Entries by TATIANA

I feel spent this evening. Tired. I just watched Mama produced by Guillermo Del Toro and it was ridiculous, started out ok but then......no. I actually liked Don't Be Afraid of the Dark by him and I LOVE his Pan's Labyrinth . That to me was a masterpiece. I still need to watch
The Devil's Backbone . Sometimes people ask me if I have a favorite movie, I really don't have ONE favorite.....I like many and Pan's Labyrinth stands out in my mind as amazing, at least it touched me.
I am not in the mood to write about all the work drama tonight. All I can say right now is that it is turning into some kind of a whore house......and that is NOT what I am about. I hope these girls feel good about themselves after doing some of the things they do, while pretending to be dancers. And I can say one more thing, they disgust me. I thought there was supposed to be many differences between working in a strip club and working in a brothel. Apparently not (for some people). Unfortunately (I think) this shit goes on in many clubs.
I am tempted to go and work as a barista somewhere or don't do anything at all. Tempted. That doesn't mean that I will, right now. I am going to take Chhaya out for an evening walk soon and then I have two more movies, Silver Linings Playbook and Side Effects to watch.

I have lots to say about stuff that is going on at work right now but I'm saving it for tomorrow when I will (maybe) have some more time to sit down and write about it. I didn't wake up until 1 pm today and the day flew by. I need to take Chhaya out and I think I am going to go for a run before I have to get ready for an evening at work.
It's really nice out and I'm feeling happy, alive and summery. I hope you do too! 🙂

Here is a recent work story. By the way, I am feeling extremely unmotivated at work lately.
I just want to sit there, go on stage and that's it. NOT in the mood to engage in LAME convos with people I don't know. I am ok with people I do know, usually I have some smart men that come in and talk to me - otherwise I would climb the walls. I am really close to climbing the walls actually.
Anyhow. Now that I got that off my chest.....Last night when I was standing by my locker this new girl that I don't know bounces by and blurts out (to me), "Hi Russia." Sometimes I don't care and sometimes I do, depending on my mood. Sometimes I pretend that I am from Kazakhstan and barely speak any English. But I am NOT Russian and the girls at this club tend to talk a lot about ME to the guys and they all say that I am from Russia and then everybody assumes that I am. So I replied, "I am not Russian". She, "Where are you from then?"
Me, "I was born in Poland but I grew up in Sweden." She, "Oh....Sweden, I always wanted to go there, was is nice to live there?" Me, "Yes." She, "I love that BAVARIAN architecture."
Me, "Ummmmm, Bavaria is in Germany." She, "Oh, I am not that good at GEOMETRY."
Me, "You mean geography?"
Yeah.....LOL. Not the sharpest tool in the shed. And I am not referring to myself.
Sometimes I see and hear (remember I am very observant) guys ask the other girls a bunch of questions about me when I am on stage. ASK ME instead! Very few of these girls know me, so they don't know what they are talking about anyway. I am going to make some of those informative brochures and put them throughout the club so people can read vital facts about me, since I seem so interesting to others.

So Wizard, the husky that bit the two year old got put down today. 😥
His owner decided this or Wizard would had faced a long confinement in some shelter. I hope the responsible (sarcasm) Mom of the two year old feels like something GOOD came out of this situation now. Feel good now Mom? Happy? Yes, I know her kid got bit and hurt and that is really unfortunate but maybe Mom should had not put three children in that situation in the first place. Then this could had been avoided. We all make mistakes, it is human to make mistakes. But how is this outcome making the situation any better? I am sure that Wizard could had continued living his life without any other incidents like this.
This makes me angry. If some kids would walk into my yard and get bit by Chhaya I would not see that as my fault or Chhaya's fault. Keep track of your kids. OK? WHATEVER!

When I was driving back to Kenai from Anchorage the other day I stopped in Hope. I have been there before and it is a nice place. In fact Ireland and Natasha took my advice and went camping there last weekend and they loved it.
I want to camp in Hope too but not at the campground, instead I have this great spot in mind. You turn on a dirt road to the right off the main road and get to a pretty beach and some areas where you can slap up a tent or park your RV, make a fire and enjoy great views, even lay on the cliffs and tan or read. That is where I want to camp! Hopefully one of my friends that enjoy the outdoors can join me one day.

So I think I have to drag myself to work tonight. I might as well, I did all my laundry and my house is clean so I can't make the excuse to myself that I should stay home and clean and it is cold and gray outside so I can't say that I want to enjoy a beautiful summer evening outside. So yeah, back to work......noooooooo! I am not feeling enthusiastic at all. But that is how I am.....I don't like getting ready and going there, once I am there I am usually ok and in the end it was usually worth it. Same with the gym or with traveling, I don't want to get ready and go but once it is over I have no regrets.
But before I start to wash my hair and shave I have to bundle up warm and take this young lady out for a walk. She is ready to play and is staring at me from across the room right now. She needs attention.