Welcome to Chaos !!

One of my readers recommended a book for me Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. How do you better spend a chilly, windy evening than curled up with a good book? I am excited to dig into this book, thank you Bella! 🙂



When you are reading a book that captivates you, all you want to do (well at least I feel this way.....) is be at home reading. Some people don't read that much, I always read something.
One of my fave things to do.
Yesterday I was very upset because I have a Mama moose and two twin calves that come through my yard. Well, one of the babies has a bad back leg, I think it might be broken, because the baby does not put any weight on it. The leg just hangs there and that calf is thinner than it's sibling.
It is SO difficult to watch the baby limp around. I was crying last night because I really want this baby to survive. I called Fish and Game and the person I talked to said they could come out and kill the baby. NO WAY! But then they said if it's still eating it might, MIGHT, still make it. And the baby is eating and drinking, I have been watching it. So then I called the Alaska Wildlife Conservation Center in Girdwood that takes in animals from across the state. And they told me that they would only take in the baby if Fish and Game brings it in. I searched online and found another number to call, for some department within Fish and Game that actually saves injured or abandoned moose calves. Nobody answered, so I left a message. I don't want this cute baby moose to die! What should I do?
Here they are. It's the baby closest to the camera that has the bad leg. It's the leg the baby is not resting on the ground. The other baby calf is laying down.

So.....Tatiana is going to South Dakota for work next month and to Vegas for fun and massages by Cathy. She just booked all the tickets and the rental car in South Dakota today. Tatiana is going back to a very small town in the middle of nowhere.......she was there last year, it's a crazy circus at that club but Tatiana is going anyways. $$$! Right now Tatiana has slight anxiety and butterflies due to this, she does not like the time leading up to any longer trips. At this point she is not looking forward to this at all, it feels like a chore and the anxiety is stemming from the fact that Tatiana has to be away from Chhaya for weeks. Even though Chhaya will be in very good hands......but STILL. Once Tatiana is at the location she will feel much better and be in work mode. And you will be able to read all about it when Tatiana is there.
And in Vegas time will fly by as always, friends, shopping etc. A girlfriend from Sweden will be there at the same time as Tatiana, that will be fun.
Tatiana already told her that they are going to at least one haunted house, one of Tatiana's fave things to do for Halloween!

I am in bed, it's only 10 30 PM and I could fall asleep right now. SO tired.
Recap of the week. I worked Tuesday - Saturday. Went running four times, aimed for five but didn't go yesterday. Had a vanilla latte every day. Of course! Work was......work. It was ok. I did meet a very nice person that is in town working as a surgeon. We talked a lot about his time in Nigeria when he was there with Doctors Without Borders. That is very impressive to me. He told me about a young girl that came in, (only 12 years old) she had been raped and was so badly injured that they had a difficult time stopping the bleeding. 😥
I recently read an article about women in Nigeria that drop off their newborns at the dump because they do not want them. Abortion is illegal in Nigeria. I am not sure how they feel about birth control. But if you are poor, I guess buying birth control might not be topping the list of things to get. Too bad that abortion is illegal in some places, I think an aborted fetus would be a much better solution than a newborn baby dying at the dump.
Sometimes people wonder if I go out around here. Well......NO. I have been to the few options available here to check them out, not really my cup of tea. I LOVE going out, with one good friend or a group of fun people to either a rave or a club with the kind of music I like. But if I am going to get ready and go anywhere where music is played around here and have guys hit on me.......I might as well go to work and get paid at the same time. And the most of my time off is spent at home, peaceful and quiet.
I dug up my potatoes today. My first crop ever! They are so pretty, red. Here's a pic of them.



I'm not going to put up bikini pics every day ok, so today you'll get my potatoes!
Also......got some sad news the other day about a friend. Put some stuff in perspective for me.......even if only for a while. Life is very fragile.
We can be here today and gone tomorrow. Some leave much too early.

At the first club I ever worked, the first friend I made was a girl from Somalia, her name was PJ. I think it is rather uncommon to meet a girl from an African country who is a dancer, there are plenty of black girls but I haven't encountered any others from Africa at any other club I've been at. Anyhow, PJ was great - friendly, sweet and very pretty. We became friends. She danced while going to dental school.
So I went to Planned Parenthood once for a check up and they gave me a pap smear.
Girls know what that is, I am not going to go into the details about it for the guys reading this. It's basically a screening for cervical cancer. It's important to check because early treatment is always better if you do have cancer.
So, the test results came back and a rep from Planned Parenthood called me, saying that my test result came back abnormal and that I needed to go to some clinic in LA for a possible biopsy. They were basically going to cut a piece of my insides out.
I almost fainted when I heard this. That's all I could think of....somebody cutting into me.
So I told this to PJ when I saw her at work, almost in tears, super nervous thinking that I now had cancer and that I was going to die.
Well, PJ told me not to worry. She told me how to clean my insides myself, with one finger. This had been passed on to her from her relatives, I'm guessing her Mom (?),
I can't remember all the details. She told me she would do this herself once a month
a few days after her period ended. She instructed me to clean myself like that the evening before my appointment and she said she could almost promise me that I would be fine.
So I did and went to my appointment. The doctor looked inside of me with some kind of magnifying glass, that is called colposcopy and said that everything looked fine and that I didn't need a biopsy.
A biopsy can be rather painful and bloody. Many girls and women get back abnormal pap smears results. It can actually be something serious or it can also be the result of a slight imbalance in the VAGINE the day the pap smear was done.
I was so happy and relived when I left that clinic, I really didn't want to have a biopsy, it sounded so scary to me.
So how do you perform this self administered cleaning? After you take a bath or shower, squat, relax, insert the longest finger you have (usually the middle finger) inside your VAGINE. I recommend that you do not have long nails. You will feel your cervix, smooth and egg shaped. Gently push the finger against your cervix and trace it from one end to the other, half circle.
Take the finger out. There might be some slimy stuff on your finger, discharge or mucousy stuff. I do this three to five times. Done! And I do this once a month about two to three days after the last day of my period. NO douching with vinegar water or perfumed water, NO spraying any perfumed VAGINE deodorants down there. Ever.
This "cleansing" technique works for me. It might not work for you. I am not a doctor, all I am doing is passing along what PJ taught me......
Happy cleaning!

Ooooooh, LOOK how cuuuuute!!!! I want this cardigan by Haute Hippe, I love it!



And this jacket by Burberry.......SO nice! Burberry Brit Toggle Parka it's called.



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So today started out fantastic with shining sun and blue skies, a picture perfect Fall day, that officially start tomorrow btw. Though I retired my flip flops about a week or so ago, it got too cold here for flip flops. 😥
If I was in Vegas I could still wear them, basically year round flip flop weather there.
I am packing a few pairs on my upcoming Vegas trip.
But now it's overcast out. Bleh. I just gorged myself on one apple fritter and a carrot cake covered with very sweet frosting, I think I overdid it actually. In a bit I am going to get a sandwich and head home. I need to squeeze in brushing Chhaya, mopping the floor, walking Chhaya and going for a run (fourth day in a row if I run today) before work tonight.
Here are some more pics.....I had 700 pics to go through from this shoot, I narrowed it down to about 160 that I liked and picked out a few from that, not an easy task!











Photographer Eye on Alaska. Location Stormy Lake.