I'm Vain - 10

These pictures make me soooooo happy and proud. I am proud that my baby Chhaya is so pretty, so fun, so willing to do whatever I ask of her. I am immensely grateful that she is in my life. My best friend. I love her so much!!!















Photographer Eye on Alaska.

So it's time for Tatiana to go back to work tonight.......noooooooooo!!!!! She has not been since last Saturday and from what she's heard it's been rather uneventful in there, not surprising. Once the summer is over things die down here out in the boondocks.
Well, at least it will be fun to go on stage tonight to the new fave song by Ellie Goulding Lights .
The worst is when you work in a club where you can't pick your music, it can be awful and even embarrassing. When Tatiana worked at Shotgun Willies in Denver she was stuck on stage to Crazy by Gnarls Barkley more than once and Two Princes by Spin Doctors - a song that Tatiana thinks should NEVER be played in a strip club. So NOT sexy. Same goes for MMMBop by Hanson and Baby by Justin Bieber. Tatiana also remembers one time when a girl played Heal the World by Michael Jackson.......while strutting her stuff on stage. That just does not go together......

Here are some pics from a few months ago........
Photographer Mark Wiggin.




One more thing while Tatiana still remembers.....last Saturday work started out very slow. So the bartender told us to "call our customers" and tell them to come in. Tatiana has heard that before, from the owner, on slow nights.
First of all, that's kind of pathetic. The girls should not have to call anyone to get people to come in. And Tatiana very rarely gives out her phone number. She can count on one hand the times she given out her number to anyone she met at work, those people became a friend outside of work too. The number thing is absolutely nothing personal but if Tatiana would be giving out her number to everybody then all she would do would be either answering calls, texting or avoiding calls. Night and day.
Tatiana knew a girl once that would give out her number to anyone that asked, her phone would ring constantly, she would never answer or call anyone back. Tatiana rather NOT give out her number than avoid answering, she considers that rude.
Also, today you can email Tatiana if there is something you need to tell her, she is very good at answering e mails or you can read her blog to keep up with her. There is no need for any numbers.
Some girls also give out fake numbers. Not nice either. Another girl Tatiana knows gives out this number 867-5309. Do you get it? It's Jenny's number, you know the song! LOL.
Then there are girls that have two phones, one for work and another phone for their other life. Kind of like a business phone.
Plus Tatiana doesn't have "customers" - she has fans. Or friends. A customer is somebody that is buying something, it just sounds so weird Tatiana thinks. So no, Tatiana doesn't get on the phone, ever, to beg anyone to come in and spend money on her, she doesn't have to.
Yes, of course she has bad nights, most girls do - unless they look like Irina Shayk, Barbie or doing something nasty that they shouldn't be doing in the first place. Bad night happens, not a big deal, it's life.

OK, I actually feel SICK today. I might even have a slight fever because I feel really warm, it comes in waves, took a pill for bad stomach cramps. I feel greasy, tired, gross, achy and flabby. Yuck. I really hope that I feel better tomorrow. I was even out and about this afternoon, drove into town, did some errands and thought I was going to make it into work tonight. And then it suddenly got bad and there is no way I could had worked tonight, I would had been under my blanket on the couch all night long. Where you will find me some nights anyways if I am bored or not in the mood to talk to drunk guys.
Been watching the Olympics, sorry if I offend any Americans now (some people are very sensitive when it comes to sports) but I think that Viktoria Komova should had won the gold in gymnastics, she did so well on the mat (floor exercise), flawless landings, she moves so much nicer than Gabby, so much more graceful. I am not saying that Gabby did bad, obviously not, I just thought Komova did better. After her performance on the mat I was surprised that she didn't get the gold.
Anyways, here is a pic of me and Chhaya. Though you can only see Chhaya's cute butt.

Photographer Wolf198.

Here are some pics from my very first shoot with Barry Gallegos back in September of 2007.
We shot all the pics at different locations at Lake Mead in Las Vegas, all was done that day.
It makes me feel weird to look at these pics because time goes by SO fast, TOO fast and I don't want it to!!!
Actually earlier today while laying in bed, still waking up I had a strong feeling that my life is just running through my fingers like sand through an hourglass, I felt very nostalgic. And sad.
It's a strange feeling, a difficult to pinpoint feeling when you sense that you are a mortal being....... Anyways, here are the pics. I think I pretty much look the same. Or? Well......actually I suspect that I might be about five lbs heavier now. But that's ok.
Me and Barry have done many shoots together, he is great and I am very comfortable around him. The pics are not photo shopped in any way to make me look different, what you see is the real deal. To see more amazing pics that Barry took of me in the blog, just do a search for Barry Gallegos in the search bar. 🙂

Before I hop in the shower and wash work off my skin I am going to put up the last pics from my last shoot with Barry.
More pics with the ribbon but in these I am sitting up instead of laying down.
I can't wait for my comfy bed and my warm Chhaya next to me. Good Night!









Photos by Barry Gallegos. Model - ME. Wearing a ribbon and very light make up, hair down and unstyled. Sometimes simple is best.

I've had an idea to use a ribbon in one of my photo shoots, I finally got to use it in the shoot I did with Barry last month. I like the contrast of the ribbon against skin. But if I use a ribbon again I will pay more attention to detail, I should had used more of the ribbon around my leg.
Photos by Barry Gallegos.