Welcome to Chaos !!

What a dreary day! Woke up to gray and cold weather. I feel totally unmotivated and dreary too. Don't want to do anything.
Sooooo, with that said, I am going to lay around and feel bored for a while. Until I get hungry.
Might work tonight to break up the monotony.

Tatiana is a night owl. It's 2 17 and Tatiana just scarfed down two sandwiches. Feeling a little bored but far from tired.
Chhaya on the other hand is sleeping and looking really cute too.
Tatiana might try to sleep soon. There is not much to watch on tv. Sad stuff, some woman found dead after getting taken from her car, while her little child was still in it. Really?! And what is this footage of Obama talking to Medvedev, thinking he is off mike, making that remark?
But there is most likely an "explanation" to that already. Not that Tatiana is that impressed with the other candidates in the race for the presidency.
It's all some big game.
Anyways, since Tatiana knows that you all love to scrutinize pics of her, here is one. You like?

Good Night!

Sometimes there is not enough hours in a day, therefore Tatiana thinks things should be changed so we have 30 hours in a day instead of 24.
30 hours would allow you to get so much more done, quality of life would improve.
Just imagine.....at least 9 hours for sleep, you know.....beauty sleep.....then one hour to lay around in bed to slowly wake up, stretch and think, maybe read. It is nice to wake up slowly.
Two hours for getting ready to leave the house, like shower, pick out some clothes, eat, watch tv or read, stop for a latte. Then it would be time for an eight hour work session. What does this add up to......ok, we are at 20 hours now......then we have 10 hours left to spend with family, friends, cooking, cleaning, chores, outside or at the gym, time to do something creative, fun......live your life!
See, Tatiana got it all figured out. Sure there is probably some logical (?) explanation to why there is 24 hours in a day cycle. Tatiana is not familiar with the details exactly. Just like 1 plus 1 equals 2. It's logical, or is it.......somebody a long time ago said it was so and it just is.
Tatiana remembers struggling with the "logic" of 1 times 0 being 0. She just could not, as a 7 year old, understand why this was supposed to equal 0 and not 1. But then, math was never her strong subject in school.

So just these last couple of months, between working in Alaska and North Dakota, I heard anything from that I look to be about 22 to 48!
That's a wide range, I must be a great actress, where is my Oscar? LOL! Last night at work there were two guys that said they thought was 48, but at the same time they both thought that I was hands down the prettiest girl (well, at 48 I would be more like a mature lady) in there. One of them kept on talking about how good looking he thought I was to everyone around him. He must have had a thing for older women.
So yea, people really do perceive things differently.
Recently I also heard that I am a Victoria's Secret commercial come alive. And somebody also said that when they see my butt they just want to spend all their money. LOL. Besides the regular "oh, you are so pretty/beautiful" etc. And then I had the guy that blurted out "You are 35 on a good day, huh?", while I was on stage. It goes in one ear and out the other.
Now, don't get me wrong, I don't frown at compliments. But I don't obsess over getting them or not getting them.
Of course I'd rather look closer to 22 than 48, I am neither btw......lol......but I can't control how people see me.
IF I was 48, I would probably be selling my secret to aging so gracefully to the tabloids right now. Or have my own skin care line.
I understand that guys will tell the girls in the clubs I work at the same compliments, or should I say lines, sometimes. That's why I don't pay too much attention to compliments. Of course some people are very sincere when they tell me something nice about the way I look and that's lovely.
But I also know the difference between compliments and true love. Somebody that is there for me when I feel bloated and have full on angry PMS episodes. Or pick my nose. Or look tired. When I wear some ugly sweats and a t shirt. Act cranky. All that good stuff.
But I guess I don't look that old and worn since there are all kinds of photographers that want to work with me when I go to ........ next month.
Good photographers too. I have already booked a few shoots, going to schedule a few more.
But hey, it's late, I need to get my beauty sleep so I can continue to look like a 22 year old.

DA NANG!

Stopped and got a latte before work. And brought these cupcakes with me, for my girls at work, they ended up being really yummy, I am referring to the cupcakes.
Now I am at home, laying in bed with my puppy. Sipping on a cup of Earl Grey with lemon and sugar.
I played Libex & LRM "Liftered" tonight. That track is so good, OMG, when I hear it I just want to be transported away to some rave somewhere, so I can go crazy in close proximity to a huge speaker and have some serious bass pumping through my body. If it was me that had produced that track, I would had been really proud of myself, I love it. You can find it on YouTube if you want to know what kind of music makes Tatiana weak and happy. Play it LOUD! Now that I am finally using my iPod I can get all kinds of evil sounding techno and house.
So I can scare people at work. I don't come across too many that share my taste in music here. LOL.
I should probably sleep soon, it's almost 5 30 in the morning.