Welcome to Chaos !!

Tatiana loves HOUSE music, techno, progressive house and different genres of Electronic Dance Music.
It might be "trendy" now, but Tatiana loved it when it wasn't trendy for the masses. A large rave would still draw 40-70 000 people.
So much fun!!!

The last few days Tatiana has been feeling really down, more so than regular PMS, though it's been PMS too. On top of the SAD.
She thinks that she has SAD, meaning seasonal affective disorder, also known as winter depression,
or winter blues. She has some of the symptoms.
You know - sleeping a lot, acting totally crazy and insane, ready for a 5150 intake.
Anyways, she decided to face the SAD with longer everyday walks and more work.
Went to work tonight, well technically last night because it's a little after 2 in the morning now.
It was great!
Nobody came in. LOL. So Tatiana entertained herself with taking self portraits. No better entertainment than that when you are bored.
So here is Tatiana with her lastest MAC lipstick, it's called SNOB. Tatiana loves the name.
Though 0 money at work, Tatiana feels good. And looks even better. Maybe SAD was only making a quick appearance?
Tatiana sure hopes so.




Some late night thoughts.....why did Beyonce need a C-section? She looks like a well developed woman in her hip area. What is up
with the trend for more and more C-sections? Women don't want to push out the baby the regular old fashioned way anymore?
Maybe they are worried that they are going to get a loose and saggy VAGINE or something?
Anyhow......Tatiana is annoyed with the rise in C-sections. It seems weird, like women are getting it for the man in their life,
or future man they hope to snag. That is lame.
And some are scheduling the delivery date, so it fits in their schedule. Lame too.

Also, before going to work Tatiana watched "The Bachelor". All those, mostly pathetic, women fighting over some guy named Ben.
Sure, maybe one or two of them really do feel that Ben is made to be the man in their life.
Tatiana understands, she has cruches too. HELLLOOOO CHESTER!!!!! Where are you already?
But do mostly all of them really need to make total fools of themselves? Tatiana just wants to slap them hard.
It's good that he got rid of that psycho Jenna. Her occupation btw besides alcoholic and crying psycho? She is a "blogger".
Is that how she makes a living? Tatiana got curious of course and looked up her blog.
If you are curious too, it's not much to talk about.
But what a nutcase! Unlucky guy that ends up with her.
If she gets a guy after this. Eeeeh......maybe not?
If you really have to be on a lame show like this, you need to be the cool chick, whether you end up with the guy or not is irrelevant,
what matters is your integrity. Hello bitches, wake up!!!

Earlier today while out doing errands Tatiana saw this man, with his sign, protesting against Wall Street.
Alone. Just him. Wow.....Tatiana was impressed!
It is one thing to be protest with a bunch of others and a whole different thing to do it alone.
What a mensch!
Have to add that it's cold out. Tatiana is not exactly sure how cold it was today, below 0 for sure.
And today when Tatiana took Chhaya for a walk her fingers got soooooo frozen that she had to run back to the car, close to tears cause it hurt
so bad. It took forever for her fingers to thaw up and feel normal.
So for him to be out there in the cold, standing up for his beliefs.....that's something.
Tatiana gave him a thumbs up, a smile and a nod - she hopes he saw it.

It's only 9 30 pm here and Tatiana is already in bed, feeling lethargic and fat. It's called PMS.
There is no reason to be tired but Tatiana could probabably fall asleep instantly. Feeling borderline exhausted.
What she needs is a walk outside, preferably in bright sunshine and a few gym visits with lots of cardio and sweating.
There hasn't been any cardio since she left SD in November (some runs in the park). And it was ages ago since the last time Tatiana went
to the gym. She feels like BLLLLLLEEEEEEEEH. Didn't even want to look at herself in the mirror after her evening shower. Instead she pulled on
her jammies really quick. Tomorrow is a new day, need to make the best of it. Gym this weekend maybe?

When I got back a little while ago with my coffee I caught a glimse of Angelina Jolie on Anderson promoting her new movie that she wrote and
directed, "In The Land Of Blood And Honey".
I've said it before.....that woman is gorgeous , she does not need any photoshop. She looks just as beautiful on tv as she does
in a magazine. She does not have any bad angles.
So I have quite a few friends from former Yugoslavia in Sweden and I remeber the Yugoslav War, though it didn't affect me personally
(besides that I sat through some heated discussions) but more so my friends.
I was even engaged (!) to a Serb, Alex. So I was around people from that part of the world a lot.
Me and Alex broke up, it was young puppy love, we wanted to prove our love for everybody, therefore the engagement. We never set
a wedding date. But it was fun,cute and crazy while it lasted.
I spent lots of time with girls from former Yugoslavia, I think I have most regions covered, Macedonia, Croatia, Serbia, Slovenia. I even went
to a few Macedonian parties and learned how to dance their folk dances. Biiiiiitolaaaaa........!

On Anderson today they talked about Women For Women, an organization helping women survivors of war to rebuild their lives.
I think it's a great thing to do, you can sponsor a woman and communicate with her regarding her progress and life. I might do that.
I realize how fortunate I am to sit here in a warm house, with my choice of what I want to eat everyday. In peace and quiet.
And for that I am grateful.

www.womenforwomen.org