us girls all night long and some of the girls also made the guys tip the bouncers to allow them to be "naughty". LOL! Really? Not me (do I really have to mention this?)
I think the dj there (at Heartbreakers) makes plenty, depending on how many girls show up in a night but he averages just from the $ 20 he gets from each girl about $ 300/night, if there are 15 girls in the club, sometimes there are more girls. Whether he makes an hourly salary from the club I don't know. And he doesn't work as hard, in my opinion as the dancers, going on stage, asking for dances, doing lap dances, walking in very high heels, getting ready for work - showering, make up, investing in outfits for work etc.
But the dancers don't make a salary. Very FEW clubs pay the girls a salary and in every club I have worked the girls had to pay the club to work there and tip the dj and sometimes the rest of the staff too, bouncers, bartenders, cocktail waitresses etc.
In some clubs the tip out depends on how well you did that night, I think I prefer those clubs, unless I would work in a club where I would make good money EVERY night, like I did in New York City for example. But most clubs are pretty inconsistent, some nights can be bad, average, good or excellent and some you actually leave with no more than $ 20. And when I say I made $ 800 the other night, that means I tipped out about $ 200, so I really made $ 1000.
But the good thing about working in a club where the tip out depends on your total earnings is that when you do have a bad night, you don't have tip tip out anything or very little.
And when you work in a club with a fixed price a bad night doesn't matter, you still need to pay the club whatever they charge you to work, regardless of how much you make that night. Does my explanation make sense?
There are actually some clubs being sued right now by dancers that presented to the court that they did not get any hourly wages to work at the club and still had to pay the club to work and tip out to the staff and also got fined for various stuff, like being late for stage etc. And the court has found in favor of the dancers!
I need to look into the details of a certain recent case I've heard of and when I find out more I can blog about it.
Unfortunately some clubs really take advantage of the dancers in a bad way. Like at Flashdancers in New York, when I worked there you made your schedule a week in advance. If you happened to be sick during any of the scheduled days you had to pay the club a fine of $ 100 each day! That is pretty steep and I am not aware of any other workplace that endorses that practice. I actually came down with a bad cold while working there and missed two of my scheduled days, that cost me $ 200. If you get a cold or the flu it is difficult to make a quick recovery since many of the clubs keep it pretty cold inside and the girls wear next to nothing while in there.
I am also aware of other clubs that fine you for showing up late for work, for not making your stage on time and calling in sick. I think that is wrong so I do hope that the club owners rethink their practices or more girls will sue and most likely win due to employment regulations and guidelines
that also encompass dancers, though certain clubs think that they can treat the girls like crap.
The club owners should realize that without girls willing to work there, it would only be a regular bar, it is the girls that draw the crowd and the girls should be appreciated. A lot of times you are treated like commodity, just another body.
I stay away from clubs that take too much of your income from you, some places just take so much that it is not worth my time being there.
Also, I don't think that the girls should tip out to the bartender and/or the cocktail waitresses. They make their own tips and don't share THEIR tips with me, so why should I give part of my money to them? Also many of them make an hourly wage, I don't. I do not mind tipping the dj. I gladly do that.
And one more thing before I go.......some girls claim that they ALWAYS make good money, even on a slow night. Yap, yap, yap - stripper chatter.
If the club is near empty and there are more girls there than guys some girls will not make a lot that night. To claim that you always bank because you are SUCH a good hustler or SOOOOO beautiful is just lame and a lie. I have bad nights sometimes but I don't care and I am not too shabby to look at.
Now if I had a bad night every night, that would be a problem. I would change clubs or take a look at myself and decide whether I should continue dancing or not. But I do not "hustle" to make money. Either you want a dance from me or not - it is that simple.
And I think that clubs definitely should hire quality girls over quantity. Quality girls are better for business. And usually, with a strong emphasis on the usually, quality girls are classier and less nasty than the not so good looking and trashy girls. Though I have seen pretty girls do some nasty stuff and that always amazes me. With quality I mean not only a certain level of attractiveness but also the way you carry yourself. And I do not dance because I thrive on getting attention from men, I am used to that and I really don't care. I am dancing because I can support myself by doing so and I also like the freedom it brings me and more often than not I have fun doing it, even though I do encounter annoying guys on a regular basis at work.
Well, it is still raining. I am going to try and download some sings onto my iPod now.

Tatiana got up around 12 30 PM, fed Chhaya and drove into town to do some errands and get that fritter and a latte.
Came home and ate some food. Includidng that fritter for dessert.



After a short siesta it was time for Chhaya's walk, though it was drizzling out and after that Tatiana went for a 25 minute run. It felt great.....afterwards.
Right now Tatiana is sipping on some hot tea with lemon and sugar. Soon it will be time to prep for another night at work.

Tatiana is back home in bed after a (good) night at work. She is already thinking about her apple fritter and her latte that she will go and get as soon as she wakes up. It was raining when she got off work, hopefully it will be nice around noon, because that's probably when she will be waking up.
The sun was rising when Tatiana was driving home, the sky was a beautiful blood orange red.
But now.....time to cuddle up against a warm and snoring Chhaya and enjoy some sleep.

Friday afternoon and super nice out again. I feel a little tired today but I did go and get my latte and a blueberry scone earlier. Soon I am taking Chhaya out, might even go for a run later. Working tonight and probably all weekend. "The pick of the litter", meaning I - have to make an appearance so people don't get disappointed.......

Just wanted to write about something while it is still fresh in my mind. Had a friend call me today. She was somewhat upset. A guy she has been seeing on and off since last fall slept with one of her friends. Some girl she had introduced him to and they hung out together a few times. My friend and this girl spent lots of time together for a few months, the girl seemed very nice, she was into yoga, spirituality, she seemed happily married with two kids. And then she kind of withdrew and started avoiding my friend. And now the truth comes out, she slept with my friends guy. I don't know if it happened more than once but it happened. That is not ok. They are old enough to know better. I told my friend to dump the guy right away, I never really liked him, he is young and very immature, too unpolished. My girlfriend says he is well endowed but whatever he has in between his legs he lacks in all the other departments. A big schlong oly goes so far and then it becomes annoying. You can't have any meaningful conversations with a schlong. Actually, I don't like really big schlongs - they don't fit.
And what I think is really pathetic is that this girl, the married one, puts up all kinds of happy stuff of her loving husband on Facebook, showing everyone how perfect and loving their marriage is etc. And then she gets with my friends guy.
BARF!!! Fake hypocrite! I think that most people put the fakest stuff on Facebook, it is kind of lame. Things are always great and they all fish for some kind of positive reinforcement and compliments, not all but many do. I don't put a lot of stuff up there, I spend way more time on my blog where I think I can express who I really am, good and bad instead of some limited Facebook stuff. But my Mom is on Facebook and that's kind of how she keeps tabs on me, she doesn't look at my blog too much because she does not read English. But really, first you put up a bunch of bullshit crap about your "happy" marriage so all of your hundreds of (fake) Facebook friends can ooooooh and aaaaaah over what a cute, loving couple you are and then you fuck my friends guy? LAME! NASTY! SHADY! If that was me, I would not hesitate to notify the loving husband of this little indiscretion. I am not ok with people sleeping with a friends guy or girl. That is a road you don't walk down. Unless they broke up, some time goes by and maybe you check if everybody is ok with it first.
Have I ever cheated? Yes. I was a teenager and I did cheat on my boyfriend with one of his friends. I did! As in making out, we didn't go all the way.....
I want to specify that. And I regret it TO THIS DAY, even though it's been so long ago. I was dumb. He found out, broke up with me and then we tried to make it work again. We are still friends. He, my ex boyfriend is a great guy. And yes, sometimes I do wonder about what would had came out of our relationship if that would not had happened. But we were young, he was 16 when I met him and I was like a year older.
Have I ever been cheated on? Yes. The guy I had after the boyfriend I cheated on, cheated on me. We were together for a while, I think almost three years. Or was it two?
I found out that he cheated but stayed with him. And then we moved in together, he was too immature, he thought I was going to take care of him like his Mother. And I wouldn't have any of that. I got annoyed with him and that grew into resentment. I ended up moving back home to my Mom and broke up with him. It took him years to get over me, he eventually met another girl and had two kids. We are still friends. I tend to stay friendly with my exes, why not? Unless they did something absolutely unforgivable so you can't stay friends. Like steal my Hello Kitty necklaces or something. But other than that, when you grow close to a person I'd rather still have them in my life as a friend even after you brake up. If you had a meaningful relationship where you would actually miss them as a friend. Another boyfriend I had also cheated, well he tried to at least, he did some dishonest stuff. We were together longer than we should had, the last few years we were more like best friends that a couple, that's why it dragged on. And he had some problems and I felt like I couldn't leave him because I was worried about him. But you live and learn.
Basically, even though I did it once as a teenager, don't go for your friends guy or girl. That is a big no no.
And lay off with the fake and lame Facebook posts, especially if they don't depict the truth.

That's it for now. I am going outside, the sun is shining.