Entries by TATIANA

The other night at work the phone rang and Boss Lady answered. The person on the other line asked what girls were working (happens a lot here since it's a small town and a small club and some people do not want to bother coming in unless somebody they fancy is working.......you know, like ME)......anyhow......we actually had a few of us working that night. Boss Lady rattled off the report, Tatiana, Alyra, Marlene, Rouge and Autumn. I don't know why but all of a sudden I get handed the phone. I have only gotten one other phone call to the club, some guy proposed to me over the phone. LOL. Anyhow. The man on the other line introduced himself as "Larry, that spends a lot of money in there." OK.......? And? Then Larry proceeded to ask me if I, or some other girl, could perhaps give him some entertainment OUTSIDE of the club, in one of the motels. Again, he reminded me that he does have a lot of money. I resisted the immediate urge to hang up on him and decided to investigate the situation further. I asked him if he ever had any of the other girls entertain him outside of the club and if so, which one, so I could perhaps have her vouch for him. Indeed, he had! I already knew who he was going to say. The one that we all know does the extra activities outside of the club and the extra dirty dances inside of the club. But I wanted to hear him say it. It was FUGLY. Then he said that FUGLY hustles him too much for his money. I happen to remember who Larry is. About a month ago we had another slow night at work, Larry happened to be the only guy in there and FUGLY was busy with him. He even left the club and then came back for more. The reason I remember Larry is because he has a distinctive handicap, I'm not going to tell you what but he does. I ended the conversation by telling Larry that if he wants to see and talk to us girls he needs to come to the club. I am not available for any motel style entertainment and as far as I know, none of the other girls present that night either. The sex starved men here in town simply have to wait to get sex and bj's for $$$ until FUGLY returns. This whole thing made me somewhat upset and I walked up to Boss Lady and told her that I think it is really fucked up that they allow this shit to go on when they know what FUGLY is about. It is obvious! How are the CLEAN girls supposed to make any money? FUGLY has put a damper on the club, for us girls that is. And I am not the only one that think so.
For management she is an asset, because they make money off her ugly and nasty ass. Although I hear that more and more guys have come to the realization what she is about and they are not happy about it. That will lead to them not wanting to come into the club when she is there. And that means less revenue for the club. I asked Boss Lady if the club is still a strip club or is it now a whorehouse? Because if it is a whorehouse I am in the wrong place.
If you are a whore then you should take your business to a more lucrative place, that would be my suggestion. Boss Lady asked me what I suggest she should do. I said fire the dirty girls.
She then said that she would have no dancers left if she did so, because according to her
90 % of us dancers are dirty and do extras (meaning stuff outside the club). I told her that I disagree. I know dancers that are clean and don't do stuff like that, that I know about at least. The she said that my friend that I brought to the club did. Oh......hmmmm......well, last summer I invited a girl that I used to be friends with to come and work here. She needed money badly so why not? Well, one night she got paid to leave the club with some guy.
She left and I didn't see her until the following evening at work (or maybe it was a few days later, I can't recall now). I was not involved in any of that whatsoever. Somehow management found out and they questioned me in the office whether she was a prostitute or not, saying that they could get in trouble with the law. I told them that I had no way of knowing what she was doing and that I was not responsible for any of her behavior at work, or outside for that matter. I am not responsible for another person after all. Besides, who says that she was having sex for money? But what I do find ironic in this whole deal is that they actually know what FUGLY is up to. If they are so worried about getting in hot water with the law around here they should hurry up and get rid of FUGLY and her friend The Bulldog. It is very obvious what they are doing.
One more thing. There is a guy that comes in almost every night. He is very nice and a few months ago he started getting dances with FUGLY. I stopped talking to him at that point because I consider him more like my friend and I so strongly dislike FUGLY and thought he was a moron to spend his money on her, like a desperate fool. Well, at the Christmas party we had at the club last month somebody took his wallet and emptied it on $ 1000. FUGLY was the only one that danced for him that evening and she even clawed through his wallet and helped herself to whatever she thought he owed her for the lap dances (TACKY). His wallet got found the following day, empty of money in a trash can in the bathroom. He thinks it was FUGLY that took his wallet but he can't prove it. It would not surprise me whatsoever because according to at least four other girls The Bulldog has been fired from the club more than once (I heard FIVE times) because she stole money or wallets from guys. And The Bulldog and FUGLY are "best friends".
I do not want to be associated with this kind of behavior in any shape or form. I am a dancer, not some kind of a low class hooker. Therefore I do not associate with FUGLY at all. Most girls in the club smile in her face and talk lots of bad things about her behind her back.
Me....I don't sit next to her and I only address her if absolutely necessary, the same goes for The Bulldog. Taking people's wallets, come on now! Doesn't the entertainment outside of the club pay enough?
To be fair here and to not be a hypocrite (I dislike hypocrites and strive to not be one myself)
I should say that yes.....dancers do leave the club for money sometimes. They get paid to hang out, not for sex. Usually in a place like Las Vegas, a city busy 24/7 where you can go gambling. I have many girlfriends that have gone gambling with guys after work for money.
I did this a few times buy never alone, I always went with a friend. And it's not as fun and uncomplicated as it seems, I definitely prefer going gambling with people that I know.
No strings attached and no hidden expectations.
You can read about one of those adventures here .
And I did make an attempt to do some private dancing outside of the club one time. I quickly realized that I had put myself in an awkward and weird situation, to be one on one with somebody like that. Not for me. You want to read about it? Here .

Some more new laws that I can relate to. In Illinois it is now illegal for the 18 and under to go to a tanning salon to work on a tan. Illinois is not the only state where it is illegal for minors to go to the tanning salon. I think that's good. I went to the tanning salon when I was a teenager and I regret that now. The last time I used a tanning bed was in 2006. If I could undo all the times I baked myself in a tanning bed I would. A total waste of money, time and so bad for your skin, you probably do know it could lead to skin cancer, hence the ban for minors to use tanning beds. I think it becomes somewhat of an addiction for some, to have some color.
It makes them feel like they look better and healthier and especially for women, the darker you are the thinner you appear plus imperfections are less noticeable on your skin. As a dancer I know this. Stuff is so much more visible on pale skin. Lucky me I don't have too much "stuff" that I am worried about. I now only tan outside and even then I don't want to burn myself. Although I do like it when I look bronzed and tan. Once in a while I will use a self tanner. I'm sure it's not that good either but probably safer than frying in a tanning bed.
I am glad I don't have those tanning bed wrinkles on my face that I see on so many girls.
I mean, who wants to look like Tanning Mom? That mixed with smoking cigarettes = premature wrinkle face. Even botox can't help you then.
Also in Illinois, if you get caught flicking a cigarette butt out of your car window you might get in some serious trouble. I think that's great. I'm sure other states already have laws that refer to that problem, if not they should. People that litter are gross, low class and selfish. At some point a person has to realize that littering (and yes, that includes cigarette butts) is wrong. And if that doesn't register with them then I do think that they low class and uneducated.
If you want to walk on the somewhat wilder side of life, at least commit some more interesting crimes. Rob a bank. Make counterfeit money. Cook your own meth. Just don't mess with children, animals, nature and innocent individuals.

I met up with Marlene earlier today, we had coffee and a long talk about all kinds of stuff. It was nice.

Then I had to get groceries and do errands. By the time I came home it was already dark out and I am just feeling so tired for no reason besides that it is dark and winter. My body is telling me it wants to sleep but it's only 6 pm. But I feel super tired. Not sure what to do, if I should sleep or try to go to work in a few hours. I know that I am not too entertaining right now, complaining about being tired and sleepy but that's how I feel. Yaaaawn. It's January in Alaska. This is when some people here go completely bonkers, others drink more than usual and some take a trip to somewhere sunny and warm to replenish that lack of vitamin D. I am not planning on going mental, I am certainly not going to drink and I have no trips booked as of right now. Instead I will just deal with it and maybe take a nap now. And take some vitamin D supplements.

I am a tired girl....my feet are screaming for an hour long footrub. I'm just going to finish my tea and then sleep. It was glow in the dark for me tonight....it worked - of course.

Stripper dilemma of the evening.....which lash to pick? Life sure is complicated sometimes. 🙂 I am going with 105.

It is such crummy weather today.....it's been kind of gray, rainy and just bleh for a few days now. I didn't get out of bed until 2 30 today.....even I will admit to that I was in bed longer than I should. I just couldn't make myself get up. Chhaya was rolled up next to me, we were like two peas in a pod. But I took her on a long walk, picked up some dog poop in the yard and now I am enjoying a latte. So at least I have been somewhat productive!
So there were a bunch (thousands actually!) of new laws that took effect with the start of new year. The much talked about news about marijuana laws in Colorado.....but I'm not going to comment on that today. I mean....I am for the legalization of drugs anyways.
One law that took effect in Oregon is that it is now illegal to smoke (cigarettes) in your car when children are present. And children would be anybody under 18. I absolutely applaud and agree with that law. This should be a nationwide law, I guess it is a law in some other states as well. They should include pets in that law too. I'm sure dogs don't want to be in the car with you while you are smoking your gross cigarettes. Yes, it is child abuse to smoke in the car when children are present. And yes, I agree that it is. It is fucking disgusting.....that is what it is. I can't stand it when people are selfish and smoke in the car, even when the windows are rolled down. Nobody wants to breathe your gross and carcinogenic second hand smoke. Thank You!
Another thing I want to bring up......I think obese kids should be looked at as being exposed to possible child abuse. The parent is in charge of feeding the child. I don't understand how anyone can think it is OK that a child is severely overweight? That just brings on all kinds of bad health problems in the future. The future of your child, the future you created and is responsible for. Of course not everybody looks the same, some of us are skinny and some are fat and everything in between, as adults. But a child, toddler, tween and an early teen that is obese? To me, that is BAD and LAZY parenting. Yes, I will probably offend many by saying this, the US is after all the country with the most lard asses walking around, so of course people will feel targeted and offended. But I don't care, I am speaking the truth. If you are size larger as an adult due to your own doing.....whatever, I have no problem with that. It is your body and your life.
What comes to mind is that 13 year old girl in the news lately, Jahi. She is 13 and looks like a sumo wrestler. Why? The reason she went in for surgery was to remove her tonsils because she had sleep apnea, a condition she developed due to her weight I suspect. Then there were complications....no shit.....she was unhealthy to start off with and now the parents are freaking out and putting on a big dramatic show. Of course it is really horrible to lose your child to what seems to be routine surgery, although it is always a risk to go under anesthesia, especially if you are obese I can imagine. Now the parents will sue, probably win and then they can live off the millions they will collect from the death of their child for the rest of their lives. And feast on McDonald's and KFC. Only in America! Somebody should had looked into the parenting this girl was subjected to. I'm sure the Mom loved her girl but what is up with weighing that much at 13? How is that not wrong and cruel?
From the mouth of Jahi's Mom, "To watch my daughter just sit there and not have food ... I'm just so happy that she is kind of a thick girl so she still looks good," Nailah Winkfield told ABC’s "Good Morning America." "I tell her every day, 'Jahi, you losin' weight girl, but you still look good.'
WHAT THE FUCK? LOL.....KIND OF a thick girl.....STILL looks GOOD??!! I hope the girl wakes up, sometimes miracles happen....and gets put with a foster family that can feed her good and nutritious food. But this is about her WEIGHT, that it the REAL issue. Yes, I think it should be freakin' illegal to feed your kids such an unhealthy diet so they become obese and develop all kinds of health problems that the rest of the country has to pay for when they can't work later on and sit at home and collect welfare.
Yeah......that is all from my brilliant mind today. Got to go!