Entries by TATIANA

I tried to get a good shot of the pale moon today when I was walking with Chhaya in the park. Another beautiful day here in Vegas.....



And here are some gorgeous colors coloring the sky as the sun was setting and I was about to get something to eat from Whole Foods. I felt so grateful to be alive and here in the moment.



Me and Chhaya have been enjoying a routine of getting latte and a pastry around noon, Sambalatte usually since it's right up the road. The we pick one of the parks close to the house, or drive to Sunset Park or out to Red Rock for the daily fun walk. Chhaya's hunting ears, looking out for rabbits.





I do not have a green thumb so I am very impressed with the roses that are growing on my rose bush right now. So gorgeous. All I have been doing is watering. I did clean up some old leaves and sticks outside today and cleaned the patio. Desert landscaping, meaning stones, rocks and bushes.





Right now I'm drying some laundry, Chhaya is resting. I'm going to take her out again in a bit. I'm doing good, feeling happy and grateful for a lot. A few weeks ago I was having a hard time for a short time. One evening I completely lost it for a good 30 minutes or so. My neighbors (if they heard me) probably thought I was crazy. Yes, I cried and screamed LOUDLY. And in that moment.....I did feel crazy. Like I was going to lose my mind and even hurt myself. Kind of scary looking back at it now. Because I was very close to actually doing something that I would regret later but I didn't. I did break some stuff and I did hurt myself a little but nothing serious, no bruises and no blood. This was triggered by a combination of me being fed up by the actions of a person in my immediate circle and a situation that I am reluctantly getting dragged into AGAIN, that has caused me a lot of stress in the past. All of that led to me just not being able to keep it together, I was overwhelmed. Why am telling you (a bunch of strangers mostly) this? Well, first of all my life is not perfect and neither am I trying to paint it out like it is. I have good days (like today) and bad days (like that day) and just normal days, days when I'm tired etc. But mostly I can honestly say that I am happy. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I was feeling really, really sad and everything was just so difficult right then but that turned and today I am very happy and loving my life. Nobody died and nobody is sick, so things could definitely be worse. Also, in case you do know me a little bit or know who I am and actually read my blog (yes, I know you are out there...... ) I'd rather you hear my version of the story, meaning the TRUE version than some half truth, or lie that somebody else might have told you. Just in case......Plus I'm not "ashamed" to admit to having an emotional moment. I would had been ashamed if I had been the person causing another persons pain and tears for no reason, or if I had out of anger injured somebody else. But I didn't. So no, there is no reason to be ashamed to admit to tears and having a temporary meltdown.
Many people out there pretend to live a life that they really don't. It's an extension of Facebook that I sometimes call Fakebook. I find that rather ridiculous but that's them and not me. I don't pretend to live a certain way. Never felt the need to.

This is one of my images from the shoot I did last Sunday. So it's basically brand new. I only got a few images to choose from and this might be the only one that I end up sharing from that shoot. Maybe one or two more, we'll see. That's how it goes sometimes. Wes, the photographer, told me to bring heels and boots. That's it. He shoots nudes. As you can see nude can be tasteful. When some people think of nude pics of girls they think of Hustler style pics. That is not my style. I don't mind shooting nudes as long as they look something in the line of this, or cute and playful. Everybody likes different things and views "art" differently.
To me this is art. And that is the actual sun shining like a huge star behind me, pretty cool!
I don't know how Wes did it but there were light reflectors on me and flashes bouncing off me.

A bit more about Britney, I'm not done yet.....When you enter the arena many of Britney's costumes from her videos are on display. Like these two. The red latex (and very sexy) catsuit from "Oops!...I did it again" and this stewardess outfit from "Toxic".





And then you can shop for all kinds of Britney related stuff in the Briney store that is located really close to the arena where she performs her show inside Planet Hollywood.



I like the Work Bitch hat......and you can see how happy I was here, it was right after the show and I had a serious body buzz going. Super excited.







And here is a snippet of the lyrics to "Work Bitch" which I love cause it completely makes sense. You want something, work for it. Britney did. I think she deserves every bit of success and every penny she has, she earned it, she started working for it at an early age.

"You want a hot body? You want a Bugatti?
You want a Maserati? You better work bitch
You want a Lamborghini? Sippin' martinis?
Look hot in a bikini? You better work bitch
You wanna live fancy? Live in a big mansion?
Party in France?
You better work bitch, you better work bitch"

As for me.....I'm more of a lazy bitch....lol. I work but I don't see myself driving a Lamborghini anytime soon, if ever. But I'm totally OK with what I have. At least I'm working and providing for myself.
I LOVE YOU BRITNEY! Would I see "Piece Of Me" again? YES.

I was so very fortunate to enjoy (and OH DID I enjoy it too.....!!!) Briney Spears show "Piece Of Me" last night at Planet Hollywood. Let me start with some pictures, I took many and picking out a handful was not easy. Inside the arena, view of the stage before showtime. And I was not sitting in a seat far from the stage, I was in the pit up close to Britney. OMG. I was super excited! The pics are in the order of the show. You heard, 'It's Britney, Bitch" and it was ON.....! And YES, she was/is AMAZING. I love Britney! ❤ ❤ ❤ I LOVE this pic! It was over way too soon.....the show is about 90 minutes long and you get to hear all her big hits. I like all her songs so I can't really pick a fave...... I have more Britney stuff to put up here but it will have to wait until tomorrow. I'm in Vegas BITCH and I'm busy!

I have been rather occupied since I got to Vegas, my days are full and not boring like when I'm in Kenai. The Kenai chunk is gone too. A girl came up to me the other night and told me she just wanted to say that she thought I looked "amaaaaazing, just amazing". I thanked her for the nice compliment. I like to compliment people too and have given away two (sincere ones of course, otherwise it doesn't count) in the last couple of days to some random girls.
Me and Chhaya started out the day with meeting up with Julia at Madhouse Coffee, Chhaya joined in on the latte meeting.



Then we all went to a girl named Heather where I got a trim, about an inch or so off my hair while Chhaya waited in the backyard. Julia stayed behind for a trim and a color. Me and Chhaya left so I could eat some Pei Wei takeout and then we went to Red Rock for a walk.
I have to say that Red Rock was unusually beautiful today. It smelled SO GOOD there, I was taking deep breaths of the fresh rain air. It rained here in Vegas yesterday so everything feels fresh and smells like sagebrush. For a minute I just took in the scenery and the quiet and powerful buzz of nature - BEAUTIFUL. I love Red Rock. So grateful that I'm here right now.

Yesterday I had to force myself to get up at the horribly early hour of 9 am, well I actually dragged it out a bit and stayed in bed until about 9 15 until I had to get up and get myself ready so I wouldn't be late. I am usually on time for my appointments. I don't like making people wait.
I met up with Wes and two ladies, Debbie and Lisa (light assistants) at a Starbucks and we drove out far into the Lake Mead National Recreation Area to a place called Redstone.
I recommend a visit to Redstone (not to be confused with Red Rock) if you have some time to spare in Vegas. Massive red rock formations, great place for photos and a picnic.
I have shot there before and I actually lost a high heel there on a shoot. So somewhere out there I lost a black very snazzy heel (Yves Saint Laurent for fashion minded folks). This time around I brought along these that I found at Nordstrom Rack.



I also brought Chhaya and she spent her day sun bathing on the cliffs and looking for lizards. Everybody commented on how well behaved she is and she IS actually that good, until another dog gets in her face.







After the shoot (I hope for a couple of good shots because Wes is a perfectionist) me and Chhaya went to the park closer to the house for two long laps around it. Then I took Chhaya home, rinsed off and changed clothes and headed to my angel Cathy for a 2 1/2 hour long massage. Seriously, I love massages and I love getting my feet and calves rubbed and Cathy is a foot expert. It felt soooooooo good! I want to go back next week.





I got home at a little after midnight and headed straight for the bed with a pint of ice cream in my hand. Long day.