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Entries from May 2013

Friday, May 3. 2013

Old Annoying Fogbones

Yesterday afternoon while driving home from the gym I was listening to talk radio......as always. Some guy named Mike Pecaro has a show, he lives here in Alaska. Some dude called in and started talking about his disapproval with Plan B, a pill that can prevent pregnancy, he was also against abortions in general and that girls under 18 can get an abortion without parental consent. Then he proceeded with saying that he actually knows a woman that had an abortion (NO WAY, REALLY? GASP!) and that she was a happy person before the abortion and after it she just turned into a miserable person, a shadow of her former self that deeply regretted the abortion. The radio show host chimed in and agreed that abortions are bad, Plan B too and bla bla bla. I really get pissed off when some old dusty fogbones, men in this case, talk like this about women's rights. I am absolutely FOR women's rights. Yes, I think abortions are ok as long as guidelines are followed. I have known several girls that had abortions and guess what.......never heard them mention that they regretted it or that it changed their life into some miserable existence. There are times when an abortion is a better option than having the baby I think. And from the stellar examples I have heard and witnessed of some "parents" out there I think a lot of them would had done the child a favor by not having it in the first place. Abuse, neglect, molestation......you name it.
Fun circumstances for a child to grow up in. If you don't want to abort the baby you can always look into adoption as an option. As far as Plan B. I think Plan B is great. I took it once, and no I do not feel like I murdered an innocent baby. But since I thought there was a chance that maybe I was pregnant I decided to take the Plan B pill instead of having to go through a possible abortion down the line. Girls under 18 getting abortions without their parents consent? I think that is ok too. If you think about it, there is probably a reason for that. The girls that have an abortion without telling their parents are probably scared to come forward and tell them about the pregnancy for a reason, like they might get beaten or severely punished as a result. And one more thing, it IS the girls body. Even as a parent, your child is not your possession, you didn't buy your child like you buy a car. So therefore I think a girl under 18 should be able to do whatever she wishes when it comes to that. I am in favor of kids waiting to have sex, the thought of 12 - 16 year olds having sex is scary to me but hey.....they do, that is the reality. So the best thing you can do as a parents is to be a good role model, be there for your children and be the kind of parent that your children can turn to in any situation. Looking back, I wish I would had waited a few more years with having sex, I was a 16 1/2. Way too young. I can see that now, I didn't then.
Having an abortion is a personal choice and most likely not an easy decision to make. But still, it is a right. And yes, I believe in children's rights too. Therefore there are guidelines in place when it comes to abortion, like you can't all of a sudden decide in the seventh month of pregnancy that you don't want the baby anymore. Then there are other options. Like adoption. But that is not what I am talking about here. I am talking about how annoying it is when some dusty old fogbones want to take away women's rights. I bet the discussion would sound totally different if it was men that got pregnant instead of women. Men have always wanted to control women. Like we are their property or prized possessions. And in some counties they still do. Let me tell you, I am extremely grateful that I do not live in a place where women have no or limited rights.

Thursday, May 2. 2013

The Reason

The last six months or so have been marked by some sad events. My Mom had a medical issue, she had surgery last week actually and is doing well. I got scared and almost went back to Sweden to be with her but she insisted that I stay put and come only if things would take a turn for the worse. Luckily things didn't go bad and she seems to be doing well. One of my good friends lost her beloved dog to cancer late last year and yesterday her cat got ran over by a car, she found him dead in the street. 😥 He was a wonderful cat with an amazing personality and he was only 12. Why did this happen? When I talked to her earlier today she just felt numb. And she mentioned something about that maybe everything happens for a reason. I said that I don't believe in that saying for the most part. That is something us humans tell ourselves to justify a situation when things go bad or to make life seem easier when we fall on hard times. Because in between the laughter and the good times there will be sadness and hard times. I don't know if I am cut out for the hard times. I am a very sensitive person, I get upset and feel pain in my heart when innocent beings suffer even if I don't know them. And I know that my time to feel loss, pain, heartache and sorrow will come one day. It's inevitable. It will happen to most of us. Unless you die before you get to experience it . If you have a family or people and pets that you love you will experience loss and sadness. And I don't want to ever have to face that, I don't know if I will be able to deal with that and I am scared. Sometimes I think that I'd rather die than have to go on living without my Mom or Chhaya. I see no reason behind that my friends cat got ran over yesterday besides that somebody drove on him. No higher reason.
There is no higher reason when children get abused or molested besides that an evil person got a hold of them. To me there is no higher reason for accidents, sickness and misery. I don't look at it that way. I think you can learn from life and cherish life without having to go through traumatizing events. IF there is a reason for all the sadness and misery, I hope that the reason is that we will all go to some place after we die where there is no pain, no tears, nothing bad, where we will be reunited with the people and animals that we were close to in this reality.
There are reasons for the obvious things. You get a speeding ticket because you were speeding and got caught. Your significant other leaves you because you cheated and got caught. You arrive late to an important event because you didn't wake up in time or didn't leave in time. You can't pay your bills because you spent all your money on meth. Your house is filthy because you don't clean it. A lot of times you are responsible for the reason things turn out a certain way. Not always though. There are obvious reasons for many things. But I don't see the higher reason for a lot of the stuff that we are faced with every day.




May

May is here......there is still snow on the ground in many places in Alaska. April was one of the coldest April's (here) recorded supposedly. But the snow will melt soon and everything will get green and pretty. Here is the first sunset of May 2013, the sun setting behind the Kenai river. In a few months people will come here from all over to fish for salmon in this famous river.



Wednesday, May 1. 2013

Tampon Fund





Tati's Tampon Fund is up and running! I got some stickers and put it all together last night at work. All the donations will go to a women's and kids shelter, victims of domestic abuse and sexual assault, LeeShore Center in Kenai. I have never been there. I usually beat my men and they have to go to a shelter for abused men. Yea, I am mean like that. ;-)
So I hope to be able to scramble together something for this fund. Something is better than nothing. Besides that I am at work right now and it is totally lame so far, what a waste of my DiorShow mascara! Well, not completely a waste of time I take that back......I managed to collect $ 19 for Tati's Tampon Fund! A good start I have to say.
It is 1 28 am and I am getting dressed and driving home.







Creepy

The other day when I was getting some groceries I saw this man in the store together with a woman that I assume was his wife or girlfriend. He comes into my work once in a while. Actually I do remember now that he told me he is married. Anyhow, when I saw him in the store I just walked by, I don't think he saw me. The thing with him is that every time he comes in he stares at me like Urkin the town rapist. I don't like that. Creepy. And to top things off, he has asked me three times how much. You know, for sex. Really? He even offered to give me $ 500 for it. Of course I jumped at the opportunity to make a fortune like that! NOT! What do I look like, a village dweller from Kazakhstan? After telling him a firm but polite no twice, the third time he had the nerve to to bargain and plead his case with me I told him to shut his trap. One more time and I will have him kicked out and banned from coming back. 500? Really? I have said it before, IF I was going to sell my VAGINE (pronounced vazhïn Borat style) it would not be in some dusty little town with limited potential for that kind of business.
And definitely not for a meager 500. If you are going to do that you need to be savvy and charge high. Because it is possible. Therefore I do not understand why young pretty girls do porn. They don't even make that much. A few hundred for some sloppy gross bj that involves body fluids (romance explosion) and around $ 1500 for a forever traumatizing dp. Why do it for cheap in porn when you can freelance or work in a brothel and make at least the same or more and use condoms so you don't get herpes or something else? If you are going to have sex with random people for money anyways. I am not into sex with random people and not into selling my VAGINE.
Never felt the slightest temptation. Not my cup of tea.