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One year ago he passed away.....way too soon. I still think about him and can't believe he is gone or at least not here. Maybe he is somewhere else.....somewhere good I hope.



I'm blessed
I know
Heaven sent
And Heaven stole
You smiled at me
Like Jesus to a child

I am drying some laundry and playing tug with Chhaya (while writing this). She is always up for a game of tug or search.
Soon I am going to hop in the shower and then go and enjoy some glögg and pepparkakor (gingerbread cookies) with some friends. Just wanted to check in with you reading this blog and wish you all a Merry Christmas ❤ ❤ ❤

It is the night before Christmas and me and Chhaya just got back to a warm and cozy home.
I fed her dinner and soon I will take a bath. We were out all afternoon getting stuff done so we can just relax for a few days now.....
Well, all we have to do tomorrow is feed the animals in the park during our walk. Like the birds, squirrels and whatever other animals that might be around.
If you paid attention, many Christmas cards depict Santa Claus together with animals (besides Rudolph). To me Christmas is about giving and caring and I care for animals.
There is a cat in the park we go to.....when the cat and we (me and Chhaya) happen to be there at the same time the cat comes running towards us, tail high up. It knows I will pet it and feed it, I now have cat food with me in the car in case I run into this cat. Today was a cat meeting day.



We delivered food and toys to the Humane Society tree. This was my contribution this year.
I wish I could help all the animals.....but I can't. Maybe one day I will be able to do more.



And here is a picture of my baby.

Five years ago I wrote a blog entry about a girl in India that was brutally raped by several men, she was only 23 when she died from her injuries. I recall feeling sadness for what happened to her deep in my heart. There would be several more reports about other gang rapes in India after that. That incident and also reading a blog called White Indian House Wife made me decide that I can't go to India on my own as a tourist, probably ever. And I would love to see India, always been fascinated by that country. But my safety is my priority.
Three years ago I wrote about a rape gang in Afghanistan. Those men actually got sentenced to death by hanging.
Today.....it's 2017 and I am writing about rapes in Sweden. Right now there is an uproar in Sweden. Several men suspected of a gang rape were all found not guilty. They admitted to having sex with the woman but they said she was a willing participant, that it was a drug exchange. I have to say that the woman is a known drug user and changed her story a lot. That contributed to her credibility being diminished. The police did, according to the prosecutor in the case very shoddy police work. So there was not enough evidence to find the men guilty. And in court the law has to be followed, that is just how it is. And no matter how you look at it - that is ultimately a good thing. According to the victim there were up to maybe eight men involved in the rape but several more present watching and cheering on. I am not sure, reading about the case online I gathered different information. But at least three men had sex with her from what I understand. I do not think it is likely that a woman would agree to random sex with several unknown men in public, a high-rise stairwell. We are talking about real life here now, NOT the fantasy world of porn. But it is her word against theirs. And they are walking free. The ones that were briefly incarcerated for this incident might ask for monetary damages. Also, monsters like these have figured out that you can gang rape a woman and then blame each other.....to complicate the case even more. Then demand monetary damages. It is truly sickening.
Another rape and this for sure is a rape, happened in Malmö Sweden a few days ago. A 17 year old girl was gang raped and supposedly her vagina was set on fire. The rapists fled and are roaming free. Meaning they can do this again and they probably will. This was the third gang rape in Malmö since last month. Third gang rape in one Swedish town is a short time span. I am waiting for the outcomes of these rapes if ever solved.
When I was 17, living in Stockholm Sweden I was out EVERY weekend. I would come home late night early morning sometime......sure I was aware of the possibilities of danger but I was not scared to go out. Was I perhaps young and naive? Now women are being warned against being out alone in Sweden. What the fuck changed?
I will tell you what changed. Immigration. I am far from a racist, I am a realist. Growing up I was an immigrant kid in Sweden. My friends were a mix of Swedes and first and second generation immigrants. I still keep in touch with my friends, they are from former Yugoslavia, Morocco, Syria, Lebanon, Turkey. My two most significant boyfriends when I lived in Sweden were Fadi and Alex. Fadi lived in Märsta and was an Armenian from Lebanon. Alex was Swedish born but his parents were from Serbia and he lived in Fittja (where one of these recent rapes happened), so I was in Fittja a lot. It's an immigrant heavy suburb of Stockholm.
I didn't worry when walking to or from the subway to the high-rise my boyfriend lived in.
So do NOT call me a racist. My political views have changed some since I was a teen living in Sweden because society has changed.....the problems in Sweden now are not the same as they were then. Sure there were rapes in Sweden back then. Yes Swedish men rape women too but now there is an influx of rapes and also brutal gang rapes and the perpetrators are often immigrants or the offspring of immigrants. Dare I say in the majority of the gang rapes without having statistics as clear evidence on hand? Many people in Sweden tiptoe around speaking up about immigration in any way that can be perceived as negative.....being labeled a racist is very shameful. Sweden is a very politically correct place. But I bet if you or a family member or a friend gets subjected to a violent crime any political correctness will fly out the door.
Well, there is an election in Sweden next year. My vote goes to the Sweden Democrats (abbreviated SD) and had I been voting in France earlier this year my vote would had went to Marine Le Pen. Still not a racist.
Some cultures view women as second class citizens, as property and having no rights.
Those cultures do not have room in Western society. Sweden should not have to readjust to accommodate immigrants, the immigrants should accommodate to their new country. If they don't want to they have no room being there. Radical Islam does not belong in Europe. Neither does FGM and halal slaughter. As far as animals go and what I think about killing them for our consumption....well I am a vegetarian and against it in general. Forcing women to cover up does not belong in Europe. Forcing women and young girls to get married against their will does not belong in Europe. Honor killings do not belong in Europe either.
I can bring up the New Year's Eve sexual assaults in Cologne Germany that happened a few years ago, almost all of the men were non German asylum seekers or illegal immigrants.
How about the attacks on the female reporters in Egypt's Tahrir Square? One of the women (Lara Logan) estimated that the attack on her involved 200-300 men. I cannot even imagine being subjected to that kind of horror.
Like I said.....some cultures think that women are some thing that you can treat however you want. A thing that is yours to use and abuse. That mentality does not belong in Europe. Really....that kind of view doesn't belong anywhere but I am not trying to go and impose my beliefs in those societies because I want to live.

Some of my daily stuff that I will share with you.....
No meat for me. I love this ready to eat tomato and mozzarella cheese salad and quinoa and cauliflower mix from Trader Joe's. Delicious! I have also been brewing myself a pot of Earl Grey tea every day, I drink it with sugar and lemon.



Have you ever had a Cronut? It's a mix of a croissant and a donut. SO YUMMY.



I am very happy with my new pillowcases by slip. Pure silk. Feels very smooth and cool when I lay my head down to sleep at night.

Well I left Vegas one week ago now and I don't know when I am going back, no time soon I think but with me you never know. Here are some more pics from this last visit....
Las Vegas cold brew.



#VegasStrong Britney style. If you are thinking about seeing Britney's show at Planet Hollywood - stop thinking and get your thumb out of your ass, only a few dates left!
Britney decided that 2017 is going to be her last year (for now). I saw Britney in 2015 - I love her.



Vegas showgirls and myself.



Thank you for visiting Downtown Las Vegas sign. I love the color.



Vegas from a distance.....





I remember the first time I rolled into Las Vegas, a long time ago now. I was with Shelley and another girl, Alyssa. It was like WOW......the first time you see Vegas everything is WOW - it's magical. It really is. I have many memories from Vegas, I have friends there, Chhaya was born there.....I have a house there (still). At some point I will go back. It's only a few hours away by air, longer by car. Bye for now Las Vegas.