Death & Taxes

So I sent my taxes away today. I went to the post office first but the line was longer than the lines usually are around Christmas time and when I saw that I turned around and went to UPS instead. No line there. I really do not like the lines at the post office (who does?) and I did not have the time or patience for that today. So the taxes are done and sent.
Last week while driving home from work I came very close to hitting a moose with my car. It was standing in the middle of the road, in between both lanes (two lane highway). I saw it when I was basically right upon it, the moose looked at me, it's head turned towards the car. I screamed and quickly merged sharply to the right and then back onto the road again. Very close call. Now I am paying even more attention to the roads than before, always high beams at night, unless there are other cars present and I drive slower than the 55 MPH limit. I would had been SO UPSET if I would had hit that moose. For the moose's sake, I do not want to injure an animal. That was the second time I almost hit a moose here in Alaska. Another time a moose just walked out on the road and I had to quickly merge then too. And last year some freak driving in the opposite lane decided to leave the lane they were in to come into my lane, going straight towards my car. It would had been a head on collision and their car would had been totaled since I was driving a large truck. I quickly turned onto the shoulder and barely avoided that accident. Scary.
I have been thinking about death a lot lately. About the purpose of existing. Just to be born, grow old (if you are fortunate or unfortunate to grow old depending on how you look at it), consume and then die? There must be something else. I hope there is something else. So I can be reunited with everybody that ever meant anything to me and Chhaya of course. Because that is what I fear the most in life, to be forever separated from the ones I love and care about, the thought of that is almost unbearable. Life is fragile and at least I take it for granted a lot. Anything can happen. Look what happened in Boston today, nobody expected that. Yet in some places in the world death is always present, in a different more direct way than in my reality. I wish we could live forever. And since that is not possible (here on Earth) I wish and hope to continue forever somewhere else, in a different reality. With Chhaya by my side.