Welcome to Chaos !!

Before Tatiana goes to bed she is going to share these "life lessons" she just came across while reading up on stuff online.
She does not who said these things, but here they are

Do you have a higher purpose beyond yourself? You don’t have to be a movie star to make a difference in the world. Is there some cause you are willing to take a stand for and speak out about? Is there an issue that moves you to take action? Abused children, the elderly, the homeless, a health issue, the environment, animals? You can become an advocate for change in your own neighborhood, town, city, or state, in the nation, or even the world.

If we live long enough, we’re all going to get old. We must make peace with the idea that beauty is fleeting and that we won’t be taking any of our material possessions with us when we leave. What truly matters is the richness of your character, the compassion you develop and the love that you share.

No one has the perfect life. Even those with unbelievable beauty, brains, money, fame, and success, don’t escape unscathed. We are all someone’s child and often times someone’s parent. We all bleed and we all mourn. Don’t ever be jealous of anyone else. Focus on living your own life in the best way possible.


Now Tatiana, with this in mind, is going to curl up and enjoy her sleep and maybe a few good dreams.......

It's a little after Midnight and it is just getting dark. Tatiana LOVES it! The long Alaskan summer days are great! Is it difficult to sleep? Not at all for Tatiana, she can sleep in daylight, darkness, curled up inside a loud speaker at a rave........no problem!
Anyway, since Tatiana is BIB, back in business, she will have some work related stories to share now and then.
Here is one from Saturday night......
Stage hog did it again. LOL. Like HELLO?
One guy thought Tatiana looked unreal, like a cartoon, he said "like an Anastasia princess cartoon". Awwwww, cute!
Then there was the inebriated guy, MR Super Annoying. Since Tatiana wouldn't pay him any attention, she does not like it when people are THAT drunk, seriously just sober up and do not slobber, spit and try to lay your heavy arm around me, weighing down on my hair .......and since Tatiana would not pay him any attention, he loudly decided and declared that Tatiana was "SO mean". And he actually remembered Tatiana from last year and she had been just as mean then too, supposedly. When he said that, Tatiana recalled him too and he had been just as drunk and annoying that night last year as this time. It's funny, every time a guy does not get the attention he thinks "he should" at a strip club, the girl in question is automatically mean.
What is up with that?
Try to go in at 8 am to the place you work at, reeking of booze, approach a female coworker, get really close to her and spit while you talk.......be very annoying. If she quickly leaves, is it YOU or HER?
Anyhow, according to MR Super Annoying and drunk, he was a sociologist and some other title too and he just knew that Tatiana is mean. He knew, he had "studied" her, in his drunkenness. Well, Tatiana is a stripper (sometimes) and she just KNOWS that you have problems, many problems, now go away.
He did not spend any money, besides on alcohol, but wanted to talk and be annoying. Well, Tatiana does not have to talk to you just because you happen to be there, get it? Tatiana finally asked him "what exactly do you want, did you come here thinking I would wash your sweaty underwear and cook you dinner?" "Leave me alone!" "I am not your wife!"
He still followed her around like a puppy. In between declaring how mean Tatiana was, he told her how pretty he though she was.
GO AWAY! He might be very nice when sober, and somewhere else but Tatiana does not want to see him ever again.

Then we have a "lady", a dirty lady that lays eggs. This is a first too. Oh Lord! She goes up on stage and during the second song she squeezes out a plastic (?) egg from her VAGINE. She tries to give the eggs to the guys but most of them are so bewildered and probably grossed out by this, that they refuse to touch the egg (no shit) and she ends up putting it at the railing of the stage.
YEAH, freaking GROSS!!!! Some slimy VAG egg just laying there. Classy.
Imagine that Landis, for a show at The Bush, some girl in a chicken costume, squeezing out eggs during the third song, auctioning off the eggs to the audience.
To the people that do not know who Landis is, he is a dj at The Bush Company, he is super cool and reads Tatiana's blog sometimes.
: )
The egg lady is curvy, now that is being nice (but some like curvy and that's totally ok).......she wore a skirt and a bra out of some white fuzzy material, she looked like a cross between a polar bear and big bird. Or Sasquatch.
Yeah, like Tatiana said, never seen ladies squeeze anything out of their VAGINES at work before, she thought that only happened in Bangkok and on the internet.
It's actually GROSS and not at all sexy/cute or whatever it is supposed to be.

Then there is another girl that is very thin and looks like a crack head, Tatiana thinks it's pretty safe to say that she probably is a crack head. Which is sad, it must be difficult to deal with that. Tatiana has known/knows people with substance abuse problems and that does not mean that you are a bad person at all. Well, some people are druggies AND bad people, not a good combination, unfortunately Tatiana has known them too........you know who you are......
This girl can't keep still and she moves her mouth around in all kinds of directions and wrinkles her forehead, her whole face moves. It's exhausting just to look at her (and kind of sad). This girl smells like trouble, Tatiana is keeping her distance. A guy at work said he thought that girl was " a snake". And another one came up to Tatiana asking how he could get rid of her because she had latched herself on to him and he did not want to talk to her anymore. She is kind of scary if you are sober enough to see it. Tatiana said she couldn't help him with that problem. Her advice to guys is to tell the girls, politely, that you are not interested from the very beginning.
Btw, if you are skinny due to crack, coke, meth, whatever it might be, even diet pills, then you are just druggie skinny, try to be naturally skinny, healthy for a change.
It's easy to drop the pounds if you snort/smoke some drugs.
Anyways.
Tatiana is sure egg lady and skinny girl have tons of great qualities, unfortunately those qualities do not come out that much at work.
It's getting late, Tatiana thinks that she is going to curl up in bed.
GOD NATT!

The Latisse works beyond Tatiana's expectations! Her lashes are so long and fluttering, she loves them! BAMBI lashes!
Actaully, these are some self portaits of Tatiana and her fake lashes from last night, these are the longest lashes she is using, they look a little extreme but it's not as overwhelming when she has her eyes open. Tatiana is not sure if she has seen any difference in her real lashes after using Latisse for almost two weeks now, every night. She does not think that she is going to continue with the Latisse once she runs out of what's left in the bottle. A bottle (very small) of Latisse is about $ 120 btw.

So last night at work was kind of........interesting, for lack of a better word.
First of all, more girls have showed up. Two arrived last night that Tatiana has not seen since last summer. Tatiana noticed that they were acting silly. One of them, she looks ok, in good shape, better from afar than up close, but still one of the better ones in the club, was hogging the people at the stage. At this club, most girls insist on sitting with with guys at the stage, totally trying to divert the attention from the girl that's presently on stage. Weird. It's the only club that Tatiana has worked at where this is done, where it's actually allowed, she doesn't get it. The stage is for the people that are watching the girl that's dancing on stage and that's the way it should be. Tatiana does not sit at the stage with people, if somebody wants to talk to Tatiana there are plenty of seats AWAY from the stage where you can talk. Tatiana noticed that this girl engaged in extra intese conversation with people the times Tatiana went on stage. Tatiana decided not to pay this insecure chick any attention. It is kind of rude though, the guys (most of them) that sit at the stage, sit there so they can look at the girl that is dancing. When guys sit with girls at the stage, Tatiana usually ignores them on purpose.
Then the other girl that showed up last night, stage hogs friend, that by the way is really unattractive, to put it kindly (you would totally agree), was sitting at the bar talking to an obvioulsy drunk guy.
Tatiana was sitting at the opposite side of the bar, snacking on some pretzels, admiring her new pretty silver shoes shock full of rhine stones, when the manager presented Tatiana with a drink, (soda water) saying that the guy that was sitting with that (ugly) girl had bought it for Tatiana.
"Do I have to go over there now" wondered Tatiana. "He is already sitting with somebody and I do not want to bother them".
"Yes, go over" said the manager/ladyboss. So Tatiana reluctantly went over, sat down and said thank you for the drink and introduced herself politely. The (ugly) girl suddenly felt threatened and attached herself even more to the guy. Tatiana is not going to bother in situations like these, she never has to "compete" for any attention, besides it's just lame to do that. Desperate and Tatiana is not desperate.
She just excused herself and walked away. What many girls also do in this club (and other clubs too) is that they latch themslves on to a guy as soon as he walks in through the door and by doing that they think that the guy should pay attention only to them. The poor guy sometimes feels obligated though he really would rather talk to or get dances from somebody else.
Tatiana doesn't like to spend too much time with people. It's nothing personal usually. She prefers limited chit chat, or a convincing "YOU NEED", some dances and then the guy should go back to the stage or his buddies, or maybe get some dances from somebody else. Or more dances with Tatiana a little later. It's not a dating club for single people it is a strip club after all!
Tatiana would think that people are there to look at all the girls unless they have a certain favorite, which is fine too. Some girls just get so territorial and act like they are sitting with their damned husband or something. But if you are not that cute then maybe latching on to somebody is the only way you can make money.
About 30 minutes later manager/ladyboss told Tatiana that the guy at the bar really wanted to talk to Tatiana but he was intimidated because he though that she was so pretty.
"Well, it's time that he grows some balls, he looks old enough" said Tatiana.
MAN UP ALREADY!!!





Tatiana is confused......do you say at the stage or on the stage? But you all get what Tatiana is saying, right?

Kate does it again. She is Tatiana's favorite model.
Here is her latest ad, for Dior Addict lipstick. There is a 90 sec commercial also.
Tatiana likes the color of the lipstick, she likes this shade of pink. She needs!
Kate's cat eyes and matching black nails are perfect.
Tatiana loves Kate's face, it's perfect.

So, Tatiana took Chhaya to the beach for a long walk, as she had promised her, it was windy but refreshing.
Afterwards it was time to get some food, today a slice of pizza, an iced vanilla latte and a pastry.
In a bit Tatiana is going to color her hair, she has some GRAY hair, yes, you read it right, GRAY, not all over but it's there, in a few spots. She matches it to her exact hair color. Thank goodness for hair color in a tube! She read somewhere that a pill might come out that restores gray hair back to it's original color. Tatiana hopes that they put that pill on the market soon, coloring hair is just annoying. Tatiana tries to wait as long as possible between the colorings. Since Tatiana's hair is so light (brown) you can't really see the gray all the time but Tatiana is definitely not ready to be a full on gray head. Too vain.
Most girls do not admit to their gray hair, therefore Tatiana thought it was impressive that Jennifer Lopez recently gave an interview where she admits to having gray hair and coloring it since she was 24.
It is what it is, could be worse, Tatiana rather have gray hair than............some ugly body part or something.

Anyways, Tatiana wants a CANON G12 camera. She has been reading about it in some other people's blogs and it seems like a great camera, good for blog pictures with many cool features!
Tatiana NEEDS! YOU get?
: )

Tatiana is already up and it's not even 9 am yet! For the last hour or so she has been tossing around, trying to fall back to sleep. Finally she decided to get up due to a growling stomach, made herself some oatmeal, two cheese sandwices and a mug of coffee. Then she crawled back in bed with the computer.
Chhaya is still sleeping and snoring like a little piggy, sprawled out longways in bed. Soemtimes Chhaya dreams and barks and whines in her sleep and kicks with her legs, hard. Tatiana suspects that Chhaya is having vivid dreams about rabbits and squirrels. Her favorite fellow animals to chase and get excited over.
Tatiana likes to wake up slowly, she stretches her legs and back in different directions. Her feet and calves are usually soooooo sore. Tatiana wishes that she had some kind of a machine that would squeeze and massage her legs, she would use it every morning for about an hour. That is exactly what she needs, a massage machine.
Tatiana has seen some kind of a leg squeezing devices in Japaneese fashion mags but she is not going to order one of those without trying it out first.
Does this mean that Tatiana needs to go to Japan now?
The plan for today is to take Chhaya to the beach. Later work. Work tomorrow and Saturday too. This beast needs to work!

Found leg massager online, anyone ever tried one of these? Looks nice.