Welcome to Chaos !!

Tatiana is enjoying some coffee and the good company of a book this sunny morning. She feels lazy and happy. Later she is taking Chhaya for a walk and maybe a run.
Reading is one of Tatianas favorite things to do. As soon as she learned how to read, a book, has never been far away from her.
Lately, many people have told her that she should write her own story. This might very well come true one day, after all, writing stories was one of her strongest subjects in school.

Foot obsession much, you might be wondering? Tatiana just really likes her new pink color on her toes. And she has pretty feet. There's nothing wrong with loving yourself. Tatiana is not a bit embarrassed to admit she is herself her biggest fan, though she has many fans. If you can't love yourself, then you can't love other people, at least that's what the general opinion seems to be. And Tatiana loves herself and many other people and animals. The more love there is, the better.
XOXO



"To love yourself means to accept yourself as you are and to come to terms with those aspects of yourself that you cannot change. It means to have high self-esteem, self-respect and a positive self-image.

Needless to say, it does not mean being arrogant, conceited or thinking that you are better than anyone else. It means having a healthy regard for yourself knowing that you are a worthy human being.

It is important to remind ourselves that no one is perfect. We all have strengths and weaknesses and we certainly possess the resources to work on improving ourselves.

Each of us is unique and has specific talents and abilities to offer. We are all here, in the words of Walt Whitman, "to contribute a verse".

In order to appreciate yourself it is up to you to discover what makes you unique and to further develop those talents. We have a responsibility to ourselves to do so.

You cannot sit around and wait for approval from others. Work on accepting yourself. You are the only "you" that you have. It is in your best interests to be the best you can be.

Until you love yourself, you will not be able to love anyone else. You can only love another to the degree that you do yourself."

Copied from http://www.essentiallifeskills.net

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What a CUTIE! He is wondeful, talented, interesting........exactly what Tatiana likes! Tatiana loves him. All the best to Prince Poppycock!

It was, still is, the most beautiful day out today. It has been really nice out for a while now. Tatiana hopes that this will last.
Today was just perfect, sunny, blue skies, a nice breeze. Tatiana took Chhaya to the beach for the second day in a row. Life is great. No regrets.
Hopefully you are doing great too!!!

Yes, tonight Tatiana emptied her locker at The Bush. This does not mean that she won't be back, most likely she will but at this point, not on a full time basis. So she thought it would be more fair if a girl that's there full time has access to the locker. Tatianas locker is the best locker too, with a large green peace sign painted in it.
It was kind of sad to do that, Tatiana has been at The Bush for a couple of years now, wow time does go fast.......and with time you grow close and fond of people, at least Tatiana does.
Well, apparently ALL of Tatianas friends at The Bush think that she is rude, she found out tonight by an angry co worker. Supposedly, Tatiana has always been rude and is just rude and everybody thinks so, according to the angry co worker. Tatiana thought it was kind of amusing actually until the angry girl, well not girl really.....ummmmm......person, got really upset and started yelling in Tatianas face. Some people are just VULGAR and class is something you either have or don't. This person don't. And she will never achieve it either.
Tatiana doesn't really care too much if people think that she is rude, they obviously don't know her. It's not that she is rude, she is just NOT fake and that is, for a lot of (American) girls, a difficult thing to deal with.
Tatiana won't smile in your face and then talk shit about you when you walk out of the room. If anything, it is rude to do that.
She gives compliments freely, but they are heartfelt, not because she hopes she can get something from doing so.
She would never be dishonest in the way she makes money at work. She would never lead people on in hopes to make more money.
Tatiana would rather give a coworker a ride home, so they don't have to take a cab, even if she doesn't know them that well, or at all.
There are many other things that Tatiana did at work that most likely went unnoticed, like clean the dressing room or bring in reading material so the other girls could entertain themselves with some reading when time was going slow. It's nothing that she needs special attention for. That's just something you do, as a fellow human being.
But those are traits that this person that called Tatiana rude has never displayed to Tatianas knowledge.
So, what caused this? Well, Tatiana has not seen this person for a while because she was off to take care of her newborn baby. Tatiana walks in to the dressing room and the person is standing there in a tight dress and a very pregnant looking belly. The first thing that came out of Tatianas mouth was "OH" and she looked at the belly. Then they chit chatted a little about the pregnancy. The person is pregnant again. Obviously.
Then the person leaves, later on she comes back and Tatiana is chatting with another girl in the dressing room, the other girl asks if the pregnant person would like a piece of chocolate (Tatiana brought in chocolates for the other girls, that's just something RUDE people do). The person says that she shouldn't have any because Tatiana thinks that she is fat/big/pregnant looking......something in the line of that. By now, Tatiana was surprised. Yes, the person does look pregnant. "Sorry", you do. Tatiana didn't say you were ugly or anything like that. But in that persons mind Tatiana obviously really insulted her. It could had all ended here, but later on this person came back to unload some more of her anger. Problems perhaps? To the point that Tatiana was over even trying to explain where she was coming from because this person went too far with her anger.
At this point Tatiana could be REALLY rude and say some not so nice things, but she is choosing not to. The girl is visibly pregnant and stripping, bless her heart, that in itself is probably stressful enough. Tatiana wishes her a joyful and good pregnancy and she hopes that she is happy.
Tatiana is happy that she is not pregnant and stripping, she would hope that her husband/significant other would be a good provider for her and her children (if she had a husband or children) so se wouldn't have to strip.
Never say never, that might be the situation one day, stranger things have happened.
Right now, Tatiana does not have children, besides Chhaya and no husband, by her own choice.

Anyhow. Tatiana wishes all the best for all the girls at The Bush. And the dj's and all the other people working there.
This is probably not the end, she will most likely see them again.

Kiss my ass. I am SOOOOO rude. LOL.

Took Chhaya for a walk this evening. It was a beautiful day today. Much needed since it supposedly has been the rainiest July or even Summer on record (not sure which one), it rained for over 30 days straight. With some glimpses of sun and blue sky.
Here are some pics from the walk......

Tatiana has a date tonight! On the couch with a fat slice of carrot cake and a large mug of tea with lemon and sugar. Chhaya is here too. Nothing like a quiet evening at home with some yummies.
It's been a while since Tatiana shared some of her opinions. It is time she thinks.
Tatiana decided that flying to places in small planes in Alaska is unsafe, many crashes this Summer and today there was another one. Not safe. Avoid it.
The killings of the volunteer workers in Afghanistan is really really sad. It is a sad world when people that are doing good for others get treated like this. This made Tatiana very sad. : (
Levi Johnston talking about running for mayor of Wasilla? Granted, Wasilla is like a small village and Sara Palin might not have much more sense than Levi, but still, this boy is wet behind his ears. If anyone is qualified for a position like this - it's Tatiana - but she has so many other things going on right now. Like eating carrot cake.
Steven Slater, the flight attendant that got tired of a rude customer and went ahead and told the crowd in the airplane what he really was thinking, grabbed a beer and gracefully exited the plane on a slide. Tatiana thinks he did the right thing. Absolutely! That whole spiel that "the customer is always right" that is SO outdated. No, the customer is not always right. What's right is right. If a person is a rude asshole somebody needs to do the world a favor and let them know that they are indeed an asshole. Like if somebody comes in to Tatianas work and acts like a total idiot. YES, that actually happens. Surprise, huh?! Do you think that Tatiana is going to have some imbecil treat her badly because she is a stripper and that some dummy thinks that he or she can just because they are in there and are sipping on a beer? Please, if anything, they should be kissing Tatianas fine ass, happy that she is even breathing in their direction. Yea, that's right, that's how it is. Tatiana is ALWAYS right. Even the few times she might be wrong.
Have you seen Angelina Jolies gorgeous pictures in Vanity Fair and the cover pic? That is one good looking woman, even if the pictures might be air brushed (maybe?), she is smoking hot. Now there are some other pics circulating around of Angelina with a dog collar on and some tape over her nipples, very nice. She is the sexiest woman alive. Tatiana likes her because she has no obvious surgeries (she is herself and that is sexy), she has done some interesting things and she is totally fierce.

But now back to the carrot cake and the couch. More another time.

Tatiana woke up about four hours ago, around 2 pm. A fine time to wake up.
It turned out to be a gloomy and chilly day. Fantastic! One of those days when you just burst with energy. Not.
So......today Tatiana was supposed to be back at The Bush, leave of absence time is supposedly over. Well, after some consideration Tatiana made the decision to strech out her leave of absence. She is, at this point not sure when she will be back at The Bush. Never say never, most likely she will be back but right now being there full time again is not going to happen.
Tatiana misses her girlfriends there, she is hoping that they are all making money. She misses her dj friends. And she misses asking Landis to play "Flaunt It' by TV Rock and some David Guetta, LOUD please. But for now, things are like this.
Where is Tatiana? Still out on a very secret mission...............

Gorgeous sunrise with beautiful views of the surrounding mountains. Maybe today is going to be a sunny day? There has been a lot of rain lately, not a very warm and sunny Summer so far. Tatiana is up bright and early, but she will probably go to sleep pretty soon and sleep until sometimes this afternoon.
Last night was raining away. Movies are fun on a rainy Sunday. Tatiana saw "The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo" - yes it's a movie too. Tatiana loves Lisbeth Salander, that character is really cool. If you watched the movie you might remember that she swings at a car with a golfclub. Another Swedish lady did this back in November. Elin. Yes, that is just one of the many useful things they teach us girls in Sweden. Elin, by the way decided to divorce Tiger. Tatiana agrees with that move. "Stand by your man" might work in some cases but not in a case like this.
Tatiana is gearing up for a facial and a pedicure next week.