Welcome to Chaos !!

After I finally managed to drag myself out of bed this afternoon (I like to lay in bed and enjoy myself in a state of almost awake) me and Chhaya ventured out for some errands. She likes it when I get my latte from Kaladi because that means she will get treats.



Then I got some stickers at Jo-Anns.....50% off (yeay!) I need some new stickers for a small project I want to put together. When I did my grocery shopping I used a buy one get one free coupon for a yogurt, it made me feel mighty thrifty. I totally use coupons if I have any for the things I want to buy. I admire those coupon people that clip coupons and then go to the store and get hundreds of dollars of stuff for free or for only a fraction of the price. That's amazing but I am not that into chasing coupons. Maybe I should make that my new hobby?
I also got this cheese danish at Starbucks, they got some new pastries in and are selling them for half price this weekend to get people to try them. I was really excited to try this danish as soon as I got home, because I love pastries. It was dry and tasted like bleh.....that was my last danish from that Starbucks, I have noticed that the two Stabucks we have in town sometimes sell stale pastries. Which is fine but at least tell people that they are stale and not fresh and don't sell them for full price. I like the pink bag though..... la boulange....one of my fave French words.



Now it's time for a nap right next to Chhaya, I love laying behind her and smelling her fur. Then I have to take her out. Check back tomorrow for some gossip about work.

I actually got myself together last night and took control over my PMS and went to work.
A small personal victory, because it is so easy just to stay at home when you don't have a schedule to follow. But now I am home again and my bed smells so good because I washed all my bedding yesterday. I even washed the electric blanket but it's still drying, I'm curious to see if it's still going to work after the wash.
Work was ok. The latest drama? CRAZY took some stuff that didn't belong to her....again.
But this time she took one of Sharon's bracelets, actually a thick silver cuff that I gave to her a while back. It was a pair of cuffs that you are supposed to wear around your ankles but they were a bit too small for me and Sharon has thinner legs than me so I gave her the cuffs.
They are really nice and I recognized the cuff right away when I saw it around CRAZY'S wrist. Well, she got taken into the office and almost got fired. We'll see if she can refrain from "borrowing" stuff that's not hers from now on. If you want to take stuff, go take at WalMart....great advice!
Going into work is like opening up a box of chocolates.....you never know what you are going to get! But I am going to sleep now, I am already looking forward to my latte when I wake up....

So many plans for today and yesterday.....I was going to go swimming, go to the gym and work. But no, didn't do any of it. I am not feeling for anything besides eating and sleeping.
It's called PMS and I usually get this feeling for about two or three days each month, sometimes longer. I did force myself do get something done. Last night I stayed in and cleaned and I also stitched up some of Chhaya's toys that she has ripped apart and a pair of my Honey Dew's. My latest pair actually and the only pair that ever needed stitches, they came apart in the seam.
Today I cleaned Chhaya's ears and brushed her teeth. I also use chamomile tea to clean her, once it's cool enough I dip a small towel in the brew, squeeze out excess tea and clean the inside of her ears, around the eyes, the gum line and around her little PI-PI. That's the name I use for her "private" part. Chamomile is a natural disinfectant. I usually do eyes and ears first and then I grab a fresh towel and clean her gums and then her PI-PI. No double dipping the towel. Keep it clean. Now she needs a brushing.



Then I laundered my bedding and fed all my other animals.....the ones outside. After that I decided that I would not go to the gym like I had planned initially, instead I would only venture out (besides walking Chhaya of course) for a latte and a muffin, so I did that, even though that felt like a huge undertaking. PMS = even ordinary stuff feels difficult. And now I am sitting here.....thinking about work and that I don't really feel like working.....or do I? Maybe Sharon can sing that song to me like she usually does, something about that she thinks I am beautiful, that will surely improve my mood. But then sleep sounds like a great plan also.....
Today's PMS selfies. Feeling like YUCK.

Ugh.....I am so not motivated to get ready, go outside in the dark and cold and drive to work. It's 7 30 and I am in bed with my feet under Chhaya's stomach. It's so tempting to just stay like this for the rest of the night.....should I give in to being comfortable or should I be responsible and go to work?



Besides feeling lazy and unmotivated right now, I had a pretty good day. Spent some time outside in the sun with Chhaya, made a very good dinner for myself. And now I am staring at the dark night outside. Dark and cold. It's winter. I'm kind of over it.

So last night was basically another one of those waste of my time, eyelash glue, mascara and gas money nights. Well, I had fun with my friends of course but besides that not much was going on and we closed early. I occupied myself with taking pictures and goofing around. Like having fun with this cottage cheese that Sharon brought in and ate while sitting at the stage, not the first time she does that either! I mean, who sits at the stage in a strip club putting in spoonfuls of cottage cheese in the mouth? That is just too funny and you can only imagine the jokes I have been cracking about that cottage cheese!



Another thing. We have a new girl. She is crazy. Like really crazy, therefore I am going to call her CRAZY when I write about her. I have worked with somewhat unstable girls before, I have witnessed weird behavior, drama and emotional outbursts. Some which can be explained by having a bad night or being too drunk. But this girl, CRAZY, is actually not well mentally. I do not think that she should be working in a strip club, I can't think of any regular workplace that would actually hire her and even some clubs would not BUT WE DO! So come on over all you crazies, we'd love to have you! I know she is on many meds because I have seen her pill box, more like a large plastic container full of pills in different compartments labeled with the days of the week. Although I have not asked her specifically what meds she is on and if she is actually diagnosed with a mental disorder. I feel bad for CRAZY and I am worried about her safety. She is not a beginner stripper, she knows what she is doing and she is a ruthless hustler that has stepped on many toes in the club in her short time of being here and already had a few arguments with most of the girls. She has no filter whatsoever. I do have to say that she has a very nice body that I suspect is staying thin due to drugs, she is blonde and her eyes have a very haunted and disturbed look in them. She also slaps on blue eyeshadow like a five year old that came across Mom's makeup. Last week she barged in two hours late, she had been at the store and carried a bunch of bags. She had on boots and a skirt that barely covered her ass, that is what she wore while shopping at Fred Meyer - WTF! Therefore I am worried about her because I think she is so confused and an easy target for somebody with bad intentions. Some guys love "crazy" women for not the best reasons. And it doesn't always end well. I took CRAZY home last night because the local cab drivers already don't want to bother with her, some guy she met about a week ago would not pick her up either. From what I understood he also took her phone at some point throughout their weeklong relationship, so she had to borrow mine and an other girls phones to make calls. Then she was going to call her Mom to pick her up and since she lives not too far off my path I told her I would take her home, I felt bad for her Mom having to get up and drive to pick up her daughter at 1 30 am.
CRAZY also helps herself to anything that's not locked up in the dressing room. Shoes and outfits belonging to other girls, make up too.....she stuffed some things in her bag (not her things) last night and when confronted about it her explanation was that "it screamed my name". My stuff is always locked up but that is not OK, to just take stuff from the other girls......obviously! Then there are some other things that she has said that are way off the charts involving spying, the government and a famous rapper that she is convinced writes his songs about her.....yeah, I am not exaggerating....there is something seriously wrong with CRAZY and I am concerned. But enough about her.....for now.

YOU NEED some cottage cheese?

I met up with Lexi today for some coffee and she brought along her little baby girl. Not even a month old yet.....and THE CUTEST baby I have ever seen! So perfect, precious, cute and small although she was over 7 lbs when she was born. I got to hold her and she just laid in my lap looking at me while I was staring at her, SO CUTE!!!! I'm so happy for Lexi! ♥



Afterwards I went to the gym and now I am home, feeling that late afternoon tired feeling creeping on. But instead of taking a nap I am going to get dressed and take Chhaya out. She is my baby.