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There is a sex doll brothel in Germany, owned and operated by a woman.
The most popular girl/doll, the star of the team is Anna, a petite blonde. In fact the first Anna was so popular that she broke and they now have Anna 2. I think this is a great idea. No real women get hurt, used and abused. Perhaps I should invest my money into a sex doll brothel? And be the stern Madam.
The debate about prostitution is ongoing. They are now talking about legalizing prostitution in California, as most people know it is legal in Nevada and that's one of the 50 US states. Although it happens everywhere, legal or not.
Quote from a Judge named Carlos Bea that I assume is in California, "Why should it be illegal to sell something that it’s legal to give away?”
Sure, that can be debated. Plenty of women have sex with their significant other just to keep the household calm and have a roof over their head, is that prostitution too?
I have read quite a bit about prostitution and people's opinions about it.
Read interviews with women that have been in the business, because they if anyone know. I find the story about Louise and Martine Fokkens fascinating. Twins that worked in the Amsterdam brothels for five decades until they were 70 years old.
I still stick to my personal belief that the age for any work in the adult industry should be upped to 23, yes even stripping. Anything under 23 is too young I think. Studies say that the human brain is still developing until 25....I feel that some people are too immature and do not understand what they are getting themselves into while still in their teens. A 19 year old might regret some choices later on. When you are 23 you know yourself better (hopefully) and can make more informed and thoughtout decisions and have enough backbone to be able to say NO when uncomfortable. We make mistakes throughout our lives, even as adults but when it comes to participating in porn or prostitution I feel that there is a greater chance of damaging yourself and deeply regretting certain actions.
Upping the age might eliminate some of that.
Here is the article about the sex doll brothel in Germany.

Of course human trafficking and pimping is NEVER OK.
And speaking of brothels…..actually, I don’t think the term brothel is appropriate for these kinds of activities. Illegal torture is more fitting. There are animal brothels in Europe and other places. But come on, Western Europe? This really makes me angry. It’s sad. It’s horrible. It should be illegal and punishable.
Some people think that zoophilia is a lifestyle choice…..really? I feel those people should get mandatory castration. I would love to castrate them myself.

I feel that animal abuse and yes, sex with defenseless animals IS animal abuse, should be classified and punishable as a top tier felony. Supposedly it is in the US according to the FBI but when it comes down to it I don’t think animal abuse is getting taken as seriously as it should.

Pensive & Falco

I have been thinking a LOT the last couple of days.....more pensive than usual. Thinking about this journey called life. Last night I had chills and very bad stomach cramps so I went to bed early and tried to warm up and feel better. And today I am feeling back to normal.
Chhaya is not feeling well either. She started limping yesterday, I am not sure why. Hopefully it is something temporary and she will be back to her normal self soon.
Me in bed feeling cold and achy. And a bit melancholic.

I have spent the last few days obsessing over Falco. The singer from Austria that had some hits in the 80s. He passed away in 1998 due to injuries from a car accident. Only 40 years old. HOW SAD! I remember his songs and I loved many of them.
I LOVE 80s music in general.....perhaps I need to do something useful with my love for it. So I have been watching Falco music videos and documentaries about him.
I watched an hour long documentary in German with no subtitles last night and my German is definitely rusty. I studied that language for three years and I thought I remembered more than I obviously do. Anyhow. Falco was a very talented musician. And a very good looking man. It has been so interesting to find out more about him. I can get lost for hours and hours every night watching music videos and immersing myself into the lyrics and finding out more about the person/s behind the music.
I remember really liking his Jeanny songs (part 1 and 2) and Der Kommissar......his songs are still good. Isn't this journey we call life so strange? One day you can have so much only to have it all taken away from you the next. That song Jeanny has been stuck in my head for three days now, it's not going away, it is on repeat. But I love it. It's a sad song but very beautiful.
I am going to continue watching Falco stuff now and drink tea.
Falco - Du bist nicht vergessen. ♥ ♥ ♥

Jeanny, quit livin' on dreams
Jeanny, life is not what it seems
Such a lonely little girl in a cold, cold world
There's someone who needs you
Jeanny, quit livin' on dreams
Jeanny, life is not what it seems
You're lost in the night
Don't wanna struggle and fight
There's someone who needs you

Night Owl

It's past the midnight hour in my neck of the woods.....I am a night owl, always been.
I am drinking tea, reading and doing laundry right now. And thinking....
So....all these shootings. What if.....what if it is the Rapture? All those people going straight to God? Could it be? I don't know. I heard debating on Coast to Coast AM about Mind Control in connection to the mass shootings. We can discuss back and forth and look for motives. The weapons in the US are here to stay, very few people will give up their guns/rifles/artillery/ammunition and whatever else they have. Plus "A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed." I personally like the idea of the people having the right to protect themselves from a tyrannical government. If in reality it is even possible can be debated but at least you stand a chance. For a minute. If something that was adopted in 1791 has the same meaning now that it had then while looking at the bigger picture with all the developments since then and today's society can be discussed.
I feel that some of these shooters are fame chasers and I don't think so much importance should be put on them. It's turning into a spectacle, people wanting to have the largest mass shooting under their belt. The public and media looking into the perpetrators life and detailing everything.
In general people are desensitized, this is what happens when we get more and more separated from each other through our devices. Lives don't matter that much anymore it seems. Likes matter instead.
I know one thing. I wish more emphasis would be put on the connection between animal abuse and unhinged human beings. There needs to be harsher penalties for animal abuse.

“He who is cruel to animals becomes hard also in his dealings with men. We can judge the heart of a man by his treatment of animals.” ― Immanuel Kant

Perhaps I should say something about the #MeToo movement. I think it's great in general. People should be made aware and it should be brought up. What does bother me is that somebody would wait until they got what they wanted.....fame, movie roles, money etc before speaking up (I am talking about the whole Hollywood mess here). I have a bit of a difficult time with that...There is something called integrity. I like the way Caitania Tan handled it.
Plus I think it's hypocritical to yell about the way Donald Trump supposedly socialized with women and his (according to some) opinions about women but be quiet (until now) about powerful figures in the movie business because you need something. Somewhat of a similar situation last year with Hollywood types being all shocked over Trump's old "grab them by the pussy" line but Bill Clinton's womanizing was barely mentioned. Why?
Reality IS that the large majority of rapes are committed by men. Yes....yes....supposedly there are guys that get raped by women and there are also domestic violence situations where women beat men. But the vast MAJORITY are committed by men. FACT. If the numbers for men raping, beating and murdering women were as low as women raping, beating and murdering men we would have low numbers in those crime categories.
One more thing that is interesting to me. Around this time last year Sherri Papini, the married with two kids lady disappeard for weeks. I remember that. Now there are some reports out that the details are not adding up. Of course I hope that she is telling the truth and that whomever did this to her gets put away so they can't hurt anybody else. BUT IF Sherri is making this up (lying about rape, abduction and abuse is NEVER OK) then my imagination/theory is that she was tired of her hubby and everything that married life with kids meant to her. She wanted some 50 Shades of Grey action in her own life. Then she needed a story to why she disappeared so she could come back to her family. Have you ever watched Dateline? There are some weird people out there doing strange things. Things are not always they way they look on the surface. 50 Shades of Grey is extremely popular with some women, I don't get it personally but I think the women who have been morally good girls on the outside are drawn to stuff like that. If you been living a sheltered and suppressed life meeting a Mr. Grey might seem exciting. Not for me. Yuck. I would do the beating if anything.
I actually know of a few examples of "good little housewives" that did some stuff I would never do (hello Kenai Peninsula AK).....LOL. But then those are the same kind of people that have no problems talking trash and pointing fingers at others (to divert attention from themselves). I got some stories to tell.....just wait.

Layer Of Snow

I woke up to a layer of snow outside. Time to dig out warmer clothes and shoes.....The snow melted already but winter is just around the corner. It was Daylight Savings Time today.....I think that practice should retire already. Times have changed since that made sense.
I didn't do much....actually a regular Sunday for me. Met a friend for coffee, took Chhaya for a walk, had plans to go to the gym but both me and Desi decided not to go, did errands, got home and ate (so full now), now I am about to make dinner for Chhaya (steak and boiled carrots) then take her out for another walk. I feel tired.
Like I could go bed and fall asleep. And it's not even 6 pm.
Heard about the shooting at the church in Texas. I don't know what to say anymore, this is becoming an weekly epidemic. They were searching for a motive in last month's Vegas massacre. Look, there doesn't need to be a clear motive all the time, not everybody kills innocent random people in the name of Allah. Some people are just mentally unstable and should not have access to weapons. I can think of somebody that I used to know that owns plenty of weapons and ammunition (kind of like the Vegas shooter, ballpark that amount) who showed sings of grandiose self importance and borderline insanity, especially when alcohol was involved. I am glad I am not around that person anymore. Not my circus, not my monkey (anymore).
So you never know. There are a lot of crazies in this country. Crazies should not be around weapons.

Mushroom Girls

When you find cute mushrooms you take pictures with them. Me & Desi came across a bunch of these Fly Agaric (?) mushrooms at The Grotto in Portland.


Please note that no mushrooms were hurt. The mushroom used in the pics was already uprooted. Not by us. Respect nature.

Tea Buzz

Today me and some friends went to a place called Tea Buzz Global Tea bar, I have been here before....I wrote about it last month. Here we are all five of us, not in the picture is Joanna the tea master expert herself. Thank You Joanna for today's amazing experience!

We did a Tea Tasting Flight....that means you get to taste several teas. Since I like black tea I did a black tea Flight. My teas were a Darjeeling, a Malty Assam and a Wild Black.

But we also had other everybody's palate could be satisfied.

The lea leaves in this tea have been inside a lotus flower!

I wore my White Rabbit (Alice in Wonderland) necklace for today's tea ceremony.

This is the Darjeeling, this tea comes from India. Note the beautiful cup.

This tea came with little snifters that we inhaled the tea aroma from before tasting the tea.

The Malty Assam.

The Wild Black.....this tea comes from the Old Growth Tea Forest in Vietnam. Note the cup again.

If you would like a cup of delicious tea or perhaps sit for longer and enjoy a Tea Tasting can find some more information here. And you can also stop in and purchase tea to take home with you. or

Part of the outside, also pretty.

What a LOVELY afternoon I had!
Now I am thinking I will read a bit about the history of tea to brush up and add to my knowledge on this fascinating topic.
But before I go.....some quotes about tea!

Eisai, How to Stay Healthy by Drinking Tea - "Tea is the ultimate mental and medical remedy and has the ability to make one's life more full and complete."

Kazukō Okakura, The Book of Tea - "Tea ... is a religion of the art of life.”

Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Notes from Underground - "I say let the world go to hell, but I should always have my tea.”

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween everybody out there! I ❤️ Halloween - SO much fun!
Back in the day I used to go to the amazing Monster Massive (a Halloween rave/party) at the Sports Arena in LA but those days are more raves at the Sports Arena.
Anyhow, this year I went to four haunted houses in Portland together with Desi.
It was GREAT!
The first one we went to was called 13th Door. It was GOOD!

Then we went to House of Shadows. My first full contact haunted house experience. And full contact it was! They make sure you fully understand that upon entering and you agree to it all by showing thumbs up on camera. So you can't sue if you defecate yourself from fright or brake any limbs. I think we were quite the popular victims for the people working there that night.
So I got my hair pulled, my eyes covered, head yanked back, pushed & showed, yelled at, thrown onto a table while a large dude in a butchers apron pretended to cut us up (Desi was laying next to me on the table screaming), I was thrown down a slide (a hard throw.....basically like fuck you bitch) and picked up by two guys and put into a coffin and transported into a different room and we had to crawl through a narrow tube in total darkness. It was so much fun! I screamed and laughed so much I was snorting. We survived. I only got one large bruise on the back of my thigh from the ordeal, I thought I would have more. You can choose to quit if you can't handle it. NO quitting for us.

Fear Asylum at the Eldridge Estate. This one wasn't that scary (to me but I like SCARY) but the actors did a really good job and all the proceeds go to the Elks Lodge and they put it all towards helping sick children and families in need.
How nice!

Finally The Fear PDX, six haunted houses in one location. A very long line to get in the night we went and the experience was OK.

Sitting in a hearse looking cute!

I've had so much fun at these haunted houses, great memories!
Tonight is Coast to Coast AM but on Halloween it is called Ghost to Ghost AM. Time to turn on the radio and have some ice cream. Goodnight!

Party & Portland Again

OK.....I am in bed with a cough. Let me tell you how I got the cough. And I haven't been sick in a LONG time but now I finally got sick. The other night me, Desi and Skyler went to supposedly the party of the year in Bend. A Halloween party located at a brewery warehouse and I usually associate warehouse events with very entertaining rave style I was like cool! You know something like Prodigy's No Good (Start the Dance) video. I was going to be a skeleton last year but ended up going to bed early on Halloween so I was a skeleton this year instead. I had a whole outfit picked out and waiting for me, I slapped on some white and black make up, my first time doing this kind of face painting and since I have an impatient streak I did not spend much time on painting my face.
I looked like this. Living dead girl.

It sure looked like "party of the year" from the outside, long lines of people waiting to get in. And waited we did. With everybody else. In the freezing cold.
For a very long time. Like sheep. BAAAAAAAAA! It was freakin' cold as fuck and the line we were in was not moving, I think we froze for close to two hours. Hence my persistent cough. Many (smart) people got pissed and left but we waited and waited. It hurt to move after a while. Finally they started letting small groups of ten people at a time in. More difficult than getting into Studio 54 back in the day I bet. Now I have been to parties that DESERVE to be called party of the year and even at those parties they were letting people in at a faster pace. It can take many hours of waiting in line to get into Burning Man but at least the line is MOVING, this line did not move for long stretches of time. So when we finally got in I was annoyed. Once inside we discovered that it wasn't crowded so why they were playing games with people that were suffering outside in the cold I don't know, that made me even more annoyed. Then the music SUCKED in both areas, people were pushing and running into others (read me), in general the party was too vanilla for my taste. The kind of party you need to get drunk or do drugs to have "fun". I rarely leave a party early but a bit before 1 I excused myself and drove home. So happy to leave. Then I laid in bed trying to warm up, still cold to the bone, then I couldn't fall asleep for hours, and then I felt feverish and woke up sweaty and with a cough. Yeay!
Here we are, posing like happy little sheep.

The next day (yesterday) me and Desi headed to Portland again. We decided we needed some more haunted house adventures. I love haunted houses and so does Desi. I will write about that tomorrow because Halloween is tomorrow.
But first we needed food. So another friend of mine that lives in Portland, Autumn took me to a place called the Bipartisan Cafe two years ago when I spent a few days there. Well, that is where me and Desi ate too, three times total so far.
We told the girls working at the cafe that we will be back. The pies are AMAZING. Seriously. I am fantasizing about those pies. So we found out that the pies get baked early in the morning by two people that come in and bake. You have to ask about the pies! Two of those went into my stomach.

The latte is good too. I love the Bipartisan Cafe!

Desi bought a whole pie, a three berry pie. Now I wish I had a whole pie in the fridge as well....I really like the raspberry rhubarb.

After that we went to Hong Phat so Desi could get lumpia wrappers, dragonfruit, candy and whatever else she stocked up on. On the other side of the road we saw some sort of Chinese herbal center, I felt curious and I suggested thar we go inside. And so we did.
We opened the door and entered a room full of jars containing powders and roots and I am not sure what else, an aquarium with Koi fish and a large statue of some sort of a goddess. A man appeared from the back and said it was an appointment only place and that he was the doctor. We were going to leave but then he started talking to us and next thing you know, the Chinese medicine doctor is examining our tongues and taking our pulse. According to him I have a lot of fire in my belly. Something about that my spleen is weak too. And I have poor circulation. Yes, my hands and feet are cold a lot actually.
After about 30 minutes with the doctor we left. Interesting! I might actually go for an hour check up next time I am in Portland.
It was then time for some haunted houses, we went to two this trip. And two last week Tuesday. So four total.
Also last week I wanted some pictures of the Portland skyline at evening time, I think it is so beautiful. So close to midnight we drove up to Rocky Butte Park.
The view is great up there but not for picture taking unless you have an amazing camera.

And here is a pic of a part of the city taken while driving. I really like Portland.

After the haunted houses we decided to check out Dante's to see an event called Inferno Cabaret that they have on Sundays. My first time there and I LOVED it, the performers were all very talented, the go go dancers had skills and spunk and the DJ played really good music and he could mix. Plus he played Miss Kittin Frank Sinatra , any DJ that plays that is good in my book. One of my fave songs, it used to be my voicemail back in the day. I recommend that you check out Sinful Inferno at Dante's if you are ever in Portland on a Sunday evening......
A blurry pic of Dante's from the outside.

Then we were hungry, so we went to Tik Tok for some late night food. I had hot tea to try to warm up and potato skins and here I am showing off one of my many skills.
I don't need drugs. As you can see.

Then it was kind of late, past 1 am and we needed to hit the road and drive home. So.....driving along the 26 East while pitch black outside I suddenly spot something in the middle of the road. Two loose dogs running towards the car. OMG.
We stop, turn around, pull over, hazards on. I tie up Chhaya that is going bonkers barking in the front seat. We call the dogs and the large yellow/white lab immediately runs over to Desi. The other smaller black and brown dog still stands in the middle of the road. A truck comes towards us and I thought that was going to be the end for the dog so I start screaming NO NO NO. The dog avoids getting hit but runs off, I go looking for it but it was gone. The lab had a collar on with a phone number and an address but since it was around 3 am nobody answered, so I put the dog in the back of the car and he was so tired. About a four mile drive to the address.
When we get there the place was dark, we didn't want to wake anybody at that time or potentially get shot so we told the dog to go home and he walked down the path to his house, or at least what we hoped was his house. He looked back at us a few times. Then we drove back to look for the other dog. Couldn't find it. I felt bad.
Today Desi spoke to the owner, yes those are his dogs. The missing dog still gone.
I really hope it will get located, poor baby. I will pray to St. Francis of Assisi tonight that the dog will get back home safely. That was not a good situation for the two dogs.
At least one is safe but I do feel very bad for the other one.
I got home close to 7 am this morning......slept a few hours and been up since.
I think it is time to catch up on some much needed sleep soon.

The National Sanctuary of Our Sorrowful Mother

When I was in Portland the other day with Desi we went to a place called The National Sanctuary of Our Sorrowful Mother also known as The Grotto. We are actually both Catholic, although I consider myself more spiritual since a while. I don't want to identify myself with any one religion and I am still trying to understand/figure out a lot about the meaning of life and the reason for being here, what happens after death, why is there suffering and evil and all those questions that most of us ponder from time to time.
The Grotto is a beautiful place, many trees and plants, it is very lush. I got the chills and felt a bit emotional a few times, even cried a little. Especially when reading about apparitions and when I think about death and people who have passed on. Where are they? I can NOT accept that death is the end.

May Peace Prevail On Earth.

Saint Francis of Assisi is my favorite because he is the patron Saint of animals and nature. I can relate to that.

Our Lady of Częstochowa (The Black Madonna), which is in Poland. The Grotto has a replica.

I recommend a visit here! Dogs are allowed to be walked on the lower level of The Grotto.
Sadly some people think it is OK to spit out their gum, leave behind their cigarette butts, plus other trash they are too lazy to put away properly and we even found a condom. I picked that up plus whatever else I just mentioned. So extremely disrespectful. People that trash have no respect for THEMSELVES, this reflects on how they view themselves. Trashy.

Depeche Mode Global Spirit Tour Portland

So.....this past Monday I saw Depeche Mode in Portland with Desi. I decided months ago that I WOULD see them this tour, Global Spirit Tour no matter what. Last time I saw them was in Vegas in 2006 when they did Touring the Angel but I have loved this band a long time. ❤️
I was SO excited to finally see DM again. They are so good live, Dave Gahan has the most amazing voice and he is just great.
Do I even have to say it? They put on a great show. I loved it.

Where's the Revolution? Also during Enjoy The Silence they showed different animals on the screen....I liked that.

This man is WOW so many ways.❤️

Sometimes words are not enough....I am so VERY grateful that I was able to see Depeche Mode. ❤️
I feel sad and empty when certain large events in my life are over when they are that's it? Is it really over? NOOOOOOO! But it is over, I have the memories left and of course the music. It was Depeche Mode playing in the car afterwards of course....Hopefully that was not my last Depeche Mode concert.