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His name was Chris but I called him Virgin Boy. He was a 24 year old student and still a virgin when I met him at work. He was loyal like a puppy dog.
Virgin Boy was very sweet and nice but it just became too much - he just started liking me too much. It became annoying. And somewhat creepy.
One evening he decided that he wanted 50 dances. That exact amount. In between stages and such I danced for him, I can't remember anymore if we made it to 50.
Another time he spelled out my name in dollar bills on the stage. When I switched to another club he followed. It would take him four hours to drive to the club, one way.
I let him take me shopping once, I had Shelley come with us, it was so awkward I never did that again. Another time I agreed to give him dances outside of work in a hotel room, I did meet him there but it was so weird to be alone with him outside of the club environment that I decided not to dance and we hung out and talked instead.
Private shows are not for me I decided then and there.
Then one day he knocked on my front door. I don't know how he found out where I lived, I suspect he must had followed me home one night after work. I told him that if he ever did that again I would never talk to him again. I think that the thought of me never talking to him scared him so much that he didn't show up at my house again
(to my knowledge). Towards the end his obsession with me became too much for me to handle so I would kind of ignore him when he showed up at work and I didn't want to dance for him anymore because he would stare at me so intently during the dance that it made me feel uncomfortable. And he would grab me and hug me like he was never going to let go.......I felt suffocated. And I felt sorry for him at the same time. Well, he finally gave up and moved on to another girl I heard, her name was Cinnamon. I went to another club and he didn't follow me. Good!
He was a sweet guy but not a guy for me. I hope that he somewhere somehow found a nice girl to build a life with......

Hi from a snowy Kenai!
I am about to head out and get my latte and a scone becasue I am STARVING! Then I need to make a stop at the post office and send off some birthday presents.......I might go to the gym this afternoon and around 9 PM it will be time to go to work.
That's it for now. I am hungry and have to run.

Ok, so a while ago I wrote an entry where I mentioned sugar daddies and said that I would maybe write about this topic in the future.......you can read that entry here
And for those who are not in the know.....a sugar daddy is (often) an older person who offers money or gifts to a younger person in return for companionship and/or sexual favors. And the sugar daddy can also come in the form of a woman, a sugar mama.
To answer the question, I've never had a sugar daddy, well I've never had any form of sex or affection in exchange for money or gifts.
I did have a man come into my job (a long time ago) when I still lived in California that took a liking to me. He was much older than me and wealthy and he did "spoil" me with gifts that he would bring into work. Sure it was nice......he would have the waitress bring me the presents one by one, wrapped really nice. While all the other girls stared, some got jealous of course. And yes I got some nice things, designer handbags, shoes (one I lost during a photo shoot at Lake Mead), two dresses worth $ 1500 each (that later on disappeared when my storage unit in Vegas got burglarized), some jewelery........
We became friends, he was very nice and interesting but I made it CLEAR that I was not interested in developing the friendship into anything more than just friendship. We did have lunch a few times and had dinner once, although I brought a friend with me just to make sure I wouldn't be in any awkward situations. We had dinner at a very posh restaurant in LA and later we went to The Magic Castle. That was great, he had arranged a special performance for us in some dark cellar. I would love to go back to The Magic Castle one day, I highly recommend it.
Now, if I would had been more flirty with him, led him on, even maybe gave into some sex, I am sure I could had made lots of money from him and got all kinds of expensive things. Towards the end of the friendship he arranged for me to have a sitting with a rather famous painter that was going to paint my portrait in oil and I would get the painting. I was excited because I knew this painting was going to be absolutely beautiful since I had seen work by this artist before. He uses lots of sea life in his paintings, like dolphins and incorporates people into the paintings. In fact I went to a gallery opening in Laguna Beach where I was treated like some sort of celeb, all due to my wealthy friend that had some gorgeous flowers flown in from Hawaii to be worn by me around my neck. There was a photographer on site that took a bunch of pics of me posing in that gallery. LOL. Well, shortly after the sitting I went away on a vacation. During that time, some other girl at the club decided to put a move on him and when I came back he was all about her. She had two small kids and a live in boyfriend. I suspected it was her husband but she would only refer to him as her boyfriend. Some girls that I work with don't want to reveal that they are married, for various reasons. She probably needed the money more than me and there were some rumors about her even before her getting to know my friend. Lets just say that her reputation at work was kind of bad, she was known for her dirty dances. And wearing the same school girl outfit over and over.
I suspect they became more than friends, so in the end he got what he wanted, although not from me. He was nice and always a gentleman and it was fun while it lasted. But from experience I can say that when one person wants more than just being friends.....the relationship usually comes to an end sooner or later. Especially when a dancer meets a man at work that wants more than just her friendship - that only lasts for so long. Either he gives up or some other dancer will come into the picture and offer him more of what he wants. And that girl will never be me.
Oh and the painting? It never came to fruition.......too bad. I think about that painting sometimes. I would had loved to have it.
Besides him, his name was Joseph btw, I've met a few men that kind of took their amorous interest in me too far. I am talking about men that I've encountered at work now. I go into work to......WORK = make money. I don't treat work like it's eHarmony or Adult Friend Finder, not that I am a member on those sites anyway.
I do meet many people at work and some of the people I meet I have became friends with outside of work. Some, NOT many. And with an emphasis on friends. Not intimate. I am not intimate with my friends. Of course I meet people once in a while that I think are super nice and interesting and I've met them for lunch before, although rare. I don't see anything harmful in a lunch as long as the person I am meeting is on the same page as me. I would not like it if I would have to fend off any advances, therefore I never give off any flirty signals when I am not interested in anything else than being friends.
I became really good friends with a guy named Mario that I met at Crazy Horse Too in Vegas, we were hanging out for a while and I knew his girlfriend too. I do know girls that met their future boyfriends and husbands in the club, so that is possible. But a few times I needed to have a talk with some of the guys that became way too interested in me, to the point of obsession.
I have some stories but that I might save for a later time........

While I was in Vegas I did some shopping. Of course.......
Here is some of what I came back to Alaska with.

Sunglasses, Michael Kors



Joico shampoo and conditioner that was recommended to me. My next hair product that I would like to try is WEN.



Got some more Honey Dew's. I'm not sure how many I have now.......maybe I will count them. Two of these turned out to be a different, more covered up cut than I am used to, so I will not wear them at work.



Some shirts from Victoria's Secret. Simple and cute.



Some sneakers with spikes, my first ever like these. Kind of fun.



Stocked up on lashes, these are Ardell 205 Double Up lashes. I read some time ago that drag queens and Wendy Williams (almost a man) wear double lashes, so when I found these I couldn't resist. I like them. Now I am going to get used to the double lash look, so wearing a single lash will make me feel naked.......if that's possible.....



Burberry jacket. I've been wanting one. It's cute and comfy. I tried on the Burberry parka too that I wanted but it didn't look good on plus the collar was raccoon fur, I didn't like that.
Besides I liked this style better.

This Sunday has been nice. It's amazing how some sunshine can make you feel so much better. Happy! After working four nights in a row I decided to take tonight off. Besides, I thought I was going to get second hand smoke poisoning last night, it was so smokey at work I almost felt sick, I had a hard time finding clean air to breathe. I hate that I am subjected to breathing in second hand smoke, it's gross and unhealthy. I think that every club and bar should be made smoke free, smokers can smoke in a designated area or better yet - quit. So around 1 AM I decided to go home, it was totally lame anyways, just some people sitting around the bar, smoking, drinking and talking, not getting dances. So since I wasn't making any money I decided that I'd rather go home than breathe in carcinogenic smoke. Plus some annoying guy thought that maybe me and him could be friends outside of the club, like go to the movies or some other bar in town because he doesn't have any friends in town. Ummmmm........no thank you. It's nothing personal but you can talk to me at work, besides I do not go to any of the other bars or "clubs" around here. It's ok to ask but it becomes annoying when people (guys) don't understand NO and keep on asking, trust me if I wanted to see you outside of work I would let you know.
Also, a girl I work with that comes in from Anchorage once in a while declared that she has had a crush on me since the summer, she supposedly loves my butt and my hair and she wants to photograph me. She said she can take great pictures. Why not? I like having my picture taken, if the person holding the camera knows how to use it. Angles and light - crucial.
Today I went to town to do some errands, got some movies, a latte. Later on I had a delicious dinner. Took a bath. Now I am drinking tea and reading other people's blogs. Most of them live in Sweden where blogging is huge.

It's Saturday, cold and gray outside with a resemblance of a sun shining somewhere far away in the gray sky. I can feel that moody winter blues slowly setting in, not good. There is snow here already although today it's heavy, wet and a little slushy today.
I worked three nights so far - work has been uneventful. There is not a lot of money to be made here now but I can't sit around at the house, doing nothing and live off my savings - that would be really dumb.
I managed to go to the gym yesterday and I am going to try to keep that up a few times a week throughout the winter. Last February or so I thought I got chunky, for me, I don't want that to happen this winter.
Right now I really miss Vegas and what I have there. 😥
My plans for today? Walk with Chhaya, gym then work. At least I have Chhaya, she makes me happy.
That's all I have for now. Boring......I know, I know but that's how I feel today......boring and gray.