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Here are some pics of the hair I pulled out when I waxed. I don't think that waxing the legs hurts at all, in fact I kind of like the feeling. Waxing the bikini line stings a little and as far as waxing the whole VAGINE, getting a Brazilian - NO WAY. I would probably faint from the pain and get about 100 ingrown hairs as a result. Can you be a feminist and still wax, shave, like pink and be a dancer (stripper)? I think so. I am definitely a feminist. But I also like to keep the hair on my various body parts shaved or trimmed, except for the hair on my head, I like to keep that long. Even before I had any knowledge about stripping I shaved and trimmed.
Not to keep some guy happy but because I like it like that and I think it is cleaner from a hygiene standpoint. Even on guys, I don't like it when a guy has a huge growth of sweaty armpit hair or a large moist bush down there. Trim that! And that is my opinion. Some people would never shave or trim, they think the hairier the better or that we have hair on our bodies for a reason.
Being a feminist has nothing to do with shaving your VAGINE, if that is what YOU want to do. Sometimes I let my hair grow out a bit. Because I want to, I like to take a break from the shaving once in a while. Being a feminist is believing and demanding the same rights and opportunities as men in society. Yes, there are differences between men and women, from a physical aspect. But come on with that crap that some places get away with, not letting women have any or limited rights. That is bullshit! Get with the times already!
Can you be a dancer and a feminist? Well, I have some moral struggle with that at times. Do I think that strip clubs really bring anything important or valuable to society? Probably not so much. We could probably get rid of all the strip clubs and keep on existing well without them. They did in Iceland.
On the other hand, I think that I do my job without letting anyone talk down to me, degrade me or treat me in any way I am not comfortable with. I am definitely not afraid to speak up, talk back or put idiots in their place. Because once in a while my path crosses with some douchebag and I have to deal with him and sometimes it's a her, accordingly. You can dance and carry yourself with pride and respect yourself, absolutely. I have no huge hangups with nudity, I am totally comfortable with nude beaches, hot springs etc. It is what you choose to do and how you act in any given situation that matters. I work topless and naked but I won't go home with you or let you touch me wherever you want to. Why? Because I don't want to and I also do not bend the rules we have at work. There are women that work in "respectable" fields that do things that I would never even consider doing from a moral aspect. I don't even think that I need to give any examples, you can probably think of some things yourselves.
I also love it when I can change people's stereotypes about dancers. You know......dumb, uneducated, drunk, druggie, slutty etc. Those things do not apply to me whatsoever and I am proud to say that. A dancer and a feminist, it works for me.

And let me add something. When I say slutty I do not mean to do any slut shaming. Hey, if you sleep around with a lot of guys or girls and are happy, go for it and good for you. As a feminist I think men and women should be able to sleep around and have sex without any slut shaming or stigma attached to it. What I meant is that dancers often are looked at as sluts, many times from other women that do not understand or have some kind of negative stereotype attached to dancers. I am more a relationship kind of girl......no relationship, no sex, I take that stuff kind of seriously. But if other people want to sleep around, whatever go for it. Whatever floats your boat.

Hello.....thought I would check in so ya'll know that I am alive......decided to stay home instead of working. Why? Well I waited until today to wax my legs and now I have red legs. I could not resist and waxed a tiny bit on the bikini line too and that looks really red also. I could go to work but I don't want to apply any cover up on the redness and I feel lazy and kind of not in the mood. I think I am going camping tomorrow so work will have to wait until next week sometime, I am still on vacation as far as I am concerned.
Got two new books. And The Mountains Echoed by Khaled Hosseini. I have read his two prior novels. The Kite Runner and A Thousand Splendid Suns . If you like to read, pick them up. Although be warned, you will probably cry, it's painful reading. This new one was very good as well, not as sad as the other two, still sad in a thoughtful kind of way. Made me think about my life and how fast time disappears. And THAT makes ME very sad. One day I am going to be 100 and look back at my life and feel like it all went so fast, TOO FAST!
Also got and read on my trip back from Chicago, Sex, Lies and The Dirty a memoir by Nik Richie. This is the guy that started the gossip website thedirty.com The memoir basically describes how he started The Dirty, got it running and also describes him having gross sex with all kinds of girls that he continuously disrespect throughout the book until the meeting and wedding to his current wife, Shayne Lamas. I go on The Dirty sometimes. It can be entertaining but Nik is a self proclaimed judge of women and what we should look like. Personality and intelligence do not matter much in his world. You should be blonde, thin, young and have big fake boobs. If you have an ugly nose (and most noses are awful according to him) you should fix your nose before you get a boob job. After you have a boob job your looks improve automatically two points. He calls the boob job + 2's. So if a girls used to be a 6 (on Nik's 0 -10 scale) she becomes an 8 after getting + 2's. Your inner thighs must not touch. The inner thigh gap or ITG is crucial to have in order to be considered "hot". If you are over 30 and weigh over 130 lbs you are ancient and fat. And bla bla bla.......I laugh at it all, I would never take any of that crap personally. I weigh over 130 lbs and I certainly do not have a boob job and neither do I feel any kind of desire to get one. For what? Nik is making money of The Dirty. He does manage to sometime say something of substance on there, so I suspect that he is a pretty smart guy but he is painfully obsessed with only the exterior in women. What is he going to do when Shayne (his wife) gets old? I can only hope that no young girls get influenced in a negative way from reading all the crap on there. Have I ever known anybody submitted to The Dirty? Yes, one girl that I used to work at The Bush Co with but she now lives in Vegas. What they said about her was pretty spot on though......they brought up her cocaine use and the fact that she is a Mom. So good luck dancing in Vegas now is all that I have to say about that and I hope that she finally stopped drinking and drugging and got her act together for the sake of her kids.

I am baaaaaack in the last frontier. The mosquitoes are out and hungry. I have AT LEAST ten itchy bites......if not more. I already got my latte and blueberry scone for breakfast at Coffee Roasters. Soon I am going to go and find a large outside umbrella in one of the stores. I like to be outside as much as possible when it's nice out but I don't want to burn in the sun and I need an umbrella to shade me, Chhaya does too. Then I have to wax my legs, I haven't shaved since last time I worked (over two weeks ago) and I am really hairy. It's nice! If my VAGINE would grow some teeth it would resemble a grizzly. Wait......it DOES have teeth so stay away from it! When my hair on my legs is long like it is now I like to wax it off and in between the waxing I shave. I never shave my upper legs (things) only wax. I did shave them once and I regretted that, the hair grew back coarser. I never wax the VAGINE anymore, I tried a few times and it bled. So now I stick to shaving. And now you all know how I remove my body hair. In case you were curious........
I stopped and took some pictures on my drive home yesterday. The sun stayed out until about midnight.







I think I am going to stay home tonight and cuddle with Chhaya and do laundry. A shampoo bottle popped open in my luggage during the flight and made a mess. Going back to work tomorrow.

So it is 5 pm and I have arrived in Anchorage. I am happy that it looks nice out......I am going to grab a bite to eat and maybe browse some stores, get gas and start the drive to Kenai.
It takes about 3 hours. My Chicago trip is over and I had a good time. I don't like saying goodbye. My life is full of goodbyes because everybody I know is scattered everywhere. Not fun. 😥
My last day in Chicago was spent with Angelica and her little sister Jay, that is a rock star btw and only 16. We found the coolest bookstore ever, Quimby's. Here are some last pics from Chicago.

My Chicago adventure is nearing it's end. I am soaking up as much as I can. I have to say that Chicago is a great city. ❤ ❤ ❤





In a few days I am going to make an appearance at work so they can have something nice to look at.......
And then I am going camping. I miss Chhaya like crazy now. I am going to give her sooooo many kisses when I see her. But now it is time to start my day.

After a day of shopping yesterday and some rest it was time to put in another night at the Boom Boom Room. It was fun but not as fun as last Sunday.....I kept on yawning in between the dancing and wanted to sit down for only about ten minutes to rest my legs and my mind kept wandering to Chhaya and my nice house in Alaska. But don't get me wrong.....I still had a good time. Here are some pics from last nigh. The dj is Mark Farina, he played at many of the raves I used to go to in CA.









We were kind of done when the Boom Boom Room was over and decided to skip the afterhours after some discussion whether to go or not. I am out and about now, going to head for Michigan Ave in a little bit. The camo pants I am wearing are new, I wanted to check out the Hudson camo pants I recently saw in a fashion mag and went on a hunt for them yesterday but no luck finding them. But I found some other camo pants at Forever21 and cheap too.....only $ 25, a great find!