Welcome to Chaos !!

Sometimes when people ask Tatiana where she is from (the never ending question)......and she says that she was born
in Poland, the response is "no way, I thought all the girls in Poland (and other Eastern European) countries are ugly, fat....etc."
Hmmmmm.......Tatiana is not sure where this misunderstanding stems from?
Actually last time Tatiana visited Poland, she was amazed by how very pretty the girls were. Really nice bodies and faces.
It would be like saying that all American girls are ugly and obese, since more and more people here in the US are becoming obese.
Tatiana thinks that there are pretty girls everywhere. From every nationality.
But she recently came across this Polish beauty. Jessica Rafalowski. Born here but Polish parents.
She speaks fluent Polish, loves food, especially pierogis. She is shapely with natural boobs, an insanely bangin' butt and a pretty face.
The whole package. Tatiana wants to share a plate of pierogis and kabonosy with Jessica. Squeeze that butt too.




Here is something that bugs Tatiana. When girls are so insecure in themselves that they can never compliment another girl.
That just screams insecurity, jealousy, low self esteem and total lameness.
Tatiana loves girls, though.....she prefers boys (men) in THAT way, though she is not opposed to girls either.

Like Rihanna for example.......
Who doesn't like to watch beautiful girls now and then?
Beside lame insecure bitchy girls that is.
Tatiana recently read another girls blog, though very good and entertaining to read, this person spews insults and
aversion towards all other women.
Sure, Tatiana doesn't think everything with a VAGINE that hasn't hit menopause yet is SEKSI either.
She has her opinions on what she thinks is pretty or not and who should be able to work in a strip club, please no great grandma's.......
even though they can wobble around in some outdated sandals and a sequin bikini. Toothless women also.
Visit the dentist first please. BO? Take a shower and use some deodorant.
But hello, to think no girls are pretty, ever? Laaaaame!

Believe it or not, Tatiana made it back to the gym today, second day in a row! Another 30 minutes on the elliptical, hill option,
this time resistance set to 14 (out of 20). Some weights and stretches. Even Tatiana can't believe this.
Tatiana also dusted off her ass kicking skills. You better not mess with Tatiana or you will be sorry! Yeah, really!
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After the gym Tatiana went home to eat and now she is going to take Chhaya out for a walk while it's still light out.
Later.......shower & wash hair and work.
Tatiana needs to keep her famous ass in shape!

Finally after almost one year without stepping a foot in a gym, Tatiana made it there today.
So.......30 minutes on the elliptical, resistance 13, the "hill" option. Tatiana has not broken a sweat since jogging in
a park in South Dakota (last November) so it felt really good today.
Then some leg lifts and stretches and two machines with weights, she had to feel some burn in those leg muscles.
There must be some muscles somewhere under the white dough.
Tatiana went to the gym in Kenai. But this gym doesn't have a certain arm machine that Tatiana likes, the gym in Soldotna
does though. The next trip to the gym? Tatiana has no idea, hopefully sooner that later.
Tonight's plans? Work. Actually work through the weekend.




Yeay, enough calories burned to take care of the Snickers candybar that Tatiana had last night at work. LOL.
Actually Tatiana doesn't really trust those calorie counters, she always deducts 40 from the amount. So today the elliptical
indicated that Tatiana burned 359 calories, well to Tatiana it was more like 319.

Another cold night.....brrrrrrrr! - 24. Tatiana wants it to warm up already!
More girls are asking Tatiana how to get hired at Heartbreakers, so after writing this, she is going to email them the info.
Sooooo, Tatiana is almost embarrassed to admit this but she still has not made it to the gym.
She HAS to go.
She thought about it and it has been since February 2011 since her last gym visit, she thought it was March but no it was
in February when she was in Colorado working. So going on a year.
Tatiana really needs to make an effort and go already.
It's not like she has anything else to do in the daytime. It's just laziness and excuses.
After all, Tatiana is leaving next month to go and work for two weeks, so she should really try and look ok and not too flabby.
Some flab is ok but right now Tatiana feels like a big pile of dough.
So it's almost 3 am now, maybe she will drag her flabby doughy ass to the gym tomorrow afternoon after she wakes up?
Strippers do not wake up before 11 am unless they have to for some awful reason.
To find out if Tatiana goes to the gym finally, you will have to check her blog again very soon!

Tatiana brought her laptop with her to work......and it is really slow tonight, so Tatiana is entertaining everybody
with her vast knowledge of bukkake omelette information.
Reeeeally tasty! LOL.
Actually we were all gagging earlier just thinking about it. Tatiana has been looking up some things online recently
after reading some disturbing articles about porn producer Khan Tusion. That's how she got across the bukkake
omelette stuff. Don't get any strange ideas into your heads now that Tatiana ever participated in that. She is not THAT hungry, ok?
Sure, it's fun to laugh at and cringe at but the reality of that stuff......NOOOOO WAY!!!
Tatiana would rather beg for change on the street to survive. After reading some about it and how little the women get paid......
like really? They make nothing for doing that.
To divulge something.....Tatiana is very open minded but personally a rather vanilla pillow queen. No bukkake here, lol.
But to each their own. Surely some people out there think that stripping is awful and degrading, etc.
And Tatiana is here to assure you that she does it without any feelings of guilt or shame.
So, like Tatiana just said......to each their own. As far as bukkake goes and all other porn, Tatiana still thinks that they should raise
the age limit for doing porn to about 23 or 24. Girls that age are more mature to make a better decision for themselves regarding
getting involved in that business. At 18 majority of them seem too naive and clueless. And for everybody with that young, innocent,
virgin look porn fetish. Trust Tatiana, a 24 year old girl can look just as fresh and innocent as an 18 year old, it all depends on what
kind of life style you live. Tatiana has seen it herself.
Well, it is getting to be closing time here soon, Tatiana is taking Sharon home to whip up some omelette's now.
Both are SO hungry!

Look at little baby Chhaya, HOW PRECIOUS!!!!
I recently came across something a person wrote into Ode magazine......that I think is so true.
And if you have an animal in your life, you will probably agree......

"It's not about downplaying human capacities; it's about uplifting and appreciating animal consciousness. They are sentient beings. They think; they feel; they have internal lives. They don't usually speak English; they speak telepathy; as any animal communicator can attest. Their nervous systems are like ours; they feel pain, grief, anxiety, fear - and, yes, love. Science is finally confirming what spiritual teachers, animal communicators and indigenous peoples have been telling us for centuries. Animals are not inferior; they are evolving right along with us and humans are responsible for their well-being."

I have been together with Chhaya for over six years now and I know that she feels all kinds of emotions. She is the light of my life.