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Some photos with me in them were displayed in an art/photo show recently. And sold. Kind of fun to know. Most of my pics taken by various photographers can be found under the "I'm Vain" category in the blog.
Scroll through in case you want to put in an order for a print for yourself. Everybody needs Tati hanging on their walls, my presence will add a lot to the overall ambiance of your home.

Chhaya's Christmas

What did Chhaya get for Christmas? Something to play tug with and something to nibby on and eventually rip apart.
But first some posing for pics.....She is the best. Desi thinks that I should start an Instagram for Chhaya because she is so pretty and poses so well. Here is Chhaya's Christmas in a few pics.

What's in the bag?

Nap time.

Our Christmas

So Christmas is over.....our Christmas 2017 was nice. I decorated and put up a small plastic tree. I would feel bad having a real tree, I think that's wasteful plus I would feel sad and bad for the tree. The plastic one I can reuse forever basically. I usually leave all the decorations out until about January 13 as per Swedish tradition.
Here are mine and Chhaya's Christmas pics for this year.

Some of the Christmas decorations.....

And no snow on the ground! I thought there would be snow around now but no. Warm and sunny instead but I am not complaining.

The Shape Of Water

On Christmas day I went to the movies and saw The Shape of Water by Guillermo del Toro.
I have been waiting for the release of this movie since last summer. I love his movies, in fact Pan's Labyrinth is one of my faves - it is a beautiful masterpiece that resonates with my soul. And this last one is a masterpiece as well.
I loved it. Once it was over the two ladies I went with and I briefed each other on the movie like one know "how did you like it"? The ladies said that they would not have had a romance with the creature but guess what.....I totally would! I grew up with stories about princesses, faeries and trolls and I still love that old Scandinavian folklore. In my fantasy I am Tuvstarr.....I love all the paintings with princesses with long flowing locks riding through dark thick forests on a moose, interacting with and talking to animals. That is so me.
So me REAL love is the kind of love that is worth doing almost anything for (I am sooooo romantic I know) and if my true and real love happened to be some kind of a mythical creature then yes, I would do the same thing, I would go live with him in the ocean.
Thinking back to some of my other "loves" (cause hindsight is as we all know 20/20) they were a complete waste of my valuable self and my precious time. Honestly.....none of them were worthy ME but sometimes you don't realize certain things until afterwards. But you live and learn and I am still living. So yes....mythical creature any day of the week if that means real love.
Here is a pic of me and a book I got the last time I was home in Sweden....I love this book.

My Birthday

It's a bit past 4 am and I got home little while ago. I am tired and my eyes are burning but before I go to bed I want to tell you about my birthday. So Tuesday night (December 26) I was at the club, right after midnight I took a few pics of myself and here I year older.

I woke up on December 27 (my birthday) and left the house around noon. I got a free latte at my regular coffee shop.

It was a very nice, warm and sunny day out. Me and Chhaya went for a walk in the park.
I was hoping to be able to get a pedicure and then enjoy an hour or two at the foot spa.....but no pedi me until later today actually, so the foot spa was put on hold as well. Not a big deal.
Then I went and got some food, went home, did some laundry, took a shower and went over Desi's house.
She made me a very nice dinner (pasta) and we had fresh squeezed apple juice that she made in her new juicer. Delicious! We opened presents....Thank You Desi! ❃ ❃ ❃

We also had glögg and macarons. And then we watched Pan's Labyrinth.....

"A long time ago, in the Underground Realm, where there are no lies or pain, there lived a princess who dreamt of the human world. She dreamt of blue skies, soft breeze and sunshine. One day, eluding her keepers, the princess escaped. Once outside, the bright sun blinded her and erased her memory. She forgot who she was and where she came from.
Her body suffered cold, sickness and pain. And eventually she died. However, her father, the king, always knew that the Princesses's soul would return, perhaps in another body, in another place at another time. And he would wait for her, until he drew his last breath, until the world stopped turning..."
In the world of mortals the girl's name is Ofelia but in the Underground she is Princess Moanna.

We put some face masks on, fox and panda.....

Then it was time for me to go home. On the way home I got an unexpected phone call from some friends in Alaska.
Well.....I need to sleep now. Another birthday came and went, another year added.

Santa's Little Elves

Santa's little elves just spent a cozy Christmas together. The small elf is sleeping and snoring and the big elf (me) is about to go to bed soon. An early rise in the morning is awaiting.
I hope you are all as cozy and comfy as we are. ❤

One Year Ago

One year ago he passed away.....way too soon. I still think about him and can't believe he is gone or at least not here. Maybe he is somewhere else.....somewhere good I hope.

I'm blessed
I know
Heaven sent
And Heaven stole
You smiled at me
Like Jesus to a child

Merry Christmas

I am drying some laundry and playing tug with Chhaya (while writing this). She is always up for a game of tug or search.
Soon I am going to hop in the shower and then go and enjoy some glögg and pepparkakor (gingerbread cookies) with some friends. Just wanted to check in with you reading this blog and wish you all a Merry Christmas ❤ ❤ ❤

The Night Before Christmas

It is the night before Christmas and me and Chhaya just got back to a warm and cozy home.
I fed her dinner and soon I will take a bath. We were out all afternoon getting stuff done so we can just relax for a few days now.....
Well, all we have to do tomorrow is feed the animals in the park during our walk. Like the birds, squirrels and whatever other animals that might be around.
If you paid attention, many Christmas cards depict Santa Claus together with animals (besides Rudolph). To me Christmas is about giving and caring and I care for animals.
There is a cat in the park we go to.....when the cat and we (me and Chhaya) happen to be there at the same time the cat comes running towards us, tail high up. It knows I will pet it and feed it, I now have cat food with me in the car in case I run into this cat. Today was a cat meeting day.

We delivered food and toys to the Humane Society tree. This was my contribution this year.
I wish I could help all the animals.....but I can't. Maybe one day I will be able to do more.

And here is a picture of my baby.

Rapes In Sweden

Five years ago I wrote a blog entry about a girl in India that was brutally raped by several men, she was only 23 when she died from her injuries. I recall feeling sadness for what happened to her deep in my heart. There would be several more reports about other gang rapes in India after that. That incident and also reading a blog called White Indian House Wife made me decide that I can't go to India on my own as a tourist, probably ever. And I would love to see India, always been fascinated by that country. But my safety is my priority.
Three years ago I wrote about a rape gang in Afghanistan. Those men actually got sentenced to death by hanging.'s 2017 and I am writing about rapes in Sweden. Right now there is an uproar in Sweden. Several men suspected of a gang rape were all found not guilty. They admitted to having sex with the woman but they said she was a willing participant, that it was a drug exchange. I have to say that the woman is a known drug user and changed her story a lot. That contributed to her credibility being diminished. The police did, according to the prosecutor in the case very shoddy police work. So there was not enough evidence to find the men guilty. And in court the law has to be followed, that is just how it is. And no matter how you look at it - that is ultimately a good thing. According to the victim there were up to maybe eight men involved in the rape but several more present watching and cheering on. I am not sure, reading about the case online I gathered different information. But at least three men had sex with her from what I understand. I do not think it is likely that a woman would agree to random sex with several unknown men in public, a high-rise stairwell. We are talking about real life here now, NOT the fantasy world of porn. But it is her word against theirs. And they are walking free. The ones that were briefly incarcerated for this incident might ask for monetary damages. Also, monsters like these have figured out that you can gang rape a woman and then blame each complicate the case even more. Then demand monetary damages. It is truly sickening.
Another rape and this for sure is a rape, happened in Malmö Sweden a few days ago. A 17 year old girl was gang raped and supposedly her vagina was set on fire. The rapists fled and are roaming free. Meaning they can do this again and they probably will. This was the third gang rape in Malmö since last month. Third gang rape in one Swedish town is a short time span. I am waiting for the outcomes of these rapes if ever solved.
When I was 17, living in Stockholm Sweden I was out EVERY weekend. I would come home late night early morning sometime......sure I was aware of the possibilities of danger but I was not scared to go out. Was I perhaps young and naive? Now women are being warned against being out alone in Sweden. What the fuck changed?
I will tell you what changed. Immigration. I am far from a racist, I am a realist. Growing up I was an immigrant kid in Sweden. My friends were a mix of Swedes and first and second generation immigrants. I still keep in touch with my friends, they are from former Yugoslavia, Morocco, Syria, Lebanon, Turkey. My two most significant boyfriends when I lived in Sweden were Fadi and Alex. Fadi lived in Märsta and was an Armenian from Lebanon. Alex was Swedish born but his parents were from Serbia and he lived in Fittja (where one of these recent rapes happened), so I was in Fittja a lot. It's an immigrant heavy suburb of Stockholm.
I didn't worry when walking to or from the subway to the high-rise my boyfriend lived in.
So do NOT call me a racist. My political views have changed some since I was a teen living in Sweden because society has changed.....the problems in Sweden now are not the same as they were then. Sure there were rapes in Sweden back then. Yes Swedish men rape women too but now there is an influx of rapes and also brutal gang rapes and the perpetrators are often immigrants or the offspring of immigrants. Dare I say in the majority of the gang rapes without having statistics as clear evidence on hand? Many people in Sweden tiptoe around speaking up about immigration in any way that can be perceived as negative.....being labeled a racist is very shameful. Sweden is a very politically correct place. But I bet if you or a family member or a friend gets subjected to a violent crime any political correctness will fly out the door.
Well, there is an election in Sweden next year. My vote goes to the Sweden Democrats (abbreviated SD) and had I been voting in France earlier this year my vote would had went to Marine Le Pen. Still not a racist.
Some cultures view women as second class citizens, as property and having no rights.
Those cultures do not have room in Western society. Sweden should not have to readjust to accommodate immigrants, the immigrants should accommodate to their new country. If they don't want to they have no room being there. Radical Islam does not belong in Europe. Neither does FGM and halal slaughter. As far as animals go and what I think about killing them for our consumption....well I am a vegetarian and against it in general. Forcing women to cover up does not belong in Europe. Forcing women and young girls to get married against their will does not belong in Europe. Honor killings do not belong in Europe either.
I can bring up the New Year's Eve sexual assaults in Cologne Germany that happened a few years ago, almost all of the men were non German asylum seekers or illegal immigrants.
How about the attacks on the female reporters in Egypt's Tahrir Square? One of the women (Lara Logan) estimated that the attack on her involved 200-300 men. I cannot even imagine being subjected to that kind of horror.
Like I said.....some cultures think that women are some thing that you can treat however you want. A thing that is yours to use and abuse. That mentality does not belong in Europe. Really....that kind of view doesn't belong anywhere but I am not trying to go and impose my beliefs in those societies because I want to live.