Welcome to Chaos !!

Not just another Monday is here.....today it is the Chinese New Year! Happy New Year!!! It is the year of the DRAGON, to be more precise the water dragon.
This year is expected to bring prosperity and transformational change. Maybe we are going towards a higher conciousness after all? That would be great.
Here are some old pics of me.....note the thinner eyebrows and the panties pulled up high on the waist. Mucho SEKSI!
That looks kind of funny now. The panties pulled up high like that accentuate the waist but does nothing else for the figure I think.
Nowadays I prefer to wear mine lower, I like that look better. In jeans too, I am not into the highwaisted jeans, I like them on the hips or just a
tad higher than that.
But that is how style goes, it always changes. Ask me in ten years, the pulled up panties might be the look again.





After this photo shoot the photograper, Dominic Petruzzi, that shot those pics of a topless former Miss California (Carrie Prejean),
told me to try out for Perfect 10 magazine.
You can only be in it if you don't have any cosmetic surgery (maybe a nose job would be ok). They want natural boobs only.
So I sent in some images. Got a call back to send in more pics......I did, got another call back, in the end everybody on the staff voted for me
to be in the magazine except one person, the owner (Norm) and he had the final say.

Shortly after, I did Playboy Sexy Girl Next Door, but Perfect 10 would had been waaaaay more fun to participate in.
Playboy has a similar magazine, it is called Playboy Natural Beauties. It's a special edition that comes out quarterly if I'm not mistaken.
I don't think the girls in that one are that great. Perfect 10 really did have some beauties in it. I am not sure but I don't think that
Perfect 10 comes out anymore.

Tatiana already has a green card, sorry.....she is not on the hunt for a husband to be able to stay here....but anyways, as a green card holder she can do most
things that a US citizen can, except vote.
And she can't run for president either (not born here), otherwise she would, looking at some of the dumb asses out there campaigning and talking crap.
Did you know that Michele Bachmann's husband, Marcus Bachmann runs some kind of a Christian counseling clinic where they "pray the gay away"?
Just based on that fact, Tatiana thinks that Michele Bachmann is an idiot and the same goes for her husband.
Any overly religious person, trying to push their religious views onto others should not even be considered to run for president.
A "leader" should be open minded and intelligent. Pray the gay away? What kind of crap is that? Really?
One of Tatiana's best friends is gay. His life would had been so much easier if he would had been straight, (becaue of society and people like Marcus Bachmann)
the gay thing is not a choice. It's who you are. It doesn't make you a bad person. On the contrary, Tatiana is SOOOOO happy that there are gay people
out there, making this world a brighter place. Like Carson Kressley for example. And Ellen.
The first time Tatiana set her foot in a gay club, she was 16 and going out in Sweden, clubbing every weekend. That first time at the gay club was so much
fun and often it is way better to go to gay clubs than regular clubs. Tatiana doesn't get harassed by love sick straight guys and the music is often better.
There are plenty of examples out there of heterosexual couples, having train wreck marriages,
then they spawn and have no clue what being a parent is all about.
Actually, looking at the views of (most) Republicans.....they are too conservative for Tatiana. No shit!
Tatiana is for gay marriage, pro choice, she thinks that it is high time for marijuana to be legalized.
And believe it or not, Tatiana does not smoke weed (she tried, it makes her nauseous). Yes, you CAN be a stripper and not smoke weed,
do other drugs and get drunk a couple of times a week. Like "normal" chicks don't do all of the above, all the time?
Maybe Tatiana should open her own counseling clinic, Sober Strippers?
Actually Tatiana thinks that all drugs should be legalized, the money spent on the "war on drugs" could be spent on other, useful things.
Like affordable health care for people. It is insane to pay for health insurance each month on top of taxes.
The taxes should cover health care, so you do not have to worry over a bill for your hospital visit that will ruin you financially forever.
It's not like people want to go to the hospital or get sick just for fun.......but shit happens.
And speaking of drugs......has Tatiana done drugs, illegal drugs that is......? YES! And it was great, she loved every minute of it and she has no regrets.
Can she sit next to a pile of cocaine or some pills of E without indulging? Of course. It's a choice.
And most likely Tatiana will enjoy various substances in the future. But on an every day basis? Or at work ever? No.
She doesn't even smoke and very rarely drinks.
So even if some Republicans might have some imaginary solutions for this country's many problems and also the problems of the world......
Tatiana thinks that they are way too conservative, narrow minded and blind. The world is constantly changing and evolving,
people need to be grounded, open minded and willing to change with the times.

Tatiana is spending this Sunday evening at home. She spent her day doing some errands, like grocery shopping, looking for new shoes for the gym,
cleaning, laundry etc.
Chhaya is shedding, so she got her second thorough brushing of the week.
This is Lexi, next to Tatiana. Lexi works with Tatiana, she is very pretty and very nice.
The pic was taken about a week ago. Tatiana will take more pics soon and put some up here.
YOU NEED!? Right???

Pic from last night. Tatiana had a long cuddle session with Booger on the couch.
He is the cutest little thing.

Sometimes when people ask Tatiana where she is from (the never ending question)......and she says that she was born
in Poland, the response is "no way, I thought all the girls in Poland (and other Eastern European) countries are ugly, fat....etc."
Hmmmmm.......Tatiana is not sure where this misunderstanding stems from?
Actually last time Tatiana visited Poland, she was amazed by how very pretty the girls were. Really nice bodies and faces.
It would be like saying that all American girls are ugly and obese, since more and more people here in the US are becoming obese.
Tatiana thinks that there are pretty girls everywhere. From every nationality.
But she recently came across this Polish beauty. Jessica Rafalowski. Born here but Polish parents.
She speaks fluent Polish, loves food, especially pierogis. She is shapely with natural boobs, an insanely bangin' butt and a pretty face.
The whole package. Tatiana wants to share a plate of pierogis and kabonosy with Jessica. Squeeze that butt too.




Here is something that bugs Tatiana. When girls are so insecure in themselves that they can never compliment another girl.
That just screams insecurity, jealousy, low self esteem and total lameness.
Tatiana loves girls, though.....she prefers boys (men) in THAT way, though she is not opposed to girls either.

Like Rihanna for example.......
Who doesn't like to watch beautiful girls now and then?
Beside lame insecure bitchy girls that is.
Tatiana recently read another girls blog, though very good and entertaining to read, this person spews insults and
aversion towards all other women.
Sure, Tatiana doesn't think everything with a VAGINE that hasn't hit menopause yet is SEKSI either.
She has her opinions on what she thinks is pretty or not and who should be able to work in a strip club, please no great grandma's.......
even though they can wobble around in some outdated sandals and a sequin bikini. Toothless women also.
Visit the dentist first please. BO? Take a shower and use some deodorant.
But hello, to think no girls are pretty, ever? Laaaaame!

Believe it or not, Tatiana made it back to the gym today, second day in a row! Another 30 minutes on the elliptical, hill option,
this time resistance set to 14 (out of 20). Some weights and stretches. Even Tatiana can't believe this.
Tatiana also dusted off her ass kicking skills. You better not mess with Tatiana or you will be sorry! Yeah, really!




After the gym Tatiana went home to eat and now she is going to take Chhaya out for a walk while it's still light out.
Later.......shower & wash hair and work.
Tatiana needs to keep her famous ass in shape!

Finally after almost one year without stepping a foot in a gym, Tatiana made it there today.
So.......30 minutes on the elliptical, resistance 13, the "hill" option. Tatiana has not broken a sweat since jogging in
a park in South Dakota (last November) so it felt really good today.
Then some leg lifts and stretches and two machines with weights, she had to feel some burn in those leg muscles.
There must be some muscles somewhere under the white dough.
Tatiana went to the gym in Kenai. But this gym doesn't have a certain arm machine that Tatiana likes, the gym in Soldotna
does though. The next trip to the gym? Tatiana has no idea, hopefully sooner that later.
Tonight's plans? Work. Actually work through the weekend.




Yeay, enough calories burned to take care of the Snickers candybar that Tatiana had last night at work. LOL.
Actually Tatiana doesn't really trust those calorie counters, she always deducts 40 from the amount. So today the elliptical
indicated that Tatiana burned 359 calories, well to Tatiana it was more like 319.

Another cold night.....brrrrrrrr! - 24. Tatiana wants it to warm up already!
More girls are asking Tatiana how to get hired at Heartbreakers, so after writing this, she is going to email them the info.
Sooooo, Tatiana is almost embarrassed to admit this but she still has not made it to the gym.
She HAS to go.
She thought about it and it has been since February 2011 since her last gym visit, she thought it was March but no it was
in February when she was in Colorado working. So going on a year.
Tatiana really needs to make an effort and go already.
It's not like she has anything else to do in the daytime. It's just laziness and excuses.
After all, Tatiana is leaving next month to go and work for two weeks, so she should really try and look ok and not too flabby.
Some flab is ok but right now Tatiana feels like a big pile of dough.
So it's almost 3 am now, maybe she will drag her flabby doughy ass to the gym tomorrow afternoon after she wakes up?
Strippers do not wake up before 11 am unless they have to for some awful reason.
To find out if Tatiana goes to the gym finally, you will have to check her blog again very soon!

Tatiana brought her laptop with her to work......and it is really slow tonight, so Tatiana is entertaining everybody
with her vast knowledge of bukkake omelette information.
Reeeeally tasty! LOL.
Actually we were all gagging earlier just thinking about it. Tatiana has been looking up some things online recently
after reading some disturbing articles about porn producer Khan Tusion. That's how she got across the bukkake
omelette stuff. Don't get any strange ideas into your heads now that Tatiana ever participated in that. She is not THAT hungry, ok?
Sure, it's fun to laugh at and cringe at but the reality of that stuff......NOOOOO WAY!!!
Tatiana would rather beg for change on the street to survive. After reading some about it and how little the women get paid......
like really? They make nothing for doing that.
To divulge something.....Tatiana is very open minded but personally a rather vanilla pillow queen. No bukkake here, lol.
But to each their own. Surely some people out there think that stripping is awful and degrading, etc.
And Tatiana is here to assure you that she does it without any feelings of guilt or shame.
So, like Tatiana just said......to each their own. As far as bukkake goes and all other porn, Tatiana still thinks that they should raise
the age limit for doing porn to about 23 or 24. Girls that age are more mature to make a better decision for themselves regarding
getting involved in that business. At 18 majority of them seem too naive and clueless. And for everybody with that young, innocent,
virgin look porn fetish. Trust Tatiana, a 24 year old girl can look just as fresh and innocent as an 18 year old, it all depends on what
kind of life style you live. Tatiana has seen it herself.
Well, it is getting to be closing time here soon, Tatiana is taking Sharon home to whip up some omelette's now.
Both are SO hungry!

Look at little baby Chhaya, HOW PRECIOUS!!!!
I recently came across something a person wrote into Ode magazine......
that I think is so true.
And if you have an animal in your life, you will probably agree......

"It's not about downplaying human capacaties; it's about uplifting and appreciating animal
conciousness. They are sentient beings. They think; they feel; they have internal lives.
They don't usually speak English; they speak telepathy; as any animal communicator
can attest. Their nervous systems are like ours; they feel pain, grief, anxiety, fear - and, yes, love.
Science is finally confirming what spiritual teachers, animal communicators and indigenous peoples
have been telling us for centuries. Animals are not inferior; they are evolving right along with
us and humans are responsible for their well-being."

I have been together with Chhaya for over six years now and I know that she feels all
kinds of emotions. She is the light of my life.

Here is a pic of Tatiana and Julia @ EDC in LA a few years ago.
This year, like last year, EDC will be in Vegas. In June. Freaking scorching.
Tatiana much rather prefer for EDC to be in LA but whatever.
Maybe it's more ok to get really fucked up in Vegas instead. From a legal standpoint.
But nonetheless, Tatiana got her ticket already, she is going all three days, it is going to
be SO MUCH FUN !!! Tatiana is going to plant herself next to a large speaker and dance
as many hours that she can, looking supercute.
Tatiana is going with Shelley this year. The first time Tatiana ever went to a rave/party,
she went with Shelley. The rave was called Narnia and after that Tatiana was hooked.

Tatiana bundled up and went for a 45 minute walk yesterday and today.
Yesterday her butt got frozen, so today she had on two pairs of long johns under her pants instead of
the single pair that she usually wears. Well, her butt still got cold.
So, speaking of butts, Tatiana dug through her pics and found this one........

Check out Rihanna's latest Armani ad pics......Tatiana sure is checking them out.
YUM YUM.

Tatiana is at home tonight. Growing a larger ass and thinking about how most of her friends live
in Nevada and California, not counting the ones Sweden of course.
WHAT is she doing in Alaska again, she must be confused.......???
Tatiana should move to LA and start working for TMZ, she LOVES Harvey (he is such a cutie)
and his show, it can be hilarious.
And Tatiana is pretty sure that Harvey would like her just as much back.

Got back from work a little over an hour ago, it was an early night tonight.
Had to eat when I got home, too hungry not to.
I am soooooo tired, my eyes want to close on me and I want to curl up with my Chhaya next to me and pull
the covers over my head. I loooove sleeping......
But first I have to take Chhaya out real quick so she can pee. Then I am going to force myself to wash my face.
After that, sleep. I didn't get enough sleep last night, that's why I feel exhausted now.
My feet hurt too. And my back. LOL. I think I might get a massage somewhere later this week.
There is also a place in town that has some kind of a weird looking enclosed heated bed that you lay in for about 45 min.
It supposedly feels really good and relaxing. I gave been tempted to try that.
What I really want is Cathy, my massage lady in Vegas. 2 hours with Cathy is pure bliss.
When I go to bed in a bit I am going to fantasize about Cathy......