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Sunday, October 12. 2014

Youthberry

Ohhhhhhh I found my fave Teavana tea at the local Starbucks in Soldotna. First of all, I love Teavana and I always stop and sip on their sample teas they offer. Until about one year ago or so there was no Teavana store in Alaska but they did finally open one inside Fifth Avenue Mall, that's in Anchorage. I wonder when they are going to open up a Victoria's Secret?
It's long overdue. Anyhow.....back to Teavana. My fave tea from there is called Youthberry, it's actually a blend of two different teas. Well, they made it easy and blended those two teas and Youthberry is now for sale at Starbucks here. So I'm happy that I now have one of my fave teas in my kitchen cabinet. Otherwise I only drink English Breakfast or Earl Grey. Although I have some green teas too that I got with the intention to drink every day, since green tea supposedly is good for you. But I don't. Tea is great, full of antioxidants.
Also yummy from Starbucks is the banana bread and the pecan pie. I don't care too much for their coffee anymore, Kaladi is SOOOO much better. But I do like the chai at Starbucks
(I order it extra hot). And the whipped cream there is the best, still.





On today's schedule. I'm doing laundry and I have to make Chhaya some food after I finish writing this. Then the usual walk and if I'm up for it and the weather permits, a run later.
Last night I got a first. Some guy asked me if my butt is real. What? He thought I had implants. Again......whaaaat? Believe it or not but some people put implants in their butts or inject their butt cheeks with some kind of fat or something to get a larger behind. There is even a book dedicated to the subject, it's called Shot Girls by Vanity Wonder. I did not know whether his question was a compliment or not. Not that it matters, I l♡ve my butt. I will do as Kim K and Nikki Minaj do when they get those questions.....no comments.
Here are some old pics of my amaaaaazing ;-) behind. I need new pics, it's even better looking nowadays......






Saturday, October 11. 2014

Some Tears

I watched Dateline tonight before leaving for work. I'm fascinated by the stories they show on Dateline but I always get the heebie jeebies watching that.....I guess you never know who you get yourself involved in. Very scary. It's like taking a wild chance......you think you know somebody and then it turns out that they are psycho.
This was me before work feeling extremely enthusiastic about driving there.....NOT.



And now I'm at work sitting on the couch. Actually last night I was crying on the couch.....not hysterically but I shed some tears. I was watching Abba videos and that just sent me over the edge.....I was feeling emotional already, homesick and just saaaaad. 😥 Nobody saw me, it's not like I was putting on some drama queen show....it was me alone on the couch with Abba. Well, I'm not feeling sad tonight but I better stay away from Abba or anything Swedish. I drove to work in pouring rain and we are really slow. Oh well.....ces' t la vie!



Friday, October 10. 2014

Light Dusting

I can report that there is a light dusting of snow here in Kenai. I hope it will be a while until we get completely snow covered, last year we had to wait for the snow and I think that was good. The winters here are very long, so the longer the snow stays away the better. It's cold and windy. I am going to dress up warm in a bit and take Chhaya for a walk. Rain or shine, Chhaya needs exercise and fresh air. Well, if it's raining Chhaya actually rather just run out for a quick pee and then she wants to come back inside again. I'm even thinking about a "refreshing" run for myself but that might be a bit too ambitious.



I saw this in the store today and I almost....almost bought it. For myself. Just because it is sooooo cute. But then I stopped myself and realized that I'm not going to play with it. So no Hello Kitty rescue set for me. I would had totally bought it if I had a kid though.



Thursday, October 9. 2014

Romantical

I just got home from work. Me and Sharon were unusually loud, even for us, this evening.
We renamed ourselves Smegma and Prairie Dog. And that was like the funniest thing EVER, so we thought. At least I get a few good laughs when I go to work.
Then one guy got quite annoying. First I thought he was joking about wanting to get married etc. But when he would not shut up about it and seemed seriously confused towards the end that I was not going to give him my number (I never do and never make false promises about giving my number to anyone) or go out with him, let alone marry him. He started becoming annoying, he actually bothered me. Really now, I don't know you! And I don't care to know you after that display of mental confusion. I started ignoring him and he kept on coming up to me. Leave me alone!
Then another one was talking about how ROMANTICAL he could be.....now that's FUNNY! :-D Romantical......LOL. But I guess it's a valid word (?)....although I never heard it before.
As always the night before this one was supposedly a really good night, it's always the night/s when I don't go to work that I hear are just soooooo good. How come?



Now to something more serious. I was late to work cause I just had to watch a show on PBS last night called "Surviving Ebola". I found it very interesting and informative and I thought it was so cool to actually see old footage and a current interview with Peter Piot that I have only read about so far. Again it struck me, the courage displayed by volunteer nurses and Doctors Without Borders that willingly choose to travel to places, away from the comforts and often safety of their homes and loved ones, to care for people they have no relation to. I admire them so much. I would never do that. I can admit to that, I don't have that in me.
Those people are truly heroic.
Then on the drive home from work I listened to Coast To Coast Am, on there they too discussed Ebola but this was a more dire discussion. About lies, conspiracies, biological warfare, that we should all be prepared to isolate ourselves and make sure we have enough food and water to survive for a while. I can say that it didn't seem too farfetched. One of the guests even said that he advises people not to plan to have children right now, due to the current state of the world. And that is ONE of the main reasons I don't have a child. I don't want to put an innocent child into this world because I don't like what I see. Why would I want to subject another person, my OWN child to possible suffering? Sure, these are only speculations but I don't think the discussions I've been catching snippets of on Coast To Coast AM lately are a bunch of mumbo jumbo. It scares me. Ebola. IS.
Possible biological warfare. Is this done on purpose somehow? I don't know. But I do know that being healthy is priceless. Having food and water is priceless also. You don't need much else. But I'm about to fall asleep now, it's after 4 AM and Chhaya kept the bed nice and warm for me. That too is priceless, the friendship we have with out beloved pets.


Wednesday, October 8. 2014

The Moon

Another evening here with a magnificent moon. This is what I saw on my walk with Chhaya a few hours ago. We walk here.....just us. Sometimes we see moose, sometimes caribou or some birds. Besides that, it's quiet.



Chhaya and the moon.



After the walk I was frozen. It's time to dig up the long johns and some warm gloves. One of my toes is still recovering after getting cold tonight.
Besides that I'm exhausted for no reason at all. I think I'm going to wash my hair and go to sleep early. Unless I try to stay up and try to look for the lunar eclipse. It starts a little after midnight tonight and goes on for a few hours.



Moon

The moon was so big and gorgeous last night. I was in the right place for a good pic, this is the moon over the Kenai river last night.



There is a lunar eclipse tonight I guess, I might be able too see that too. If I'm not sleeping.
Besides this I am annoyed. I am dealing with a missing money order that was cashed by not the person it was intended for and fraud on my credit card. Got the credit card taken care of.....now I'm getting a new card sent to me and I have to inform all the places that I have recurrent billing with of the new credit card number. Time consuming, annoying. Then I have to trace the money order and try to get my money back for it. WTF. Stuff like this is exhausting. Bleh. So I'm feeling annoyed.
One more FUN fact......I guess there were some people from Africa in the club last night I heard (I wasn't there). One of them recently arrived from Africa. Not Liberia. But still, Africa. After they left, the table and chairs they were using and the pool sticks (they played pool) got wiped down with bleach. I don't think any of the girls interacted with them last night.
Last Saturday night a guy from Kongo was in.....he told me he is here working, in between here and Japan I guess on some ship, so he had not physically been in Africa for a while.
I interviewed him, oh yes I did. He was very nice. But last night he brought in a friend, that person was newly arrived from Africa. I am not interested in getting any kind of disease - HIV, the flu, Marburg, Ebola, chlamydia, HPV.....etc. NONE of that stuff that you can get from another person. I intend to stay as healthy as possible. Next time management tells me that I HAVE to talk to somebody or do a lap dance for somebody just because they happened to make it in the "buy one get one free dance", or the "get one free" or the "$10 off a lap dance" jars that we have on stage (YES.....like rollbacks at Walmart OK....I don't like it whatsoever) I will remind them of that I am an independent contractor and I interact with people at my own discretion. That's the law. You can't force me to do anything actually and then yell at me and call me STUPID (true story) when I protest and question stuff. You can call me ugly if you want, if that's what you think, cause I really couldn't care less. But do not call me stupid, because if you think that I am stupid then your IQ levels better be way up there.