Scary Stuff

It's late here in Kenai - pitch black and 46 degrees outside. After working six nights in a row, I decided, after some hesitation to stay home tonight.
Halloween is coming up and I can't wait to go to one or a few Haunted Houses in Vegas, I love that feeling of being scared. I scream really loud when I go through Haunted Houses, it is so much fun. Only been to one here in Alaska, back in 2009 and that one was in Wasilla. And it was a good one!
Speaking of scary, I remember watching some kind of a Dracula movie when I was little, it made me so spooked I couldn't sleep for a while. I thought Dracula was going to come and get me.
The Hulk tv series also made me scared, I used to imaging that the Hulk was lurking in the dark corners of my room even though I knew that he really was a nice monster, but he looked really scary to me back then.
When I was 13 I watched Evil Dead with a friend at her house, well about 30 minutes of it, then her Dad came home and made us turn it off - I STILL have flashbacks to that movie, talk about a scared 13 year old!
Now I do like to watch scary movies, well part of me does, I am fascinated with them and part of me thinks that I shouldn't subject my mind to them because they somehow affect me on a deeper level. I also think that certain movies like the Hostel movies and the Saw movies can fuel already disturbed people and actually trigger them to go out and do something similar.
At least it worries me.
Now I am kind of tempted to watch three movies that I have heard about, don't know if any of you have heard of them or seen them.....
A Serbian Film - this film is banned in a few countries. I am tempted to watch it but that doesn't mean that I will. I am scared that I would be too traumatized by it. It has extremely graphic, very disturbing and sickening scenes in it, rape, raping of children, even infants, necrophilia.
At the first ever screening of the film a couple of years ago, audience members were coaxed to go on the stage — "where they jointly snorted lines of salt, squeezed lime juice into their eyes and took shots of tequila in order to "understand what Serbians have been through to create a culture of A Serbian Film".
That makes me remember when the war in former Yugoslavia was going on. I heard many stories from people I knew in Sweden, some Serbs, some Croatians, other Macedonians or Bosnians, a few had some violent and crazy horror stories about the war in former Yugoslavia where people seemingly had lived peacefully and coexisting and then when the war broke out they turned on each other in the most horrific ways.
Yes, I heard my share of stories......my boyfriend for some time was Serbian, although born in Sweden and I always thought that Serbians sure knew how to lay in on thick when lamenting on and on about the war, making sure they were always painted out as the victims. And to be fair, many Serbs did suffer during the war. But they were also committing some serious harm. The notorious Serbian Mafia is known for spreading it's filth and scare tactics around Europe, the were absolutely present in Sweden, mentioned in many novels, for example in Stieg Larson's books about Lisbet Salander - on of my personal heroes.
As far as The Serbian Film goes, I believe it is legal in the US, though it was pulled from Netflix. I am wondering if the scenes with raping children and even a baby would somehow make the movie illegal to watch? I know that they could not possibly have really raped a child and a baby on camera but I guess it is depicted like they do by the actors.
Another movie I want to watch and that I am going to watch is The Human Centipede . There is a sequel to it too, might watch that one too depending on how I react to the first one. Two very controversial movies as well.
The third movie is Cannibal Holocaust . Actually the director was charged with making a snuff film right after the movie premiered but was later cleared on the charges, that it pretty crazy! The only reason I most likely will refrain from watching it is because they did kill some animals on purpose in the film, some of the actors cried during the scenes. I know I won't be able handle that.
I should probably clarify here that I would never watch a real snuff film or any footage with real child pornography/rape. Of course not!
I wouldn't know where to find such material neither would I want to. The films I have mentioned are all available for viewing in the US -legally.
But you should keep in mind that some of the porn out there is basically rape. At least that's how I see it. Sure the girls are supposedly 18 but I think many of them hardly know what they are getting themselves into. Some get drunk or drug themselves to be numb and loosen up. To me that's rape even though I guess legally it would count as consensual sex. I think it is a rape of your soul. Not to mention a violation of your body. But to each their own. I have said it before in discussing porn, I think they should up the age for girls from 18 to about 23, so the girls that get involved in that business are more mature to make a decision regarding if they should subject themselves to all what the porn industry entails.
Enough gore for now. It's Sunday and I will say my prayers before I go to sleep tonight.