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Helloooooo it is February 14 and that means it is Valentine's Day so if you are reading this TODAY - Happy Valentine's Day! ❤️
Of course boxes of chocolates, chocolate dipped strawberries and bouquets of flowers are flying off the shelves today, big profits for retailers. I personally do not like cut flowers, flowers belong outside or growing in pots....to me having flowers on display at home slowly rotting away in a vase only to get thrown out after about a week is a complete waste. Poor flowers, I actually feel bad for them.
It is raining (again) in Portland. The winter storm that the city frantically prepared for like it was doomsday came and went, basically strong winds, wet snow that melted away and more rain. WOW what a storm! Not.
I am going to spend today on the couch and in bed with my cuddly fur babies. I got two movies to watch, Bohemian Rhapsody and A Private War. So Bohemian Rhapsody is about Freddie Mercury, one of the best vocalists ever and an amazing performer.



I remember hearing Radio Ga Ga on the radio a long time ago and I thought it was weird....I didn't get the gaga thing.....like what did it mean? But I always thought Freddie's voice was very strong and beautiful and according to what I have read he was a beautiful human being as well. Gone too soon unfortunately. A Private War is about Marie Colvin, a very brave journalist that lived a fascinating life. I very much admire journalists like her. She too is gone too soon. People that made a difference. I admire those.



The best thing you can do for your significant other (if you have one) and do not be sad if you don't because a lot of relationships are far from the perfect picture people (often the woman in the relationship) pretend it is on social media. Sometimes it is better to enjoy your own company or the company of loyal and loving pets....BUT if you do have a significant other I think the best thing you can do is to give a long and thorough foot rub. Don't be lazy, massage your woman's feet, her head, neck, shoulders and back too. Why are you expecting your penis to get attention if you can't give attention to what feels good to the other person?
I had a boyfriend a while back and NOW I am SO eternally GRATEFUL that we are not together anymore, it ended in a bad way but I do think it would had ended in an even worse way had we stayed together because he was just a ticking time bomb and now he can go off in drunken rages at his current (also a drunk) partner instead of subjecting me and Chhaya to his awful moods and behaviors. Anyhow he would come home and just expect me to jump for joy at the sight of his erection when in fact it didn't do much for me because that it all it was....a hard penis. First of all, any guy would be lucky to have me as a girlfriend because I am just THAT amazing, Thank You YES I know this about myself. So you do something for me instead of acting like a cranky child over your penis because that is NOT sexy OK. If an erection is all you have to offer then you don't have much.
Actually four years ago at Valentine's Day I was sad and crying and today this Valentine's Day I won't be crying. I am not pretending that life is perfect because it has it's ups and downs but I am good.
And lo and behold that asshole called me one evening after he had betrayed me in the worst way and even stolen from me only to tell me that he had made a mistake and how much he missed me and bla bla bla some other ramblings that I do not recall anymore.
No motherfucker, I am glad we are not together anymore although it took me a while to get over the shock of the betrayal.....being with you for as long as I stuck around was a mistake on my part. I should had listened to my gut/soul when it told me to leave several times, the first time about six months into the relationship and a few times afterwards but one of my faults is that I am loyal, too loyal even when people don't deserve it. It would had been way better for me if I would had left him, better both emotionally and financially. He is now exactly where he belongs, in a white trash drunken stupor together with the handsome woman he fits so perfectly with. Don't worry ol' lady, I do not want him back. Serve him biscuits and gravy or else! Cause I sure refused. No thanks. Several people came forward afterwards and said that they always thought I was way out of his league. And you know what....those people were right.
Anyhow, gentlemen.....give your significant other a nice massage without expecting anything in return. XOXO

Last night I saw a documentary called Depeche Mode:101 about what else.....Depeche Mode. The screening was inside the Whitsell Auditorium at the Portland Art Museum and it was a full house. The documentary was filmed in 1988 and they (DM) look so young....OMG I was a young teenager back then and I loved Depeche Mode and I still do. 30 years have went by since then....I'm not a teenager anymore but still kind of feel like one most days. So back then Depeche Mode had four members, now they are three. Alan Wilder quit the band years ago.
I liked all that had to do with Depeche Mode in this documentary, their stage performances especially but I could had easily skipped on the footage of the group of fans because that was completely uninteresting. The fan footage reminded me of MTV's Real World before the first Real World had even been thought of.
Will there be another Depeche Mode tour in the future? If so, I hope I can go (again), I have seen them in concert twice.

When I arrived at school today I did notice the lack of cars in the parking lot....I guess I was one of the few that did not get the memo that classes were cancelled due to weather. Weather? It looked perfectly fine to me, sure it got cold and snowed last night but the snow melted away during the day today. So I do not see the reason to cancel anything. Like why? These people obviously have zero concept of winter. You know...droves of snow, challenging driving conditions and freezing temperatures. There is no winter in Portland right now, not what I call winter at least.



As you can see in the pic, it is absolutely impossible to safely maneuver around in these horrendous conditions. Much safer to stay at home!



So I went home and ate. Nutella croissants....SO YUMMY!



And then I studied, until my eyes got heavy and I needed a break. I have crammed in so much new information into my brain. I am sure I have forgotten half of it and the remainder is mixed up into confusion with what I do recall and understand.
Not a lot of energy for the blog right now. Sometimes I miss it, writing here....it sure gave me something to do during many boring days and nights spent in Alaska feeling lonely but lately I have been quiet busy with studying and taking care of dogs plus other stuff and I am definitely not feeling lonely anymore. And I don't live in Alaska anymore! I still have a lot say but then I think how many times can I write about what I have already penned over and over again? I might pick up the pace of writing again or not but there will be an occasional blog entry now and then for the time being. There is definitely still a lot to talk about and perhaps some things to get off my chest, maybe. Who knows, I might be writing two entries daily next month if I feel inspired to do so.

Another day another latte, I tried Stumptown Coffee Roasters on 3rd Ave in Portland today. My latte was very good, so I would definitely go back but I do not like that you have to pay to park downtown Portland. So I have to feed the parking meter before I feed my latte addiction or spend money at local businesses? That's lame. The parking downtown Portland is FREE on Sundays BEFORE 1 PM, so if/when I go back to Stumptown I will be there by noon. On a Sunday. I don't mind spending money but paying for parking to shop or eat doesn't feel right.





An underground tunnel leading down to the underbelly of Portland. Kind of creepy. I think these tunnels are called the Shanghai Tunnels. You can take a tour of them, I might have to do that.



Also there was a super blood wolf moon tonight with a lunar eclipse. I was hoping to see it, I saw the eclipse but no red moon. I took pics but nothing came out good. Of course.

I went to a place called Broder Söder in Portland located inside Nordia House which is a place for Scandinavian things. ("Nordic Northwest is a nonprofit organization focused on the five Nordic nations: Denmark, Finland, Iceland, Norway and Sweden. The mission of Nordic Northwest is to preserve, communicate and celebrate Nordic culture, heritage and innovation" from nordicnorthwest.org.) At Broder Söder I had the Danish pancakes....reminded me of beignets. I don't know why the pancakes come with lingonberries....I never had pancakes served with lingonberries in Sweden. We (at least I) prefer to have my pancakes with a sweet jam like strawberry jam or mixed berries jam. Me opening up the door to enter Nordia House - I really like these beautiful doors. One of the best discoveries I have made in a long time, I found a place that could make me Prinsesstårta. !!!!! That is like my FAVE dessert ever, I grew up eating it and one of the first things I eat when I arrive in Sweden, if not the first thing I eat, is Princesstårta. It is SO good. Baker & Spice made it for me and they did a good job but they could improve, I will give them some specific instructions, of the constructive kind, next time I order it. Pretty yumminess! I am not the only one loving this dessert. Check this out..... And today I went to Papa Haydn and had Boccone Dolce. They have so many good desserts at Papa Haydn, this one is DELICIOUS!

It's getting late.....I just ate a bowl of ice cream, whipped cream and a sliced banana. Had a late night craving for it.
I have spent the last few days studying. I recently started pursuing something new and it involves quite a bit of studying but that is all I have to say about that for now.
So.....about a month ago I went to the dentist. I have not been to the dentist in probably over a decade, yep over ten years for sure. So I had a check up and cleaning. No cavities and the cleaning was not bad, it was actually kind of fun. So when the actual dentist came into the room the dental assistant had already taken several X rays of my teeth and poked around in my mouth with dental instruments for a while. He sits down and asks if my wisdom teeth are giving me problems. I was like, no not at all.....why? So I guess the dental assistant had told him they probably should be pulled. He looked in my mouth and told her there is nothing wrong with my wisdom teeth and I would had definitely went for a second opinion had he agreed with her. Or just not done anything at all since my wisdom teeth don't bother me at all.
Here is what I think.....this is what some dental clinics do to generate more money. Tell people they need procedures that they really don't. This is, as most know not uncommon and there are cases of physicians that have order cancer treatments on healthy people. Like chemotherapy. Insurance fraud. Lots of income for the doctors.
A few years ago I took a friend to the dentist. She had Medicaid. The dentist pulled five teeth on her in ONE sitting. The four wisdom teeth and one more tooth. She was in and out of that place in 15 minutes. I was kind of shocked and very concerned when they rolled her out to me so I could take her home. I was like, "you pulled out all five teeth that fast?" He must have yanked those teeth out of her mouth. And later on that evening her mouth was bleeding so much that she had to go to the emergency room because she was in pain, her mouth was infected. That dentist office was basically a conveyer belt for dental procedures for low income patients. So wrong. Is it even safe to pull out that many teeth in one session? And that fast? It was a disturbing experience, I felt bad for my friend.
And now I am reading about a two year old that died a few days ago because some dentist had recommended a procedure that the child most likely did not need in the first place (the child needed crowns and root canals - for a toddler???) and that involved anesthesia and the boy never woke up. Unreal.
The complicated medical industry definitely needs a major overhaul. You want to trust the people that give you medical advise and care, you should not have to be worried about getting mislead due to some unethical greedy person wanting to cash in.