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Eeeeehhhhhhh........NOT SO MUCH would be how I would describe and sum up last night. First of all I did dress warm enough, jeans, two hoodies, gloves. I even walked around with the hood over my head and a bandana covering my mouth because of the cold. I got mistaken for a guy twice because of that, LOL, that was the first and I like that!
I have never been to a party where I could not show off my cute shirt and accessories, this was the first. We were both wearing the pink HAPPY shirts underneath. AND.......the music SUCKED. Where was the HOUSE music? Hello.......this is Chicago after all. HOUSE music and Chicago go hand in hand. We walked around in the cold between the different stages trying to catch some good music so we could dance because after all that is what we came for, the music and the dancing. I don't need any E or Molly, I love to dance and can basically go all night. The music was was too trancey, long melodic breakdowns filled with church sounding singing, lots of video game and robot like sounds. Crazy! I know what I like when it comes to music at raves and I am picky. Just standing with thousands of people, squished like sardines, bopping up and down won't cut it for me. BUT it was still fun to people watch and dance the few times we actually did bust some moves. And the fireworks show was amazing, good job EDC!

Check out this amazing pic of the moon and the beam from the stage. Tatiana, master photographer at your service!



This was my SEKSI outfit for the evening. I actually liked covering my face like this, I think I am going to make use of a bandana over my face more.





Met two guys while dancing that wanted to adopt me, one of them thought my backpack was a BUG. He asked "What is that on your back?" When I told him it was my backpack he said that he though it was a bug. LOL. Yeah......you meet some funny people at raves. My backpack is the cutest, it has a deer on it and a mushroom.



We stayed until the end last night. BUT I am not sure if I want to go and do the whole thing again tonight. And that is the first time I have ever said that about a rave.

To sum up last night in one word.....FREEZING! It was pure misery, I have never been so cold at a party before. If I knew how cold it would be I would had worn gloves, a scarf and two thick hoodies. It was like 41 degrees and windy. Plus the music sucked and it's by dancing that you warm up. Sure we danced and met people and saw fun stuff but my teeth were shattering and my nose was running and red. Makes for great photos. I had a thin hoodie to cover up with. We both agreed that last night was hands down the worst party we had been to but still stuck it out until 3. Even though we hitchhiked with some cops in a golf cart at the party, they drove us to VIP style to get beer and they definitely broke some laws.
More pics will be up next week when I can use my computer at a Starbucks or something.....plus the cold kind of made for less pics and not as cute due to hoodies covering us up and red noses.

Got some breakfast, pizza and a latte.





Back at home now, about to start the getting ready process. Getting ready for a rave, or party as these events are called nowadays, usually involves some more thought than just going out to some regular club. Most people at raves dress more fun, lots of cute accessories and stuff. The party is going until 4 am and I am going to be there until the end. EDC Las Vegas was voted party of the year globally last year, it's going to be fun to see what EDC Chicago has to offer, looking forward to some bad ass evil sounding HOUSE music tonight..... ♥
But first I have to decide on what lashes to wear and my outfit, we got matching shirts.....

It turned out to be a beautiful day, I woke up a while ago after a long sleep. Busy day ahead, getting ready for EDC. I started with painting my nails in an appropriate EDC yellow. Now I have to wash my hair and then Angelica will have to take me somewhere so I can get a latte. Feeling happy and excited!

I landed in a cold, rainy and windy Chicago. Same weather as in Alaska. The day started out with some phone problems so my old phone is retired now and after some minor issues, I now have a Samsung Galaxy. I went to eat Polish food and stuffed myself full with three kinds of pierogis, sauerkraut, potatoes and apple pancakes and cheese blinies for dessert.
So yummy, tasted like home.



I am out and about now, the sun came out and is shining. Tomorrow......EDC!

According to the gossip Lindsay Lohan is very upset because the Betty Ford Center where she is doing her rehab decided to take away her Adderall, saying that she doesn't need it. Lindsay on the other hand is very adamant that she does need her Adderall to "focus". I guess Adderall is a very popular pill to pop in LA and other places too because it can keep you from gaining weight, it's an amphetamine after all. I know people that have an Adderall prescription and they are for sure NOT focused whatsoever. I don't take any drugs and can get more done in a few days than they do in a whole year, so to me the whole focus thing is a mystery. I don't even understand why anyone would want to take Adderall on an everyday basis, or even better, feed it to your kid. I am not a doctor (obviously) so I can't shell out a diagnosis but I am also aware of that there are many out there on Adderall. Do they all have some form of ADHD and/or do they all have a problem with focusing, whatever THAT means? Or are (some) doctors just handing out prescriptions left and right to pretty much anyone asking because there is a profit involved?
I can't even imagine being on Adderall. I would be so spazzed out and I can guarantee you that I would get all kinds of shit done, so much so that I would come to your house and get your life in military order too. I know that many take that stuff to control their weight, that is not a secret. I have never been on a diet. Well, ok I was on the Atkins diet for about a day once, it was totally disgusting and so not for me, I ended up vomiting and could not bear the thought to eat all kinds of meat and restrict my fruit and veggies. I'd rater eat only fruit and veggies and no meat. I also took some sort of diet pill once or twice, I got a bottle of diet pills (cant remember which kind it was so long ago) and they made me feel very uncomfortable and jittery, not a good feeling at all so I decided not to take them.
I tried speed once in Vegas, one night I went out with my friends, they all did it so I tried some, snorted it and felt great. Lots of energy but I always have lots of happy jumpy energy when I go clubbing. It was when we all got home and I still felt that energy but then it didn't feel good anymore, I felt nervous and edgy, I wanted to sleep but couldn't. And that was my first and last time doing that stuff, don't think I will ever try it again. I'd rather have fun on other drugs.......
As far as eating, I used to be very skinny when I lived in Sweden, I remember my waist was about 60 - 61 centimeters (24"), the reason I remember this is because I had seen a famous super models measurements mentioned in some article and I had the same. Now I am around 27".......more if I eat a lot but usually by morning I am back to 27.
I am no longer super skinny but whatever. I have about a 5 lbs weight range that I fluctuate between and I am not going to lie, I like my body better when I am on the lighter side of those 5 lbs. Because I think I look better at work then from a purely aesthetic viewpoint. But at the same time I don't diet, I don't have the willpower to diet, I like food way too much and I especially like foods that satisfy my sweet cravings - vanilla latte, pastries, ice cream. Once in a while I entertain the thought of doing a weekly 24 hour fast or some kind of a cleanse that lasts for days to "clean myself out". The idea sounds very appealing to me but in reality I know that I wouldn't last more than 24 hours probably.
I don't believe that Lindsay is taking her Adderall to focus, cause she is not getting anything done it seems besides drink and party. I think she is taking the Adderall to control her weight but people that do that rarely admit to it, instead they say that whatever prescriptions they are taking are prescribed to them by an all knowing doctor and that they do indeed need those pills.
I am planning on eating lots of Polish food in Chicago and enjoying every bite of it. If I gain weight then I gain weight, it will come off......or not.



On a different note.......I am in Minneapolis waiting for my connecting flight. Minneapolis looks beautiful from the air coming down. Large lush trees, green lawns and lots of small lakes. I think I would like it here.......