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Got an email today from a girl that had asked me a while back how she could get hired at Heartbreakers. I think at least 40 or more girls have asked me so far. They read about Heartbreakers in the blog and then I get an email from them. I am glad to help in any way I can.

This is what she had to say. Her name is Sandi.
"Hey girl! In Williston! Got my wallet stolen yesterday but thanks to your help I already had an in and I get to work at heartbreakers tonight! Thank god! Thank you!!!!!"

My email is tatianasupernova@yahoo.com
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A couple of more pics by Barry Gallegos. I have a few more from that shoot that I will put up in the the next few days, so if you don't like looking at pics of me - oh well. I guess there are other blogs.





I woke up after only less than five hours of sleep today, not sure why. So I am feeling tired, cooking food right now and then I am taking my Chhaya and my book and spending my afternoon outside, sprawled out on a blanket. I love sleeping outside, hearing the wind rustle through the leaves of the trees.

Last night was even worse than Friday. Wow! There were very few people in there and too many girls. I got annoyed twice.
A drunk idiot smacked me hard on my butt on his way out. I pushed him but he was a stocky guy so that didn't do much. We have no security in there. So when somebody gets out of line, we are pretty much left to fend for ourselves. And I will do that. I remember when a guy did the same thing to me at The Bush Company, he smacked my butt on his way out and thought he was going to get away with it. Well, I turned around and pushed him hard. Big Wayne, the bouncer saw that and pushed the guy even harder into a wall. Big Wayne is like 6'4" maybe, you don't mess with him. Wayne told me that he didn't know what the guy had done to me but since he saw me push him he figured that he deserved a push from him too because he had obviously done something to make me push him in the first place. I bet he will think twice before trying to smack another girl like that.
But at the club I am now, you are "mean" if you stand your ground. Next time I am punching somebody out, mean or not, I am not going to tolerate a HARD, flesh stinging smack anywhere on my body. If you don't like to get pushed or punched, then do not touch me like that. And I will even explain that to the cops if it goes that far.
That guy that did that last night belonged to a group of Russian Old Believers, some of them live around here. The men have beards and the women cover their hair and wear long dresses. In public they act very subdued and godly but every time they come into the club they act like assholes, very disrespectful. Loud, drunk and talk trash. I am never going to talk to them again. Go home and smack your wife around instead you piece of shit. I bet they do that. I hope the wife cuts his balls off, I would.

Also, I was the last girl on stage last night. Some dummy snapped two pics of me with his phone. And then he didn't want to erase them after management confronted him. Really? DO NOT take pictures of the girls, ever. Unless you have that specific girl's consent.
He did finally erase them, supposedly . And then he was acting all butt hurt over it. So next time THAT happens, somebody acting difficult and dumb, not wanting to erase the pics, I am calling the cops and they can talk some sense into the guy with a camera.
I am tired of dealing with neanderthals. Obviously they cannot act normal out in public, stay home please neanderthals!

Yes, I know that my blog is full of pics of me, some topless, even nude. I know, how shocking! Whatever. Those are the pics I choose to put up here and share with people. Consider yourself lucky! AND all of the pics of ME on my blog belong to ME and/or the photographer. The pics are subject to copyright laws and cannot be used by anyone else (unless I agree to it) without consequences. In case you didn't not know this.
Well, not that I got that off my chest.....I am going to go on with my day.

Here is Chhaya with my latest book that I am going to start reading today. The Last Nude by Ellis Avery. I have been wanting it for a while.
I have a list of books that I am interested in, if I see an ad or a description of a book in a magazine or somebody tells me about a book I might find interesting I make a note of it and then check the books off once I find them. I love reading.

Today started great, I locked my keys in my truck and had to call Alaska Cab so they could unlock my car for me. I need one of those things you jam down the window to open up the door, that would come in handy.
Then I put my latte down in the yard for a few minutes, when I picked it up and took a gulp it was something in there, like a fly maybe because I could feel it go down my throat. So gross! Earlier I had read about some poor man in India that had a 13 centimeters long worm crawling behind his eyelid. So now I am thinking about that fly in my stomach crawling around.
A good old Polish remedy to kill any bacteria in your stomach, eat sauerkraut straight out of the jar or some extra hot horseradish, yum.......I love them both.
Besides that, it is sunny but cold because it is windy. Me and Chhaya are hanging out and enjoying life. I made her a shelter because she gets too hot in the sun. Life is good. It's the last day of June. We are halfway through 2012.

Here I am hanging out with Santa Claus. I usually see him in June to give him my Christmas wish list early on because I want so many presents.
What I really wish for is that people would be kinder and more considerate towards animals. There are so many animals that suffer and are close to extinction because of mankind. The worst and most selfish predator out there. I am so sick of selfish people, I see them all the time.



Do you see the painting of the gas mask hanging on the wall behind me on the pic? That one, the gargoyle and many more really cool paintings can be found on www.317creations.com
The artist's name is Natasha, she is Polish like me (!) and I think her art is very interesting and striking.
Photo by Barry Gallegos.

I am so glad to be home, showered and sipping on some tea, it's 4 AM. Tonight was a lame Friday for being the end of June, I left at 3 because I couldn't stand it anymore. This is supposed to be the busy season. A lot of times I can make up for the lack of dances with the tips I make on stage but not tonight, surprisingly very bad stage tips tonight. Oh well, tomorrow in another day.
More girls are flocking to the club because they think that summer time equals money here right now. Well, so far this week has been bad. Unless you have a regular guy that comes in and spends all his money on you, a few of the girls have that, good for them.
So we have five returning girls this week (so far), meaning they have worked at the club before. And four new ones showed up tonight that I have never seen before, I think they came from Anchorage. One was absolutely awful looking from head to toe, two not bad and one really cute, she had a super pretty face and a nice smile.
But since tonight wasn't that good I am not sure if they got discouraged or not. Sometimes it is not worth it to travel for work as a dancer.
The money is uncertain. Then you have to pay for either a plane ticket or gas, maybe rent a car or take a taxi to and from work, unless you arrive in your own car of course. Then you have the living expenses, hotel rooms are not cheap. All of that combined has to be considered before you can count your profits.
What I like about traveling is that I get to be in a new environment that feels fresh. I have a different energy and I usually feel more motivated to work and I also work every night I am away. And then there is seeing the new sights in the daytime too. The only place I cut short on so far was Scarlet O'Haras in Sioux Falls, I was planning on being there for two weeks and I left after one. I did not think that it was good at all. Maybe I came during the wrong time or something. So I drove about 200 miles to another club and started that same night and I made much better money there.
I can feel my eyes getting heavy, so I am going to turn off the light and enjoy some sleep now.

I needed to take a break fom laying out in the sun. Eating and writing now, going back outside later.
Sooooo, the last few days at work have been awful. I guess this is the worst June ever? It depends on the fish. This town depends heavily on the fishing season during the summer, people come here in droves from all around the world for just that, well at least they used to.
It's that king salmon they want, the bigger the better. Well, Fish and Game has decided that you cannot catch any king salmon right now, neither are you allowed to do catch and release. Some people think it is amusing to catch a fish, traumatize it and then let it go.
Why I do not know. I guess that's part of the allure of fishing (???). I don't fish. Last time I fished I think I was nine. At a lake in Sweden.
I did catch a fish. That fish got buried, I made a cross for it, put flowers on it's grave and shed a few tears. I am sorry little fishy that I hurt you! I remember you even to this day. Do I ever eat fish? I have but it's rarely that I do. I eat meat but rarely also. If people cared to find out how the animals are treated and how they are killed most would be appalled. It is very very bad and very sad. I love animals but right now I can't say that I am 100% vegetarian.
So, since the fishing for the king salmon is on hold right now, we are not seeing as many people here, it's actually a severe drop. I also think that people are traveling less due to the high expenses related to travel. And when it's all said and done, most don't have a few spare 100's to go and throw around in the strip club.

Then the man that complained to management a few weeks ago that I am mean and rude (booohoooo) was in last night. He apologized to me and said that he had no right to insult me. Exactly! Of course I accepted the apology. Then he wanted to chat with me all night, it became somewhat annoying rather fast. He is kind of nice but I am not a big fan of getting burped in the face, he did that three times , yuck! He also likes to trash talk the other girls. And I do not sit around with guys that I do not know and talk bad about my co workers regardless of what I think about them. I will and do talk trash (the truth) about other people to people that I know and in case you wonder, I have no problem standing by my opinions. If I don't like you for whatever reason and you really want to know how I feel, I will gladly inform you of it. And of course I will write about how I perceive certain people and situations HERE.
Then we had another lame guy in last night. He sat at the bar stage, we have a small stage with a pole inside the bar. He kept on staring at me while I was dancing like a bona fide perv. Finally halfway through my second song I looked at him and said, "Are you going to tip me"?
He looked like a confused dummy.......tip? What? Yes, T-I-P you moron, common practice in a strip club, especially since you are staring at me like a hungry dog. So he reluctantly gives me ONE dollar. LOL. And by the way, he didn't tip the other girls either. So I am not totally out of line here people!
Then he kept on looking at me when I was sitting opposite from him but I just ignored him, of course. Why should I even bother? A little later I walked by him and some girl must had told him that I am Polish because he said something in Polish to me. And I said, "Now you want to talk after you didn't even want to tip me when I was one stage......puhleease". The moron said, "But I did tip you". "Yeah, after I asked for a tip", I said. "Save your language skills for somebody that wants to hear them because I don't", I said and sauntered away. Kiss my ass buddy and save your dollar. You know how to say something in Polish? Wow. Yeah, besides being fluent in three languages I also know how to communicate in two more, that makes it five total. So I am not impressed by you. And on top of that, if and when I go to a strip club I have the deceny to tip the girls if I sit at the stage.

Then we had some more drama. After I had already left the other night, one of my co workers tried to pickpocket one of the guys! Can you believe this? I do not care how annoying guys can be at times in the club, I would never steal from anyone in there. And this is supposedly not the first time she had done something like this. And guess what? She didn't get fired! I am VERY surprised and disappointed, this girl needs to go. She is the one that walks around telling guys that she is "easy and sleazy". She sits at the bar and lets guys dig up inside her butt cheeks. And she supposedly, according to another girl, kept on dropping some kind of pill out of her purse, like Percocet or something.
If anyone is going to contribute to the clubs demise it is going to be her (and other girls that act like that). I do not care if you are a slut and a thief outside of the club, do whatever you want in your private life. But acting like that at a place where I work, destroying my income is absolutely not ok. And I like this girl, she seems pretty nice and she is really funny BUT her behavior at work is totally wrong in too many ways. Therefore, she should no be allowed to work there.
And another thing, the one that got butt hurt because I would not let her go on stage before me the other night.......she was wasted by
9 30 PM and had to take a taxi home. Really classy. Seriously, control yourself. She is a drunk sorry slob. And I heard that she too tried to swipe some money that did not belong to her recently. What is up with that? Oh and she thinks that all the girls are jealous of her too. Really? LOL. The day when I will be jealous of a drunk, trashy, overweight slob with a shapeless body and a bad face will never come. And I highly doubt that anyone else in there is jealous of her sorry ass, she is THAT pathetic.
Well, enough of this for now. Just wanted to let you know what's been going on at work the last couple of nights.