Welcome to Chaos !!

About 15 minutes ago I clicked on a video that showed a group of men on duty as correctional officers using violence on a handcuffed inmate that lead to the inmate's death. His name was Robert Brooks. He passed away December 10. There are yet no arrests in the murder of Robert Brooks. No perp walk. No flyers up with the faces of these men that ganged up on one handcuffed person and murdered him. They kicked and punched him for a while. He was probably scared and in a lot of pain. Truly abhorrent. What else have these individulas done to other prisoners or other people out in society that is not known? Yes I know that Mr. Brooks was incarcerated for assault but what did he do to get handed that treatment earlier this month?
Meanwhile Luigi Mangione shot and killed the CEO of UnitedHealthcare, Brian Thompson on December 4. The difference in how the deaths of the two victims are handled is very obvious. The spectacle surrounding his arrest looked like a movie scene. Way exagerrated. Obviously a warning from the insurance companies to the public to think twice before trying to do something similar. We will find you and charge you with murder and terrorism so you might face the death penalty.
Yeah I am on team Luigi. Yes I think what he did was wrong BUT what role did Brian Thompson have in thousands of people not getting proper healthcare that ultimatly lead to suffering and/or death? I totally understand why some see Luigi as a hero. I doubt Luigi has been shooting people for fun prior to shooting Mr. Thompson.
The problem lies with US healthcare and insurance companies and how much people suffer physically, mentally and financially from the impact of this severely flawed system.
According to The Guardian, "In a new poll, more than two-thirds of respondents said they believed denials of coverage and profits in the health insurance industry were partially responsible for the killing of Brian Thompson, the UnitedHealthcare CEO, in early December".
You can clearly see that justice has a price tag attached to it. There is no justice for many. People with money can buy freedom and special treatment. Is anyone suprised that people are angry? I am suprised that there has not been a revolution yet? But as long as people can watch football in giant stadiums or on giant TVs and sip on beer and soda and stuff themselves with hot dogs they are OK. Why rattle the OK? 
Yeah my life will go on......we all struggle along in this wheel of life/suffering. People say that money does not buy happiness. I can guarantee you that money makes life a lot easier in many ways. When things are easier it is also easier to feel happy.
I would rather sit around at a spa several times/week for a few hours and hang out with Kaya at home later than go to work in order to keep a roof over my head. 
Anyways.....I am disappointed in humanity in general. In case you haven't noticed yet.

It was Christmas Eve afternoon and I was in Portland jetting around trying to get things done.
I met up with a friend to exchange pleasantries, we happened to meet up very close to where I had to return an item last month. An item that belonged to my friend that passed away.
I realized this when I was done with my meeting. It had been raining pretty heavy for at least an hour when I started driving away from the area, the feelings associated with my friend's passing washed over me and I started crying. I saw the sun peek out and I just knew there would be a rainbow and a few minutes later I saw it, the rainbow.
I quickly pulled over on a side street and ended up by a field with a view of the whole rainbow.
I stepped out of the car and looked down, I saw a penny in the dirt. I don't know if you heard of pennies from heaven. Pennies are associated (for some) with a sign from a deceased loved one. The penny and the combination of the location and the rainbow made me feel like this was a sign from my friend. It started drizzling, I stood there in the field crying and talking to my friend until the rainbow faded away into the sky. This is a dificult time for me. You do not understand what grief is until you experience it yourself. I am constantly reminded about the situation due to a practical matter pertaining my friend that I am overseeing. That does not make it easier.
In October when my beloved Senna passed away I saw a beautiful rainbow the day it happend, that was a message from Senna. I miss her so much. She was perfect. I do not know how much more my heart and soul can take.

The penny. And a rock that I carry around that belonged to my friend.

Kaya and her friends, she is so pretty. Beautiful. Amazing. Smart. Cuddly. Loving. I love her so much. Please never leave me.
It has been raining since Christmas Eve and we have been cooped up inside. That makes me feel bad for her. I don't know if I will ever celebrate Christmas the way I used to. Decorate and make an effort. I might skip out on the gifts next year as well. It's just is what it is.
Feeling dejected. What makes me happy is animals, reading, drinking a tea or latte while talking to a friend, a yummy dessert, nature, walking dogs, sleeping, doing nothing while feeling peaceful, helping others. Simple stuff yet at times not always available depending on how you feel or the situation.

I am not feeling very Christmassy at all. The magic of the Christmases in the past, especially childhood ones is gone. I guess reality has arrived and is here to stay. But I do recall the magic of Christmas and it can be and is special and I wish that magic to be felt by everyone if they so want. Not everybody celebrates Christmas but for the ones that do, I hope they get to feel that magic.
I still had a good day. I started my day in Lake Oswego which is a bit outside Portland. Met up with a friend.

Then I drove to Portland to set up for Pet Pack at the Portland Art Museum. We (the Pet Pack crew) give out dog and cat food and supplies to the people that need extra help to care for their pets. We crammed everything we needed into three vehicles. More stuff will arrive before Christmas Day when the event takes place, I am not participating in that this year. There will be meals served and stuff given away. People work hard to make this happen. 

It rained for a large chunk of the day and I spent a large chunk of my day in bed watching the yearly Swedish Christmas TV calender. The theme changes yearly, this year it is called Snödrömmar (dreams of snow or snow dreams) and it is the first time there is a Sami theme. I really like it. Talks about respecting nature and listening to nature and the animals. And I have also been stuck on a Netflix show that I started watching the other day.
I am trying to convince myself to take a bath before I turn off the lights and all the devices for the night but I am feeling lazy. Just me and Kaya. I am in my thoughts a lot and feelings of sadness. It feels good to just be home. I love being at home. It is quiet and nobody is looking at me.

With Trump (and Elon) stepping into the White House again in January for another four year term (unless anything changes) there have been some new positions created and some new people getting jobs. Quite interesting, or should I say a mix of comical and WTF is happening?
Like the new ambassador to Greece, Kimberly Guilfoyle......does she even speak Greek?
I have to check, hmmmmm she has a Puerto Rican Mom and an Irish Dad. Ok, what are the chances that Kimberly learned to speak Greek at some point? In case you do not know, Kimberly is enaged to Donald Trump Jr. although it is rumored that the engagement is on its last leg because Junior has a new girlfriend. A newer model, following his Dad's footsteps.
So Trump Senior decided to make Kimberly the ambassador to Greece maybe as a band aid for his son's wandering eye.  Like here you go now please go away.
Then we have the new ambassador to France, Charles Kushner. Does Charles speak French? He is Donald Trump's daugter's father in law, keep it in the family!
So......I think Trump should take a chance on me! In case you do not know that is the title of an Abba song.
I can do three jobs at once. I can be the ambassador to both Sweden and Poland and the ambassador to all the US exotic dancers. Do I qualify for this? Yes I believe so. I am fluent in Swedish and Polish. I would like to know if the ambassadors to Greece and France are fluent in Greek and French? I have spent time in both Sweden and Poland, so I am familiar with the cultures. I can even help Kushner with the French should he need help. Just like Melania, I am too a polyglot. Kind of. I mean a true polyglot should master like five or six languages according to many linguists. Master is the key word, knowing a few words in a language does not cut it. I can master two, I am good in one, ok in a fourth, I can pass by in a fifth and then I know some random words and phrases in other languages. So, not a true polyglot then.  
Melania got me beat. 😉
As far as the exotic dancers......well you know the answer to that one. I surely am well above and beyond qualified for all three positions. I think it is time to put a stripper pole in the Oval Office (a nice one that rotates with fun lights) and we can read the daily press briefings while dancing. Or sitting down resting against the pole. I think that Trump will be very pleased.
So somebody needs to notify Donald Trump that there is a Tati that he should take a chance on. And one more thing.....Trump said that there would be no more taxes on tips. Let's see if that happens. I mean he should be held to his word on all the promises made. Please do not tell me that he was promising things just to get votes......