Welcome to Chaos !!

Sometimes when I tell people that I live in Kenai I get responses like, "No way, I have never seen you anywhere, you do not live here." Oh but yes I do. I am happily inconspicuous during the day. Do you really think that I am going to parade around town advertising myself in booty shorts, a push up bra underneath a tight shirt and caked on make up? No thanks, I don't need 24/7 attention, I get enough as it is. Yes, I live here. I live a quiet life because I want to. I get enough excitement at work.....thanks. I don't go out to the local bars because they don't interest me, I like raves and a certain type of music and I don't think they offer that at the Mav. Would I ever go out locally? Sure....I could but if I'm going to go out to some loud place with people drinking and mingling I might as well go to work at the club and make some money. Plus there are no raves here. I wear comfortable clothes during the day, only Shauna Sand and Courtney Stodden wear stripper heels when they are out and about but then they are also kooky.
Summer time I like soft tank tops, jeans or cropped sweats, a hoodie if chilly and flip flops. Flip flops until it gets too cold to wear them.
In the winter time I bundle up if I'm in AK but if I'm in Vegas I can dress comfortable and cute year round. Of course it does happen that people recognize me but it's not because I flaunt myself around.....for a lack of better wording.

Yesterday I woke up to this message. And you can also see my response.



Some people know and appreciate quality. Am I going back to whatever place this might be?
I don't know yet. And I am not going to tell you where this is until I go, if I go. I know that some dancers do not want to share this club with other dancers, they want it all for themselves. I think the spots are limited too, there are only so many girls allowed to work.
I am obviously one of them. And it's not the first time I have heard something like this from other clubs/owners. Strip club owners and/or managers should know quality, I would think it is in their best interest (unfortunately for them they do not always realize this). I have always said......quality over quantity. There is a "girl" working at the club here right now that has absolutely no business being a "dancer" or whatever she might be referring to herself as.
She clears the stage and scares people away. That does not leave a good impression or a good memory of the club. And you want people to come back. Not flee in horror.
I am sooooo tired and very glad I escaped from work early tonight. I was really not in the mood to work but did it anyways and thought I was going to either fall asleep from boredom and lack of a fun outlet earlier. There were a bunch of boring people and men old enough to be my great grandpa in there tonight. FOGBONES! I'm so happy to be home and in bed.
Oh yeah......so when I ran into Nancy and Honey yesterday, Nancy told me that she heard that I had been on some boat in Kodiak working. She said that Honey had been concerned for my safety. Nancy said that she told Honey that Tatiana is the last person you have to be worried about. She said that if anyone would try to do something I am not OK with I would probably kill them first and then contact the Coast Guard. That's right! I am glad that somebody knows me well! It's true, if somebody would try to hurt me or do something weird to me they would regret that very much. I am not the timid type.
But I am almost falling asleep while typing this......I need to take out my contacts and curl up and sleep. Maybe cuddle with Chhaya first. Isn't sleep one of the best things ever?

I had a busy day today, sometimes I feel like I don't have time to smell the flowers......and that's important you know. The flowers are only here for a short while.
Post office visit today (I finally sent off licorice and Dalahästar from Sweden to my friends).
I ran into Nancy and Honey at the post office, I have to remember to tell you what Nancy told me.....it was kind of funny but spot on. Errands. Then some tanning outside, who knows it might rain tomorrow, I need to catch the sun while it's here and warm. Then a walk with Chhaya. Stuff.....there's always stuff to do. And now it's 8 pm and I have to take a shower and get ready for work. I'm not in the mood for work tonight but I might as well go in. You know I'm tired of making only $1000/night at the club here, it's getting old. But I might as well go......I guess $1000 is better than nothing. Maybe I'll buy myself a new Prada bag tomorrow, I've been eying a powder pink one for a while.
I might bring in my laptop to work too, I might have something more to say (I always have something to say).

PS.....$1000 is a JOKE.....there are a few that will know what I mean with this joke too.
Dancers (some dancers) like to exaggerate their earnings, why I don't know. I just know that it is really LAME to do that.

I have been to many many raves or parties or whatever you want to call the large events where people gather to dance to amazing music with great beats and heavy bass all night long to the early morning. I LOVE HOUSE MUSIC & I LOVE TO DANCE!!!!! If I like the music I will stay on the dance floor until the party is over. Majority of the time sober. Yes, sober.
What I wanted to talk about is that many people that never been to a rave before think that everybody is basically totally fucked up on drugs, like every pill imaginable plus some acid and copious amounts of cocaine on top of that. Yes, people do drugs raves. I have and enjoyed every second to the fullest being on E, trust me! No regrets on my part. I think everybody should have one or a few great E experiences in their life, maybe the world would be a better place then. But......BUT people do drugs every day, before work, before they go to bed, to be able to stay awake in church early Sunday morning after getting drunk Saturday night, they do legal and illegal drugs. Some do meth and others abuse their Adderall prescription, so I'm really tired of folks pointing their finger at us music and dance lovers that gather at the happy events known as "raves". Clean up your own shit before you start pointing your finger at me. I am sober compared to most people that I encounter. I don't drink or do drugs at work for example.
Another very important issue is the alcohol. I have seen way more people act inappropriate and/or violent because of alcohol. You rarely see any violence a raves but throw in some alcohol at a rock concert, country show or some other gathering where people usually drink a lot and all kinds of bad stuff happens. I have a great example for ya'll. The recent Keith Urban concert. A 17 year old girl got raped. And there were mass arrests and hospitalizations (I read one report that said 50 arrests and 46 people sent to the hospital) due to alcohol.
Electric Daisy Carnival (EDC) took place in Vegas last month. 400 000 tickets were sold to the three day event, I think it's safe to say that most of the people that were lucky enough to score a ticket went. I can guarantee that there were way less violent incidents and hospitalizations at EDC Las Vegas 2014 than the recent Keith Urban concert (when you compare the attendees to both events)......besides how many people does a Keith Urban convert draw? A couple of thousand maybe? I don't have an exact number. According to the Las Vegas Review Journal....."Las Vegas police made 25 drug-related felony arrests and 13 misdemeanor arrests on the final night. Two DUI arrests also were made. From 6 p.m. Sunday to 6 a.m. Monday, 234 medical calls were made at the event and eight people were transported to a hospital."
Keep in mind that a medical call is not the same as taking somebody to the hospital. So six people out of a crowd of about 130 000 Sunday night.
Yes, deaths happen at raves. YOU are responsible for your own well being, remember that. DO NOT blame a rave or the rave promoter for YOU taking too many drugs, drinking too much or being irresponsible. If you can't be responsible for your own actions in society, whether you attend a rave, a concert, go to the beach, church or wherever you might be going - STAY AT HOME.
Here are some pics of me with friends from a some raves I have attended. EDC used to be held in Los Angeles at the LA Sports Arena before they moved to Las Vegas (due to some overdose controversies). The LA Sports Arena, a great venue for a party, those were the days! I have so many amazing rave memories.....some of the best times of my life were made dancing and mingling at raves. SO MUCH FUN!
I am going to Burning Man next month.....it's going to be AMAZING......like it was last year.
I'm going to dance every night. Dancing is my therapy. ❤

Me & Julia and a beautiful girl we met that we called "Asian Butterfly".



Dressed in pajamas, slippers and Hello Kitty accessories at Monster Massive.





With Angelica and Reza (in the middle). When I go back to Vegas I am going to Reza's parties in Los Angeles, it's going to be fun reconnecting with my old rave friends......I can't wait!!!!!

It's been pouring down rain here all day. I spent a few hours at Kaladi with Genesis this afternoon, having latte and company on a rainy day is a good thing.



Then I checked my PO BOX and saw that I got a package from Julia. She spent a lot of time on details like cute stickers and stuff. And she sent me a shower creme from Bath & Body Works. And an article about Sambalatte in Vegas.....I love that place. The funny thing is that I had a feeling that she would send me a shower creme from Bath & Body Works (it's that intuition I've been having lately). Dziękuję Julia!



Now I'm having a girlfriend over. At some point tonight we might watch a movie, if we can stop talking.....we have a lot of catching up to do. It's about midnight and it's pitch black out......no more light out until 1 am. Wintertime is slowly creeping up on us......

Here are some pictures of the actual boat, the Wild Alaskan where I recently worked and stayed. Overall I had a good trip. There were some things that I was not too happy with but nothing major. BUT I know a person that had a very bad experience on that boat. I was not there when all of that transpired so I was not there to witness any of that. I have not said much about my overall impression......yet. I might sit down tomorrow if I have enough time and write a summary. The word about the boat is spreading and again my blog is getting some attention. Not everybody seems to understand what a blog is and they also have a negative view about a blog. For your information, blogging is normal and there are A LOT of blogs out there, shocking - I KNOW! Some people can barely compose an email and spell and only know how to update stuff on their Facebook. I have a blog and I read and research things online that vary from TMZ to Al Jazeera. Now you know.
Dancers will talk about their experiences (good and bad) amongst themselves in the dressing room at work and on any public forum available for these discussions. There are plenty of places online where dancers discuss work related issues, this is no secret. If they don't like something, the word will spread.....trust me. My blog is much more important for me than any club. And freedom of speech is one of the most important freedoms we have. That I will not give up. And if you have been reading my blog for a while, you also know that I write about SO MUCH more than just my job and all the drama that sometimes comes with that.
With that being said, I like Kodiak island. I enjoy traveling and gathering new experiences.
I wish every dancer that goes out to the Wild Alaskan much luck and if you want to ask me any specific questions you can do so in an email. tatianasupernova@yahoo.com