So Far - BAD

I am very disappointed so far with this adventure in South Dakota. The earnings have been really bad, for example I made $86 last night. That is absolutely NOT ok. And it wasn't only me, I think all girls I worked with last night, with maybe one exception hovered around that amount.
There are not enough people coming through and the people that are there, don't spend. I can make more than that at home just on stage, without having to worry about expenses like air fare, rental car and motel room. And being away from Chhaya. So far I am NOT happy.
After sitting and observing the stuff going on in the club last night I felt sad. Men are behaving like total IDIOTS here and majority of them are married because they wear wedding bands. They seem to lose all common sense here and think they can do and say whatever. If that was my boyfriend or husband I would had left the guy. I believe that if you are in a relationship you should honor the commitment you have to the other person and act respectfully even if your partner is out of sight. It's ok to have fun but there is a difference between fun and behaving nasty.
But the girls that I work with allow this behavior which makes me even more sad........
There is absolutely NO REASON for girls that dance to act crazy like this, downright dirty and embarrassing. One girl, while on stage, took one of her saggy boobs, sucked on it, then put it in the mouth of some guy on stage, then he sucked on it and then she put that boob back in her mouth.
I felt sick to my stomach. The guys see this and think that all of us act this way. So then they think that I am no fun and stuck up because I would never in my life do that.
And she did it on stage for a few bucks. Makes me wonder what she does during a lap dance.
Some other girl went on stage, yelled a bunch of obscenities about pussy and ass, then got off the stage naked while chugging a beer. It's just too trashy for me. Yeah, you might think that I am stuck up but I really don't care. I'd rather be perceived as stuck up than trashy. I like clubs where girls act classy and don't crawl all over guys with their VAGINES in people's faces - to me that's gross. I made a mistake coming here and now I have learned my lesson.
I should had listened to my friend Kiko and went to another town about 30 miles from here but I didn't have the number to the guy that owns the place. Well Kiko managed to get it for me yesterday but he can't get me in until the 26th. And that's not going to work for me.
Supposedly this weekend is going to be very busy here in Dallas but I am not expecting anything at this point.
Besides this I am good. Now I am going to go for a run in the park before getting ready for another night here. You never know, it might be ok tonight. If not - oh well......I can't do more than being true to myself.