Welcome to Chaos !!

There is like a storm here. I have never experienced strong winds like this here in Alaska before. Once when I was in South Dakota it was blowing so hard that it was difficult to walk outside. It's actually a little scary. A large tree fell down in my yard at some point while I was sleeping this morning. Luckily it fell parallel to the house or I would have had a rude awakening of a tree crashing into the house. Poor tree! I feel bad for it. Do you even talk to or hug trees? I do. The trees that are surrounding my house are my friends.



Sooooo.......do I have some really good and juicy information and gossip about a certain person/situation at work......oh yes I do. But I am going to stay mum, for now. I do not make stuff up about people, that is mean and wrong. I have worked with some girls that just make up the most outlandish stuff about other girls. Not OK. And if somebody tells me some shit like that I usually question them. Like, have you seen this? How do you know for sure? What I have, I have either seen with my own (sober) eyes, heard from enough people over and over again (the same type of info) so you can fairly safely say that it is most likely true. Plus in this case, all the stuff just keeps piling up.....the same details, over and over. There is probably way more to the story than I will ever know. My advice to all dumb guys out there is.....think with the head on top of your shoulders. Look for somebody that shows some kindness.
There is more to a girl than a vagina. And if everybody (more like many and counting) in town can buy it and probably has, then please use protection. And guess what, that is not your girlfriend.....unless you have an open relationship, wide open. Or if you want to get completely taken advantage of....then hey, that is your choice and right but don't complain if you get taken for an expensive ride in the end. Some guys are OK with this kind of treatment, whatever.....it is what it is. BUT if you happen to be married or committed to somebody else while getting yourself involved with another person (especially like this person I am referring to) while your wife or girlfriend has no clue, then you deserve what's coming your way. Gross!

Here are some pics from a shoot I did when I was in Vegas a few months ago. I got contacted by the couple asking if I was willing to do the shoot for them. They have a pretty fun business idea. Basically they will provide the wardrobe, props and take you to a desert location outside Las Vegas and let you be Nevada Jane for a few hours. Pretty cool concept. So they provided me with everything I am wearing in the first pic, in the second pic I obviously don't wear much......





Perhaps you need some Nevada Jane pics of yourself as well? A fun memory!
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I got to Coffee Roasters a while ago, sat down with my yummy latte and a blueberry muffin (baked at the premises). It's raining since a few days now. The fire which was raging here a few days ago is more under control now and the evacuated residents were able to come home. I worked last night, there is so much drama and stuff going on in this small club that it's insane. I had coffee with a girl I work with yesterday and that is exactly what we were discussing, all the drama here. I have worked at clubs with hundreds of girls and there were less (that I noticed) bullshit going on than here in this small club. But I guess that might be just the way it is in a small place and a small town. Sharon described me to somebody at work yesterday, she said that she thinks I am beautiful from the inside out. That warmed my heart and made me feel grateful and teary eyed. Sure, it's nice that others might think you have a nice exterior but when others think that you are a nice person - that matters more.
To me. I get teary eyed a lot, several times a day. Just thinking about Chhaya, people I miss, reading the news, seeing that sad ASPCA commercial on TV with those poor animals. I can't take it. Sometimes I wish I could turn off feeling, it's too much at times. I scrolled down through the news and read about an elk called Big Boy that some bloodthirsty cop shot.
The residents in the town where Big Boy frolicked are outraged, Big Boy was kind of a fixture in town and supposedly never harmed anyone. I got sad. Why did the elk have to die? Why kill an animal if all you want are the bragging rights and the animals head on your wall, maybe feel extra tough and powerful that day too? Why? I don't understand it. We have a store in town called Sportsman's Warehouse. When you walk in you walk past a large wall, the wall is full of pictures of people showing off the animals they killed. They hold up their heads, some sit on the animal - grinning. OK, I know that this is Alaska and some people hunt for subsistence, this is legal and accepted here. But do you have to be such a show off about it? Don't get me started on pure trophy hunting. I can't stand it. It makes me sick. I should put up my own pic on that wall inside Sportsman's Warehouse, me hugging and kissing a moose baby or holding a chicken or a little piglet. Showing off that I love animals.
One more absolutely HORRIBLE thing has happened (again) in a different part of the world. Two young girls in India (14 and 15) were found dead hanging, they had been gang raped.
It hurts to read about this, I'm thinking about the two girls and the horror they went through. I don't understand how a human can do this to another human. How can a gang of guys attack and rape a girl or girls and then hang them and let them die? This must be somewhat acceptable in India since it seems to happen on a regular basis.
And with acceptable I mean, the punishment for raping and discarding of women, doing what you want to women if you are a man over there seems to carry a punishment equal to a slap on the wrist. If you are a woman that get raped in India chances are that you will be ostracized afterwards. I can't even think about it anymore, I feel helpless and sad. Is it that difficult to know wrong from right? I am not free of fault and sin. But you don't knowingly harm another person or animal. Unless you defend yourself and examples like such.
Other than that, it is WRONG. What is wrong with people?
Well.....that's all from me today, I feel drained. I am going to take Chhaya for a long and refreshing walk in the drizzling rain, I have to clear my head......Here is a pic from the other day.

I haven't had time to write anything until now.....and I want to hurry up and write this before today....May 28 is over. Today is Chhaya's birthday. My love and my everything. No words can express what she means to me. The day she came into my life is one of the best days I've had. She is so much fun and she is my best friend. I LOVE YOU CHHAYA!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

Do we have any takers for two pairs of....thongs and a pair of shoes? Only high bidders please! And no, these are not Tatiana's thongs and heels, I am sorry to disappoint you. When I got to work this evening I saw this stuff neatly laying on the floor and I just had to take a pic. The shoes are a size 10 and the thongs are in questionable state of clean. My heels are a size 8 and my underwear are neatly put away and safely locked up, otherwise I wouldn't have any left. When I decide to sell either used shoes or underwear I will have an auction.



I came up with a fun idea Friday night. I made a merkin for myself. Somebody left some dark and fuzzy fabric in a locker, perfect for merkin making I thought! I cut a large triangular shape out and stuffed it inside my smallest g-string, then I pulled a pair of my Honey Dew boy shorts over this. Went on stage and flashed the merkin which I had arranged so it looked like I was nice and hairy from the front to the back. Success? You can say so, $63 on stage and somebody got some lap dances right after I got off stage, clad in the merkin. I got $105 for that. So $168 in about 25 minutes and lots of laughs. I make myself laugh all the time at work. Boss Lady thinks I am very amusing......NOT.
I am definitely going to have fun with the merkin again. I will auction that one off too.....eventually.

So I cracked open a vial of the Phytocyane and applied the serum to my scalp after washing my hair last night. I'm going to do this every time I wash my hair until the vials are gone.
Very fancy, all I need is a white lab coat. Let's see if all my hair falls out now......
I also gave Chhaya a vegetarian small can of dog food. Brown rice, cracked barley, oatmeal and carrots.....I was curious to see if she would eat that and she did. Gobbled it down real fast, she probably thought it was one of her regular cans of beef.
What else.....I had a very annoying experience trying to order something important online this afternoon. What usually takes perhaps 30 minutes turned into a two hour plus ordeal with me having to call and talk to a customer service rep and I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown out of sheer frustration for about five minutes. But that is done and taken care of now and I can breathe a long sigh of relief, make myself some lentil soup and maybe chant a few om's to calm down.
There is a new rumor that Jennifer Lopez's boyfriend (child) Casper is cheating on her......not so smart of him I think...... I never thought Casper was anyone Jennifer should bother with anyways, I said this a long time ago (it's in the blog.....of course!). I love her, I think she is beautiful and she can dance. Come on now Jennifer, if he cheated he needs to go! But for now, it's only a rumor. Nothing confirmed. And every couple have different rules and agreements for their relationship. Maybe they have an open one? I don't know. Not my cup of tea (and I prefer Earl Grey and English Breakfast if you wonder) but I have never tried it. I wonder if my baby Vlad (Putin) would be OK with sharing me with Rihanna or Chester (Bennington). Or some other good looking boy, someone that likes big Ford trucks perhaps? Hmmmmmm.......I refuse to share my Vlad with anyone!