Opinions - 18

Let's steer the attention away from all the drama surrounding the boat in Kodiak for a moment and look into some recent porn star drama. Although I will return to more Wild Alaskan drama soon. See, I went to work last night and girls are talking/gossiping and false information is given. Listen BITCHES, I am sober, drug free and level headed. If you want a reliable account you should listen to me. Unless your ass has physically been on that boat you really do not know what you are yapping about. Thanks.
Now back to the porn stars......
A few years back Sasha Gray made headlines for breaking into mainstream films, for example The Girlfriend Experience , a role on Entourage and whatever else she might have been involved with since. What was controversial was the fact that she was an adult film actress dipping her toes into mainstream film and TV and also how outspoken she was about her porn career. She felt empowered by performing in porn she claimed. Well, good - I would hope she would feel something positive at least. Sasha was notorious for doing rather rough and out there porn. I looked some of it up and one clip that I saw involved her and a large group of men (15?) that had rather rough sex with her, all ejaculated in her mouth, she collected everybody's semen in her mouth before she swallowed. The clip I saw looked very unsanitary and rather disturbing (to me). Men stepping on her face, putting their feet in her mouth and using no protection either. Sasha appears crazy, it's rather sad to watch.
Having said that.....the guys in that movie with her are just as crazy. If not more. Now reports are coming out that Sasha recently filed a restraining order on her ex boyfriend/fiance, Ian Cinnamon (sounds like a pimp name to me) claiming that he became violent towards her and that it was him in fact that lured her into doing porn. A guy lured her into doing porn, she started at 18 may I add. There is also an age difference in between them, when he started dating Sasha she was a teenager and he was close to 30. Go figure. To me Sasha seems like a dark and troubled girl from what I have gathered. If making that kind of porn made her feel empowered well, then I guess more power to her. But the trend in porn is always pushing the boundaries and it seems to be on the female actresses expense, I'm talking about mainly heterosexual porn now. It's becoming more violent, rough and the women are treated awful. I feel bad for them, I do. Look, I watch porn once in a while but there is some stuff out there that is insane and should be illegal, even though it falls under the First Amendment. I did research Max Hardcore and Khan Tusion and I don't like what I've found out.....at all. In their world women are meatholes, to be used and abused and often they have barely legal girls do their films. I wonder what happens to the girls next.....after that movie or movies are shot. And I wonder how that makes some men view women and sex in general. It's seriously sickening.

Now to another porn star, Christy Mack. I only look at a few people's Instagram and one of them is Christy's. I like her. She seems like a sweet girl, she lives in Vegas, she has two pitbulls and two ferrets that she takes for walks. She looks so cute, happy and bubbly in many of her pics and she seems to be an animal lover. Well, she is in the hospital right now (from the reports I read) severely beaten by her boyfriend "War Machine" some MMA fighter guy (real name Jonathan Koppenhaver). War Machine is currently on the run (no shit, will he give up alive?). He has a several other violent incidents on his record......he beat up an ex girlfriend and supposedly Christy at least once before and other people too (not in the ring). And here comes the GOLDEN SENTENCE I came across when reading about War Machine's prior violent behavior.....in one article it says "Are you beginning to see a pattern of behavior emerge?" THAT is going to apply to Wild Alaskan in Kodiak in a future blog.......
Christy is a petite girl. I can't even imagine trying to defend myself against a guy of War Machine's caliber. Look I'm 5'9 and last time I weighed myself I was 130 lbs. Most guys are heavier and physically stronger than me, so most likely I would not stand much of a chance if some guy would decide to beat me up, unless I manage to gouge his eyes out or kick him where it hurts really quick and I can fight. I don't fight girls (I call the cops, have you arrested and you will pay me for pain and suffering - he he) but guys......if you touch me you better know that I will fight back. My temper is very hot.....from 1 -100 in a matter of seconds.
I feel bad for Christy and I hope that her dogs are OK. What if he hurt them too? And the other animals. I don't know what provoked the fight, there are only speculations at this point. BUT let's say a guy would cheat on me or something like that, I would be on the verge of homicidal so I know that when there is love there is passion and sometimes that passion can quickly turn violent. I have been in some heated moments in relationships that turned physical (I am not going to be a hypocrite here and pretend that I haven't) but I have never been the abused girlfriend, scared of some guy. Never. If anything the guys have been scared of me. As they should. I have never been badly beaten, dealt with the police and/or restraining orders. I have never been in a relationship where fighting, even verbally was an everyday thing. No thanks.
Christy has been getting a lot of really negative comments about that this is her own fault for being with him and bla bla bla. Look, they probably did and still do love each other. I think they made a good looking couple. Maybe it's difficult for her to leave for whatever reason. Nobody knows but her. At least there are no children involved (only animals). Christy will hopefully do what's best for her. I hope she will quit porn soon (she has expressed that wish herself) and do something else.
When discussing porn in the past I have said that I think 18 is too young for girls to start porn. After the recent Sasha Grey statements about being lured into porn (even if not true) I firmly still believe that girls should be at least 21 before being allowed to do porn. I actually would push the age even higher, 23. So they can make a mature and informed decision. Having a group of men all ejaculate in your mouth might seem cool to a confused and easily coerced 18 year old girl seeking affirmation in all the wrong places whereas a more mature 23 year old can hopefully make a better decision about something like that.
Christy, I don't know you but I hope you get better soon and I wish you happy life! XOXO from your fan Tatiana. ❤

I got to Coffee Roasters a while ago, sat down with my yummy latte and a blueberry muffin (baked at the premises). It's raining since a few days now. The fire which was raging here a few days ago is more under control now and the evacuated residents were able to come home. I worked last night, there is so much drama and stuff going on in this small club that it's insane. I had coffee with a girl I work with yesterday and that is exactly what we were discussing, all the drama here. I have worked at clubs with hundreds of girls and there were less (that I noticed) bullshit going on than here in this small club. But I guess that might be just the way it is in a small place and a small town. Sharon described me to somebody at work yesterday, she said that she thinks I am beautiful from the inside out. That warmed my heart and made me feel grateful and teary eyed. Sure, it's nice that others might think you have a nice exterior but when others think that you are a nice person - that matters more.
To me. I get teary eyed a lot, several times a day. Just thinking about Chhaya, people I miss, reading the news, seeing that sad ASPCA commercial on TV with those poor animals. I can't take it. Sometimes I wish I could turn off feeling, it's too much at times. I scrolled down through the news and read about an elk called Big Boy that some bloodthirsty cop shot.
The residents in the town where Big Boy frolicked are outraged, Big Boy was kind of a fixture in town and supposedly never harmed anyone. I got sad. Why did the elk have to die? Why kill an animal if all you want are the bragging rights and the animals head on your wall, maybe feel extra tough and powerful that day too? Why? I don't understand it. We have a store in town called Sportsman's Warehouse. When you walk in you walk past a large wall, the wall is full of pictures of people showing off the animals they killed. They hold up their heads, some sit on the animal - grinning. OK, I know that this is Alaska and some people hunt for subsistence, this is legal and accepted here. But do you have to be such a show off about it? Don't get me started on pure trophy hunting. I can't stand it. It makes me sick. I should put up my own pic on that wall inside Sportsman's Warehouse, me hugging and kissing a moose baby or holding a chicken or a little piglet. Showing off that I love animals.
One more absolutely HORRIBLE thing has happened (again) in a different part of the world. Two young girls in India (14 and 15) were found dead hanging, they had been gang raped.
It hurts to read about this, I'm thinking about the two girls and the horror they went through. I don't understand how a human can do this to another human. How can a gang of guys attack and rape a girl or girls and then hang them and let them die? This must be somewhat acceptable in India since it seems to happen on a regular basis.
And with acceptable I mean, the punishment for raping and discarding of women, doing what you want to women if you are a man over there seems to carry a punishment equal to a slap on the wrist. If you are a woman that get raped in India chances are that you will be ostracized afterwards. I can't even think about it anymore, I feel helpless and sad. Is it that difficult to know wrong from right? I am not free of fault and sin. But you don't knowingly harm another person or animal. Unless you defend yourself and examples like such.
Other than that, it is WRONG. What is wrong with people?
Well.....that's all from me today, I feel drained. I am going to take Chhaya for a long and refreshing walk in the drizzling rain, I have to clear my head......Here is a pic from the other day.

Let me try to put together another blog entry with some substance to it so I can prove to ya'll that I'm not stupid, before I start writing about pink nail polish and Hello Kitty again.....
Today I want to touch on Boko Haram and the kidnapped girls in Nigeria. Those were girls that went to school, they were abducted because the leader of Boko Haram and his followers do not believe in "Western" education, since it's evil according to them. I'm suspecting that they also think that women in general are below men, have no rights, their life should consist of taking care of the household as in cooking, cleaning and sexually be available to your husband (starting from a young age) and give birth to lots of children, preferably boys.
The leader of Boko Haram made a statement that Allah has instructed him to abduct the girls and sell them on the market. "I will sell women. I sell women". The men that are in Boko Haram consider themselves to be be devout holy men. Other notable things that the leader of Boko Haram has said, "Until we soak the ground of Nigeria with Christian blood and so called Muslims contradicting Islam. After we have killed, killed, killed, and get fatigue and wondering what to do with their corpses - smelling of Obama, Bush and Goodluck - will open prison and be imprison the rest. Infidels have no value."
So according to some devout and holy men of Islam like the members of Boko Haram and such, I (since I do not affiliate myself with Islam) deserve to be killed. They would probably torture me for a long time first because I am a bad woman, showing my body shamelessly and having opinions. Wonderful. I was under the impression that Islam is a "religion of peace"? How come then that so many kill and destroy in the name of Allah? I still have to understand that, can't wrap my head around that fact.
I think the schoolgirls should be rescued, (searches are ongoing) absolutely! The countries in Africa that are being harassed and ran by idiots like these men should be getting sanctioned and boycotted by the world, no more monetary aid that will fund their armies with weapons that kill innocent people. Stop sending money to countries like these!
And since I do not want to come of as an Islamophobe, because I'm not.....I'm just bringing up facts, let me bring up another example of women held against their will in the name of God.
I saved an article I read in a magazine from last year about a Rebecca Musser that at 19 was married off to an 85 year old "prophet" of the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Yes, these practices are ongoing in Utah in today's USA. Young girls are brought up, brainwashed and forced to marry men that are old enough to be their great grandfathers. All they do it cook, clean, work and give birth. They can't pick out what they want to wear, they have to wear long skirts and keep their hair long and up. Similar to when certain countries that affiliate with the more stricter teachings of Islam decide that women have to cover up from head to toe. Rebecca managed to escape that life and I am happy that she did. Noteworthy is that Warren Jeffs, a former FLDS leader had 80 wives, some as young as 12 and 15. What a grown man wants to do sexually to a 12 and 15 year old that have no possibility of protesting the fact that some old dude is about to mount her is mind-blowing to me.
Warren Jeffs and several other men from FLDS are now in prison where they belong and where they should sit until they draw their last breath.
All human are born free, at least they should be born free. Women have a fully functioning brain (in case you didn't know this) and are meant to live their lives to the fullest, not to be somebody's subservient slave.
Organized religion enslaves people. I do think that there is value to SOME of the Ten Commandments, although I could add some of my own Commandments to the mix but everybody that is not a sociopath should understand this, the understanding of that comes from a place within of morals and ethics.
And while I am of the topic of religion.....The current suggested boycott of the Beverly Hills hotel because it's owner the sultan of Brunei has imposed Sharia law in his country.
Boycott or no boycott? Duh, boycott of course! I stay at Motel 6 when I'm in Hollywood, it's cheap, close to everything I need and I can bring Chhaya, what else can I ask for? Sharia law on the citizens while the sultan and the royal family live a life far removed from any such Sharia lifestyle? Screams double standard! The Beverly Hills hotel has long been known for scouting women that are willing to prostitute themselves for cash and jewelry in Brunei to the men in the "royal" family. Please, there are so many stories out there about that and
"Porta-Potty" girls and all that stuff. And yes, I read "Some Girls, My Life in a Harem" by Jillian Lauren, I wrote a blog about that a long time ago (on July 9 2010). Do I believe her? Yes.
Sharia law does not belong in the today's world. And let me add another bit of my personal opinion before I log off. I think when you are as wealthy as the sultan of Brunei (and others that have significant wealth) it should be your MORAL DUTY to practice acts of kindness and altruism to help the world to become a better place instead of worrying about shit like having a house with 1000+ rooms and more cars than you know what to do with.
If you believe in God, you should know this, "Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God."
VERY TRUE!

I do not watch football.....I don't know anything about football. I'm referring to American football now, not what we call football in Sweden (fotboll). I always thought that American football was confusing, not much happening besides large men laying on top of each other or running short distances (I think). But I guess football is the national sport (I checked recent statistics). So I caught some footage of the first openly gay guy in football, Michael Sam and I thought it was very touching. He got the news that he was drafted, with his boyfriend by his side. I almost cried. And they shared a little kiss, CUUUUTE! But OH MY GAAAAAAWD what reactions it evoked! So, showing violence and murder on TV is OK but not a quick kiss, out of love? What will the poor children think? Let them watch a violent show instead where some dude is chopping up people, much better!
I guess football is a very macho sport and being gay is still looked at as something disgusting and wrong by many guys. Those are the same guys that would love to have sex with two hot lesbians and think that hot lesbian porn is great. Lesbians, only if hot on a male hetero scale = great but men that are gay, oh no that is not OK. Double standards much?
I am, if you maybe missed out on this bit of information so far......very open minded. I don't care whether you are gay, straight, twisted whatever.....as long as you are a good person in general. I can tell you this much.....I'd much rather be around a bunch of gay guys than some straight guys that might think it's OK to rape me, just because they can. How often do you hear of a female rapist out there lurking in the bushes so she can knock some innocent man unconscious and rape him? Or do you ever hear of random gay guys that pray on straight guys? Not that I can think of. Sure there might be a few cases, if you dig around for them.
On the other hand, I hear of rape and sexual assault hetero man on woman all the time.
Guys rape each other in prison too, straight, gay - it doesn't matter when you are locked up and horny, right? I guess it's OK to be gay in prison, some guys seem to think so. Different rules in prison.
I am SO grateful for gay guys and how some of them have brightened my life with their presence, they glitterfy and beautify the world. One such time that stands out in my head was when Carson Kressley was on Dancing With The Stars and danced to Moves Like Jagger.
Best ever! I just wanted to crawl into the TV, hug him and ask him to be my best friend.
I absolutely love Carson. I love RuPaul. Keoki (always). And the list goes on......Carson if you read this.....let's have afternoon tea at the Four Season and chat!
You might think gay sex is gross or sinful. Well, I think that two people can do whatever they want with each other, if it's consensual of course. People like to bring up religion when they pontificate their opinions about gays. Well, if God was so against gays, he would had never made them. I think that you are born gay. Nobody wants the problems that come with being gay. It's much easier to be straight in society. Gays get harassed and even killed on an everyday basis, who wants that? So if God was so much against gays, everybody would had been born straight. Less problems.
There are so many worse things I can think of than being gay. How about being a child molester? Or a rapist? Or an animal abuser?
I heard that some dumb ass came into the club I work at a few weeks ago and loudly called a guy he doesn't even know, sitting at the bar minding his own business, "fag". I happen to know who both are. The dumb ass is a large bully that needs to work on his education, worry about himself and shut the fuck up. The other guy seems to be a nice person and doesn't appear gay to me but even if he is.....SO FUCKING WHAT?! It's good that I was not around to hear that because I would had loudly intervened. I am very sensitive to stuff like that. If you try to, in any shape or form, harass or hurt somebody (uncalled for) when I am around I will step in. I don't care if you are bigger than me, bring it!
You know what, you can be against gays or whatever.....that is your prerogative. We all have opinions......I know this, I have PLENTY about almost everything. Let your opinions flow when you vent with your buddies while doing something macho such as having some brewskis and talking about women and our body parts. Or write a blog! But to bully, harass or use violence to get your (in my opinion narrow minded and backwards) views across.....that is NOT OK.
I remember when I was 16 and went to my first gay club. I was in heaven! Great music, cute boys everywhere and no annoying motherfuckers sneaking up from behind thrusting their half hard penises against my ass (I call them dickthrusters), thinking that is how they will get my attention. That is how you will get my foot in your crotch if anything.
I'm not saying that all straight guys are horrible rapists and bad guys in general and that all gay guys are some innocent lambs with this entry. Of course not, I know better than that. Being a good person has nothing to do with your sexual preferences.

What is wrong with adults that are supposed to be mature? How can people put so much emphasis and energy on being angry with Justin Bieber? There is even some petition signed (signed by 261 000 and counting) and presented to the White House because people want Bieber to leave the US. What? Are there not way more important and urgent things to start petitions about than Justin Bieber? Ask YOURSELF.....think back to when YOU were 19.....and imagine IF you had Bieber's millions, because that kid has so much money that he doesn't know what to do with it. Wouldn't you too be having fun? Go out clubbing with your friends? Drive fast cars? Maybe drinking and smoking some weed? Bieber is not doing anything different than MOST American teenagers are doing. Check your own kids if you have any and stop pontificating about Bieber. Your perfect little angels are probably getting drunk and high too, I'm telling you. So, he was speeding.....do you speed? I do. So, he got high (maybe)....you never done drugs? I have. He goes out and has fun with his friends. I started clubbing when I was 13 and I still have not had enough of music and dancing and I am older than Bieber but I'm not dead YET.....OMG scandal! Yea, he wears silly looking saggy pants and runs around shirtless. I have seen way worse than that, trust me. At least he is in shape. Go to any Walmart in the US and take a look at what some people in there are waddling around in (NOT SEKSI OK). Yea....he does "dumb" stuff. Well, we all have done dumb but harmless stuff, the difference is that regular folks don't have any paparazzi following their every move. I mean seriously, people should be embarrassed to engage in this lame Bieber bashing. Leave the kid alone.....open your mouth and complain IF he commits a serious crime. Until then, worry about your own dirty deeds.
Everyday I read news about people that do shit that should put them away for life. Everyday. Grown men snatch little girls off the streets in broad daylight, rape and dismember them. Today I read about some freak that raped his little stepsister while she has been held captive, starved and abused by her own father and stepmother for years. These sub humans will get jail time and then in a few years they WILL be out again and statistics show that many sick sex offenders are repeat offenders. People like that should never be let free to roam society ever again! Why don't people rally about that instead? Sign petitions about that and send off to the White House. At least that is IMPORTANT. I'd much rather see mandatory life sentences for sex offenders implemented than Bieber deported. I don't care about what Bieber does, let him have fun. Hey, I hope I run into him one day so I can drive his Lambo or Fisker Karma.
He can even shower me with money on stage, he likes to do that I hear and he is generous also, NICE! So he contributes to the US economy in more ways than one. GOOD! There are plenty of Americans that don't contribute shit, instead they try to figure out how they can get more of something for nothing = handouts. Obama should have Bieber over to the White House for a meet and greet with Sasha and Malia, I bet they would love that. Maybe together they could start some kind of a fund for abused children or children in foster care.
Because there sure are a lot of people out there that prey on kids. Do something USEFUL with your time instead of being envious of a kid that is enjoying his life. Maybe pick up a guitar, learn how to play it and make your own music, that is what Justin did and now he is rich. I am team Bieber on this one.

Got some new books.....so that will keep me occupied and content for a few days. One book about pro choice and some stories about that. Oh yes, I am pro choice. And so is the lady in the bookstore that sold me the book, we talked about that for a while and both agreed on that Planned Parenthood does lots of good. And then a book about a woman's rise to a prominent political position in Afghanistan, a country known for not having a friendly attitude towards women.





Books and pizza....a perfect way to spend my afternoon. Pizza is one of those perfect foods. Now I am watching the closing ceremony in Sochi. I wish I was at that party! Then I saw some footage from Ukraine, there are some brave people over there, out fighting in the streets like that, protesting and getting shot at. Take that Occupy Wall Street! What happened to that movement?
One more thing about pregnancies and pro choice. I do think that women should do what is right for them. Because when it comes down to it, women are the ones carrying the baby and going through the trauma squeezing the baby out. And for many women it is a very scary and painful experience. I have spent this last week reading many birth stories about vaginal tears and bad stitching afterwards and long lasting problems in the neither regions after going through the "joy" of childbirth. I bet if it was men that went through all of that there would be no question to whether they should be allowed to have an abortion or not. Not to mention that women are the ones that get stuck with the largest responsibility to caring for the children (in most cases). Therefore you need be more careful and thoughtful to with whom you choose to have your kids with and that goes for men too. Should be common sense right?
I know somebody that has a pregnant 17 year old daughter. The girl has been "dating" the guy for about two months. Why she feels like she needs to be a Mom right now is just kind of strange to me, she is still a child and in high school. And the guy does not want to be a dad and I absolutely understand that. They probably barely know each other, a few months of "dating" meaning maybe going to the movies a few times, riding in his truck and having some sex does not mean that you know that person enough to make a mature decision about starting a family together. I feel bad for the guy. The baby will be ok, because the pregnant 17 year old has her Mom and a large family to lean on for support. But that is not the case all the time. And you can't force somebody to be a father. I think that is really bad, when girls (in this case) and women do that. Get pregnant with some guy, any guy, whoever you are having casual sex with at the moment and then expect what? A marriage and a picture perfect family? How about being responsible and planning to make a family together? Sure, that is many times not a guarantee for forever bliss and happiness but still much better than being irresponsible about reproducing.