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I'm just eating it seems like.......
Here are the best cupcakes from Trader Joe's. So yummy! Chhaya wants some but of course I am not going to give her a whole cupcake, she can lick some frosting off my fingers but that's it.



Met with Janis for some quality time.



Late night snack at Roxy's.



This morning's breakfast. Coffee and eggs. Chhaya gets eggs too, good source of protein for dogs and humans.

I've been spoiled by Roxy the last couple of days. Yesterday she made me this beautiful salad with organic raw pumpkin seeds sprinkled on top followed by gnocchi and an amazing tomato sauce. No meal is complete without dessert, well that is my philosophy at least. I got us some Red Velvet cupcakes from Trader Joe's, those are my new faves. I wish I could send a box or two of them to all my cupcake lover friends.





The we watched a move followed by some random TV.....and we (meaning Roxy, me and Chhaya) fell asleep in the super comfortable recliner chairs. Watching a movie at Roxy's house is like having your own private screening at a theater, I feel spoiled.



Speaking of TV and movies. Over Christmas I watched about 5 episodes of that much talked about documentary, Making Of A Murderer and the I decided I just had enough. Bleh. I don't see what the big deal is. There are people out there that have been executed for crimes they did not commit. I have no opinion about whether the people portrayed in said documentary are guilty or not. It is sad, scary, upsetting and unfair in general that people don't get treated fairly and that money can buy one person freedom and the lack of money can take away another persons freedom. It's so much easier to have wealth if you are born into it. Obviously. No life is not fair. But the sun is shining here today and I am taking Chhaya for a nice walk in a bit. Maybe another movie tonight in a red recliner chair while covered up by a soft blanket. A candle flickering in the background.
Oh, I also wanted to say I had some sort of a night terror a few weeks ago, not sure what other term I should use to describe it. I screamed in my sleep, like a terrified scream deep from my soul. I was not having a nightmare, not that I can remember. It was me, the myself expressing the trauma and hurt that I have been going through lately. I woke up both times from the sound of the scream, sweaty and somewhat confused.

I saw this note a few weeks ago attached to a light post at a park I go to with Chhaya.
I mean..... what the hell? I can't even IMAGINE! The world is full of cruel people. WHY?
My friend Annette told me that she does not leave her baby Jax in the car by himself anymore when she runs errands because she is scared somebody might take him. She personally knows of a lady that had her 13 year old dog taken out of the backyard. I don't even have words for that. That is an excuse for murder. Seriously!
Here is Chhaya taking apart her toy. She goes through all kinds of toys on a weekly basis, stuffed toys, hard supposedly tough resistant toys, doesn't matter......Chhaya rips them apart. Meticulously. So CUTE!



The baby living the good life. As should all beloved pets, they should be treated like a member of the family.

I had an all day shoot and combined sightseeing trip with Cindy a few weeks ago. She took me out to Nelson here in Nevada, my first visits to the famous ghost town. A super cool place with soooooo much to see. Well, Cindy sent me a few of the images...... here they are.
Thank You Cindy!





I was FREEZING when we took this pic...... although it looks like I am fully enjoying the warm sun.



Photographer Cindy Enchanted Eye Photography.
www.enchantedeyephotography.com

Here is just a part of what I have been dealing with for the last year and also years ago.
The folders are full of papers for a loan modification that I am struggling with to get approved for my place in Vegas. It has been extremely draining mentally and emotionally plus I have been doing it on my own. Paying an attorney would had been way too expensive and and at least I know that I am putting in the time.
I mean.....who can you trust to really work with your best interest in mind? Who can you trust in general? Not many people, that is for sure. I am and have been at my wits end with this and had I not gotten myself involved in this really bad, uneducated and very naive real estate mess, yes I was the naive one, I could had been rather OK off financially today had I not been so dumb. Right now I am still fighting because I am a fighter, I want to be able to say that I did what I could before giving up. So giving up means trying for a short sale and if that gets denied then it's foreclosure. That is what I am looking at basically. This affair has really been difficult to deal with. The banks and the bankers in high positions sure did get their bail out. Where is the people's bail out? Maybe some nice person out there can bail me out? LOL......yeah right. I am just kidding. But it would be nice to get a bail out, that is for sure. I just want my downpayment back, that's it. And the bank can take the house back......I don't need it. I need peace of mind and no stress.

Hi my friends! 🙂 I can see in my statistics that I still have plenty and very loyal visitors checking my blog every day, It really warms my heart I have to say. Thank You! As you can understand, I am not doing well. But I am alive. And in case you wonder.....Chhaya is getting her daily walk, good food and attention. I am neglecting myself but not Chhaya.
So my beloved little MAC laptop Snow Snow (yes, I named my laptop when I first got it) is broken but getting looked over. Not sure if I will get it back repaired or what the outcome will be. I'm a bit sad over that too. The computer expert looking over Snow Snow told me that Snow Snow is sick. Noooooooo!
Yesterday I spent basically all day at my friend Roxy's house, she has a huge amazing art loft with upstairs balconies. We sat outside in the sun and had coffee. Chhaya joined us.



Chhaya loves Roxy's house. It's large, lots of space to explore, move around and chase after toys, a backyard and comfy furniture to enjoy.



We rounded up a nice day with two movies. First we watched Brooklyn a BEAUTIFUL story about a girl, Eilis that leaves Ireland in the 1950s to start a new life in Brooklyn, America.
Her adjusting to the new surroundings and then she falls in love but as love often is, it involved some complications, heartache and difficult decisions. But in the end I think she made the right decision.
There is nothing like true love. If you have it - cherish it. Don't let go of true love thinking that something better might come around or that the grass is greener on the other side because it rarely is. This movie is REALLY good, I loved it and both me and Roxy cried. Tissue definitely came in handy.
I saw many similarities to my own life in this movie. Coming to the US alone and how hard it was in the beginning because I was so homesick and felt so lonely. There is nothing like the comfort of having your family to support you through life's up and downs. If you have family close by consider yourself BLESSED. I am very grateful for my friends here. They say that friends are the family you choose. I think that is very true.
Then we watched Trainwreck . Yes, very fitting title for Amy Schumer's character. That movie was trashy but had it's fun moments.