Welcome to Chaos !!

I went for a midnight run last night. The sky was still red from the last rays of the sun. I felt very alive. Running alone on a dirt path through the forest, feeling the wind in my face with only the trees as company. It's a great feeling. It was so gorgeous out. Trees are amazing, I feel that the trees surrounding my house are wise old entities that are my friends and watch over me. I'm going to spend most of my day outside today again, perhaps another midnight run later.

The heat is here! This is record heat for me, I have not experienced a hotter day since I have been in Alaska. It can actually get hotter than this, Fairbanks gets high temperatures in the summer. Today it was 84° here on Kenai and it sure felt like it!



I spent most of my day today and yesterday outside in the sun, sprawled out on a blanket tanning and reading.



Chhaya was completely lethargic during the day, I made her a shelter.



I ate some strawberries with whipped cream.



Later in the evening, after it cooled down a bit we went for a walk. These pics were taken after 11 pm, as you can see it's still light out. I absolutely LOVE the long days, the light does not bother me. It's actually amazing!





Pretty flowers, these looked like cotton balls. So cute!





I had the best day today and I am so very grateful for my life. Thank You Universe and Mother Nature for everything! ❤

Lisa Holm, a 17 year old girl in Sweden disappeared a few days ago after ending her shift and closing up the cafe where she worked. She was found murdered. I don't understand, WHY???! How can anyone do this to another person and her family? HOW? Can somebody explain this to me please? I am sick to my stomach and I feel so sad for this young girl, only 17 and she had to go through some truly terrifying events before her life was taken. If there is a God and I don't understand why God allows for senseless cruelty like this in the first place but if there is a God, I pray that Lisa is an angel now. She looked like an angel that's for sure. I am thinking about her a lot. And I never knew her. What is happening in beautiful Sweden?
Not much is known about this case yet besides that there are currently three suspects, two men and a woman. The suspects are immigrants. Important fact? Yes, for me it is. I am sick and tired of immigrants arriving to Sweden and creating havoc. First it was reported that the immigrants were from Poland, now they say Lithuania. From what I have gathered so far, Lisa was raped and the later cut into pieces. If this was my child, if I would had been this girl's Mother, I would had wanted to slowly torture whoever did this to my child to an excruciating death. Like I said, I have not been able to find many facts about this case yet since it just happened. The really big news in Sweden over this past weekend was that the Prince finally married his girlfriend and a bunch of entitled royals gathered for the wedding. One royal hag even wore a fur over her gown, a great example of no class. Classy can't be bought as we all know. I am totally against monarchy and think that it is time for the Swedish "royals" to find real jobs and pay their own way in life. They live off tax payers and they carry lavish lifestyles. Wear bejeweled expensive crowns on their heads when that money can go to better causes. It's a shame and I think that they are completely undeserving of it. European royalty is such an outdated phenomenon and I'm so not impressed.
A murder conviction is Sweden is like a slap on the wrist. If these three suspects really did commit the murder of Lisa I am not sure if they will be extradited to the country they are from or if they will be sentenced in Sweden. If they will be sentenced in Sweden they will live rather comfortably in prison on Swedish tax payers behalf. If I was the woman in charge in Sweden I would be hated by many. I would immediately put a stop to all immigration and scrutinize every immigrant present in Sweden. And this has nothing to do with the murder of Lisa, this is something I feel is long overdue in general if you look at what's going on in Sweden. If they live off welfare with no attempts of finding a job, sit around and beg on the streets all day, reproduce with no means of caring for their offspring, spent years in Sweden with no knowledge of communicating in Swedish, commit violent crimes....then I would send them packing asap. Get the fuck out and go back to where you came from. I personally do not give a shit if you call me a racist. Being called a racist in Sweden is like one of the worst things you can be called. People are scared and afraid to speak their minds, you can actually get fired from your job in Sweden if somebody even thinks you are a "racist". Yeah, how lame is that? Wake the fuck up already! I am not a racist, I'm a realist. Lisa is dead, that means forever gone. Her family have to live with this pain forever. Lisa was only 17.

Woke up at noon to sunshine and a blue sky. An absolutely gorgeous day! The first thing I did was to lay down a blanket outside and plant myself on it. I have a friend visiting so when she woke up we drove to Kaladi and then to some shops. Saw two items that I liked but I will think about it for a day or two first before I decide to whether make a purchase or not. That's how I operate. Enjoying our coffee......



Look how cute!



I'm feeling a bit tired and thinking about taking a nap outside for a while. I love sleeping outside.

A few months ago I started thinking more and more about the personal choices I make in my life and how that affects the environment and the animals. I already eat basically no meat, so far 2015 has been completely meat free although I am NOT a vegan but I do admire vegans for their lifestyle. I encourage everybody to eat less meat, read into what eating less meat would mean for you and the environment and of course the animals. ❤
Now I do use products to clean myself, to beautify myself and to clean my home. I decided to try to make better choices. Did I succeed? Well, here follows a personal inventory of my latest products. Here is where I FAILED (let's start with the bad first). I recently got a face cream from MAC in Vegas that I had seen advertised in a magazine. I decided to try it and I use it before work as a face moisturizer. It's called Mineralize Timecheck Lotion. I liked it and went into the MAC store in Anchorage and stocked up on another bottle since there is no MAC store in Kenai. While in Vegas I also exchanged some empty MAC containers for a new eyeshadow. I believe it's 6 empty containers (of MAC products) that you need to bring in to receive a new eye shadow or lip gloss for free but I might be wrong, so don't quote me on that. Anyhow, I picked out a new eyeshadow called Greensmoke. MAC from what I understand tests on animals. They used to be cruelty free (according to some reports that I read) but since they outsourced to China where products have to be tested on animals they are no longer cruelty free. So FAIL on my part.



I also got some new lip glosses. I ran out of my FAVE by NARS called Coeur Sucre and needed that one. Then I saw a gloss called Angelika and got that one too. I found out that NARS does not test on animals. But then I also got some other glosses by Make Up Forever and Sephora's own brand Sephora and those are not cruelty free. From now on I will stick to NARS.



Now here to some better choices. I got these shampoos and conditioners by Paul Mitchell. Not tested on animals. In fact Paul Mitchell is one of the first hair care companies to publicly oppose animal testing. I can say that The Detangler worked really well on my hair.



I got these really nice and yummy smelling lotions by Pacifica. Not tested on animals.
Good stuff!



And here are some products I've had for a while that I want to tell you about.
Eminence Organic Skin Care. I really like Eminence and my mission is to find some great day and night moisturizers by them to start using daily. Eminence products smell AMAZING and edible. The Honedew lotion is wonderful and I really like the Monoi Age Corrective Exfoliating Cleanser. It has small scrubbing beads (finely ground olive seeds actually) in it and I leave it on my face for a while before washing it off. Love it!



I know I have room for improvement and I am working on becoming a better person for this planet. That is my mission.

I'm at the office (Coffee Roasters) with a friend that's in town visiting. She likes quiet productive time accompanied with coffee just as much as I do. So here we are typing away on our Macs, having some office time. It's nice to spend time with a like minded person.
After this I am going to try some Thai food at a new food place that's in town for the summer. Then I need to groom Chhaya a bit. Still waiting for the warm sun. Craving new books to read. And that's about all I have to report for now.