Welcome to Chaos !!

As soon as Tatiana heard about Tiger Woods "car accident" and that his wife bashed out one of the windows of the car with a golf club to "save" him, she thought something was fishy there. And indeed, soon after, an alleged affair surfaced and at this moment there are like three alleged affairs. And Tiger did admit to some transgressions, translation - he cheated.
Tatiana thinks that Tiger tried to save himself from his Swedish wife Elin's fury and the golf club she was swinging at him.
So Tiger cheated...... In general Tatiana is definitely against cheating but every relationship has it's own story. People cheat, there are many different reasons for it. But if somebody is going to have many affairs over and over again and in the end hurt their spouse emotionally it is always better to get a divorce. Elin is probably NOT happy, Tatiana doesn't think this is an open relationship marriage, Elin is probably pissed off, as she should be. Here is a young, good looking woman, with two small children, finding out that her husband has been having some ongoing affairs. Pretty gross. Tatiana would had chased him down with a golf club too. Or a good old fashioned frying pan, or thrown some hard Swedish clogs at his head. It's not like they have been married that long and Elin is better looking than Tiger anyway. Elin is a beauty, she blows those alleged affair women out of the water by far. She should just walk away. He can't be trusted anymore. She doesn't need him, the only sad part is the kids but they will be fine in the end.
Would Tatiana have an affair with a married man? No. Never have, never will. (Just to be politically correct here, Tatiana should say that at least she hopes to never have a relationship with a married man). Tatiana has to be a guys number one and if he is married there are too many people involved in the relationship already. Plus, she would feel awful doing that to the wife. It would just be weird. If the guy is so unhappy in his marriage he can get a divorce and then he can do whatever he wants. Unless it is some kind of an open marriage and everybody involved is ok with it.
An acquaintance of Tatiana's recently gave her some details about some married guy that cheated on his wife with a Vegas stripper (oh my!) and ended up taking the money saved up for his children's college funds and embezzling his wife's money, just to give it all to the stripper. Well, this doesn't happen too often. First of all, it was HIS choice to go in to the strip club in the first place, Tatiana doubts that he was forced to go there. Maybe married guys should stay out of strip clubs if they can't control themselves? Or go with the wife and just make a fun date out of it. Tatiana meets lots of guys, and honestly she couldn't care less if they are married or not, that's not HER problem. If they want to tip on stage or get dances, that's their choice. Tatiana doesn't force herself upon the "poor" men that wander in to the club. She is not going to see them outside of the club anyway. If she would end up dating or befriending a guy outside of the club he wouldn't be married. Tatiana doesn't have time for crap like that. Or if just a friend, the wife would be aware of and ok with Tatiana.
By the way, guys cheat on their wives with all kinds of women, strippers shouldn't be held responsible for all the bad things guys do to their wives. But many women have tons of already made up opinions about strippers, we take our clothes off for money for crying out loud! That is just awful!
Tatiana doesn't have anything to be ashamed of, she doesn't have any problems with getting naked, she is not hurting anyone, so so what? We are all naked underneath our clothes. Besides, she looks good naked. The nakedness doesn't have anything to do with what kind of a person she is. And there is a time and a place to get naked, she is not going to get naked just anywhere. So all the "righteous" people out there should recognize this and think about what kind of a person they are before they open their mouths to talk about strippers.
Yeah Elin, Tatiana's advice is dump the Tiger and get with a real man. Or woman.

Hope you'll have a great one! A warm one. Full of good feelings.
Tatiana is hopefully going to eat something yummy, she is craving mashed potatoes, yams, green beans and a delicious dessert. As far as the turkey goes - no turkey, let the turkeys alone on Thanksgiving is Tatianas philosophy.
And on Thanksgiving evening Tatiana will be at work. Supposedly many people will want to give her thanks so she decided to honor their wishes and go to work.
Enjoy your day! HUGS!

Tatiana just got home from work, she is watching VH1, music videos are on, Tatiana loves music videos - she would watch them for hours at an end in Sweden.
This song by MUSE called "Uprising" caught her ear tonight, good song and really good, important lyrics. Sign of the times. Does Tatiana think of The Government, Big Brother, controlling us, the people? Yes, she does. It's scary. Revolution might be necessary one day. Tatiana believes in peace and that good and love will prevail but sometimes she wonders if that really is possible.
Here's the song and the lyrics. What do YOU think?

Besides this........Tatiana think she has the flu. Yeay! NOT. It came on quickly at work tonight, typical flu symptoms. Tatiana was so ecstatic over this she had a 5 minute good cry at work. Not on stage, in the dressing room. She was already sad over a bunch of stuff and now she has to be sick too and she does not want to miss out on work. Hence the crying.

Here are the lyrics to "Uprising" by MUSE.

The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They'll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

 

Tatiana has not contributed much to her blog lately. She always have much to say, many things on her mind, bursting with opinions but sometimes the mood is not there to write things down.
Lately Tatiana has been feeling somewhat down, thinking about her life, the mistakes she made, the consequences, why she is where she is, where she is going, how to deal with life when it is not going right, just difficult thoughts that are not always the easiest to deal with and process.
So Tatianas inspiration to writing blogs has not really been there.
It's just a little too much right now. Tatiana might pack up and go to Las Vegas for a while. Something she rather not deal with, the packing, the traveling, it is just annoying. But she needs to figure out what to do with her place in Las Vegas, the place that unfortunately is more of a headache than something positive. And then she will need to return to Alaska, because working in the clubs in Vegas seems like a no good solution.
Her town home in Vegas was supposed to be a positive addition to her life but with the housing situation looking very bleak still, this purchase is one of the worst things Tatiana ever did for herself. She was hoping for liberation within reach when she got it, instead it is a prison with no end in sight.
Christmas, birthday and New Years around the corner, these events usually bring out many thoughts and emotions in Tatiana and people in general she suspects.
This year there are too many overwhelming events and feelings taking place, Tatiana doesn't know where to start. She wants to remember all her friends and people that have showed her kindness and animals in need and people in need. But this time she just doesn't know if she can do it.
But tomorrow is a new day, the only way to go is forward - even when it is hard. Life is not waiting. Tatiana must deal with her stuff, no one else will, we all have much to deal with. Hopefully next blog will be a little more cheerful.
Hope you are all doing well. Many hugs, T.

Tatiana got home from work a while back, she loves staying up at night. So that's why she is not sleeping yet. She has always been more of a night person than a morning person, if she really has to she can be up early and be efficient but she much rather get busy at night. She gets energized at night. Like a vampire. Speaking of vampires....."New Moon" is coming out in eight days..........Tatiana is going to drag Kennedy to the movies and squeal when Edward shows up on screen.
Work has been pretty fun this week, that's always a good thing. It would be even better if Bill Gates would come in and decide that Tatiana is his dream girl, then he could come in like twice a month and be very generous. Bill is generous, he constantly gives to charities, all he needs to do now is to discover that giving to Tatiana would be like the best thing he has ever done, even better that coming up with Microsoft. Tatiana likes Bill, he seems very nice actually.......and he is kind of cute too. Tatiana is wondering when their paths will cross?
After writing this Tatiana is in the mood to wax her legs. No sleeping yet. The waxing only takes about ten minutes anyways.
What else? Oh, that song "In For The Kill" Tatianas latest favorite song by La Roux.......well it was played inside the main area at Monster Massive, a remix of the original, Tatiana had a feeling she would hear it that night. Tatiana has a really good ear for music. She loves that song, she is going to order the album so she can listen to it in the car.
Last week while in Las Vegas Tatiana met up with Julia. That was very DA NANG! They had cupcakes and chai and talked.
The roads in Anchorage are super icy, some roads look like glass, Tatiana almost spun out a few times driving, even though she is being really careful. She thinks that the city needs to put sand on the roads, that's what they do in Sweden in the winter.
Tomorrow Tatiana has to do super exciting things like go to the post office and do her laundry. Vacuum. Besides eat and take Chhaya out, that's a given. Tatiana is still looking for a slave boy that can do her mundane tasks for her, the pay will be lousy as far as currency goes but instead the lucky slave can wash Tatianas delicate Hanky Panky undies by hand - that's worth more than money.
Ok, time to wax. More from Tatiana another time!

So it snowed Sunday night. Tatiana was expecting the snow any day. Saturday night, the night Tatiana rather had alone time than mingle time, she took a long walk with Chhaya and the smell of snow was surely hanging in the air. People were even ice skating on Westchester Lagoon.
So now it seems like the snow is here to stay. White and pretty everywhere.
Oh.....and in case you are wondering about Tatianas PMS? It's magically gone, poof! Sure, she still has her mood swings, but those are nothing compared to PMS. Mood swings make for a more interesting day, right?
So see you at The Bush!