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Many have said it was just a matter of time and today it happened.....a highjacked truck driven by a madman in high speed down Drottninggatan in Stockholm.
So far four people dead and 15 injured. And a dead dog. A few years ago a man with a bomb strapped to himself detonated the bomb on the same street, Drottninggatan, only he died then. And plenty of shocked bystanders.
A few days ago, bombs on the subway in St.Petersburg. A truck drove into people in London. Before that Berlin. And Nice. Paris. Theo van Gogh. There was a nerve agent chemical attack in Syria recently. Sarin is banned, illegal and to release a gas amongst people is.....I have no words.
No matter where in the world innocent people die in senseless violent attacks it is just wrong. It happened to be Stockholm today. The city I grew up in and a place that I love, of course.
Well.....many of these attacks have been carried out by men with Arabic names, in the name of Allah and organizations like ISIS have claimed responsibility for much of this. These are just facts, nothing made up.
Oh yes, there are non Arab, non Muslim folks that go on killing sprees as well, I am very much aware of that. Just seems to be a whole lot of attacks in the name of the not so peaceful religion Islam carried out in the last two decades or so.
Of course there was stuff happening worldwide in the 70's and 80's as well but I don't have any statistic on that. I can think of Pan Am flight 103, Lockerbie.
And the Northern Ireland Conflict, IRA.
Sweden is a very politically correct place, being labeled a racist or "främlingsfientlig" is something really bad. You might get seriously shunned for that. God forbid you are outspoken about your political opinions if they have anything to do with wanting to accept less immigrants into the country.
That makes you a bad person.
I grew up knowing people either born somewhere else besides Sweden, like myself or being second generation immigrants. I have very close friends from all over. But I also have opinions and even my immigrant friends in Sweden with roots from the Middle East are not happy with the political situation and the downturn of the country. This was one of the bigger topics of discussion last time I was home. Swedes are kind and naive by nature. Other not so nice people take advantage of that. I have often been too kind and naive for my own good after leaving Sweden, not understanding that some people lie and really only are out to harm you in whatever ways they can. There has been much disbelief, many tears and sadness in my life because of that.
Anyhow. I am not sure what can be done about ISIS and similar groups. I want to say that they will go away soon, that this will all go away but that would be foolish wouldn't it? I do not understand what makes somebody feel compelled and driven to carry out acts like these and honestly believe that they are doing something good.
I don't get it. I did not grow up like that. I will never understand.
Yeah, I talked to my brother, he was stuck in Stockholm like many others because public transportation was at a standstill. I talked to my Mom and I am going to call them again tomorrow.
I really miss Sweden, it is a beautiful place with kind wonderful people living there. Too bad that this happened in Stockholm today. But no matter where innocent people die in the world it is wrong.

Found this article in today's local paper.



Depending on where you are on the religious believing in God scale, I am sure that there are people that will look at this as the mark of the beast. But then again, some believe that credit cards are the mark of the beast, others believe that social security numbers are. I don't really have an opinion about it. I am......spiritual. Of course the end of the times, or Armageddon sounds extremely scary. I have thought about it quite a bit myself and wondered if I would be one of the chosen ones to be saved? It could really go either way. Nobody knows. I just want to be reunited with my family and Chhaya - that is all that I am asking for.
Anyhow, the article talks about a microchip that gets implanted in the fleshy area by the thumb. This happens to take place at a company in Sweden and about 150 of the people working there got chipped already. I am not surprised this is happening in Sweden, the Scandinavian countries are well known to be advanced in innovative technology and people there overall are very forward thinking and openminded.
I am sure people will get all kinds of microchips and other electronics implanted in them in the near future. Time will tell what complications will come out of that, some good and some bad I'm sure.
Now look at the headline underneath the microchip article. That glaciers are retreating world wide. That would be global warming and if you are not lucky enough to live a long life and maybe face a possible Armageddon, then be concerned with what effects human life have on this planet instead. That is a real fact, even though from what I understand, the POTUS doesn't acknowledge global warming. Say what?
It is sad that polar bears have less room to roam because the ice is melting. I feel so bad for all the suffering animals around the world. We will destroy ourselves. Just like the Hopi prophecy says.

There was a new moon a few days ago and I was admiring it on my evening walk with Chhaya. It was one of those magical night, just me and her. Everything was quiet with the exception of the sound of cars driving by in the distance. The lights from The Strip far away in the valley, the sweet smell of a blooming desert and the new moon above us. We took our time, Chhaya dictated the pace, sniffing almost every bush and exploring.





It's cold and windy today - YES! I love it, I don't like when the sun is burning my skin. A bit past 9 AM now and Chhaya is still sleeping and snoring lightly, laying on my foot. I want to stay in bed all day today and just drift in and out of sleep and snuggle with Chhaya. But I have to pick a friend up from the airport at noon. Perhaps I pick up a latte on the way there.
I have not done that much lately. Nothing exciting at least. Been a good fellow human to strangers. Found two cell phones and made sure they got back to the owners. Got offered money as a "finders fee" which I refused of course.
Finding somebody's property and giving it back should not have a price attached to it. Saw a man drop money and ran outside of a building to tell him, nobody else cared. I don't get that. Took a girl I barely know to do something that I think will improve her life. She still needs some more assistance and I will be there for her. Sometimes a person needs a push, a helping hand or somebody that takes time to listen. Be that person if you can, you might need that help one day. You never know how life will turn out.
Work at the cafe has been slow the last few days from being very busy the last few weeks, it was so busy that I didn't even have time to sit down for a minute a and catch my breath. I made up for that yesterday, I read the daily newspaper and drank my tea slowly. I drink tea at the cafe, not latte.



Do you talk to the moon?



I do. I talk to everything in nature. Even small insects.
I am looking forward to Sunday. Afternoon tea at the Mandarin Oriental is on the agenda.

My dream job would be to get paid to read and write. Well, one of my dream jobs at least. Another dream job is professional sleeper, like bed tester.
And professional party investigator, meaning get paid to travel and check out various music festivals. Burning Man would get covered extensively.
I wanted to be a journalist at one point in Sweden and then I came to the US and my life took a different track. Nowadays with magazines being a dying breed I suspect that journalism as a profession is shrinking. But I am not sure. In Sweden for example, some are still making a living writing blogs. And some of those blogs, in my opinion are just empty and vapid but I guess vapid makes money.....look at the Kardashians. Plus the kind of journalism I really like and admire are the people that travel to war ravaged places to investigate and write stories about that. Or dig deep into domestic stories that can be difficult to uncover.
People that bring injustices to the surface, people that work to make a positive change in this world. Me traveling to let's say Afghanistan to gather information for a story is not going to happen because I will not put myself in that kind of danger. But I really admire the brave people that do.
Anyhow, today I am reading. I read almost everything except stuff like hunting and fishing magazines, I have zero interest in reading about people bragging about their for fun kill trophies. Women posing with fish they caught or some animal they managed to shoot and kill is like one of the ugliest things ever. Yes, men pose with that as well and that is ugly too but men are in many ways less evolved than women in that aspect (and in many other arenas as well), therefore I am surprised that there are women out there that willingly do shit like that......pose with a dead innocent animal while grinning like idiots. Barf.
But then again, I don't even want to kill a fly so I am extra sensitive to the treatment of animals.



If you like Beauty and the Beast this LIFE magazine about it is great. So many nice illustrations and interesting historical facts.
So I have to say that I do not like how the president of the United States is handling himself in meetings with other world leaders. I am thinking about the handshake issue. That is beyond awkward. I don't care if you have some phobia of germs or OCD or whatever it might be, when you are elected president and the president of the USA on top of it, man the fuck up and shake hands. Period.
The world is watching in horror and disbelief. This is not The Apprentice, it's serious now. Or do I have to attend the next meeting he has scheduled and show him how it's done? Melania needs to slap some sense into him, Eastern European old school style.
And another child is dead because of severe neglect and abuse. Happens every day in the US. This is a recurring topic in my blog because it really bothers me. The child I am thinking about is the 16 year old girl that was found in a diaper, starved to death, laying in feces. She was adopted. Two other adopted children were found in the house. Still alive.
A few months ago there was a case about a 14 year old adopted girl raped and murdered by her adoptive "Mom" and the woman's boyfriend.
Do not for a second believe that the child you don't want and decide so "selflessly" to give up for adoption because "it is the right thing to do" will be loved and well cared for. Yes, I know that there are adopted children that are loved, of course but then how many adopted and in foster care children are there that are being abused daily? Too many, that's how many.
Too many children are neglected, beaten, abused, starved, molested, murdered by either a biological parent, a biological parents new boyfriend or girlfriend, by a foster or adoptive family member.
I am 100% for abortion. If you can't take care of a child, don't have it. You think that raped and murdered innocent 14 year old child wanted a life like that? NO. Neither would you.
Better to abort than put a child through torture like that. And now society has to pay for two unworthy to be alive scumbags for an X amount years while they sit in prison.

Tomb Raider came out in 1996. So it's been 20 years. I LOVE Lara Croft, she is BAD ASS.



A new Lara Croft Tomb Raider movie is set to come out next year. Actually next year in March. I am sooooooo disappointed that I wasn't asked to play Lara.
What fiasco and huge mistake of the film studios involved! If I can say so myself. Instead of casting me they picked a fellow Swede, Alicia Vikander. I guess I can accept that, although begrudgingly.
I was Lara Croft a few years ago for Halloween and I will definitely be Lara Croft again. And if for some reason Alicia gets pregnant, breaks a leg or decides to retire from acting to go and meditate in Nepal or something......CALL Tati for backup! The obvious choice.

The blog has been on the back burner for some time now. I have a LOT going on and it is a lot in many ways, more than I care for and I am to say the least - overwhelmed. I can't say when the blogging will be back to "normal" again.
Since I was on the East side of town yesterday and today, I stopped into Sunrise Coffee. They have 20 ounce size lattes there which I love and so many fun variations of their lattes and interesting flavors. But I am that super loyal person, so I stick with my vanilla latte.
I am too loyal for my own good, most people do not deserve that kind of loyalty.
And I am not talking about latte now as you might understand......



I visited my friend Shelley today that just gave birth to a healthy baby girl.
The baby was so small and so cute. I held her and wished deeply in my heart that her life will be happy and good.
I finally ate my dinner at around 9 30 PM, right now I am craving fruit. For dessert I had Tiramisu, I always want dessert.



And now it is bedtime for me. I might watch a half hour of Dom Kallar Oss Mods (They Call Us Misfits) a Swedish documentary from the late 60's that is mostly taking place in Stockholm. The film makers actually made two more documentaries about the same people, so it's a trilogy, the two that followed are Ett Anständigt Liv (1979) and Det Sociala Arvet (1993). I feel sad watching this, some very tragic stories but also touching about people, life and the struggle. When they show scenes from the Stockholm subway, T-Centralen and Plattan I can feel myself back there, the air of the subway approaching the platform, the smell of the subway, the calming back and forth motion of riding the subway.
I would often nap on it, I was a city child.
Had friends that found misery on Plattan. Some are gone now, didn't make it.
I remember the nights spent in City, balmy long summer nights and freezing cold winter winds that made me shiver. The high rises in the suburbs.
All of this makes me think of an amazing song by Monika Törnell that I LOVE, Vintersaga - it really encompasses the mood in those documentaries. I don't know.....I don't understand the pain and the struggle. Just WHY? Sometimes I really think that I'm not cut out for this life. And wasn't this a cheerful entry after a longer silence from me? Well.....this is my reality and my feelings now. Goodnight.