Welcome to Chaos !!

Woke up feeling crappy and that developed into a pretty bad headache this afternoon, had to take a pill to get relief. Had one left, gave away more than half to girls and guys at work, yes I am a nurse too. Therapist also. I actually studied Introduction to Therapy 1 and 2, for two semesters at CSN in Vegas. You need some therapy from Tatiana?
Anyways, that headache made me feeling slight nauseous. So right now I am not sure if I am going to work tonight. I will try to make it in but cigarette smoke, loud noises, the potential of annoying people and feeling kind of sick is not a good combo. And no, I do not have a hangover, I don't drink at work. You don't drink at work either right? Well, neither do I.
Well, I have to go and check on Chhaya now, she is hanging out in the yard.

Tatiana is getting ready for another amazing night at work......well, hopefully it won't be boring at least. It's Friday already? Time flies by!
Before she knows it Tatiana will be 100 and look back at these years of getting ready for work with the fake lashes and lip glosses with fondness.
Well, no time to get pensive......Tatiana has to glue on her lashes and go. Her fans are waiting!

I put my moody PMS aside and took my lazy self to work, got home a while ago - having tea now. If I stay home and inactive for like three days or more I get extremely bored and my ass grows, not a good thing. Anyways, I feel much better after a night at work, did ok for how slow it was.
Even played one of my newly downloaded songs, I love it, it's called Freak You by Backburner.
The stars were out tonight, lighting up the whole sky like a bright explosion. Actually last week I think I saw a hint of the northern lights, I pulled over twice and got out of the car to get a better look. The sky had an eerie green hint to it - whatever it was, it was nice.
Today is National Waffle Day, we make the best waffles in Sweden, thinking about them makes my mouth water. The best, with fresh whipped cream and berries. YUM!
But it's sleepy time for me now......

I must be having PMS because everything feels like a chore and I am very emotional, moody and also SOOOO bored. Ugly weather today so I am happy that I soaked up the sun the last two days.
Even had a 20 second sudden crying spell last night because I was feeling sad and lonely. I don't think that I have any REAL friends here and I miss the ones that I do have but they are all far away. Friendship is a two way street and I do not get the communication through texting only and not putting in any effort for the friendship. It's like a plant - needs water to thrive. I don't like fake and phony people and it's difficult to make a quality friend.
But I am feeling a little better today, I have to do something FUN soon though, if there is anything even remotely fun here where I live that doesn't involve fishing, hunting and boozing. Or getting high with random people. Not my cup of tea.
I wish I lived closer to Chena hot springs.
Now I am going to try to upload some new songs on my iPod, getting tired of the ones I have. Plus all of a sudden some of the other girls at work like the Rihanna songs I play too, how typical (I say that with utter sarcasm) so they can play them all they want, I am getting something new, that nobody else plays.

So one of the reason I got those two blankets the other day, for using at work, is this post that I read at a for dancers only site.

"I work here in Des Moines. & wouldn't recommend it to anyone honestly. The club I work at most of the time..
Has no schedule. So you end up with 20-almost 30 girl a night now bc the manager lets about anyone work. No cameras in the VIP room..so the ones following the rules arent going home with a whole lot it seems. And last month a girl got fired bc she never told management about having HERPES! "

I mean, I have though about it before, hence the towel I always sit on. But after hearing about some "dancers" at work and what they do and after seeing some stuff myself, I decided it is better to be safe than sorry.

I LOVE sleeping outside in the sun. Just spent two hours on the porch with Chhaya, drifting in and out of sleep, sunbathing with only a large hat covering my face. It felt so good, one of life's simple pleasures. I need a hammock. But now my stomach is telling me it's time for some food, so I am going to get my latte and a scone and then I am coming back home again.
Another beautiful day here.......