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4th Of July

For 4th of July I went to Trillium lake and Mount Hood. I needed some nature. It was a gorgeous day and a full moon the night between the 4th and 5th as well. Mount Hood is an active volcano about a two hour drive from Portland, there is a historic lodge up there called Timberline Lodge. Well worth a visit if you are ever in the area. I watched the sun set and the moon rise.

That's Trillium lake in the background.

I really like this dragon door knocker.

Masks in public places are enforced in Oregon now.

I also went to downtown Portland last night and got all the fireworks I needed for the 4th. It sounded like bombs were going off although it was mortars randomly thrown around by "protesters", I am not sure what to call them anymore. That is not protesting, it is straight up disorder. There was a riot down there, quite intense.

Glad Midsommar

Glad Midsommar or Happy Midsummer. This weekend is midsummer weekend in Sweden and that means celebration and old traditions like dancing around the Maypole. I was lucky to find a Swedish Maypole in Portland, much shorter than the ones usually raised in Sweden but that is perfectly fine. I am happy I was able to see some traditions. I feel a bit melancholic because it is June 20 today and as we say in Sweden, "sommaren är kort" meaning the summer is short. One more summer in my life.....and the years go by too fast.

Back in the day people believed that gnomes lived amongst us humans, I still believe in all that stuff.

The distance between Portland and Stockholm. Perhaps I will spend next midsummer in Sweden.

Justice it was decided that Oregon's largest county, which is Multnomah county will stay closed for at least another week due to a spike in COVID-19 cases. Multnomah county was supposed to enter phase 1 today, most of Oregon's 36 counties are in phase 2 right now. The city of Portland is located in Multnomah county. And today Friday the protests/demonstrations in Portland are still going on, day/night 16 now. Of course I have been to downtown where the "action" takes place to see what is going on with my own eyes. I have been three times so far and I will most likely go again. I even got a whiff of teargas for the first time in my life (at least that I can remember).
The crowd was not as large the last time I went (a few days ago) compared to the first time but there are still a lot of people that gather.
I have mixed impressions. Most people protesting, participating in some way or just being there in person to watch are very friendly. There is also a presence of the mentally ill, the crazy and obnoxious acting, the ones trying to start problems mixed in with the crowd trying to engage in a peaceful protest. Of course the ones that are not being peaceful are the ones that stand out and of course the police will respond if attacked, which I do not blame them for and then in the end the police gets blamed for any issues that stem from confrontations.
Let's take a look at some pictures.....the times I was there the crowd had gathered in front of the Multnomah Justice Center which holds four courtrooms and about 200-250 inmates.
I saw bottles thrown (both plastic bottles with water and glass bottles) towards the police that stood guard in front of the Justice Center. I saw lasers pointed at the police.

Here the police had retreated for a while and suddenly called the gathering an unlawful assembly and announced (via megaphone) that protesters were subject to arrest. Nobody left. Including myself. According to a few people that I talked to the police had shot a person in the forehead with a rubber bullet and after that they (the police) went either inside or behind the Justice Center. I did not see anybody injured by a rubber bullet or any other object while I was downtown. That doesn't mean it didn't happen.

Painted on the boards that are put up to protect the stores.

I like the Lady Justice.

And then much of downtown Portland is covered in this.....Now I know what ACAB, Fuck 12 and other things like 88 mean. I guess you are never too old to learn new stuff.

Some people are giving out free water and are trying to gather up trash. Some businesses are completely untouched and others got looted and damaged the first night of the protests, many places are boarded up.

I saw a fire in a dumpster one night.

I don't understand why people bring animals and children to events like these. It is a loud stressful situation that can escalate into something violent and scary within seconds. I think it is very irresponsible and foolish to subject a poor animal to this.

Random scribble that I suspect don't mean anything really, people are just caught up in the moment. No thought behind it....more like, others do it so I will too.

Part of the protest reminded me of the raves I used to go to back in the day, similar friendly vibe except no music and dancing. But then there were other destructive aspects of the crowd that were very un rave like.
Here is what I think. I feel bad for the police, I saw them getting taunted and yelled at by people that perhaps one day will need the help and protection of the police. So I want to say THANK YOU to the police for being brave and helping people in need while often risking their own safety in the process.
I am against police brutality and I do think that there needs to be some sort of reform to get rid of the negative aspects in the police force but to defund and get rid of the police in today's American society and let people do what they want? I don't see that as a possibility. Regular society is not like Burning Man where the majority of people get along and help each other. Regular society are places like Chicago and Detroit and burglaries, rapes, child molesters, murders, abductions, violence - you name it. I am not an innocent angel and I have never pretended to be either, I am guilty of crimes as well but nothing that comes close to a serious felony.
I will watch how CHAZ is going to unfold, CHAZ or Capitol Hill Autonomous Zone that covers six blocks or so in Seattle since a few days now. I kind of want to take a trip there to see it for myself. Right away I thought about Freetown Christiania located in København (Copenhagen) Denmark when I heard of CHAZ. Christiania was created in 1971 and it still exists. But Denmark and the US are two very different countries.
George Floyd's GoFundMe has amassed a large amount of money (over thirteen million dollars). To achieve real justice in my eyes some of the money should go towards David Dorn's family, as well as to the other people's families that had somebody die because of the protests in George Floyd's name and to the injured like Shay Mikalonis. The money should go to the business owners that got their places looted and destroyed and the money should go towards cleaning up and restoring all the destruction of public property. Also let's not forget the woman that George Floyd threatened and burglarized years ago, she too should get some for her pain, suffering and the trauma the he caused her. THAT would be justice. Floyd was a 46 year old father of five (supposedly) that was trying to turn his life around (supposedly). I am sure he was a nice man to the people that knew him but I do not think a responsible father should have meth and fentanyl in his system. Clearly he did absolutely not deserve to die the way he did. And I think that most people agree with that what happened was wrong. But I do not think that he is some sort of a hero. Who is protesting for and speaking up on David Dorn's behalf? Where are the large gatherings of outraged people shouting his name? He surely did not deserve to be shot and killed so that somebody (a 24 year old black guy) could loot a shop. What kind of a life did David Dorn live before he was shot dead at age 77? He left behind a wife, five children, 10 grandchildren and decades of service for the St.Louis Metropolitan Police Department.
Although many of the people that I encountered downtown Portland were friendly, I also saw things that made me feel sad and got me thinking that hell is here on earth. Human beings are so messed up. We are the real virus that will kill everything eventually. I feel that the situation on this planet as a whole, all the ongoing problems and suffering that go on all over the world, much of it is beyond repair.
I will try to do my part in what I believe in and I do believe in trying to make the world a better place, I do believe in helping others when I can and caring for animals and the environment but some people don't care about anything besides themselves.
In the end we are all humans sharing the planet together and the more we can all somehow try to coexist the better off we will be. It makes perfect sense and it sounds easy but it sure is difficult to put into practice.

First Order

Today I got my first order of food in 3 1/2 months....I've had some lattes but no food until now.. And it was DELICIOUS! Thai food, one my my faves. To make it even more special my order was $11 which is my favorite number and when I walked in to the restaurant The Final Countdown by Europe was playing and they are from Sweden. Food makes me HAPPY.

Last night I had some interesting moments downtown Portland.....more on that later. It has been a gorgeous day here so far and I am about to go outside and enjoy my evening.

One Day In Portland

Here is how I spent one day in Portland....and it was the last day of May 2020 which was yesterday. The country is currently reeling from the COVID-19 and now there are curfews all over due to protests getting completely out of hand.
I started out at Peninsula Park....a BEAUTIFUL place. See for yourself.

Doesn't the cloud in this picture look like an angel?

The park was quiet and peaceful. Many people were out. There were signs of the current situation.

In another park.

Then I made it over to downtown Portland where things looked different. Store windows were being boarded up after looting and destruction from the night before. Random words spray painted all over.
I saw this man and his son/grandson (?) holding up American flags. Notice that the flags are upside down. The man also had a dog on a leash and if you zoom you might be able to see that he had a green parrot sitting on his left shoulder. The boy looked uncomfortable for the time I was observing the scene, which was around five minutes.
In my opinion you leave children out of situations like these. Let children be children and form their own opinions and decide later in life what protests they want to attend when older and more mature. I saw a picture that is circulating the web of a little girl in Seattle crying with milk running down her face because she and others around her supposedly got maced by a police officer. I blame the parent/guardian. Why would you bring a child to an event that has a high risk of turning violent? It is irresponsible. Same goes with pets, leave them at home. I don't understand why people need to drag their dogs/cats and in some cases parrots around to potentially violent and stressful situations.

There was a protest scheduled to begin at 6 PM.

Some new "art" to express the feelings of some upset fellow humans.

I would like to see the ones responsible for that having to clean it off and pay out of their own pockets for the cleaning supplies.
I bet that the people looting, destroying and burning down stuff did not protest when they cashed in their $1200,00 stimulus checks when those arrived. So it's totally OK to receive money from the government but then turn around and destroy stuff because you are proving a point in somebody's name. And who will pay for all the destruction in the end? I suspect the people will pay the bill with taxes and higher prices on stuff and raised insurance premiums.
Well guess what, George Floyd's brother Terrence Floyd is condemning the violence and the destruction.
"Terrence Floyd took the bullhorn to condemn the looting and rioting that followed his brother’s death. He did not want fire and violence to obscure the deeper meaning that could be realized from his family’s tragedy. He wanted resolution, but one not marred by fury.
“I’m not over here blowing up stuff,” he said, impassioned. “What are y’all doing? You’re doing nothing. That’s not going to bring my brother back.”
Someone in the crowd shouted, “That’s not us.”
“Whoever’s doing it — relax,” Floyd said. He urged the crowd to respond to this latest case of police brutality in a constructive way.
“Educate yourself and know who you vote for. That’s how you’re going to get it. It’s a lot of us,” he said. “Do this peacefully.”

Yes! This is how things should be handled. I wonder if the people out there burning and looting in George Floyd's name are going to respect the words and wishes of his brother Terrence and stop, or will they make sure to grab a few more items while they can? I suspect the looters really don't care about George Flyod, they only care about themselves and what they can get.
I am against police brutality and all the other things that corrupt and crooked cops do. Plant drugs on people, lie.... the list is long and those crimes are horrible. Of course that should never take place and I feel bad for the people that have been subjected to such crimes. I could not even imagine the feeling.
Chauvin had been on the police force in Minneapolis for over 18 years and had 18 prior complaints. His partner, Tou Thao that will also get charged with the death of Floyd had six complaints filed, one of them an excessive force lawsuit which resulted in the city of Minneapolis having to pay damages to the innocent victim. Thao and the other officers involved in that situation should had been fired as a result of that.
Corruption happens in all sorts of places. Unfortunately in the government as well. Both major political parties have elected officials who are engaging in corruption and illegal activities.
This is an election year and many forces that might not be blatantly obvious are playing for power. It is sometimes the most quiet forces that are the most damaging.

Source for the Terrence Floyd quotes


There is a curfew in Portland tonight and other cities across the US as well.

I was tempted to go downtown and see the situation with my own eyes but in the end I decided against it.
My thoughts on riot, vandalism and looting? I say go ahead and arrest and charge everybody involved with destroying stuff and endangering the safety of others. NOTHING....again NOTHING good will come out of it. I agree with protesting for what's right and fair, I believe in standing up for yourself and others when you see injustice and I also believe that violence is justified in certain situations like self defense but I do not believe in what is happening on the streets now.
These people, or THUGS which is an appropriate term to describe them as said by president Trump are acting without logic. I would like for their own homes, businesses and vehicles to be set on fire and destroyed or perhaps their parents. Then there would be a different tune. Maybe that would be a fair burn down somebody's house, business or car then you will stand by and watch when whatever you have gets set on fire.
Portland has been scheduled to slowly open up after being shut down due to COVID-19, many have been without jobs and now add THIS to make things even more difficult. Yeah....
And speaking of the president....I got called a Trump supporter today for pointing out that making fun of his hair is immature. OK then. You are talking about the hair of a man in his 70s, like making fun of it? What the fuck does your own hair look like? Do you have a leg to stand on? If you do not agree with the president's policies then talk about that specific issue. Speak like an adult with some form of intelligence left in the brain.
I definitely do not agree with the current US president on a lot but I am not a political science major, I try to limit my discussions to topics that I have some knowledge about and before getting so angry that my temper boils over I try to fact check and read up on stuff before spewing out some "facts" that are far from the truth. I know that there is a lot that most of us are not even aware of that goes on in the world of politics. I do NOT envy the role of president or prime minister anywhere, seems extremely stressful and comes with enormous responsibilities. Trump supporter? Actually I would had given my vote, had I been allowed to vote, to Bernie Sanders. As far as who I would vote for between the two candidates running here in the US in 2020.....there are other parties besides the two major ones. I would put my vote on somebody else.

Empty Streets

Got Q-tips the other day, actually managed to survive without any for a few weeks before I caved in and got some. 500 Q-tips, let's see if something new/different/a change happens in my life when this box gets empty. Something good I hope! These things tend to happen when a box of Q-tips gets low or completely empty, strange perhaps but try it and see for yourself!

Look how cute....a little library. I have only seen this in Oregon but I am sure these are scattered throughout other states as well. Works on the honor system.

On the daily evening walk....empty streets (also the title of one of my favorite songs).

Now to food. I just discovered something incredibly delicious recently, cabbage steaks. I am it's cheap and easy. Just cut cabbage into slices, drizzle with olive oil, salt and pepper, I also chop up garlic then put the cabbage in the oven.

I also make my own pizza, well kind of. I buy the dough in the store and then I add the tomato sauce, Roma tomatoes, cheese and oregano. Then put the pizza in the oven. Perfect and yummy. And cheap.

Strawberry rhubarb pie, one of my favorites!

If I can cook, anybody can cook. Trust me on that one. I am impatient cause when I am hungry I just want to eat so I don't want to spend too long on making something and it does not have to look pretty on the plate. What for? It is just going to end up in my stomach anyways, all that matters is that it tastes good.
But now it is time for another obsession.....Gran Hotel. I am almost done watching the whole thing. I haven't been this enthralled with a series since Breaking Bad.

12 Photos Of Portland

Walking around a city for hours is both relaxing and interesting. One of the things that I like to do.
Here are 12 photos of Portland.
There are many beautiful old homes all over town.

Powell's main entrance.

And Powell's other entrance.

Pioneer Square.


My absence here is due to that I have been immersed in a Spanish series on Netflix called Gran Hotel (Grand Hotel in English). I have been watching for hours every night since last week. It has everything....drama, love, friendship, affairs, betrayal, enemies, hate, revenge. You name it! It all seems so.....familiar somehow but on a much smaller scale. Gran Hotel is subtitled which I love, hoping to pick up some (more) Spanish but they speak so fast that it is almost impossible and I have a knack for languages.
I took a nice long walk downtown Portland tonight and last night I strolled around in my area, close to Multnomah village. I saw these beautiful flowers or is it a plant? Not sure what to call it but it was quite majestic.

And this mural. Pretty!

But now it is time for the muy hermosa Alicia y Julio and the rest of the characters in Gran Hotel, I have been waiting all day to sit down to watch it and bite my nails. Ahhhhh.....revenge. You will ALL get what you so much deserve one of these days. I am sure you know exactly who and what I am referring to when you read these words.

Last Roll

Today I got craving for beer. Perhaps the spirit of Cinco de Mayo influenced me and by the way I do not celebrate this holiday. It usually means barbecue and booze, which is not me. I'm more latte and book (or laptop). But once in a while I do enjoy a cold beer. A chilled glass with lime and salt on the rim and fresh squeezed lime in the beer. YUM! And I got some doughnuts that I have been wanting to try for a while.

What else? I saw this downtown on my walk the other day. Rent strike. So in Portland and I am sure other places in other states as well, if you can't pay your rent (due to the current state of emergency) you can inform your landlord of it and either not pay or pay as much as you can without getting evicted. This order took effect April 1 and is in effect for 90 days, unless extended or terminated. You would still owe the unpaid rent and it would have to get paid back at some point, so you basically would owe the rent. That can add up fast and become a real burden.
It has also been suggested that rents and mortgages should be forgiven during the ongoing state of emergency. A lot of people live paycheck to paycheck. And rents in Portland and suburbs are high. It is not cheap to live here. It is not cheap to live anywhere PERIOD unless you live for free or got some other arrangement going. So I get it that people are worried and upset.
Now a rent strike is something different. I think it is more of a refusal to pay and I am not sure if that includes a plan to pay back or not. I suspect the latter.

I have been studying. I didn't for a while because that is just how I am. I get consumed or distracted with other things so easily and I tend to procrastinate. Why I don't know. But I am back on track again. Right now I am repeating the law portion.
Here are a few recent notebooks. One my Mom gave me, that one and the light blue one I will use when I am done with my studies and transition (hopefully) to something else. Then I got a dream diary. I decided a while back that I was going to write down my dreams, I had a vivid dream which inspired me get the dream diary. Well, I don't even recall that dream, did not write it down of course and the dream diary is still empty. I tend to recall my dreams right after I wake up, once I am up and start moving around and my mind goes elsewhere and I tend to forget what I dreamt about. A few years ago I had two incidents while sleeping, I woke up screaming loudly in terror both times. I was going through a very difficult time then and it affected me a lot. I developed anxiety and I would average maybe four hours of sleep per night. No more anxiety or bad dreams and I am back to my normal sleeping pattern.

I am down to my last roll of toilet paper! What to do? Should I start scooting my butt on the carpet or should I jump in the shower after each bathroom visit? I will need to go out there into the craziness and enter stores on a toilet paper mission, fighting others for the available rolls.
I have not hoarded anything during all of this. Those people that hoarded stuff, I think it is good that they can't return it. You wanted all that toilet paper, hand sanitizers and whatever else you decided to stock up on then you should get stuck with it. Have fun with your stuff. As far as turning around and making a profit on selling overpriced bottles of hand sanitizers, face masks and whatever else aka price gouging. I think that is morally wrong but hey....isn't that a form of capitalism? And capitalism is good right? At least in America. Make profit! Most of us think it is wrong to price gouge during a crisis, I feel it is wrong to price gouge on necessary goods period. Crisis or not. What about the extreme price gouging on medical attention and medications? When you need medication or hospital care, that is a personal crisis (usually because most people don't seek medical attention unless they need it) and the prices of such services and goods are extreme. To charge people exorbitant prices for medications and health care including health insurance should be illegal and that is morally wrong. Unethical. Quite disgusting the greed that is out there. I am with Bernie Sanders 100%, FREE healthcare for ALL. I like Bernie a lot. And how is it going to get financed, people that don't like Bernie often say. I don't know, again I do not get paid to sit and think about and try to work out solutions for the people. Had I been a politician on a payroll I would had worked hard to try to improve a lot. But if other countries can do it so can the US. I try improve what I can, for no pay at all.