Welcome to Chaos !!

sapphire was dead tonite even though it was the last day of NFR

Julia's been thinking of starting a support group for people are victims of meaningless drama.

who needs the details? it's maybe like reading someone else's diary....they wont know you ever did it, but what would happen if you found a resaon to be mad about? your significant other cheated on you? do you wish you never kept reading?

sometimes there is no going back, and the past can hurt people in ways that aren't forgotten.

everyone has their story to tell , and Julia is no stranger to being lied to or manipulated.

do we feel bad for people going through bad times? a little bit, but not too much because it's not that rare.

suffering is normal, part of living.


(Written by Julia).

On a happier note, Julia went to a concert at the Joint in the Hard Rock on Tuesday night!

The band was ' Angels and Airwaves'. If you remember Blink 182, Angels and Airwaves is the lead singer Tom (from Blink) 's new band.

Julia went with her friends Darrin and Tessa from San Diego, and it was super fun.

Everyone agreed that the sound quality was awful, and the band should def travel with a much better sound tech.

Aside from that, it was a good show. If you are or were a fan of Blink 182 , Julia thinks you would enjoy Angels and Airwaves.

After the show, Julia, Darrin, and Tessa ventured down to the New York bar ( a small local bar near paradise and flamingo) for some food and fun.

The New York bar has a pizza place attached where you can get italian food sometimes, and no one ever knows when they will be open.

Spaghetti and meatballs were had by all, and Julia and Tessa played some old 90's songs on the jukebox that annoyed most of the patrons.

Staind (it's been awhile), Blink 182, Radiohead, etc.

Tessa and Darrin had to leave, but they will return in a few weeks. Darrin is in a really good band called Sic Waiting, and they will be doing a show at the Double Down soon.



**Tool is also playing here in Vegas, two nights in a row and they are both sold out. Tool is a great band, and Julia was lucky enough to have seen them do a show up in Reno a few years ago. Too bad she has to work tonight, because Tool sounds much more interesting.***


Who knows? Perhaps Tool will be bored after their show and decide they want to check out Sapphire......

(Written by Julia).

it's cold in vegas as well. julia has been seraching through her closet, digging out clothes from the denver trip last year.

last night was the 5 year anniversary party at Sapphire in Las Vegas and Jenny McCarthy was hosting it.

there were also some blonde triplets playing some violins or other instruments and they put on a little show on stage.

many people, many couples, many locals, and julia thought it was pretty boring.

(Written by Julia).

It is snowing today. The whole sky is full with snow, it is grey and very pretty. The snow is heavy and wet. Tatiana is feeling Christmas-y. She is listening to Christmas songs on the radio and thinking about the tree she will decorate when she gets back to Vegas. She misses Chhaya...... Next time she comes here she is bringing Chhaya.
Tomorrow she is planning a visit to the Alaska Wildlife Conservation Center if the weather permits. And the day after she is going to take a drive somewhere, to see some sights.
Bye for now!

So I got the new People magazine because Jennifer Lowe Hewitt is "furious" that she is being called fat after some recent pics of her in a bikini have been shown.
She says that the pictures are showing her from a "bad angle" and that she is a size 2 and not fat. She also says that women should put on their bikinis and be proud. THAT I agree with.
Women shouldn't put too much attention to the way media pressures them into looking. Just be comfortable with what you are I guess, if you are happy. If you are happy chunky, fat, skinny, whatever you are, then that's great. Women shouldn't live only to make men happy.
What I don't agree with is that Jennifer Lowe Hewitt obviously is not a size 2. I know about bad angles in pictures, they can be very unflattering but that is not a size 2 honey. That is a big ass! She is just not the airbrushed, made up and make up plastered looking and put in the right angle in front of the camera girl, that she wants us to see her as. Jennifer does not look like her Maxim cover on a day to day basis. Not a lot of people do. Certainly not her.
Same with Tyra Banks a few months ago. Unflattering pic. She looked big. Only a plus size modeling agency would maybe consider hiring that if she was an unknown name. She freaked out, probably went on a crash course diet, colonics etc (but secretly) before she stepped out again in the same bathing suit to show all of us that she really isn't fat. Hallelujah!
No, lot of celebs do not look like their covers. It takes work and airbrushing to look like that. But they want us to think that they really are that "beautiful" all the time. Right.
So kudos to Britney. That girl is real, she will step out, zits all over, hair extensions falling out, muffin top bulging and just be who she is. You just got to love her. I do. Hugs to Britney!
And Christina Aguliera talked shit when Britney climbed out of a limo a few times sans panties and then she goes and does the same thing but while 8 months pregnant! Maybe she had a sweaty coochie that day? What a hypocrite...... She needs to go easy on that war paint she is never seen without. Looks like a drag queen, clubbing on a Saturday night.
You know where you can see real girls? In the strip club. Not the ones squeezed into corsets, usually they are trying to hide something. Look for the ones in a small bikini. Then watch them on stage. You can't hide. There are good days and bad ones. Sometimes I feel great and sometimes not so much. But I still go on stage the way I am. And usually I am happy.
~ XOXO Miss T ~



Photo by Barry Gallegos.

Tatiana is at Kinko's, she has to go to work in a little bit but here's a description of the club so far.
Alaskan Bush Company reminds her of a mix of an old Western saloon and a bordello look wise. The building is rather large and made if wood, rustic.
There's one stage and no pole. The womenfolk quarters are upstairs, meaning the dressing rooms. You gracefully clomp down some wooden stairs to get down on the main floor. Tatiana has been going on stage between 3-6 times a night. Second song is nude. YEAY! Tatiana has not shaved down there for about three months now, she is proudly putting her long haired grizzly on display, the guys here just LOVE it!!! Stage has been lots of fun actually. Here people pay attention and appreciate the girls. Very nice.
She has been playing Kid Rock So Hott - it is a great strip club song and in Tatiana's head, he wrote it just for her. Ha Ha. (You got a body like the devil and you smell like sex I can tell you're trouble but I'm still obsessed).
Some girls are truly talented performers and put on some rather impressive and fun acts. People here have been very friendly. Tatiana has been staying rather busy,
guys actually ask for dances and the overall atmosphere is great. Ok, time to go......
Btw......you did not really believe that Tatiana sports a grizzly down there? I guess you will have to pay her a visit at the famous Alaskan Bush Company to find out!