Welcome to Chaos !!

Tatiana just got home from work, she is watching VH1, music videos are on, Tatiana loves music videos - she would watch them for hours at an end in Sweden.
This song by MUSE called "Uprising" caught her ear tonight, good song and really good, important lyrics. Sign of the times. Does Tatiana think of The Government, Big Brother, controlling us, the people? Yes, she does. It's scary. Revolution might be necessary one day. Tatiana believes in peace and that good and love will prevail but sometimes she wonders if that really is possible.
Here's the song and the lyrics. What do YOU think?

Besides this........Tatiana think she has the flu. Yeay! NOT. It came on quickly at work tonight, typical flu symptoms. Tatiana was so ecstatic over this she had a 5 minute good cry at work. Not on stage, in the dressing room. She was already sad over a bunch of stuff and now she has to be sick too and she does not want to miss out on work. Hence the crying.

Here are the lyrics to "Uprising" by MUSE.

The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They'll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

 

Tatiana has not contributed much to her blog lately. She always have much to say, many things on her mind, bursting with opinions but sometimes the mood is not there to write things down.
Lately Tatiana has been feeling somewhat down, thinking about her life, the mistakes she made, the consequences, why she is where she is, where she is going, how to deal with life when it is not going right, just difficult thoughts that are not always the easiest to deal with and process.
So Tatianas inspiration to writing blogs has not really been there.
It's just a little too much right now. Tatiana might pack up and go to Las Vegas for a while. Something she rather not deal with, the packing, the traveling, it is just annoying. But she needs to figure out what to do with her place in Las Vegas, the place that unfortunately is more of a headache than something positive. And then she will need to return to Alaska, because working in the clubs in Vegas seems like a no good solution.
Her town home in Vegas was supposed to be a positive addition to her life but with the housing situation looking very bleak still, this purchase is one of the worst things Tatiana ever did for herself. She was hoping for liberation within reach when she got it, instead it is a prison with no end in sight.
Christmas, birthday and New Years around the corner, these events usually bring out many thoughts and emotions in Tatiana and people in general she suspects.
This year there are too many overwhelming events and feelings taking place, Tatiana doesn't know where to start. She wants to remember all her friends and people that have showed her kindness and animals in need and people in need. But this time she just doesn't know if she can do it.
But tomorrow is a new day, the only way to go is forward - even when it is hard. Life is not waiting. Tatiana must deal with her stuff, no one else will, we all have much to deal with. Hopefully next blog will be a little more cheerful.
Hope you are all doing well. Many hugs, T.