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Back in February 2008

One day in Las Vegas, February 2008, Tatiana was watching the local Las Vegas news channel when they mentioned something about the strip clubs in Vegas. Something that was said made Tatiana inspired enough to write an e mail to the news channel, hoping that the situation for the dancers in Las Vegas would improve. Yes, Tatiana harbored high hopes......
This was about a month before Tatiana packed up her 4 Runner and drove to Alaska to work at The Bush Company.
Tatiana thought that you might find the short correspondence with KTNV Channel 13 Action News interesting.......


Thank you so much for your email and I'm very interested in hearing more about some of what is going on at these clubs. Please feel free to contact me anytime.

My name is Tatianna and I am currently working in one of the larger stripclubs in town as a dancer, stripper, entertainer - the job has many names.
I saw a very brief reportage the other night about some stripclub issues coming from your station.
There's SO much going on in the stripclubs that the public has NO IDEA of. Yes, the girls pay a lot to work, with no gurantee to make it back. We have no hourly wage, no insurance. What other employer takes money from you upfront and does not gurantee that you at least make that back? There have been many nights when I paid to work and couldn't even make back what I paid or went home with a $ 20 profit after 8 h of work. I rarely make over $ 300, that is a great night. And yes, I do try.
The clubs ( in Vegas) employ ANY girl that is willing to pay to work. Some clubs give you a $ 40 fine if you miss your turn on stage. If you don't want to go on stage you have the choice to pay more in addition to the house fee, that totals to over $ 100.
Due to the high amount of girls working and on many nights far from enough customers to go around, more than majority of the girls do things that are NOT allowed but the managers and floorhosts look the other way because these girls will tip them out a lot of money. This creates a very bad and frustrating environment.
It doesn't matter if you are pretty or friendly, interesting etc in Las Vegas when it comes to making money. What matters in what you are willing TO DO. I have tried to bring this up with the managers but they don't want to hear of it. They are like pimps. The situation in almost any stripclub in Las Vegas is pretty bad. I have worked in New York, California,Colorado, London and the clubs in Las Vegas are the most out of control ones, I feel like I am in a brothel.
I know that it is very possible to make good money in the sk clean clubs where the rules are enforced, the way it SHOULD be!
Boobgrabbing openly on the floor, genital rubbing with the hands, handjobs, yes- sex. I have been wanting to write an expose about this because I do not think things like this should go on in a stripclub. It is unsanitary and scares away people that are going there for entertainment.
I am not writing this because I am jealous or unattractive. I actually work as a model too. I think this is a rather important issue. There's a large amount of women working as dancers in Las Vegas . Many have mortgages, children. How are they protected? What rights do they have? Why do the managers allow that illegal things go on, OPENLY? They are making so much money from the girls.
I am very willing to talk further with you regarding this. I am willing to collaborate on an expose.
I hope to hear from you!

Thank you, Tatianna.

So, they asked Tatiana (yes, Tatianna) to call the station and she had a talk with the person (a man) she had exchanged these e mails with. Nothing came out of it. They said they were pretty much aware of the problems and nothing more was said or done to Tatianas knowledge.
Metro (the Las Vegas police) do sting operations at the strip clubs in Vegas from time to time which often result in the arrests of girls that "brake the rules" when Metro is there. Well, how come the club owners and managers aren't arrested or cited? They are there to enforce the rules? Right? There are enough "managers" on the main floor and in the VIP room, they know what's going on. But they rather collect the cash. If they would do their job, problems like that would be few.
It's gross. Tatiana was and is disgusted.
Tatiana even tried to bring this up with some of the managers at Sapphire (the club in Vegas) and they were not happy with Tatianas input. LOL.
She thinks it's sad when a club charges girls to work there (lots of money) and then do not care to enforce the laid out rules so the girls can have a fair work environment. They are no better than pimps in Tatianas eyes. And now, two years later, Tatiana knows that not only Vegas clubs fall into this category......until then most of the negativity that Tatiana had witnessed was in Vegas, well not anymore. You can add up the info and figure out what other club Tatiana is referring to......

Tatiana is happy she is not there anymore. Never say never but she won't be in a place like that full time anymore. Shorter stints are manageable.

Lily Burana

Lily Burana wrote a book, a long time ago now, Tatiana read this book and has it, with her other books boxed up in Las Vegas. The book is called Strip City and Tatiana is going to give you some info here about that book and the author. You might find it interesting since you are a reader of Tatiana's blog.
What Lily has in common with Tatiana is the dancing and dancing in certain cities and clubs, Las Vegas, Denver, Anchorage.

Another dancer turned writer, celebrity, is Diablo Cody that wrote her novel about dancing Candy Girl: A Year in the Life of an Unlikely Stripper that Tatiana also has read (of course). She later went ahead and achieved critical acclaim worldwide for the script of the 2007 film Juno, winning the Academy Award for Best Original Screenplay.

The question is, will you buy and read Tatiana's book when it comes out?

Here's some about Lily Burana and Strip City .

Lily Burana had been working as a journalist for five years when, on a cross-country assignment, she meets a cowboy in Cheyenne, Wyoming. They fall in love quickly, and in short order he proposes to her. Her cowboy doesn't flinch when she tells him about her past, but as the reality of the engagement sets in, Burana realizes that she can't settle down until she comes to terms with the business of stripping -- the controversial but exhilarating crucible in which she came of age. She packs up a hairpiece, hairspray, Lucite platforms, garters, neon thongs, and body glitter, and enrolls in a stripping academy to perfect her routine. Zigzagging across America from the topflight gentlemen's clubs of Dallas to the blue-collar go-go bars of New Jersey, from Anchorage to Tijuana, Las Vegas to Los Angeles, she even competes in the Miss Topless Wyoming competition. Along the way, she seeks out a host of colorful women who share with her the unwritten history of striptease: an over-looked and under-recorded American art form. And what she discovers -- about the business, about the culture of strip clubs, and about herself -- is truly remarkable.

While on the road, she recalls her start in the peep shows of Times Square and her groundbreaking legal battle for strippers' rights, waged against one of the most notorious strip club owners in the country. With the benefit of her independence and experience, she's shocked to learn how much, yet how little, the world of striptease has changed. Insightful and reflective, Burana describes the clubs and bars, the patrons and other dancers in striking detail, and takes us into the nitty-gritty of a dancer's life, bringing to light the variety of techniques and tricks of the trade.

Burana writes with immediacy and candor; hard-won wisdom and hard-bitten humor; a novelist's voice and a journalist's eye. Strip City is a shrewd take, free of illusion, on the darker, seamier side of America. She effortlessly conveys the atmosphere of a seedy strip joint; the exhilaration of a dancer on stage when she gets into her zone; and ultimately the complex emotional repercussions that arise when a woman takes off her clothes for money.

And interview. (By Suzy Hansen for

Lily Burana talks about what makes a great stripper, which men make the best customers and which songs to play when you're getting naked.
When Lily Burana, peace punk teen turned exotic dancer turned writer, fell in love with a cowboy and got engaged, she felt something tugging at her subconscious about her former outlaw profession. Burana had danced in such notorious strip clubs as New York's Peepland and San Francisco's Lusty Lady for most of her 20s, but her vivid, up-and-down memories of that life were largely unresolved. With the prospect of settling down -- and a book project -- bearing down on her, Burana set off on a nationwide tour of America's best clubs from Florida to El Paso to Alaska and to New Jersey, her home state.

"Strip City: A Stripper's Farewell Journey Across America" is smart and beautifully written, but what's most dazzling is Burana's sharp-eyed wit. There's a sense that when she walks into a club, doubtlessly tough and assured, another part of her also naturally absorbs the sadness, silliness and full-on fun of hole-in-the-wall, one-stage bars, chi-chi gentleman's clubs and high-energy party venues. Salon spoke to Burana about what makes a good stripper, a good strip club customer, what songs are the best to dance to and whether she'll ever go back.

Q. What makes a good stripper?

More than appearance and costume and physical skill -- it's looking like you want to be there. There are a whole range of options of adult stimulation. You have the Internet and movies and magazine and phone lines and chat rooms. Why would somebody go someplace where there are real women when you could do something else? Because they want some kind of connection.

Beyond that, physical presentation is important. In some places it will be a beaded evening gown and 4-inch heels and in other places it will be cutoffs, a cowboy hat, platform boots and a bandanna around your neck. You don't have to be centerfold pretty to be a stripper. You have to make sure that from the neck down you're reasonably depilated and that you're in reasonably good shape and your hair is clean. Most guys just want someone who's decent and will listen to them. I announced my retirement more times than Garth Brooks, but when you're with a customer, the fact that you don't like your job is not his fault.

Oh. And stay away from those thigh-high stockings. They look like crap on everyone.

Q. Name three songs that make up a perfect stripper's set.

First, I just want to say that if I see one more girl come out in a plaid schoolgirl skirt and a white blouse tied at the waist, dancing to "Rag Doll" by Aerosmith, I'm gonna scream.

Second of all, I think there should be a nationwide moratorium on "Cherry Pie" by Warrant. That song doesn't exist anywhere but strip clubs and you just think, OK, I wasn't having such a good time in the late '80s, early '90s to begin with and this kind of music is part of the reason why. My irony meter is not yet pegged to accept "Cherry Pie."

Historically, when all else fails, pull out "Highway to Hell" by AC/DC. And "Bad to the Bone" -- guys really adore that. If the club is more hip-hop friendly, it's such a savage song, but "Can I Get a Fuck You" by Jay Z ... it creates such a tension. It's a nice girl doing this naughty thing to a really tough song: "OK, I need to get to know that girl better."

But the no-fail, can't-miss song of all time seems to be "Pour Some Sugar on Me" by Def Leppard. I'm not sure if this is due to the celebratory, unabashed corniness of the song or if there's a direct link between glucose and the male libido, but there you have it.

Q. In the book, after one particular night of dancing, you said you felt "scuzzy and superior" at the same time. Why?

In that specific case, I pulled a certain hustle that I wouldn't normally pull. A guy really wanted to pick me up in a way that bordered on a misdemeanor. There are some women who will do extracurricular activities outside of a club. So the guy tries. The guy's tipping you heavily because he's trying to do a soft sell without offending you. I knew I wasn't going to sleep with the guy, but I was a little more evasive than I otherwise would have been. That is very ethically dicey, but I thought, Hmm. Never done this before. Let me see if I have the nerve to do it.

It felt kind of icky afterward. For some women, that scuzzy and superior feeling is the state of antipathy that they live in all the time. I certainly had that feeling in the beginning when I was at Peepland. It's a very traditional defense in exotic dance: "This business isn't exploiting me, I'm exploiting it."

Q. Did you ever once consider sleeping with any of these men?

It's much harder to dance for the cute ones. In your conscious mind, you approach it as a business and you know what your boundaries are. Then you get some guy who is cute and charming. You would give him the time of day if he weren't a customer, and you have this awful feeling of someone offering themselves up on a platter and you have to reply, "But for the circumstances of how we met ..." I know one woman who met her husband while she was dancing, but that rarely happens. It's very strange to have somebody see you naked before they know your real name.

Q. You write about feeling rejected. What would make you feel rejected from a customer?

It's very intense to go from guy to guy -- every dancer will have nights like this -- and for whatever reason, nobody's biting. Would you like a dance? No. Would you like a dance? No, thank you. Would you like a dance? Maybe later. After a certain time, the accrual of no's makes you think, I'm just going to go in the dressing room and fix my makeup and read Vogue for an hour.

Remember that you walk into a club and the meter starts at zero. You're naked. Honestly, people are tipping you because they either think that you're charming or you're physically attractive. It's wholly contingent on somebody's approval of you. Guys can compliment you all the livelong day, but there's a real reason why you're there and that's money. When it doesn't come, it feels like you're not doing your job.

Even though I adopted a persona while I worked -- I was armored in spandex and sequins and hairpieces and 6-inch platforms -- somewhere in there is me. In most work environments, rejection comes in a more subtle form. But in dancing, you feel like an actress going from cattle call to cattle call. You hear the no to your face, instead of in an e-mail that says, "Dear So-and-So, we thank you for your query, but ..."

Q. What makes a good customer? Is it being a spender or being a gentleman?

Some guys really don't have a lot of money to spend and that's fine because they're so laudatory in their praise for you or so fun to talk to that it's not about the money. I don't like the idea that the only value that the customer has is money. To me, that's deeply ungracious.

Q. So if he's pleasant and not a grabber ...

Any guy who understands that there are rules in a certain club and that they vary from town to town and from club to club and from girl to girl is a good customer. I always appreciate a guy who says, "How close to you can I get? Where am I allowed to tip you?" In some places, a guy can only tip you in your hand, and if someone's trying to stick it in the side of your thong, he's not only violating your boundaries, he's jeopardizing your job.

Also, men who understand that you're physically vulnerable are good customers. What privacy you do choose to maintain is important to you and if he doesn't hector you for your real name or how old you are or whether you have kids or whether you're married or whether you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, it's a good sign. Typically, that's the guy who's going to end up learning more about you anyway. Courtesy implies that he's not going to use any information against you.

Q. What do you think makes men go to strip clubs?

I went to an online board where dancers and customers interacted and I posted anonymously. This one fellow e-mailed me back and said that he travels a lot and gets lonely. If he didn't go to strip clubs, he'd just be walking around the mall by himself. There was something about the naked Lomanesque pain of that statement that made me realize that I'm not prepared to know why men go to strip clubs yet.

It seems so innocuous: "Ooh, relationship as transaction! Healthy guys giving healthy dollars to healthy girls! It's all so clean!" But why women are there is much more straightforward. I don't mean to condescend to the customers, but they aren't there for a living. They're there for fun or for some kind of emotional or personal satisfaction. That's much more complicated than, "Hey, the payment on my car is due." I can't speak for a population that I really don't know anything about.
That said, there's a couple reasons why they go. One is the hope that it will become a real relationship. Another part of it is if they're going to go out and have a few drinks with their buddies, they might as well look at a friendly girl in a bikini as opposed to Gus the Bartender.

It can be just as simple as having something else to do.

That's why I enjoy going as a customer. There are some places where the dancers are clearly not happy and it's this Sisyphean toil, "time to make the donuts" sort of thing. Then, you get to a club where the music is great and the dancers are happy and the customers are having a good time and it really is this nice, rowdy environment. On the other end of the strip club continuum, there are the gentlemen's clubs which exist solely to enforce a man's sense of entitlement. They have nice cigars, wonderful food and the nicest looking women. Men feel like they've worked very hard and that the environment is another perk of being a wealthy man.

Q. One man said to you that you must get off on the power that you have over men and that pissed you off. He was obviously trying to get a rise out of you, but do you think there is an element of power-tripping for strippers?

To frame the question as a power trip, I'd say yes. But there's a difference between "power" and "power over." It's not like I'm Mistress Lily Burana and I want these men to quiver at my feet. Honestly, I don't have the time or inclination to do all the stomping around in big boots that getting that type of submission would require. But there is something to be said for "I see that taboo, and I'm going to break it." Particularly, when you just get started, that feeling of bursting through the place where nice girls aren't supposed to go is enormous. That's what buoys you through the first traumatic months.

Q. Is that why you first did it, do you think?

When I say that I was an all-American misfit, that's no joke. Tattered copy of "The Bell Jar," black eyeliner, Aqua Net by the gallon-full. At the time, there was a part of me that thought, Oh, rebellious me. Of course, the bottom-line reason why I did it was because I was broke and I had a friend who I really trusted who was willing to walk me through the introduction to the business. The secondary, more psychological underpinning was "I'm a peace punk feminist, I hate Ronald Reagan, not going to tell me what's what" kind of girl. I was a scared young girl under the cosmetic drape of self-determined rebel.

Q. What was the typical reaction then, when you told people that you were a dancer?

Remember that was the Reagan era. The reigning feminist ideology was Catherine MacKinnon and Andrea Dworkin. Very strident and angry. You could only talk about being a dancer at the risk of being shouted down by somebody who knew better. Of course, they knew better because they'd never actually done the work. At that time, I was very No Nukes and anti-Star Wars and clean living and no drugs and listening to the Dead Kennedys. That added another drape of astringency because those types were also very negative about adult entertainment. It was seen as exploitative of women. It left me with not a whole lot of people to talk to about it.

I've watched that change so very, very much. The feminist dialogue has shifted to where it's almost politically incorrect in certain circles to criticize any woman's work -- whether it's the sex business or being a stay-at-home mom. In most ways, that's for the good because it gives women a lot more latitude. It's not like you're going to be kicked out of the tent as a feminist because you happen to have a day job that somebody else might take issue with.

Q. And your family? They seemed sort of OK with it.

They really aren't OK with it, and that's to their credit. I didn't tell my parents for maybe three or four years. No, nobody threw plates or came down to the club and dragged me out into the parking lot and beat me up -- which happened to one girl that I know. They went through the typical parental reflexes of "Oh gosh, this reflects on us and where did we go wrong?" Over time, their attitude has changed because now I'm in the situation of having written about something that I have done, as opposed to something that I am doing now. But it's still difficult for them. Everybody else in the world can choose their proximity to me. But this is my family. And I love my parents a lot and I like them quite a bit too, so it wasn't as if my parents had abandoned me and they didn't get a vote anymore.

Q. Do you think your boyfriend is not a jealous person? Or is he just a calm person?

Oh boy, we are jealous people, both of us. What needs to be said is that the ability to deal with your partner doing this kind of work is like having blue eyes -- you either have them or you don't. If you're not OK with it to begin with, then you're probably not going to get OK with it later on. He always knew from the beginning that this was my job. He respected it and he thought I was good at it. OK, that's cool, but guess what? The night that he comes to work with you and sees the guys talking to you and sitting down and flirting with you, it's a lot different.

I had a taste of my own medicine one night in Alaska. Typically, boyfriends are not allowed in the club but he was there and we're pretending that we're not together and this extremely cute girl is on him all night. I just completely hit the roof. Jealousy is an enormous, encompassing, face-eating feeling. I realized that this man is, head to toe, made out of 24-carat gold. The book is just brimming with cool chicks. But often, beyond every great dancing girl is a pretty cool guy.

Q. Did stripping ever make you turned off from men?

I don't have that part of my brain that says that men are dogs. I always had a bunch of male friends who would say, "Hmm. Stripping. OK, well I don't judge it negatively, but why would I go to a place where a woman only pays attention to me because I'm paying her?" There are many types of men.
But one thing that did happen to me toward the end, was that I got intimacy fatigue. You realize that you just spent eight hours listening to 20 guys talk about their divorces, their jobs, their kids, their frigid girlfriends, their distant girlfriends. Then you go home and it's like a four-star chef wanting to make a can of Spaghetti-Os. Just as much as I wouldn't want to go ankles-over-head on a go-go pole after work, I didn't want to hear about intimacy stuff. I became very isolated. Job. "Seinfeld." Job. "Seinfeld."

Q. On the flip side, did you find anything erotic about it?

Not all the time. Jobs tend to be repetitive. At other times, absolutely. Not like, "Ooh baby, I'm going to have a 'When Harry Met Sally' moment right here, right now!" I wouldn't categorize myself as an exhibitionist. But think of the context: Clubs are a permissive space, a spandex amnesty zone. I can wear tacky outfits without fear of the glares of the fashionistas. I can wear 7-inch heels. I can jack my cleavage up so high that if I inhale deeply I can suffocate. I can play with my sexual persona. And I can flirt with people and know it's not going to go any further than this club.

People smoking cigarettes and drinking drinks and cash is flying around. In a really good club on a really good night, there's sort of a communal group high. I don't mean an orgy/ecstasy/touchy-feely high. It's more like cruising this exciting rock 'n' roll vibe.

Q. Do you have a favorite strip club?

I love Shotgun Willy's in Denver. It has eight stages and there's a no-contact rule. It's a Cuisinart effect; there's so many women dancing around that it makes the energy in the room spiral up. It's like the happiest party you've ever been to. The attitude is like "Topless women are cool and it doesn't have to go any farther than that and, hey, they're playing Kid Rock! Life is good!" These kinds of clubs are much more about the celebratory aspect than the Bukowski-esque pathos a-go-go thing.

Q. How much is the most you've ever made in one night?

$2,500. That was my big night at Mitchell Brothers. It was great. This guy came in with a 3-inch stack of $100 bills. For me, though, that was an aberration. There are some women who would say, "OK, first of all, that's not a lot of money. Second, I make that at least once a week." But I wasn't trying to start my own country. For me it was just a day job.

Q. At one point, a stripper says that stripping is honest.

Oh, that wasn't a stripper. A stripper wouldn't say that. I mean, I guess she would.

Q. Do you reject something about that idea?

It's blatant, but I don't know how honest it is. Granted it doesn't have the sparkly mantle of legitimacy that acting in Hollywood does or playing the cello in the Philharmonic does, but it is part of the entertainment business. There's that camp that derides strippers as not doing legitimate work and doing damage to the relationship between the sexes. Then there's that other camp that views dancers as a noble savage: "She's out there doing honest work! And she's more honest than the rest of us because she knows what she's doing is crude and she's no bones about it!" Nobody is ennobled by being a stripper. It's a job.

Q. And you'll never go back?

I wouldn't say never. It seems very unlikely but maybe there will be some groovy opportunity to get up there. Like at a charity function. We need to do a raffle to save an old strip club! Or something like that.

Camping pics

Here are some pics from when Tatiana went camping the other day, three nights spent in a tent. All food cooked over the campfire. It was lovely.
Tatiana is pretend fishing on the picture. And that's a s'more. And Tatiana had dinner that did include "Polish kielbasa". She will eat meat once in a while, that makes her a flexitarian. New word for you? Look it up.


Funny coincidence after writing the last blog about drugs etc. Just logged into yahoo and this popped up......

"Magic mushrooms & cancer
Psilocybin, a hallucinogen known as magic mushrooms, may help late-stage cancer patients feel more peaceful, according to U.S. researchers. A small dose of psilocybin also helped patients function better for up to six months, the study says." mushrooms cancer

But Tatiana already knew about the many healing properties of magic mushrooms, she is happy that more people can find out and become more enlightened.

Lame ok?

Ok, so Paris Hilton and her current bf Cy, a Vegas night club well known, were caught recently on suspicion of drug charges. Paris had some coke (not the drink) in her purse. And there was some marijuana involved. Shocking!!! (Not).
Shortly after, Paris was banned from entering all Wynn and Encore resorts in Vegas. They had been at XS that night, a night club at Encore (where two of my friends work) and Cy was fired from his manager position at XS.
This is lame ok?! People are doing drugs, these two are adults. Whether they want to get drunk on alcohol (legal but a mind altering substance after all) or snort some coke or stay sober - should be their own choice.
It's different if you decide to drive while whacked out of your mind.
Does Steve Wynn think that every person that enters one of his resorts is a law-abiding church-goer who would never dream of using illegal drugs? Well, my bet is NO. He made millions from gambling and alcohol sales. Hypocrite.
Phuleeease, this is Vegas. This is what people do. Pretending something different is just lame. Drugs are around and will be around. Big deal. It should be up to the individual to decide whether they want to do them or not. And control their drug use. The "war on drugs" is dumb. What about alcohol and nicotine? Are these not drugs? Do people become alcoholics and smoke cigarettes like they are going out of style? Yes.
The firing of Cy from XS is something else. The employees of XS are not allowed to use illegal substances and everyone is drug tested as part of their employment and they do random drug tests. Cy, though in a high position, was still an employee of the club and XS made an example of him.
I don't think that what people do on their spare time should implement on their professional life though, if they are able to keep business and pleasure apart. It's one thing to be high or drunk while out at a bar or a club, or at home than to be inebriated at work.
I work in an environment with people in different stages of intoxication are around me at times, that doesn't mean that I have to get drunk or snort coke or do whatever. Why? Because I am in control of my choices and decide myself what I want to do.
Tons of people have tried drugs and/or use them once in a while and function totally well. It is possible to enjoy some drugs once in a while and not become a drug addict. Really! I promise.
What society should put some emphasis on instead is the legal drugs that doctors push on people. Have you noticed all the new disorders and health problems that get invented each year and the drugs that are available to cure them? Now there is even some pill you can take in case your pills that you already take for your sk depression aren't working. Seriously? BS I say.
Legalize the drugs already. They are fun to do. Party time!

Tatiana does recognize that drugs create problems for some people and that is sad. But it is the individuals choice to do them. And/or to stop, get treatment if they want.
Aspirin, something most people consider harmless, accounts for thousands of deaths annually in the US. Tobacco, obesity, alcohol and adverse reactions to prescription drugs all top deaths caused by illegal drugs. Education and information are the keys.
Tatiana does not think that young teenagers have any business smoking, drinking and doing drugs since their bodies and internal organs are still developing. There is plenty of time for experimenting as an adult.
At this years Electric Daisy Carnival, a 15 year old girl died after supposedly doing E. Or what she though was E. Finding a pure MDMA pill at a party is like looking for a needle in a haystack. Pills are usually mixed up with other things. And there is also the dosage question. And a persons overall health, to be taken into consideration. Due to this girls death, big parties, like raves, can not be held at the LA Sports Arena after 2010. Hopefully they will reconsider this.
180 000 people attended Electric Daisy Carnival over the two days the party went on. Tatiana does not think that what happened to the girl should be the cause of shutting down all the parties. It was her choice to be there and to do what she did. If somebody had hurt her/raped her/forced her to do something, it would had been a different story. Her parents were talking about suing the promoter of the party. Is this person supposed to be responsible for the actions of everybody attending a party? That is just ridiculous.
So if somebody comes to church high, Tatiana is sure some people do and collapses during sermon and later dies, is the priest or that church to blame? It is easier to blame other people for you own mistakes and problems. And in this country you can sue others for problems you bring on onto yourself. The party and the promoter did not contribute to the girls death. Yes, it is unfortunate that this happened to her but don't punish everybody else involved with the party.
MDMA what is also known as Ecstasy has been and is used for great research. Look it up if you don't believe it. Don't swallow everything Big Brother tells you. A drug like MDMA can be a very positive experience for an individual, open up doors to a higher consciousness. Big Brother doesn't want people to think outside of the box. It's better if people get drunk, alcohol doesn't exactly lead to many positive revelations, or numb their bodies and minds with greasy, hormone infused foods, conk out in front of the tv. Large, positive, dance gatherings, mostly non violent and very accepting is almost like a revolution in itself. That's "bad", so every excuse to control or ban them is executed. Tatiana goes to these events because they are FUN, for the GREAT music and so she can DANCE all night long. Dancing is the best therapy!
There are many mind opening substances out there. Open your heart and your mind, venture outside the life in front of the tv/the norm. Cigarettes and alcohol are legal, but really why? Think about that.
Tatiana is not saying that people should be popping MDMA pills or chomping down on mushrooms every day. Everything in moderation. And some people should never do drugs, that includes alcohol. She is saying, don't believe everything that comes out of Big Brothers mouth.
Listen to Tatiana, she will give you the right information.


Here is some text taken from the September/October 2010 issue of Adbusters.

"In the beginning of human culture, people knew how to shake their booties, and in their doing so, the secrets of the universe were revealed."

"The wisdom of the East is as ignorant as the wisdom of the West. Look where both have gotten us. Let's consider the wisdom of Mother Africa, the ancestral culture that honored rhythms more than words."

"This is the revolution: Shake everything up - your body, mind, heart, understandings and everyday routines. Shake yourself into ecstatic truth."

"Look at the oldest library in the world - the rock art of southern Africa. What we see are images of people dancing themselves into ecstasy. Religions and philosophies can never deliver the truth we most deeply desire. Our born destiny is the same as the first humans - to release our bodies, our whole beings, into feeling and expressing the deepest joy and ecstasy. In other words, dancing ourselves into heaven, enlightenment, peace and love."

I say AMEN to that.

Fall Fashion

Tatiana likes Fall Fashion the most of the seasons. It's really stylish and the boots are so cool and sexy. Tatianas new shoe obsessions, a pair of John Galliano boots that are so beautiful and fierce.
She loves the new J Brand skinny jeans with zippers. If she could, Tatiana would wear stuff like that all the time, drape herself in super cool outfits, like some nice and interesting leggings or jeans with a slouchy top coming off one shoulder and the most outrageous shoes/boots.
Here are the boots and some other pieces. And a Tatiana pic, she wore a similar vest like the model in the pic a few years ago.
Tatiana NEEDS the John Galliano boots! And J Brand jeans.
: )

Peace, Love & Juicy

Tatiana NEEDS the new Peace, Love & Juicy perfume by Juicy Couture! Tatiana LOVES the Juicy Couture brand, they have super cute clothes and hand bags, the colors are nice and the style is exactly what Tatiana likes.
"The bottle, which features a heart-shaped peace sign and hot pink tassels, is wrapped with a beaded turquoise bracelet that doubles as a stylish accessory and underscores the brand's girly DNA."
So the new fragrance is coming out this month,'s September already? Wow.
You can be Tatianas hero and get her a Peace, Love & Juicy, actually get her two (large bottles preferably) so she can give one to Julia. She needs too!
If you like the way Tatiana smells, you should know that it is probably with the help of Viva La Juicy, by Juicy Couture, one of Tatianas favorite perfumes. It is nice to smell yummy Tatiana thinks.......
The perfume will be sold at places like Nordstrom, Nieman Marcus, Saks.

Tatianas address

Tatiana J.
PO BOX 100671
Anchorage AK 99510

Thanks! XOXO

Camping Time!

Tatiana is going camping today for a few days. So she is packing the tent, sleeping bag, bear spray, radio and all kinds of other essential things one needs when going camping. Like a mirror and a tweezer........Tatiana loves camping, it's FUN.
The weather has been really nice lately, Tatiana is hoping that the sun will shine through the weekend.
What else is new? Not much, eating good, reading many great books, taking Chhaya out on long walks, enjoying life. Oh, and looking damn good while doing it!