Welcome to Chaos !!

Tatiana woke up about four hours ago, around 2 pm. A fine time to wake up.
It turned out to be a gloomy and chilly day. Fantastic! One of those days when you just burst with energy. Not.
So......today Tatiana was supposed to be back at The Bush, leave of absence time is supposedly over. Well, after some consideration Tatiana made the decision to strech out her leave of absence. She is, at this point not sure when she will be back at The Bush. Never say never, most likely she will be back but right now being there full time again is not going to happen.
Tatiana misses her girlfriends there, she is hoping that they are all making money. She misses her dj friends. And she misses asking Landis to play "Flaunt It' by TV Rock and some David Guetta, LOUD please. But for now, things are like this.
Where is Tatiana? Still out on a very secret mission...............

Gorgeous sunrise with beautiful views of the surrounding mountains. Maybe today is going to be a sunny day? There has been a lot of rain lately, not a very warm and sunny Summer so far. Tatiana is up bright and early, but she will probably go to sleep pretty soon and sleep until sometimes this afternoon.
Last night was raining away. Movies are fun on a rainy Sunday. Tatiana saw "The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo" - yes it's a movie too. Tatiana loves Lisbeth Salander, that character is really cool. If you watched the movie you might remember that she swings at a car with a golfclub. Another Swedish lady did this back in November. Elin. Yes, that is just one of the many useful things they teach us girls in Sweden. Elin, by the way decided to divorce Tiger. Tatiana agrees with that move. "Stand by your man" might work in some cases but not in a case like this.
Tatiana is gearing up for a facial and a pedicure next week.

Still here on Kodiak Island but not for much longer. This will most likely be the first and last time Tatiana comes out here, but never say never.
She got lucky with the weather and has done quite a bit of sightseeing.
So did you know that STRESSED is DESSERTS backwards? Tatiana loves, looooves desserts. Ice cream, Swedish Princess Cake, pie with ice cream on the side, eclair, carrot cake, almond croissant, creme brulee, any kind of apple cake. Tatianas diet could easy just consist of desserts in various forms all day long.
So when you do feel stressed, enjoy some desserts and calm down. And think of Tatiana. BLISS!
Tatiana is going to take Chhaya for a walk right now.
Here is a pic of something yummy that Tatiana enjoyed not too long ago.

This place is also called The Emerald Isle and Tatiana can see why, it is super green and lush, very pretty. So far Tatiana has had lots of luck with seeing animals. One youngish grizzly looking for fish in the river, two foxes that were the cutest ever, here is a pic of one of them. It was curios about Tatiana too. Some deer. Eagles.
Tatiana drove from one end to the other and explored some old bunkers from WW II.
She found flowers that matched her nail polish.
So far it has been a great adventure, a few days remain. Chhaya loves it too.

Tatiana and Chhaya boarded the M/V Kennicott ferry from Homer with destination Kodiak Island today. Tatiana has been wishing to see Kodiak since she arrived in Alaska. The ferry took a while, by the time Tatiana drove off the ferry onto land, she and Chhaya had been on that vessel for 12 hours. It takes longer if you bring your car since you have to wait with all the other cars to get off the ferry.

Perfection and a nude Swedish dancer

Film: Provia 400
Style: Subtle Erotica + Nude Sensual Editorial Fashion Portrait




I wanted to admit to her my affection
although I was pretty afraid of her rejection
I could offer her some kind of protection
but all she was looking for was a simple direction
and to be honest I had no real objection
as I was not sure if she was only a projection
or maybe she already has taken over my heart
.........................with a serious case of infection

I did feel this thing between us though,
what do you call it, some kind of connection?!
but would I have any kind of chance to be
..............................in the pool of her selection?

I could , forever, look at her beautiful green reflection
This must be how drug addicts feel after an injection
(hope none of them pops in to offer me a correction)

oh she could be the start and end of my art collection
she could be my first female president without any election
she could give the sweetest meaning to the word dissatisfaction
or at the end of a long tough road,
...........................................................without any consequences,
..........................................simply smile and show me a redirection

let the romantic music begin from the violin section
as her presence might have caused me a soul resurrection

I wonder if this is cheesy enough to create
.................................some kind of universal mental rejection
after all, I am taking the long way around the barn to say
.....................................she was pretty close to the perfection



Yeah, Tatiana had to share this with you too. This photo was taken in her bathroom (in Las Vegas) a while back now. By WOLF189, he wrote the poem too, it's a pretty poem, isn't it? It's nice to have something like that of yourself, a forever image/memory when some days are faaaaar from "perfection".
Tatiana is a night owl, it's a little after 3 am and she is alert and awake, Chhaya has been snoring for a while now.
Hmmmmm, the dilemma is "what to do now"? Probably get ready for bed and go to sleep.